(Okay, un, deux, trois, cinq)

On s'était dit c'était juste pour un temps
Mais l'un des deux y croyait vraiment
Comment j'suis sencé faire maintenant?
J'veux plus vivre comme j'étais avant

(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh oh, ta ta ha)

On s'était dit c'était juste pour un temps
Mais l'un des deux y croyait vraiment
Toi au fond tu 'voulais qu'un soir
Et moi j'voulais une plus longue histoire

Comment j'suis sencé faire maintenant?
J'veux plus vivre comme j'étais avant
Toi au fond tu 'voulais pas d'histoires
Et moi maintenant j'suis seul dans le noir sans toi

Assez parlé de moi
J'espère que tu vas bien et que tu 'penses plus à moi
J't'avouerai que pour moi (bah) c'est pas trop le cas
Mais t'inquiètes, j't'enverrai rien, j't'embêterai pas

Là j'drop un son en français
Mais j'ai pas d'inspi', faut pas l'écouter
Les gens comprendront rien à leur daronne
D'habitude j'chante en "anglo-saxophone"

Mais la musique c'est comme l'espoir
On se renouvelle, on écrit d'autres histoires
C'est une question de point de vue, sur toutes les pages
Il y a plus de blanc même si on ne regarde que le noir

(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh oh, ta ta ha)

On s'était dit c'était juste pour un temps
Mais l'un des deux y croyait vraiment
Toi au fond tu 'voulais qu'un soir
Et moi j'voulais une plus longue histoire

Comment j'suis sencé faire maintenant?
J'veux plus vivre comme j'étais avant
Toi au fond tu 'voulais pas d'histoires
Et moi maintenant j'suis seul dans le noir sans toi

Pour un temps (siem spark)

Lecture achevée, froid glacial
Mes veines se gêlent et ma peau se glace
La connexion entre mes nerfs s'efface
Le cœur prit d'une neige qui se tasse

L'enfer je l'ai enfin compris
Prison de chaleur qui m'attire
Car c'est quand elle est partie
Que j'ai voulu combler le vide

Ça doit être à cause de moi
Rien que d'y penser j'en tremble tous les soirs
Étais-je vraiment moi avec toi
Au fond suis-je vraiment fait pour ça

Rien que d'y penser j'en tremble tous les soirs
Je remets toujours la faute sur moi
Je te cachais mes peurs je ne t'en parlais pas
Vraiment je n'étais pas bien avec toi

L'enfer je l'ai enfin compris
Prison de chaleur qui m'attire
Car c'est quand elle est partie
Que j'ai voulu combler le vide

Zombie (autrioly)

Ayy baby lemme know if you got plans for tonight
You hit me up, saw you didn't wanna fight
Girl I swear that you're just my type
Plus you were on my phone yeah sayin' like

Ooo wanna erp let's go private
I'm all yours you'll be mine by the second
Baby just lemme stay 'til the morning
I swear you gon' be alright bae

Erp 'til the morning
Moving dinamic bones as I'm dancin'
My car isn't the thing you'll be ridin'
Lab dancin' you'll like the movements

Ooo better watch yo' back
Kiss in your neck as I'm grippin' your thighs
You know I'm a player in disguise
Slow talk in your ear, your thoughts will demise

Ooo wanna erp let's go private
I'm all yours you'll be mine by the second
I'll let you think you'll get it on
Then tease you like I teased that song

Ayy baby lemme know if you got plans for tonight
You hit me up, saw you didn't wanna fight
Girl I swear that you're just my type
Plus you were on my phone yeah sayin' like

Ooo wanna erp let's go private
I'm all yours you'll be mine by the second
Baby just lemme stay 'til the morning
I swear you gon' be alright bae

ERP (ross gossage x aldaz x elebeatz)

Every time she's on my phone again
Every time she says her feelings are gone but then
She tells me they never actually went away, she said

I'm so easily in love
I just fell in, like it's nothing
I fall so easily in love
But you do too and I want you

You're so easy to love
Look I just did like it's nothing
With you, I'm so easily in love
But you are too and I want you

