Not This (24/02/2022) by Irina

My heart is bleeding, worn and torn
Do not resuscitate
I don’t know where I am from
In a crisis state

Believed in better, trusted lies
At least I had some pride
But now, a war before my eyes
The terror bona fide

Unsure of my identity
What will keep me safe
Culture losing sanctity
Digging its own grave

Hypocrisy and bitter crime
“Civilians won’t be harmed”
Strangled by the darkest time
The Earth – shaken, alarmed

Although I’m not responsible
I’m feeling shame and guilt
I thought it wasn’t possible
But they grabbed the hilt

A slash, another, children scream
Displaced by politicians
God, let this be an awful dream
Inhumane conditions

My heart is bleeding, worn and torn
I cannot bear to witness
Generations not yet born
Never seeing kindness

Endless sanctions, tensions, greed
Fighting one another
Nothing’s ever been agreed
Upon I now discover

Who am I? Afraid to ask
Powerless, that’s what
Distance is no easy task
Cannot stay afloat

A ghost has occupied my place
Emotions go to slumber
Cannot bear to see my face
While fields shall burn to umber

Aggression, a cold-blooded act
But real blood will be spilled
How many people won’t know home
How many will be killed

Historical event, God, no
Don’t want to live through this
My heart is broken, all time low
Not this, not this, not this


Music in background: 
Cello Concerto by Edward Elgar I. Adagio - Moderato
Royal Philharmonic Orchestra
Maria Kliegel, cello
Michael Halasz, conductor

Not This

by George Shearing and B. Y.  Forster
Ella Fitzgerald cover

Artwork by Sarah Bridgland

Lullaby Of Birdland

by Rezső Seress and Sam M. Lewis
Billie Holiday influence
The tree is at the front of Hampton Court Palace

Gloomy Sunday

by Antonio Carlos Jobim,  English lyrics by Gene Lees
Astrud Gilberto Cover

Corcovado

Melody Gardot cover
backing by Alan McPike

If I Tell You I Love You

Radiohead cover in the style of Haley Reinhart and Scott @ Postmodern Jukebox

Creep

Cry Me A River

by Antonio Carlos Jobim
Luis - guitar, voice - https://soundcloud.com/luissantos-1-1
Greg - piano, melodica - https://soundcloud.com/g-c-ess
Irina - voice

Wave - Luis, Greg, Irina - collaboration

by Eddie Cooley and John Davenport
Vocals by Irina
Arrangement by Robert @cinematicdancemusic
Mastered by Geoff Pesche - Abbey Road

Fever - Robert, Irina - collaboration

by Antonio Carlos Jobim & Vinícius de Moraes, English lyrics by Norman Gimbel
Luis - guitar, voice - @luissantos-1-1
Greg - piano - @g-c-ess
Irina - voice

Insensatez - Luis, Greg, Irina - collaboration

by Richard Rodgers and Lorenz Hart
Arrangement by Dave Grusin
Piano by Stephen Robinson

Thank you all for incredible support!!!

My Funny Valentine

by  Luiz Bonfá and Matt Dubey
Jamie Rhind - keyboards - https://soundcloud.com/jamie-rhind
Irina - voice
artwork by Karen Tarlton

When I first heard the original interpretation of Gentle Rain by Jamie
https://soundcloud.com/jamie-rhind/gentle-rain-luiz-bonfa, I fell in love. It did feel like rain, it did feel like bossa nova and it did feel like singing... by Luiz Bonfá, a fabulous guitarist

Gentle Rain - with Jamie Rhind

Music and lyrics by Irina
Vocals - Irina and Luis - https://soundcloud.com/luissantos-1-1

UKSC 2017 Winner
BBC Introducing Mixtape by Tom Robinson 5.02.2018

I am so grateful to Luis for adding new colours  to this song with his enchanting voice and impeccable phrasing. He opened a new dimension to say the least.

Raindrops on my window
Echo in my heart
Never-ending winds blow
Tearing us apart.

