the oley prison I could trust is one my cousin we both been for a lot and will I just hope he's life gose batter than my life but I know he's is more fuck up than my so and know I wish I could swipe are life's

[lyrics]

it's a dark night and I'm always feeling hollow
staring at my ceiling I don't wanna see tomorrow
still do tho now I'm getting back up again 
kinda fucking hate it I don't wanna dap u again 
x2

everybody fucking lame now
sticking to my dolo you can always just count me out 
never wanna talk I don't wanna have a conversation
Everybody sus and acting funny just an observation 
I'd rather deal with myself
still a fucking mess but I don't want any help
drowning in my thoughts and I can't a breath
gonna let the void just rot my mind and meet my death

Set it up myself cause it's all my fault 
If I jump from this cliff how long will I fall?
How long will I fall
If I jump from this cliff how long will I fall

mind still numb but I never wanna feel shit
always agitated I don't wanna deal with shit
dodging all these talks I don't wanna reply
choked up feeling anxiety make me wanna die
they be like what's good wassup how you been
But I don't say how I been I just say I'm fine
Kinda crazy how my source of happiness is gone
been a couple years now I'm just a ticking time bomb

Set it up myself cause it's all my fault 
If I jump from this cliff how long will I fall?
How long will I fall
If I jump from this cliff how long will I fall

count me out [prod. eric godlow]

i      o p e n e d      m y      e y e s      a g a i n

lyrics:

I opened my eyes again
And realize that i have been
Borderline suicidal
Fear that I'll go
Grab a fucking bottle
And chug it down
Down, down, down
They help me sleep 
But they can't help me rest in peace

Yeah i met this girl
And i fell in love
I tried to get up
But i felt so stuck

At the end of the day she chose another one
Now I'm left in the mud all alone as i rust

So tired of loving
My heart continues drumming
While i just strum these old strings


Lights flashing
Ready camera action
Oh my dear you're really good at acting
When you said you loved me 
I felt a little passion
Wrapped in sadness
Hatching all the madness
That you created
Love turned to hatred
I really truly loved you but i guess i was mistaken
Trapped in my tank 
That just sank
God i hate

I don't fuck with love no more
It's just hurting my health
Losing my mind but there's nobody that i can tell
Kind of gave on hoping that i just might get well
If this may be my final song then i give you farewell's

old love, old strings

old love, old strings (prod. hero)

Plenty Fish Pt. 2 (prod. loneliness孤独)

Pain - October 22nd

lyrics:
so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

wake up in my bed
with the thoughts stuck in my head
my wrists are looking red
cuz of all the blood i shed
texting you at 2
baby you know what to do
call me up again
i wanna hear your precious voice
let me haunt your dreams
with the time that we were teens
hear my final song
while you hit your parents bong
i know that you don't care
i'm wishing i was there

so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

do it for the fans
never switching plans
heart in my own hands
throwing up a couple grams
you never even cared
talking shit like i'm not there
but i see you in his hair
like the weed that's in the air
baby i know you've been playing me
you got me torn in my heart
watching it all fall apart
watching it all fall apart

tell me that you miss me

SPOTIFY

tell me that u miss me

Spotify Link - https://open.spotify.com/track/12Z6dBkcQ4brCR4otixJOM?si=A6nyC_oOSru5JujVn4dkqQ


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If I Killed Myself, Would You Cry (SPOTIFY LINK IN DESCRIPTION)

@xam @ohsobrkn

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7qQmYVkHSBecrMMOgOaYaP
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/goodbye-feat-ohsobrkn-single/1464245741
YouTube: https://youtu.be/vSZea0KiSJg

[Verse 1: XAM]
I got ripped clothes and a bloody nose
And I’m so close to an overdose
Nobody knows the real me
Cos I’m a ghost and I’m hiding my real feelings
They think they know me but they dont know anything

I’m just a lost cause who got last thoughts, yeah
I’m just the shadow of the person that I once was
And I’ve been letting go of all my memories
Of who I used to be and how I used to feel

And my depression gets stronger the longer I wait, yeah
And the weight on my shoulders is too much to take, yeah 
It’s pushing me down to the ground ’til I break, yeah
The voices takes over controlling my fate    

Feels like I'm dead but I'm breathing
Feels like I'm bleeding out but my heart is still beating
Wide awake so alive but I'm freezing
Winter season got me sick I'm sneezing

Yeah, things change...
I get that nothing stays the same
Even sunny days can turn to
50 shades of grey

Go from hot to cold, from snow to rain
From feeling good to feeling pain
I’ll put a bullet in my brain
Cos when I’m dead I cant complain

[Chorus]
So say goodbye
Cos this might be the last time
That you will ever see me
That you will ever hear me

[Verse 2: ohsobrkn]
I'm broken down and I can't breathe
There's no light so pardon me I can't see  
My demons came for a visit now they wont leave
I try to cover up the scars so I wear sleeves

And all I do is sit inside of my basement
Contemplate my death through the problems that I'm faced with
Tryna fight addiction that I made from getting wasted
But the temptation is getting so strong and I can taste it

And sometimes I think about this music and I hate it
All i see it empty talent full of clout and getting famous
I compare myself to artist that I know are overrated
Don't you tell me its alright I'll be fine you can save it

I can't do this anymore, feel my heart becoming sore
Every time I close my eyes I am taken to a morgue
I dont really wanna die but I am rotting to the core
And the world is so cold treat my body like a corpse

Okay you win, I lose so kill me now
Lay me down deep until I'm underground
I just wanna hear silence It's my favortie sound
I can finally see my home theres no need to frown

[Chorus]
So say goodbye
Cos this might be the last time
That you will ever see me
That you will ever hear me

dont wait up [prod. eric godlow]

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