ENVY (prod. CQSLEEP)

LYRICS: 

She don’t want me anymore 

She got me crying again 

She don’t want me anymore 

She got me crawling again 


As I fall 

Would you pick me up?

Would I be the boy 
you really said that you would love? 

I’m off of drugs 

I can never see straight 

I’m off your love 

Bitch I can never think straight 


I wanna die 

But sometimes I wanna live too 

I wanna die 

But only if it’s with you 

Don’t waste my time 
(Got me dying again)

-

Face my fears 

I can’t bitch

I can’t wake up from it 

I’ve been lost for years 

I just hope this pain

just makes up for something 


Sheriff’s in the house tryna raid 

But they can’t find shit 

I will not conform to a fucked society nicely 


Now feel my fucking wrath 

Feel my fucking pain 

Bitch I’m going off, renegade 

I’ma walk my path 

I’ma do my days 

If I go to hell fuck it anyway 


Life is a joke 

Surrounded by violence 

Never went to school 

Cause I was defiant 

Playing hooky like I had a sick virus 

Mom should have really looked into asylums 

Maybe then I would’ve finally gone quiet 

Nowadays my thoughts are nothing but riots 

Empty my mind as I paint my horizons 

Hearing the sirens 

Mother is crying 

Noose on my neck

Priceless 

-

I’ve been gone and tripping for a long time 

My soul been washed up 
on this shore for a fucking long time 


Our backs bleed from pain 

And our hearts are filled with hate 

We struggle for a dollar 

And some food up on our plate 

We cry and we beg 

We even take our lives away 

Leave my body with the leaves 

and watch my soul decay

They feast up on my flesh 

While the moon is bright and pure 

Right inside this dark abyss 

will be my hidden cure 

My corpse lusts for love 

as it turns from night to day 

The sun disappears as the skies turn to gray 

The sun disappears as the skies turn gray 

(I’ve been fucking gone for a long time) 

-

Can’t you see that darkness is flawless? 

Do you succumb to the abyss 

when it swallows?

And digest the false and imperfections 

Left to dry, that sneaky little bastard 


Messed my life up, fucked all my chances 

Molest my life up, now I’m the faggot 


Justification

It must have been broken 

I lost all control, can’t contain myself 

Emotions, abundant 

I’ve been irrupted 

Fuck all the bullshit 

This boy interrupted 

The truth will unfold 

When possessed by the chosen 

I begged for forgiveness 

But only turned hopeless 


Can’t you see that darkness is flawless? 

Do you succumb to the abyss 

when it swallows?


And digest the false and imperfections 

Left to dry to dry, that sneak little bastard 

-

I’m far from the deep end 

but far from the shore

Emotions that tell me I’ve been here before

I can’t remember they swiped my soul 

Chaos and pain, yeah they made me a mold


I would have swallowed that bullet 

If I had swallowed my pride 

I got invited that night 

But something didn’t feel right 

I heard his ass took a right 

And this his ass took a nap 

He risked and gambled his life 

He fucked around and he crapped 

I think I must have forgot 

I was around the darkness 


I was with fellas that’s heartless 

And Lucifer’s strong men 

Something that’s taboo 

But feels like a warm bed 

Feels like christmas morning 

when you turned 10 


Except you woke up and there wasn’t shit
 
but chaos that bred bravado 

Fuck an empty promise 

It was empty bottles 

Was born from a family that lived full throttle 

Officer please don’t shoot 

I’m a toddler 


I’m far from the deep end 

but far from the shore

Emotions that tell me I’ve been here before

I can’t remember they swiped my soul 

-

Fuck my life up 

Oh so delightful 

I was born from pain 

I never been a disciple 

All my life I was shunned, despiteful

Feast upon me

Dissolve this vessel 

Cast upon thee

God sent me to test you 

“This kid is a handful” 

That’s what’s Lucifer said too 


It’s far from over 

Even if I start over 

-
(Last song is in comments)

A Bit Closer To Heaven (RAW EP) October 31st - 2024 #SAMHAINÀLFABLÒT

Luv u
Lyrics 

Starting to feel like you don’t love me,
Sitting waiting but the never pain never leave,
I’m not dying I js forgot to eat,
Got no friends I’m a loser I’m a creep,
And I hope you never know,
The shit I do when I’m alone,
Wonder Where’d the time go,
Days gone by now I’m cold,
I’m scared to grow old,
And ion really know,
What the fuck I’m doin anymore,
But fuck it all let’s go,

Do you miss me when I’m alone (Prod.RXSEGARDEN)