You protect your distance
I enjoy my space
Bored of coexistence
Scared of losing face.

We both know it's time to stop pretending
Time to let it go
We embraced the imminence of ending
Long ago.

Yet you're still all tenderness and kindness
All I'm thinking of
Is you. Is this our comfortable blindness
Or love, we're still in love?

Rain is slowly painting
Gloomy skies in grey
We are tired of waiting
Who braves out to say.

You're so self-reliant
I'm so self-contained
Helplessly defiant
Painfully constrained.

Yet you're still all tenderness and kindness
All I'm thinking of
Is you. Is this our comfortable blindness
Or love? We're still in love...

Uncertain Love

by Duke Ellington, with lyrics by Eddie DeLange and Irving Mills

Jörg - saxophone, mixing and mastering - https://soundcloud.com/joerxworx
Irina - voice

Piano trio by Alan McPike - https://www.standardstrax.com
Artwork by Tatyana Markovtsev - https://feeltheline.com

Solitude - Irina and Jörg

Music and lyrics by Irina
Keyboard - Jamie Rhind - @jamie-rhind
Voice - Irina
Artwork by Emba Dibujos

UKSC 2017 Winner

This is my first go at smooth jazz (not The Hollies :) And Jamie was so kind to help me in this journey with his amazing sound.

Come away with me
Leave your fears behind
There’s so much to see
And so much to find
We could reach the stars
Smiling up above
All the world is ours
All the world is love

If you care to find
If you dare to see
Leave your fears behind
Come along with me
We could chase the clouds
Running up above
All the world is ours
All the world is love

All The World Is Love

by Benjamin Biolay and Keren Ann

vocals - Irina and KidOfEarth - @kidofearth
instrumental - http://www.version-karaoke.fr/

When Raph invited me to collaborate on Jardin d'Hiver, I was very enthusiastic. The song is magnificent and offered a chance to pay tribute to Henri Salvador and express love to Stacey Kent. Hope you like our interpretation.

English translation

I would like green sun
Lace and teapots
Seaside photos
In my winter garden

I would like light
As in New England
I want to change the atmosphere
In my winter garden

My flower dress in the November rain
Your hands running.. I cannot wait for you any longer
The years go by, how far it is from the tender age
No one can hear us

I would like Fred Astaire
To see a Latécoère
I would always like you
In my winter garden

I want to have lunch on the floor
Like along the clear gulfs
Kiss you with your eyes open
In my winter garden

My flower dress in the November rain
Your hands running.. I cannot wait for you any longer
The years go by, how far it is from the tender age
No one can hear us..

Jardin d'Hiver - duet with KidOfEarth

by Maceo Pinkard, Doris Tauber and William Trace

Irina - voice
Robert - arrangement - @cinematicdancemusic

Piano trio by Alan McPike - https://www.standardstrax.com
Artwork by Pablo Picasso, 1938

Them There Eyes - Irina and Robert

Written by:  Dimitri Tiomkin and Ned Washington

Vocals - Irina
Piano - Eric Dartel - @ericdartel

Artwork by Tatyana Markovtsev - https://feeltheline.com

Wild Is The Wind - with Eric Dartel

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina

When the stars are out
And the night is new
I can see no stars
All I see is you
I can see no moon
Gliding through the skies
I'm forever lost
In your magic eyes

If you just say
I'd run away with you
I'd give my heart
I'd risk my life for you
But I'd stay away my love
If you only say my love

When the sun is up
And the day is due
I can see no sun
All I see is you
I can see no clouds
Gliding through the skies
I'm forever drowned
In your magic eyes

If you just say
I'd run away with you
I'd give my heart
I'd risk my life for you
But I'd stay away my love
If you only say my love

Magic Eyes

Merry Christmas, SoundCloud!

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina
Guitar by AB

Snowflakes dancing on the ground
Fairy lights aglow
Joyful music, merry crowds
Everywhere we go.