She said she wants me back now
But last time it didn't work out
Girl you miss everything I have
'Cause I'm the only one to be your type

She likes the way I talk or how
I be nice to her when she's around
And I know what she wants but I turn around
I don't know if she'll get it that's the bad part

Every time she falls in love again
She told me her feelings were now for someone else
But I just have to be around for them to come back anyway, she said

I'm so easily in love
I just fell in, like it's nothing
I fall so easily in love
But you do too and I want you

You're so easy to love
Look I just did like it's nothing
With you, I'm so easily in love
But you are too and I want you

the thing she said to basically tell me she wanted me back (rxger)

Ooh, you just wanna sit around and talk to me 'til morning
That's alright, come over if you plan on doing something
Girl you know there's just gon' be you and I
Ooh, hope tonight will turn into a pillow fight

Stole his girl, 'cause she knew that I'd be better than him
Now he' mad, he be tryna' speak, I don't hear nothing
Girl you know there's just gon' be you and I
Ooh, hope tonight will turn into a pillow fight

I walk in, don't know them but they all say they know me
Even your school friends, they all say they heard about me
People jealous, they all wanna take everything from me
But now I'm up, I won't let them do anything that easy

Ooh, they be jealous now 'cause they can't pillow fight
They won't do what they say so I just let them bark
They sendin' hate on my phone, well I can't hear, I closed my eyes
They got lines but I got chocolate bars, yeah, more than sixty-nine

Oh she textin' me now cause she saw me at the mall
And now she's stuck in the city, lookin' for somewhere to go
Don't be in fear, tell me next time
If you want me here with you tonight

Ooh, you just wanna sit around and talk to me 'til morning
That's alright, come over if you plan on doing something
Girl you know there's just gon' be you and I
Ooh, hope tonight will turn into a pillow fight

Stole his girl, 'cause she knew that I'd be better than him
Now he' mad, he be tryna' speak, I don't hear nothing
Girl you know there's just gon' be you and I
Ooh, hope tonight will turn into a pillow fight

Pillow Fight (ross gossage x inbloom)

It's been a while that I fake
'Cause I had no time or opportunity to say
Anything that makes me feel like I'm
Never the one I wanna be, so I fake

Every time that she's on my phone
I know she talks to me on her own
I can't help but try to predict her tone
And I'm so scared she wanna be alone

All the lies to protect her I had to say
If she feels alone, she can just come and lay
And I know shes scared of being in pain
If I leave her alone but I won't ever betray

The one I'm comfortable with at night
It's unbelievable how much I wanna try
To make her feel safe, it'll never go away
I wanna be with her but I can't hide I'm scared

What if I'm just never gonna be enough
What if she doesn't love me for the me I dont show
I love her but I think I'll never gain her trust
'Cause I don't feel she like loves me anymore

What if I'm just never gonna be enough
What if she doesn't love me for the me I dont show
I love her but I think I'll never gain her trust
'Cause I don't feel she like loves me anymore

Every time that she tries to make us work again
I wanna follow that path of being so confident
And I know shes scared of being in pain
If I leave her alone but I wont ever betray

The one I love I have to try it all
To make amends and bloom it all
Cause I won't leave any residuals
Of my past self who lost it all in one call

Every time that she's on my phone
I know she talks to me on her own
I can't help but try to predict her tone
And I'm scared she prefers to be alone

What if I'm just never gonna be enough
What if she doesn't love me for the me I dont show
I love her but I think I'll never gain her trust
'Cause I don't feel she like loves me anymore

What if I'm just never gonna be enough
What if she doesn't love me for the me I dont show
I love her but I think I'll never gain her trust
'Cause I don't feel she like loves me anymore

Shirley / enough (dercept)

Ooh, every time that I hang out with you
I take a look at the past it's true
But I'd rather lie to you
Than getting away although I have to

There's so many things that I wish I could change
I don't want people to know my name
But I'll leave without sharing the truth
Although I really would like you

To know what I felt being without you
I don't wanna be around, it's true
But I'd rather lie to you
Than getting away although I have to

