[story behind this track omitted, too personal and a big CW]

can you tell i love arpeggios? i loooove arpeggiation~ when You listen to my music and you hear arpeggios, know that i dial in alllll those notes manually, harmonies and all
you also will hear a LOT of automation, of volume levels and various kinds of modulation control. there's 18 melodic/chordal synths, not including drums and such. in-app playback totally fries my CPU in some places because of how i use automation

BPM 126 (for some reason, a popular BPM for me since 2008)
time elapsed: 87 hours

Stay Here With Us

Crayfishies is one i started in August 2019, albiet only the first section (the first 23 seconds). 

for each song, I'm listing the elapsed time it took to complete. according to FLM's stats for this project file.  Bear in mind, there have been several cases where i've done like an hour or so of work, and then switch to another project file without saving. this has happened... not too often but more than once i learned the hard way to pay attention hahaha

BPM 165
elapsed time: FLM says 88 hours but because ImageLine hadn't added this stat project files until 2023(?) so it's more like 105-ish hours

Crayfishies

this is the earliest song on the album, and one that was already completed* when i first had sense to compile this album
*I started this song in January 2019, finished the entire composition in less than 2 months, then... never released it for some reason. I'm glad i didn't; when i pulled it back up in August 2023 the mix was dogshit. so everything i've done for this song over the past year was simply fixing the mix, little by little, though i did alter the chord phrasing on the flutes

tf when no gf

BPM 66.6
time elapsed: the project file says 35 hours but it's really more like 60 hours i reckon

Lover

this one was started and halfway-completed in February 2020
what you need to know about me is that I get burnt out real easily, so the song title speaks for itself

BPM 96
elapsed time: FLM says 16 hours it's more like 50ish hours

At My Own Damn Pace

I started this in March 2023, composed the first 26 seconds and it got left on the shelf until August. 5 months is rather short for me to leave an incomplete song!!! i have hundreds of demos that have been sitting for years.
this song has the honor of being the only song on this album with me actually playing an (1) instrument passage instead of lazily punching everything into piano roll & automation. if u DM me correctly guessing what instrument I played with the time marker, I'll give u a cookie  :D  it's not so hard to notice once you hear the passage in question. I woulda loved to do much more with my hands, as in playing all the instruments for every song on the album, but I made this album entirely on my phone so, y'know, storage space is a factor and .WAV files are huge. also, injury, the whole reason i put time into making this album. the basslines are so fun & occasionally difficult, i would love to play these songs live with them playing as backing tracks with the bass synths removed so i can play bass along with the tracks. i'd love to do a one-woman show that way~ this would certainly make all of these songs sound far different, especially this track Angelkin because of the types of FX on the bass synth that i automated, like i'll need 2 or 3 distortion pedals, a wah pedal, a flanger and probably a couple others

this song had a different title and I recently changed the title back in July, though that's another story

BPM 142
elapsed time: 81 hours

Angelkin

this is the first song i started after my injury in August 2023. i think i may have demo'd this some years prior without remembering. the distorted riff is something i wanted to record on guitar but couldn't at the moment, and i spent soooo much time mixing the realest fake guitar that i could, that i decided "fuck it i'm not going back and recording with real electric guitar, i wanna show the fruit of my mixing efforts here"
the song itself is one that i wanted to feel comfortable sounding simple and repetitive, while offering variations of the featured riff/melody throughout the song. in fact, "Stay Here With Us", "Lover", and "At My Own Damn Pace" follow the same logic. "Crayfishies", "S.L.S.", "KNIFEGIRLS" and "Angelkin" are better for showing my more maximalist compositional proclivities. this one also had a different name and i changed it to Severity in like.. December or January? it was previously called Doorfucker. don't ask hahaha

BPM 94
believe it or not, for the simplicity of the piece, this took the longest at 107 hours

Severity

Started this one on March 1st, 2024, after already moving back my deadline for album release a couple times. 
the section at toward the end (where the drums drop out) was the first part that i came up with for the song. To me it sounds like a rave on the Sixth House (if they were to have raves on the Sixth instead of being nerds)

you can tell i love layered percussion?

BPM 143
time elapsed: 54 hours

Scientific Library Stuff

an unofficial alternate title for this track is Autism because i have it and sometimes this is what it sounds like. this was another last minute sprout, started in May 2024. 

this is the song that plays in Little Face's head when he thinks about choxbars

it's called KNIFEGIRL(S) because i've been imagining a music video for this where you have several clips of women smiling wild grins and waving knives at a camera, completely chaotic and unhinged energy

this is the only track on this album that loops!!!  ;D

BPM 176
elapsed time: the quickest song on this album to make, i estimate 40-45 hours; the project file says 135 hours because i branched it off Severity when i was about 90 hours into that project file

KNIFEGIRL!S!!!

A universe of comprised of matter not like our elementary particles, following laws of physics highly altered from our own and contracting faster than the speed of... whatever their equivalent of light is

Inverse Universe

A re-animated golem springs to life, constructed from the limbs and innards of different people. The Frankensteinian being dances in the movements danced before him by the various people he is comprised of & he's going hella hard

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