Sleigh bells ring
Children sing
'Round the Christmas tree
Many hopes this night will bring
One for you and me.

Morning scares away the charms
Snowflakes turn to rain
But
As long as I'm in your arms
I do not complain.

Earth will spin
Birds will sing
Every moment of
Happiness this life will bring
When we are in love

For You And Me

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina
Artwork by Tatyana Markovtsev - http://feeltheline.com/

One more day
One more night with you
We'll make it beautiful

One more rhyme
One more song for you
I'll make it beautiful

I love you
I never felt like this before
I love you
I wish I could but give you more

One more smile
Lights your charming face
I think it's beautiful

One more kiss
One more last embrace
We'll make it beautiful

I love you
There's nothing wrong to feel like this
I love you
A chance that we don't want to miss

Beautiful

Love Theme from "Spartacus"
Music by Alex North/Terry Callier

Piano -  Eric Dartel - @ericdartel
Vocals - Irina

Artwork by 佐藤 碧

Love Theme From Spartacus - Irina & Eric

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina
Guitar by AB

Featured on BBC Radio 6 Introducing Mixtape by Tom Robinson on 10.02.2020

One day, I don't know when
But scientifically speaking it is highly likely
When we meet again
I'll have a crush on you
You'll have no clue
What you have to say
You'll even try to run away
But soon enough you've got to see
You've got to have a crush on me

One day, one lucky day
Our hormone levels fluctuate and regulate our choices
When we meet again
One day, one lucky day
I'll pour some chemistry for you
I'll share biology with you
And soon enough you've got to see
You've got to have a crush on
Me gotta have a crush on
You gotta have a crush on me

You've Gotta Have A Crush On Me

By Duke Ellington and Manny Kurtz

Guitar by AB

In A Sentimental Mood

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina
Piano trio by Alan McPike

Love me if you can
Love me now and then
Love me if you want
Love me if you don't

Love me if you care
Love me if you dare
Love me from afar
Love me where you are

Take one step closer
One more step please
One small step closer
One more little step to me

Love Me

By T. Monk and B. Hanighen
Remixed from www.karaoke-version.co.uk
Vincent Van Gogh, Starry Night, 1889

Vocals by Irina

Round Midnight

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina

You say to me
Te echo de menos
I say to you
Don't be so zealous

I have the power
Don't disrespect me
Delete my number
If you still love me

Made my decision, stick by the rules
Live how I'm meant to, follow the cues
Let go of illusions, now I can see
A renaissance, stronger version of me

You say to me
Te echo de menos
I say to you
Don't be so zealous

I have the power
Don't disrespect me
Delete my number
If you still love me

A silly girl became a wise woman
Free, breathing, happy, perfectly human
Don't need a partner to spin in this dance
Don't need a lover to have a romance

You say to me
Te echo de menos
I say to you
Don't be so zealous

I have the power
Don't disrespect me
Delete my number
If you still love me

If You Still Love Me

by Lew Brown and Ray Henderson

Trumpet and piano trio by Andrew Morley https://soundcloud.com/user-605559559
Vocals by Irina

Can't thank Andrew enough for his wonderful interpretation of this classic.

The Thrill Is Gone | Irina & Andrew Morley

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina

This song can be interpreted in many ways, from the pressure one feels when facing the unexpected to struggles with inspiration and motivation. I hope it helps you find your personal 'flight mode', like it did for me!