These memories replaying in my head
I don't wanna' see them ever again
No, I don't talk to our common friends
They'd rather be with you, and I'm just in my head

Too much, thinking of all the time we spent
Together but it hurts to think you put and end
To us and I don't think we're gonna be friends
Or else I think I'll go insane

Ooh, every time that I hang out with you
I take a look at the past it's true
But I'd rather lie to you
Than getting away although I have to

There's so many things that I wish I could change
I don't want people to know my name
But I'll leave without sharing the truth
Although I really would like you

To know what I felt being without you
I don't wanna be around, it's true
But I'd rather lie to you
Than getting away although I have to

nostalgia (ross gossage x ayoley beats)

I've been getting so much hate
And I've been telling my close friends
I would be happy and productive
But I still fail at everything

And I know you've been good
And I know you forgot about me
But I don't want the truth
I'm just praying that you're happy

With all the fake friends and the drinks
You used to spend your whole nights faking
Your goddamn personnality
Go ahead and try and hide it

But I was there for you
And I was there to make you escape
Now you just hide the truth
Behind a mask and now everything's fake with you

I loved you
And I loved it when we hung out
But now I don't want to be with you
'Cause I remember us and that's a clout

I don't want or need
Any of the memories
They just lead to me
Crying all night, but they're still my reason to be

I've been getting so much hate
And I've been telling my close friends
I would be famous and have a thing to live for
But right now I'm just sinking

And I know you've been good
And I know you forgot about me
But I don't want to know the truth
I'm just praying that you're happy

With all the fake friends and the drinks
You used to spend your whole nights faking
Your goddamn personnality
Go ahead and try and hide it

But I was there for you
And I was there to make you escape
Now you just hide the truth
Behind a mask and now everything's fake with you

faking (siem spark x itschrismarek)

I can't stand it when you control
What I should and shouldn't know
I told you a year ago
I'd spread my feathers on my own

And I hate to always show
When I'm in pain cause I'm so cold
I think my vitamins are low
'Cause I can't stand to be drowned in your bullshit

Give it time (yeah), give it time bae
I need some more to do everything my way
'Cause you decide for me, course I'd get away
I think I'll go and take a break for one day

I can't stand to lose control
Over what I know and what I don't
I'm just another thing you own
I think I'll just stay on my own

This time, 'cause you don't get it
I'm not alright, I'm not forgetting
All these things that you said to me
I thought it was over and now you need me

I'll just focus on getting it back
Not you but the freedom I never had
I'll live for who I care about
And I will make sure they never lack

Of what I never got, ever
This time I'm counting on my feathers
And I'll be giving up on useless pleasure
And I'll be better and so much stronger

Had so many dreams, you didn't give a fuck
Got lots to prove, I wont ever give up
I'll still give up on you cause I'm never enough
Givin' me orders, damn shut the fuck up

I can't stand it when you control
What I should and shouldn't know
I told you a year ago
I'd spread my feathers on my own

And I hate to always show
When I'm in pain cause I'm so cold
I think my vitamins are low
'Cause I can't stand to be drowned in your bullshit

Argos (drma x yunny goldz)

The past erases what I can't ignore
The thought of us and what we explored
Our late talks that I adored
Are now the source of a feeling I swore

Was so stupid that I can't understand it
It had me lost as an ex and even worse as a friend
It had me fucked up again, I had to stand 'til the end
But, no, I won't make amends 'cause I'm not fallin' again

I swear I meant it when I said I was stupid
Thinkin' that us couldn't end, it made me feel like a mess
It had me fucked up again, I had to stand 'til the end
But, no, I won't make amends 'cause I'm not fallin' again

The last time that I gave you a call
Should've been the last time I gave you at all
I made it clear all the times before
I couldn't stand to be left alone

Decision's made and I don't want more
I had the speach in my head before
You needed to listen, I wasn't wrong
But now I'm mad for everything you've done

I gave it up, I spent too much time
Tryna' fix the things you couldn't understand
You couldn't bare to make amends
I couldn't stay any longer time

