To: Chattanooga....From: YGTUT 

YGTUT returns with something to get off his chest!

prod. by illmind & Cubeatz

YGTUT Sequence For Approval

Letter 2 My City (Prod. ILLMIND)

produced recorded and mixed entirely by me! im really proud of this one and think this is the style i'm gonna go with for the forseeable future. the ultra lo-fi high pitched drum machine rock shit was fun and I might revisit it soon but I'm moving on from it for now. doesn't really reflect where I am mentally. been a long time since i made a rock song just because i really wanted to get this right. enjoy !

this song's chord progression and lyrics are really important to me. I wrote the first verse and chorus in may and this song has been the first thing I play when I pick up a guitar since then too. cannot stress how much this release means to me

lyricz:
i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared 
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont kno why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
nigga everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarayed
and i cannot feel okay
li ke 
i do not have no power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed a stupid troon
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

jisatsu girl (自殺)

this is my favorite song i've ever made so far i think lol. recorded n produced by me :3 album coming out august 2022 !!! i've rly found my sound :p

lyrics
im never sober anymore
im way too high i need to focus
im feeling dumb as fuck right now
why am i filled with so much
pain, pain, now
im so fucked up i cannot
stand it, stand it,
noww
im smoking woods inside of my room
why am i here like what did i do
got shit on canvas and its overdue
im such a faggot i look like a troon
im using these patches so i can look cute
cute
plz soon
look in the mirror and be anyone but you
and you know my nigga we

[chorus]
gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
i cant keep on hating mysellff elf elf
ohh ohhhh ohh oohhh
and i knoooooooooooooooooooooooo
ohhhhhhhhh
i cant keep on going without 
helpp help help
im rly fucking up right now :\

i rly need u babygirl <3
i cannot lie i fucking love you
come grab my hair and pull me close
girl you so bad i want you on me
on me nowwwwwwww
come fuckn kiss me
lets get sloppy, sloppy
kyaaaaaaaaaaaa! come pin me down
i rly need u i want u im feeling crazy inside my head
im just thinking about you and you gotta be so far away
cant believe that i found you since i got you it's been brighter days
you make me kyaaaaa ah ahh ( i rlly love you)
so can we gooooooooooooooooooo

i cant keep on hating myselffff elf elf
ohhhhhhhhhh ohhh oh ohhhhh
 and i knooooooooooooooooo
i cant keep on going without
hellllpp elp elp
im rly fucking up right nowwwwwwwww nowww

without help

Umbasa

While all of us are living the quarantine life, Good Room has asked friends and residents to share mixes for our Solitude Series so you can dance on your own. The third mix comes from Juan MacLean. Juan played the opening night of Good Room back in 2014 and has been a regular fixture at the club ever since. Juan has released several albums for DFA Records and has made everything from electroclash, disco-punk and electro to techno, house and deep house.

Here's what he had to say about the mix - “I have recreated the first hour of my last set at Good Room. On March 7th I closed out the night at Good Room. It was an epic night, one we had all been looking forward to for months, a lineup stacked with good friends, all amazing performers and human beings. There was Josh JDH and Dave P., Thomass Jackson, Zombies In Miami, and me in the Main Room, Factets and Rocco Desentis in the Bad Room.  It might have been my favorite night I’d ever had there. I got there 4 hours before my set and danced non-stop with friends. Little did I know it would be the last Saturday night Good Room would be open for who knows how long now. One thing I do know is that when the first party happens there again I will be there, whether as a DJ or a dancer or both, and you’ll have to carry me out of there when it’s over!" 

Good Room is currently closed due the COVID-19 pandemic. If you would like to donate to the club to help cover staff and fixed costs you can donate on Venmo @goodroombk or PayPal - paypal.me/goodroombk.

You can follow Juan on SoundCloud at @the-juan-maclean and you can donate to Juan on Venmo @Juan-MacLean-1

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