I only hear problems of others

Rick Reese - Theres Two Holes In My Neck

i am on pcp, doing 130 down the highway

(Note from archivist: this was not on penguinband's soundcloud at the time he removed his account)

dalepilled (Cameron Phlodge Cover) - Penguinband

don't feel shit

Lyrics:

I miss the way you held me
I miss the way you said my name
But then you left me
My life will never be the same

(Chorus) Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you

Your absence slowly kills me
My absence brings you zero pain
Promised you wouldn’t leave me
Now I feel fucking insane

(Chorus) Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you

fuck you

I don't know
I don't know 
I don't know
I don't know

Where'd you go
I want to know

I'm burning with memories
you come back like PTSD
you feel like a lethal disease
the way you make me feel so empty

I don't know
I don't know 
I don't know
I don't know

Where'd you go
I want to know

I'm burning with memories
you come back like PTSD
you feel like a lethal disease
the way you make me feel so empty

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

suicide, i'll find my way
i'm just praying for no more days
leave me here
and maybe leave me to waste
you could leave me rotting in my dying days
leave me rotting, starving in my room
no one could be here, i fear i'm doomed
my feelings are strong
my feelings of apathy are great
it feels so visceral
think ima need to share the pain

oooo
oooo

murdermind, i'm filled with pain
i'm just kneeling there pistol to my brain
leave me there
please leave me to waste
leave me rotting in my dying days
leave me rotting, starving in my room
no one could save me, i fear i'm doomed
i fear i'm dooooomed

ROTTING (STARVING IN MY ROOM)

Everything feels wrong
Everything feels numb

I can’t get it to stop
I can’t get it to stop
It all feels wrong

Everything feels wrong
Everything feels numb

I can’t get it to stop
I can’t get it to stop
It all feels wrong

it all feels wrong

Im on that Lo View 
Everything is so cruel 
Gotta get up gotta try 
Tomorrow will be my time 
Won’t smoke weed 
Or stay inside 
Fuck those games 
They waste your time 
Pc live will make you cry
It drags you down like a Lo-View

It gets so dark 
Live life so sad 
On empty streets
I walk ahead
To get home and just think about 
The way we used to spend our days away
And play
And feel alive 
Now we rot
it’s normalised 
Got No way out 
Or some way up
All because
I’m on that Lo-View

Lo - View

I want to leave my house but then id need to get ready 
have a shower 
and put some clothes on 
I dont want to do that 
cuz everything is so fucked im here playing my guitar
and it is helping me cope so far

I want to leave my house but id need to get ready 
have a shower 
and put some clothes on 
one day i will do that
ill get back at it all
get out of this endless downfall

Cope

out my mind

Hope u like me 
But I’ll never find out 
Waiting in the shadows 
For something to come out 
The days fly by me 
I think I’m out of luck 
Slightly retarded 
I think it’s from the drugs

Hope You Like Me !

Oh, this miserable stress headache... Feels like there's a rat in my brain!

My brain, it feels rearranged
It doesn't feel the same
Feeling really strange
My thoughts are starting to rot
I can't seem to talk
I don't need to talk 
When I die
I'll finally arrive
To where I wanna go
In the ground
Nothing to be worried about
That's where I wanna go 
My brain, feels rearranged
It doesn't feel the same
It's feeling really strange
My thoughts are starting to rot
I can't seem to talk
I don't need to talk 
When I die
I'll finally arrive
To where I wanna go
In the ground
Nothing to be worried about
That's where I wanna go