I was so stupid that I can't understand it
It had me lost as an ex and even worse as a friend
It had me fucked up again, I had to stand 'til the end
But, no, I won't make amends 'cause I'm not fallin' again

I swear I meant it when I said I was stupid
Thinkin' that us couldn't end, it made me feel like a mess
It had me fucked up again, I had to stand 'til the end
But, no, I won't make amends 'cause I'm not fallin' again

never again (drma x inbloom x mcx)

As I hold my breath, as I feel alone
There's this empty feeling that will never go
Saw these falling tears that had pierced the snow
But I'll always hide

Eaten away by this constant feeling
They're talking away their thoughts the same way they bleed
Too many demons around 'em feeding on their fears
Trying to get their souls to make them disappear

They will talk in your back like you wouldn't know
They choose to lie to get attention just a little more
You can try and get the truth to be known
But trust me not a single person will open their door

As I hold my breath, as I feel alone
There's this empty feeling that will never go
Looking into the blast, but I'll never react
All those years are now past but in my mind they roam

Lots of tears been falling down
Trust me they will fear having me around
Light is meaningless without the dark
But they complain instead of adapting their dazzled eyes

Eaten away by this constant feeling
They're talking away their thoughts the same way they bleed
Too many demons around 'em feeding on their fears
Trying to get their souls to make them disappear

As I hold my breath, as I feel alone
Trust me this empty feeling will never go
Saw these falling tears that had pierced the snow
But these weren't mine

Judgement (splashgvng)

Time will heal and burn out
What you kept as a thought of
Every single mistake
You wanna change but the past is made

Of written things that are in your mind
I know they're better left behind but I
Never was existing
Always trying to erase

The things that I left behind
Getting closer to real life
I was tryna' realize right now
Visual pain will still reside
I'm by myself and I miss you
Despite the distance I'm next to you
And I never felt that much weight
Losing you would be so much pain

Demons in my head and I just lost myself
I know you're in pain but I still can't help
I been away and now I go through hell
Knowing that I left you where we were

We both had to leave
We both had to forget
Now us two will bleed
And we gon' be by ourselves

We're both really bad at distance (trust)
We got lost and it turned to dust
It went so fast at first and (lust)
It resulted in broken love

I still care about us but (trust)
We got lost and it turned to dust
It went so fast at first but (lust)
I didn't think it would stop even faster

I'm by myself and I miss you
Despite the distance I'm next to you
I never felt that much weight
You wanna change but the past is made

Of written things that are in your mind
I know they're better left behind
But I never was existing
Always trying to erase

The things that I left behind
Getting closer to real life
I was tryna' realize right now
Visual pain will still reside
I'm by myself and I miss you
Despite the distance I'm next to you
And I never felt that much weight
Losing you would be so much pain

right now (splashgvng x mdazbeats)

We have to try no matter what they say
To get it right and fly away

All the time we spend that's all there is to say
We don't need to prove that it won't ever break
Everything we been through, decision's made
The future's clear, it won't ever end

Before you I was just all alone
It feels true and it's never gone
Without you I wouldn't be at home
With you is the place where I belong

All the time we spend that's all there is to say
We don't need to prove that it won't ever break
We have to try no matter what they say
We'll get it right, we'll fly away

Everything we been through, decision's made
The future's clear, it won't ever end
We have to try no matter what they say
We'll get it right, we'll fly away

We'll get away at night
Watching the stars at midnight
Leaves falling, twilight
Waiting for the right time

Don't ever let them say
You will have to start again
Just don't ever forget my name
And I'll be there to get away

All the time we spend that's all there is to say
We don't need to prove that it won't ever break
We have to try no matter what they say
We'll get it right, we'll fly away

Everything we been through, decision's made
The future's clear, it won't ever end
We have to try no matter what they say
We'll get it right, we'll fly away

fly away (splashgvng x young taylor)

If you want me to know on your life
Stop lying to my face about your past
I see what you're holding through your disguise
But don't be afraid to let it out

Let it go, let me know
What's on your mind when you face these doors
That lead nowhere else and to empty holes
Where you keep falling in deeper thoughts

