I Am Me (HS+)

parking lot

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtcvwHXJipg

opposite ends of the room, love is there but there's a distance i can't undo.
i built it all up in my head, felt the same but somehow differently or unsaid.

a fire so red could last until we're both dead, but i've been burned before, it's a cliche but my scars are still sore.

i want to take back everything i told you and remember all the times i would hold you. maybe you don't know who i am, maybe i was scared and ran. 
goodbye is hard to do, especially without "i love you."

opposite ends of the state, happiness once was enough to know what i pushed away. but that is SO fucking cheap. you deserve better than that, you deserve better than me.


i want to take back everything i told you and remember all the times i would hold you. maybe you don't know who i am, maybe i was scared and ran. 
goodbyes are hard to do, especially without "i love you."

opposites *NOW ON SPOTIFY<3* (video link in description)

ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ， ｎｏｗｈｅｒｅ．- ｐａｒｋｉｎｇ ｌｏｔ

I've got a lot of fear for the day that we'll be dead (prod. tothegood)

support: https://soundcloud.com/lilxlotus
very soon

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revealing hope (ft. Lil Lotus)

a rendition of tears don't fall by bullet for my valentine.

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tears don't fall 💫

wraith x cresylic - consciously destroying myself

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stay away pls w/ 1800entity [prod. yungjza]

prod. by: scoff x https://soundcloud.com/bendreary
vocals by: https://soundcloud.com/bendreary

[LYRICS]
everybody wanna see me down but i glowed
buffin up my gains yeh im going broly mode
try to join my team yeh you better kno the damn code
straps in my lungs im about to unload
(x2)

i got vans on my feet
i dont do xans rip lil peep
hope hes in heaven singing like
la la la la la la la la la la
kick it cabana
goto a sauna 
with senorita
drink magarita
now u so tipsy baby dont fall now
i kno im crappy hope we dont fall out



everybody wanna see me down but i glowed
buffin up my gains yeh im going broly mode
try to join my team yeh you better kno the damn code
straps in my lungs im about to unload
(x2)

i just wanna go and get everything that i need
hella snacks and rillo packs im living like a stampede
check my fit is 19 hundreds everything is antique
sweating tryna ball u kno im working like an athlete
race im tryna zoom like a f1 in the grand prix
sad that is my sickness but the money is the vaccine
keep on flowing out like a goddamn nosebleed
they all hate me now they dont wanna see me succeed

sin twitching ima demon all locked up 
sick twisted killing time in my locker
jail cell no cell no phone call
all dead with no sense of a authority
everyday waking up like a chore to me
great day no way everday sucks
killing time goto sleep with the rosebuds 
in my dreams i aint alive and i like it

im sad go away (so tired of that)
im sick another day (let it out and rap)
i wanna die and lay (then go die u brat)
my life is so gray (ur boring and flat)
(x2)

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bendreary - glow (prod. scoff x bendreary)

Tears For The Summer

no love prod. swrd

this is the last rework i sadly will be making for a long time i am switching sounds and i am so glad to have taken you all on a journey 
i decided that rapping is something i really want to switch over to and i want to truly change and make an impact so expect more lyrical uploads
P.S.A i will be removing a large amount of old tracks as well so please get them ripped from my sc (due to the new terms on soundcloud i am taking down copywrighted works which is half of my catalogue)


(*.*) love yall expect more from me these next few months

chillin with you redux...check the descrip

Buff Baby (prod. by tobi lou, JuiceBangers)

i got bands in my pocket but that shits not enough
i got bands in my pocket but i just want love
i cant feel a thing, am i going insane
and my body turning cold cause everybodys the same
(x2)

i hardly ever eat, all i do is sleep
i just fell for a girl i think im in too deep
and its night time, and i wanna be in bed
but here i am at work with another cigarette
i just bought a couple packs and theyre already gone
and i hate my fucking self i dont know where i belong
im so sorry im so sad but this is how i feel
all this paranoia in my bed im not sure what is real

im too scared to call my mom
im too scared to text my friends
im too scared to live another day
i want this shit to end
(x2)

i got bands in my pocket but that shits not enough
i got bands in my pocket but i just want love
i cant feel a thing, am i going insane
and my body turning cold cause everybodys the same
(x2)

they dont understand, i dont think they ever will
i dont wanna turn to pill cause i dont think that itll heal
everything i feel, i just wanna feel okay
but i still feel the fucking same every single day
i dont think they know, and theyll never know
always feeling tired and im always feeling slow
i just slept all day and now its time for a nap
if i could leave the earth just know im never coming back

im too scared to call my mom
im too scared to text my friends
im too scared to live another day
i want this shit to end
(x2)

i got bands in my pocket but that shits not enough
i got bands in my pocket but i just want love
i cant feel a thing, am i going insane
and my body turning cold cause everybodys the same
(x2)

they only care when somethings wrong

Follow me <3

ctrl+alt+del w/ voka (prod. undying)

[lyrics]

dying by the second I need more time
my skin is so cold I know 
everybody's happy I'm not
my heart is so froze I'll go
(x2)

I can feel myself
slipping away
and I can see myself in an early grave 
all the problems inside my head they are crushing 
all the bad thoughts are leaving they are rushing 
all these demons wanna go
haunting past I see a ghost
when I sleep I still see you
and I just wanna go
fight myself I'm losing 
burn a bridge I'm choosing
leave again and that's my fault 
and I'm moving 

friendships idle thoughts
relationships broken hearts
people close I push away
solitude is where I stay
(x2)

dying by the second I need more time
my skin is so cold I know
everybody's happy I'm not
my heart is so froze I'll go
(x2)

I dont really you to go but I wanna leave 
I am scared of the unknown something's wrong with me 
I'm sorry if message you and then I'm ghost for three days
I'm having inner problems and it makes me wanna go away 
often times I wanna cry often times I cannot breathe
dealing with anxiety is a pain can it leave me 
cannot run from shit even in my dreams
seeing people gone from my life it just makes me bleed 

friendships idle thoughts
relationships broken hearts
people close I push away
solitude is where I stay
(x2)

they only care when somethings wrong

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