audio from my instagram years ago:
let’s drive to the beach it’s 3am but i don’t care
i am drunk off loving you and the wilted flowers in your hair
let’s go to the beach or just to bed, see i don’t mind
any time i spend with you is time i’m glad that i’m alive
cause you make me feel like i am not alone
with you i feel like i will always belong
in you i find contentment with the aching of my bones
let’s runaway
girls are soft and girls are safe
girls they make my heartbeat race
i can’t help it that you taste like cherry liquor to me
grab me by the hand and tell me it is but a game
these bitter hard to swallows are made sweeter by our play
i am drunk on loving you cause you make me feel safe
and i’ll just keep on loving you until you runaway
let’s runaway

‘Morgen Star’

let’s drive to the beach (demo)

uh idk but listen. just hear me out try dancing the emotion of frustration, codependency, and unsureness of identity to it

Lyrics:

Honestly I woke up 
the other morning
I thought ya
Would be gone by now
But your stuffs still at my house
And I don’t rly know how long
I can handle havin you here
I know I love your company
But I need my space myself, my dear

Baby I go to work
And you’re depressed
All day
And I don’t understand what makes you tick
I love you anyway

And there you are in the stairway
My love
There you are on the call
Just the call
Just the call
And if you’re gone in the morning
Then take your stuff down
Give it away to all the people
That’s what you said
If you’re gone somehow

And I don’t want 
To think about a reality
Where that’s a possibility 
But you’re so cruel
You say it right to me baby yeah
To me baby yeah
To me baby yeah 
To me baby yeah to baby baby to me 
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

You don’t care if I am crying
You don’t care if I am dying
On the inside when I go to work
And you are here all day long
And you don’t move around the room
You made my bed and
You let me fuck you
But I don’t want to
Don’t want to
You’re sad it brings me down
You’re so sad it brings me down
You’re so sad it drags me down
I don’t want to
You’re so sad it drags me down
You’re so sad it drags me down
You’re so sad it drags me down

Vocalizations

And it’s so easy to be
The man you want me to be
You’re easy baby
And I treat you like shit
You, you still like it
I know I never have to grow
When I’m around you
Cause you have no self esteem at all
Except what I give you
So I give you what I want to
So I give you what I’ve got to
So I don’t feel like an asshole
But you are such a bitch
You’re empty I’m over it
I don’t know why you’re like this
I don’t know why you’re like this

But I’m crying in the hallways
About how I am not enough for ya
And I am slipping on the grade scale
And I can’t, you know me well
How much I love you
But it’s all to much to love you
So I’ve got to get away now
Oh I’ve got to get away now

And there’s nothing for me
And I never made no friends
And there’s nothing for me
And I never made no friends
And there’s nothing for me
And it all comes to the end
And there’s nothing for me 
And it all comes to the end
So I’m goin home
And I’m gettin out
I grab my bones
And I’m gettin out
I’m goin home
And I’m getting down
And I’ll grab my bones
And I’m gettin out

Vocalizations

Last night I dusted off the shelf
And I’m doin good and I’m doin well
And I’m painting all my pretty stones
And I picture all my pretty selves

And I’m down on the sidewalk I’m down on myself
And I’m down on the sidewalk I’m down on myself
And I’m down on my cash
And I’m down on my wealth
And I’m down on my cash
And I’m down on my wealth
And baby-e-be-bum-be-bum-be-bum-baby-baby be my baby 
baby stay yeah
You’re my springtime baby yeh-yeah
You’re my springtime baby yeh-yeah
You make me feel right baby yeh-yeah
Baby you make me
You make me my 
self again
ay-yeah-e-yeah self again
Baby you make me
My self again
Baby you make me
My self again
Baby you make me
Ahhh
Baby you make me
Ahhh
Baby you make me
Ooh oh oh oh
Baby you make me
Ahhh ah ah ah
Ahhh ah ah ah
Baby you make me
Ooh ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah ah
Oooh ah ah ah
Ooh ah ah ah
Baby you make me
Baby you make me
Baby you make me
Baby you make me
Baby you make me
You make me
My self again

u make me myself /1st draft

skip around or dont or skip altogether. i mean, uve got options.

ocean of grief (draft 35 min)

honestly worth the listen it felt really good to sing. the melody is lovely and cathartic 🌻

what more do u want (1st draft)

Worms in his brains /1st Draft

downer /1st draft

bad taste /1st draft

improv/writing sesssion/the first draft of this song

change 4 me [draft]

/sorry its rough as always. i recommend skipping to 3rd verse at 1:00/
come on
just spit it out
i know you hate me
distasteful
the way that you look
when you kiss me on the mouth
you won’t hold my hand

you never had
any sense
going back 
i clearly have less than you
drivin down the coast is something that we’d never do

and i almost
lost you to the waves
but you behaved
were saved that day
baptise me
in your hate

i dont wanna change
for a stray puppy
but your big eyes
dont even need to beg
im by your side
till the end of days

and im kickin up dust
and you want to put me down
im sensitive but
you cant pick me out in a crowd
i don’t
want to remember
it’s far
far too tender
don’t protect me from
the goddamn truth
i need to know
what’s real to you

put me down
on the name of stones
i am dust
i am bones

i am chokin
on the webs
stories i made
up in my head
whatever there was
between us
i know i made
all of that shit up
I know I’m deranged
i did it for love
i give all i am
give what ive got
and you never asked
and you never did
but i gave what i had
had to give

D Em C Am

pick me out in a crowd [draft]

just lay down your head
right on my chest
i swear everything will be fine in a little bit

just lay down your head
on my chest
i swear it all will be fine in just a little while

i love you
i want to keep you from hurtin
im sorry
im sorry it all came down so hard

i love you
i want to stop you from hurtin
please
i didn’t mean to take it this far

kerosene
on my hands
am i the one
who started this housefire

kerosene
and glass from the lamp
i know i want it all
my dangerous desire

baby im
beating me up
dont you know what ive done
dont you know what ive done

i let the water in 
the high tide
it’s breakin it down
at midnight

and i know the waves are here
and theyll take whatever they like
and the end is near end is nigh
in the dark of the night

im stealin all of the stars
outta your eyes
im stealin of the light
out of your life

and though i loved you so dearly
i loved you so true
i cant help what i am
cant help what i do
and love is never enough
to stop me

cause i am a dragon
and i am a worm
i burrow in deeper
under your warm fur

i am a parasite
i am your one ride or die
darling ill kill you
if you don’t kill me first

from death until birth
just like we rehearsed
ill be there holdin you
till were both in the hearse

so dance with me
spin round the fire nine times
and come back to life

im sorry i crossed the one line everyone told me not to

i love you 
i love you 
i love you
i love you
i love you

i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you

i love you

G Am C

housefire

ok but who wants 2 start a band bc i can’t play guitar 4 shit

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