It is no other feeling than pain
Take my hand I'll make them go away
If you're tired not to be yourself
I know I can bring you back from this place

Every time you think it's your fault
Think about your goals instead of your wrongs
I know you can escape and find a better home
Where to be safe that's what really counts

Held back the tears all week
'Cause everytime I cry I bring you back to me
And I didn't sleep all week
'Cause everytime I try you show up in my dreams

Let it go, let me know
What's on your mind when you face these doors
That lead nowhere else but to empty wholes
Where you keep falling in deeper thoughts

It is no other feeling than pain
Take my hand I'll make them go away
If you're tired not to be yourself
I know I can bring you back from this place

tired not to be yourself (autrioly x julia alexia)

Every time
She can say that she regrets it but I know she meant it
She came back for sex 'cause with me she likes it
No shame but she can still forget about it

Getting called at night
She wants me here with her tonight
I said "you're really not my type"
She told me "come here, it'll be just fine"

She wants us to be closer
But she's not up to being sober (huh)
I don't really dislike her
But I'm not up to being ordered around

Before, that's how shit was
And I disliked it but I still wanted more
I adore how you can still run for getting me back
But I'd still open the doors

For like how many times you told me you wanted more
'Cause with me you don't need a toy
You told me to forget what you did before
But that's what I can't ignore

You wanted love but that was at first
Now you just want sex and you speak through lust
Got your eyes on me only 'cause how I fuck
Girl it's that easy to rizz you up

She wants us to go better
But I swear she acts colder
I don't really dislike her
But I don't want her either

I'll treat her like another
'Cause that's what she did for me last time
She's not up to being sober
And I'm not up to being ordered around

She can say that she regrets it but I know she meant it
She came back for sex 'cause with me she likes it
No shame but she can still forget about it

Getting called at night
She wants me here with her tonight
I said "you're really not my type"
She told me "come here, it'll be just fine"

lust (madebysavyy x luckyroo)

Getting cought, it's midnight, I cannot run
Away, from time, swear I miss the sun
I don't wanna' get lost in feelings, I don't wanna get left again
I don't wanna' get drowned in tears 'cause I ain't got no friends

To call, I'm so afraid, I know
They all left me alone in the forest where I belong
Quickly got tired of town, I prefer the rain and the snow
Stealing the heat from my nose, I'm never dry even at home

I'm not invisible, I'm gone, but you could still try to call
You know that I just won't respond, since you left I feel so cold
So that's what you will get from me 'cause I am nothing but warm
I see everything in dark

I can't see clear, nice, it's blurry I see everything twice
With the dust in my hair, dyed, I just wanna get repaired, tried
I just keep getting scared about what makes me go insane, cried
For nights and now I'm here, light, it's not something I'm scared about

Moonlight is here in the dark
It's healing my pain and my scars
As I'm finding a reason to be alive
I promised to keep on trying

Getting cought, it's midnight, I cannot run
Away, from time, swear I miss the sun
I don't wanna' get lost in feelings, I don't wanna get left again
I don't wanna' get drowned in tears 'cause I ain't got no friends

To call, I'm so afraid, I know
They all left me alone in the forest where I belong
Quickly got tired of town, I prefer the rain and the snow
Stealing the heat from my nose, I'm never dry even at home

I'm not invisible, I'm gone, but you could still try to call
You know that I just won't respond, since you left I feel so cold
So that's what you will get from me 'cause I am nothing but warm
I see everything in dark

I can't see clear, nice, it's blurry I see everything twice
With the dust in my hair, dyed, I just wanna get repaired, tried
I just keep getting scared about what makes me go insane, cried
For nights and now I'm here, light, it's not something I'm scared about

(Moonlight is here in the dark)
(It's healing my pain and my scars)
(As I'm finding a reason to be alive)
(I promised to keep on trying)

late night fox (madebysavyy x luckyroo)

Feed my monsters they're about to starve
When you're dead trust me they'll have your back
With your voice you can do so much damage
So get a taste of what I fear to have