(2016)

my brain

sorry for no upload i lost all motivation for everything

dont fight it 
this was my doom
you said the drugs killed me
but theres blood all over you

leeching off my parents for way too long
ill hold you in my arms if you really think im strong
but loving isnt easy and i know it wont get better
im locked up in my room, ill probably be here forever

this guilt that follows me everywhere i go 
id do anything, everything i know 
to make you proud
how ill make you proud

im starting to feel like theres no way out
let go of me jesus and let me drown
in my own sea of self emulation
a slayer or a freak in the right situation

dont fight it 
this was my doom
you said the drugs killed me
but theres blood all over you

doomed

she asked me why did i come back
cus nothing ever stays the same
that was a long ass 5 whole months
suppressing thoughts inside my brain
whenever i had dreams about you
id show up to school late
if im going to be honest im surprised
that im alive at this rate
cus everybody around me
would never get it
had to deal by myself like always
no one understands
had my hands round the toilet
cus i regret it
gripping on the pill bottle
couldve been holding your hand
so whyd you have to fuck it up so fast
cus god knows
i only wanted us to last
and i swear that the only thing you do
is talk or yell
it hurts me so fucking bad
like all the time
im not afraid to admit that
and when i have to make my final choice
i will let you in my life
to break my heart again

ur not my only reason but ur definitely one of them

take me out

Every christmas
he always gave me coals
and this sick joke
is really getting old

i'm so tired
to fill mysefl with hope
that on christmas
he would read my notes

it doesnt matter
if i was good or bad
getting no toys
is something that makes me sad

feelings crushed
my hopes are gone too
he stomped on my heart
with his snowie boots

my christmas spirit
is never coming back
i gave up christmas
and this will be my last

i realized
that he ruined my life
and this is why
santa must die

Santa Must Die

video: https://youtu.be/p02CVSkXwT4?si=Fnums85584RyPN0F
take me away

r9k i look and pray 
another awkard stupid day 
when i cry see myself on the way to hell 
and didnt i know why
and didnt i know why
r9k go way 
lord take me away

im brainwashed and hopless and so scared cuz r9k
we all need the father to save us from r9k
just brainwashed a goner so usless thats r9k
it took me over the father now i cant complain 

not chasing money i got better things to do
now i gave my life to christ it feels so good
and i really thought that there was no way out 

to saving my r9k
my r9k mind
to saving my r9k 
my R 9 K mind

r9k i look and pray 
another awkard stupid day 
when i got helpt said nevermind
i was always stuck inside
i was always stuck inside
r9k go way 
lord take me away

r9k mind

Part 1: https://soundcloud.com/rootcanalyears/the-worst-song-of-loserpalooza

I've come to join you down in hell
So that's it, I'll kill myself?
That sounds right, look at me
Slit my wrists, I'll be set free

I fantasize about your neck
Between my teeth who knows whats next
Will you ever truly love me?
I wake up its all a dream

Welcome back to Loserpalooza
Welcome back to Loserpalooza
Can't come too or you'll lose her, palooza
Welcome back to Loserpalooza

Please dear God, don't let this end
I don't think you comprehend
The scale of love I feel for you
Won't you kill me, something new

There's a bridge down by the docks
I'll jump right off, don't give a fuck
Lifes lost all meaning, gone astray
No matter what you'll be okay

I'm so sorry for Loserpalooza
Please forgive me, Loserpalooza
I'm so sorry for Loserpalooza
Please forgive me, Loserpalooza

welcome back, loserpalooza

IRL BAND SHIIII

Glitched out soul I’m walking a bug
FBI drone gave me a hug
All my thoughts are classified
Gotta wear tinfoil just to hide x2

Glitched out soul I’m a walking bug
FBI drone gave me a hug
All my thoughts are classified
Gotta wear tinfoil just to hide

Locked up 
Gotta get out 
I’m gonna burn the net down 

Fucked up 
Messed down 
I’m gonna let you down

(sleep mode personality
Glassy eyes No memory)

(LSC) walking bug

(I fucking hate the lyrics to this song)

Every smile that you fake makes me cry
Ran out of tears to try
Said goodbye but you're still on my mind
Every thought pulls me back to that time 

Oh, you know, you know, all I do is just for you
Oh I know, I know, everything is fucking screwed
Stay still, don't move 
Close your eyes we'll have a good time
 Good time
Just let it fly by

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

What's the time?
I'm waiting for your reply
It's so dark out
I can't even see the lights 
What's all this fuss about
Why are you like this now
Please can you cut this out
Why are you like this now

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time


I only hear problems of others

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