Please scroll down for English

Поставлю паузу, затаю дыхание
Как меня достало это расстояние
Между смыслом и душой
Как же быть самой собой
Пора

Мешают стены, они так давят
Нервная война сознание усмиряет
Мотивация на ноль
Креативная мозоль
Пока

Моральный кризис одержим
Включи ка авиарежим

В твоей голове бушуют волны
Эти жалобы мне так знакомы
Между нейронами полный диссонанс
Лучше всё забыть, чем глупость вспомнить
Незнание как Ариаднина нить
Перезагрузка наш последний шанс

Конечно жалко, к чему нам притворство
Пропало любимое рутинёрство,
Следовать будильнику,
Говорить с мобильником
Дыра

Спасает лишь юмор, горький и едкий
А наше мнение посидит в клетке
Тише, чтоб без паники
Чудовища охраники
Игра

Моральный кризис одержим
Включи ка авиарежим

В твоей голове бушуют волны
Эти жалобы мне так знакомы
Между нейронами полный диссонанс
Лучше всё забыть, чем глупость вспомнить
Незнание как Ариаднина нить
Перезагрузка наш последний шанс

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I hit pause and hold my breath
How tired I am of this distance
Between the meaning and the soul
How can I be myself?
It’s time

Walls closing in with mounting pressure,
Nervous warfare subdues the mind
Motivation’s down to zero
Creativity’s a sore
For now

The moral crisis is a mania
Turn on flight mode

Waves roaring in your head
These complaints are so familiar
Neurons in complete dissonance
Better forget it all than remember something foolish
Obliviousness like Ariadne’s thread
Reboot is our last chance

Of course, it’s a shame, why pretend
Our favorite routine is gone
Following the alarm clock
Talking to the mobile phone
The hollow

The only salvation is humor, bitter and caustic,
While our opinion will sit in a cage
Quiet, to avoid the panic,
Guardians of the beast
The game

The moral crisis is a mania
Turn on flight mode

Waves roaring in your head
These complaints are so familiar
Neurons in complete dissonance
Better forget it all than remember something foolish
Obliviousness like Ariadne’s thread
Reboot is our last chance

Flight Mode

Авиарежим (Flight Mode)

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina
Guitar by AB

The Japanese system for counting higher numbers is based on the decimal progression grouping into sets of 4 zeros: 10,000 (万), 100,000,000 (億), etc, rather than 3. I was always fascinated why, particularly because in Japan 4 is not a popular number due to its "on" reading... This song will not delve into further exploration of this topic but the influence is apparent in the title - ichiokukai.

Tell me once, now tell me twice
Tell me hundred million times
All those hundred million lies
I long to hear

When you talk the way you do
I don't care if it comes true
All I care about is you
When you're so near

Hush, my heart
Don't jump out just yet
Hush, my heart
Time and again you forget

Tell me fast, now tell me slow
All those things I wanna know
Say you never let me go
I'm ready to believe

When you talk the way you do
I don't care if it comes true
All I care about is you
I'm ready to forgive

Hush, my heart
Don't jump out just yet
Hush, my heart
Time and again you forget

Tell me once, now tell me twice

Hundred Million Times (一億回)

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina
Music, arrangement and all instruments by Dan van den Berg https://soundcloud.com/danarchx

I am absolutely delighted and honored that Dan took part in this song. I have always admired his outstanding musical skills and remarkable versatility. This is our fourth collaboration, hope you like it!

Lyrics:

The illness progresses
The cure is to accept it and move on
What used to be molasses
Turning my capillaries to stone

No amount of cough drops 
Will fix how choked up 
I am over you

My heart is sore
You push for more
I'm barely pulling through

Inmóvil me quedo quieto y me pudro
Ya que tiene mas sentido que esperar un milagro

The cavities and ulcers decorate my body
Inside out, my temples throbbing with persistent ache
You know too damn well from you there is no remedy
I wilt away and leave the sorrows in my wake

Inmóvil me quedo quieto y me pudro
Ya que tiene mas sentido que esperar un milagro

The illness progresses
Pathology suggests it's there to stay
I wear no rosy glasses
But still I'm thankful for another day

No amount of cough drops 
Will fix how choked up 
I am over you

My heart is sore
Tears hit the floor
I'm barely pulling through

Inmóvil me quedo quieto y me pudro
Ya que tiene mas sentido que esperar un milagro

Inmóvil me quedo quieto y me pudro
Ya que tiene mas sentido que esperar un milagro


Info:

Guitar: Joan Cashimira, modelo 145, spruce top w/ cocobolo sides and back, Gata de Gorgos (Alicante), 2015
Fender Jazz Bass
Percussion created with SampleTank and AmpliTube
Guitars recorded with an Apogee MiC

Cover image photo edit by Irina
Taken at Olafur Eliasson exhibition, Tate Modern

Inmóvil

Inmóvil | Irina & Daniël

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina

Even in Russian this title can be interpreted differently, to say nothing of the English translation. But this is what we like - freedom of imagination :) Hope you enjoy the song.