Even my deamons can see through your lies
You'll never be able to do this in time
Trust me they'll break you in peaces at your high
Peaks of innocence or at least what lasts

Every time I meet someone new
I still have this fear that they can see through
The mask I wear so they cannot dispute
The feelings that belong to you

Late night thoughts of mine, am I the person you think I am
Every time I think I give it's just for me to feel alive
Every time I do things for you it's 'cause I want you by my side
By my side, by my side, that's what I want, U N I

U N I (autrioly)

It's the only way for me to feel my tears
And I swear I can't get enough
Distance made me build up so much fears
I seem not to be that good at trust

Getting so close to perfection
Then it breaks, there's no medication
The feeling grows like an infection
You still think about me but I'm done with

All these texts and all this love
If you can't help but have another one
That you hide from me, that you love
That you prefer, someone else you trust

You didn't seem to realize what I felt
But in fact you knew it would do damage
We got closer but it makes me belt
To know I was just the backpage

(Oh, oh, oh)
(Uh oh, oh oh oh)
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh oh, oh oh)

I still think about you in my dreams
But I saw you with another one
Getting closer after all these years
Sorry it hurts, but I don't want you back

Getting so close to medication
Then it breaks me, there's no perfection
The feeling grows it's an abomination
You still think about me but I'm done with

All these texts and all this love
If you can't help but have another one
That you hide from me, that you love
That you prefer, someone else you fuck

You didn't seem to realize what I felt
But in fact you knew it would do damage
We got closer but it makes me belt
To know that I was just the backpage

(Oh, oh, oh)
(Uh oh, uh oh)
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Just the backpage)

Watch out it's clippin / Backpage (farber)

My vision's getting more blurry but I just can't complain
I saw you sitting in tears full of regrets and pain
Tryna' get closer to you but I just got so scared
What would you think of me? Gosh, what's wrong with my brain

What would you think of me if we talked and layed down?
What would a better one do at my place in this moment?
What if you just would get rid of me in no time
So I'll just leave it to another one and just be distant

I know I left but I wanted so much more
A fear of rejection I just can't ignore
What if you dislike the way I am after opening doors?
What if we got closer and then you didn't want me anymore

You're acting like you're fine but losing me brought you pain
And I just feel so bad 'cause I left for you to be safe
Now I swear I just drown, anxiety makes me faint
This Youtube stuff won't last but at least I made my name stand

I know I left but I wanted so much more
A fear of rejection I just can't ignore
What if you dislike the way I am after opening doors?
What if we got closer and then you didn't want me anymore

You're acting like you're fine but losing me brought you pain
And I just feel so bad 'cause I left for you to be safe
Now I swear I just drown, anxiety makes me faint
This Youtube stuff won't last but at least I made my name stand

another (autrioly)

Hope someday I'll find you
If I need to wait trust me I'll do
I want to give love to someone
I want to care, love and feel alive

They all got someone to trust
Someone who makes them fall in love
I wish to meet my somebody one day
Someone I could trust who would feel the same

I'm falling apart when trying to fix myself
I just cannot lie about it 'cause I'm so fed up
With how I die more everyday
I don't like the way that I treat myself

I can't try to find you anymore
I was really tired to be alone
Now I don't mind being like before
At least I don't risk to lose it all

Hope someday I'll find you
If I need to wait trust me I'll do
I want to give love to someone
I want to care, love and feel alive

They all got someone to trust
Someone who makes them fall in love
I wish to meet my somebody one day
Someone I could trust who would feel the same

Hope someday I'll find you
If I need to wait trust me I'll do
I want to give love to someone
I want to care, love and feel alive

chase (farber)

I just wrote a letter about all these times
Everything was perfect, you were on my mind
For the reasons that made me stay by your side
But you are now the reason I have anger on my mind

I'm tryna let you know
I wanna be alone
Need to tell you all your wrongs
And find a way to go

Hate you
I'm just finna' say too
If I took off tonight
Would you wonder why did I

I just feel like these days, you've been acting like I'm useless
I've been telling you how I felt, didn't really seem like you care
I'm so tired of you always saying "I miss you"
Cause I know you miss the version of me you told me to make for you