LYRICS-

i been rolling weed and i been getting fried
too much going on and theres too much in my mind
rapping on this beat and im up here on my grind
haters typing comments while their falling all behind

back in them days pop them xans forget who i am
now days smoke the purple jam makes my lungs to jam
haters want the beef but i do not keep a slice of ham

what you want from the kid im just tryna live
take the shrooms in my room and i wonder if
my life a test of my consciousness 
end my life as the plot and twist

i been rolling weed and i been getting fried
too much going on and theres too much in my mind
rapping on this beat and im up here on my grind
haters typing comments while their falling all behind

empty mags hypothesis is all these people fake
they found out that im better than them so they fucking snake
hella thc so i pass out for some days
wake up make a song then deal with the fucking craze
smoke another blunt
then i smoke a blunt today
smoke another blunt 
and i smoked one yesterday

BLUNT

You say don’t take it personal
Well I did 
Well I did 
I did I did
Oh this is the same body I’m sick of 
This is the same mind 
This is the same mind I’m running from
Oh it’s the same mind
No, tear down the walls
No, a tear in the walls
Tear them for me
I’ve been into the room
Please say “please stay”
I’m in death 
So sick of so sick of 
I’m sorry 
I’m sick of your silence 
and I’m sick of the silence 
And I’m sick of the love I give 
I’m tired of my love running away 
Oh I’m tired

I always take it personal (demo)

Mixed & Mastered by frdm.wav
Artwork by @markypuwu on instagram

I watched it fade into the blue
I dried my tears off in the sun
We were stuck inside the doom
But I thought I was the one 
I saw it turning into violet
Express this pain through all this violence
Peace is something I ain’t strong enough to try yet
I can’t sleep, I just see you inside my eyelids
Need your figure and your form on top of my bed
Witnessed it morph into a red
My head just said that I’d be better off dead
It’s hard to wake up when you always waking up upset
At the bottom, I’m just asking if my come ups yet yeah

Faded white inside my eyes for when I sever my ties
And when I die, burn me down to ash and let it all fly
Another face, forgotten waste that’s only met his demise 
And now I’m just an empty name between the digital lines
A yellow frenzy when this flame has come alive 
Now I see your figure and your form inside my mind
Revealing your true colors I don’t want to visualize
With an ever growing rot taking over your design 
So when you took away my breath
That was the closest I ever been to death
Watching as I overdosed, you never felt distressed
Thinking I would never make it, I was seeing red
And still it hurts me that I couldn’t love you any less
Wait, held out my hand for someone that I always knew and now I’m terrified of ever seeing you 
Kept on playing with my life like I got nothing to lose
As I’m making my descent, I watched it fade into the blue

Faded Colours [Prod. frdm.wav]

$uicideboy$ - Fold (Insomnia Remix)

Produced by @sorrow_bringer
Covery by DEAD NORTH associative
Join my discord https://discord.gg/EBTARvu3Rn

[Lyrics]
Push it all back, mane, don't get it twisted 
I've been consistent sipping on some that got me feeling lifted 
I've been committed, to kill em all kill em all 
Mane I've been addicted, now watch us ball watch us ball aye
Underground, you know we don't fuck around
Try to test few too many times you'll end up in the ground
On me I will make it happen
Piss me off wake up the kraken  
Pull up to your door "what's cracking?"
Bust the shit then I get to smacking, aye

Let the base slap like I'll slap your face, damn disgrace
You aint doing shit, you a fucking waste of space
Now, please come tell how I should do it
You don't even know, I fucking knew it
Cause you trynna sound like somebody else
And want to blow up shit aint making any sense, okay

But you know me, K.V, I be creeping your dreams
I be that night demon feeding of your fears
You know it, that feeling getting stronger
Till you give up can't last no longer 
Say your final goodbye, cause it's about time
Pull a gun then I load with my emotions
Got you sliding around like lotion
I pull up what's the commotion 
Got y'all talking like it's slow motion
Where the fuckboy at?
Got some bullets with that
Aiming at his head, then I make it blap, what

Underground, you know we don't fuck around
Try to test few too many times you'll end up in the ground
On me I will make it happen
Piss me off wake up the kraken  
Pull up to your door "what's cracking?"
Bust the shit then I get to smacking, aye

Push it all back, yeah
I've been committed
Now watch us ball, what
Pull a gun then I load with my emotions
Got you sliding around like lotion
I pull up what's the commotion-motion, aye
Where the fuckboy at
Where he at, where he at, where he at

Push it all back, mane, don't get it twisted 
I've been consistent sipping on some that got me feeling lifted 
I've been committed, to kill em all kill em all 
Mane I've been addicted, now watch us ball watch us ball aye
Underground, you know we don't fuck around
Try to test few too many times you'll end up in the ground
On me I will make it happen
Piss me off wake up the kraken  
Pull up to your door "what's cracking?"
Bust the shit then I get to smacking, aye

PushItAllBack (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

Bones at Your Feet (Bonus)

i wanna be the one

SHOOTING STAR (prod.Mazebored)

When viewed against the vastness of time and existence, our triumphs and troubles alike dissolve into insignificance - nothing is truly important, except the meaning we choose to give it.

$uicideboy$ - Fold (Insomnia Remix)

Insomnia

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