I'm tryna let you know
I wanna be alone
Need to tell you all your wrongs
And find a way to go

So much time to lose again
Wanna go back to when we were friends
I don't really feel like you really meant
Anything more to me anyways

I'm tryna let you know
I wanna be alone
Need to tell you all your wrongs
And find a way to go

A Goodbye Letter (autrioly)

I see the rain, when it's falling
I feel the pain, the one you're holding
I see the light that's in your eyes
Go away when no one is by your side

They say they know and they can relate
But knowing this won't help you get away
And you get stuck in everyday
Thinking of fixes you won't get

Thoughts and pain
They will both go away
But the memories of us
Yeah those will always stay

I did not think it'd end
But I'm happy it did
'Cause we can start again
Proud that us had existed once

Yeah, stress building up
Everytime you text me at night
I breathe faster than my heart rate
I am turning blind

Shoulder hurting to my neck
And I feel paralyzed
The more it hurts
The more I feel guilty about how it started

Thoughts and pain
They will both go away
But the memories of us
Yeah those will always stay

I did not think it'd end
But I'm happy it did
'Cause we can start again
Proud that us had existed once

memories of how it ended (autrioly x nn-fi)

Happy birthday, you're on your own
You said now we're friends but overall you're gone
I don't miss you at fuckin' all
So I don't give a shit about that anymore

I just wanna wish you a happy birthday
Just to show you that I used to care
I just wanna show I don't live in the past when
You talked a lot without sayin' shit

I just wanna wish you a happy birthday
Colder than the snow 'cause in your head it rains
I just wanna show I don't live in the past and
Now you miss me but I don't care

You know I
Have lost myself
Can't really find a single thing I like to do
'Cause I really wanna live but not without you

Health declining faster than O2
Journey to the moon I owe you
Baby where'd it fall apart? Was it doomed from the start?
I really wanna go but not without you

We both thought everything was fine
Sunny days thought to be divine
Looked past all the bad signs
Probably shouldn't have 'cause look at where we are now

It's your day of the year
And I can't stop thinkin' 'bout you
Tell me what am I supposed to do
Baby let me know will I ever get over you?

Happy birthday, I'm over it look
I won't reply, you said I never knew you
But I won't lie you never knew me too
It's just that, to love you, I didn't need to

And you thought I had to hear it from you
Now I have the feeling of being awfully
Stupid for ignoring you
But I'm so hurt, so best thing to do

I just wanna wish you a happy birthday
Just to show you that I used to care
I just wanna show I don't live in the past when
You talked a lot without sayin' shit

I just wanna wish you a happy birthday
Colder than the snow 'cause in your head it rains
I just wanna show I don't live in the past and
Now you miss me but I don't care

Happy Birthday (feat. YamiKat) (splashgvng)

unwanted experiments

humor (drma x nihil2free)

toxic (siem spark x 5head)

Everything I hoped for was to have someone
Not a lot, just somebody who'd see who I was
But it was hopeless, I was hiding who I truly was
Who would love me back?

I'm gone
I know it's not really by choice but I'm all alone
I can't talk my feelings out, I guess it's all my fault
I know I'll never get the chance to be loved

You broke the atmosphere
Making me feel like I'm worth, more than anything
Left all I had left behind to be with you my dear wrote this song 'cause I can't do it
I can't speak a thing, and it's breaking me

So, what are you here for?
And why don't you leave me alone?
And what would you say if I told you I love you
But I'm pathetic to the point where I can't tell you what I feel

What are you here for?
And why don't you leave me alone?
And what would you say if I told you I love you
But I'm pathetic to the point where I can't tell you what I feel

I can't tell you what I feel
Tell you what I feel
Oh oh oh oh
I'm sorry but I can't tell you what I feel

what are you here for (drma)

Before you, I was away and I really missed the sun
Couldn't feel so I faked it, emotions fell apart
The feeling never faded, I was living in the dark at that time

You arrived at the right moment, then I wasn't crying anymore
But now you're distant, I know you need it but I adored
Going through this together
I don't like it when you're gone

Oh, I was all alone once, and you became my source of light
Then I woke up to a bunch of lies telling me you needed time
To decide
Oh you really couldn't decide

Between me and her, so many things made you think I was the one
But you took your distance, put this distance between you and I
You lost me there once
But man I wanted you to be mine

I guess I'm only made for loving someone and not being the loved one
Your silence is breaking me I just hope you'll let me heal

I'm still searching for every pieces of me
(that you took with your promises)
I just wanted a last goodbye like the old times

Oh, I was all alone once, and you became my source of light
Then I woke up to a bunch of lies telling me you needed time
To decide
Oh you really couldn't decide

Between me and her, so many things made you think I was the one
But you took your distance, put this distance between you and I
You lost me there once
But man I wanted you to be mine

I wanted you
To be mine
I don't like it when you're gone

I don't like it when you're gone (ft. Ev') (raspo)

All the whispers in the cold
This assembly of souls
Will never cease to amaze the mortals
Through the stories that have told

Past generations and how they roam
In our hearts, in our souls
But now that I've become skeptical
Panic attacks started to befall

What if it was my demise
I count every beating to pass the time
Asking which one will be the last
What if it happens by suprise

Scared I then open my eyes
To find myself immobilized
By this creature that I have tried
So badly to identify

Then it attempts to approach
Admiration got me a little scared at most
Then it shreds my skin and organs tryna' reach for my soul
Leaving me in agony collapsing in a blood pool

I didn't apostatize with alacrity, it just didn't feel like home
I just wanted acceptance, not a remedy, for what I always had and known
My voice isn't coming out due to terror, but I remember the falling feathers
I know they hear my songs but don't listen, but I know it's for the better

(It's my home)
(If you come, I'll be the voice that welcomes you home)
(But trust me, I'm not afraid to be on my own)

dysphoria (cxrter x cloud)

All the whispers in the cold
This assembly of souls
Will never cease to amaze the mortals
Through the stories that have told

Past generations and how they roam
In our hearts, in our souls
But now that I've become skeptical
Panic attacks started to befall

What if it was my demise
I count every beating to pass the time
Asking which one will be the last
What if it happens by suprise

Scared I then open my eyes
To find myself immobilized
By this creature that I have tried
So badly to identify

Then it attempts to approach
Admiration got me a little scared at most
Then it shreds my skin and organs tryna' reach for my soul
Leaving me in agony collapsing in a blood pool

I didn't apostatize with alacrity, it just didn't feel like home
I just wanted acceptance, not a remedy, for what I always had and known
My voice isn't coming out due to terror, but I remember the falling feathers
I know they hear my songs but don't listen, but I know it's for the better

(It's my home)
(If you come, I'll be the voice that welcomes you home)
(But trust me, I'm not afraid to be on my own)

Even in the darkest nights
I see beauty in your glowing eyes
My hands are tied as my body lies
I really want to turn the clocks back

Then it attempts to approach
Admiration got me a little scared at most
Then it shreds my skin and organs tryna' reach for my soul
Leaving me in agony collapsing in a blood pool

I didn't apostatize with alacrity, it just didn't feel like home
I just wanted acceptance, not a remedy, for what I always had and known
My voice isn't coming out due to terror, but I remember the falling feathers
I know they hear my songs but don't listen, but I know it's for the better

(It's my home)
(It's my home)

dysphoria (extended ver.) (cxrter x cloud)

I was with Washier in VR
On the rooftop below the clouds
with nobody around
'cause I don't really like the crowd

why is everything so loud
my escape's the reason I drown
why do I always need to lie
as the sorrow intensifies

deep down, I know
you reject the past, and let go
I'll guide your soul
to the next purpose you'll follow

Reality is what I'm fighting
I never woke up from dreaming
Memories turned to ashes
as I sit in silence

I was with Washier in VR
On the rooftop below the clouds
with nobody around
'cause I don't really like the crowd

why is everything so loud
my escape's the reason I drown
why do I always need to lie
as the sorrow intensifies

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