От твоего взгляда веет холодом
Осталась я одна с простывшим городом
Век живи и век учись
Тупость требуют на бис
Но ведь мне было так приятно верить

Снова ты и снова кризис
Как страдает мой душевный бизнес
Сердце просит выходной
Возвращается домой
Тихо замедляю темп
Не танцую я контемп
За собой дверь затворю
Ухожу пока тебя люблю

Пропущу звонки и сообщения
Как же я устала от общения
Пожар бушует в голове
Сжигаю мысли о тебе
А ведь мне было так приятно верить

Снова ты и снова кризис
Как страдает мой душевный бизнес
Сердце просит выходной
Возвращается домой
Тихо замедляю темп
Не танцую я контемп
За собой дверь затворю
Ухожу пока тебя люблю

Интересней пообщаться со стеной
Чем пустые темы обсуждать с тобой
Оставляя политес
Ликвидирую абсцесс
Надоело придумывать happy end-ы

Снова ты и снова кризис
Как страдает мой душевный бизнес
Сердце просит выходной
Возвращается домой
Тихо замедляю темп
Не танцую я контемп
За собой дверь затворю
Ухожу пока тебя люблю

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I feel the coldness of your glance
Left alone with the cold city
The longer you live the more you know
Stupidity is being called for an encore
But it was such a pleasure to believe

You again - a crisis again
Oh, how the business of my soul suffers
The heart is asking for a holiday
It is coming back home
Quietly I slow down the tempo
I do not dance contemporary
Will close the door behind me
I am leaving while still loving you

I will miss calls and messages
How tired I am of communication
Fire roaring in my head
I am burning the thoughts of you
I took so much pleasure from believing

You again - a crisis again
Oh, how the business of my soul suffers
The heart is asking for a holiday
It is coming back home
Quietly I slow down the tempo
I do not dance contemporary
Will close the door behind me
I am leaving while still loving you

It is more interesting to talk to a wall
Than to discuss empty topics with you
Leaving politesse behind
I remove the abscess
Tired of making up happy endings

You again - a crisis again
Oh, how the business of my soul suffers
The heart is asking for a holiday
It is coming back home
Quietly I slow down the tempo
I do not dance contemporary
Will close the door behind me
I am leaving while still loving you

Душевный бизнес (Soul Business)

Music, lyrics and vocals by Irina
Painting by Irina, canvas 10 x 10 cm

Featured: 
Fresh On The Net: https://freshonthenet.co.uk/2021/01/faves391
BBC Introducing: https://bbc.in/3j5zovS

The painting shows my hometown, the city of Tsukuba, Ibaraki prefecture, Japan, the place that I will forever hold dear in my heart.

I know you must be busy
And life cannot be easy
To find the energy to go on

The night unfurls its splendor
My thoughts are sweet and tender
Hoping we can chat when you logon

君に会いたい
声を聞きたいです
少しでも会えたら
嬉しい

どこ に います か
隠れないで
帰って きます か
My heart is online


The night turns into morning
Melancholy is boring
WiFi is dead, our networks misaligned

I overthink, I stutter
Under my breath I mutter
If only I could see what's on your mind

君に会いたい
声を聞きたいです
少しでも会えたら
嬉しい

どこ に います か
隠れないで
帰って きます か
My heart is online

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chorus:

I want to see you
I want to hear your voice
Would be happy to meet even just for a bit

Where are you
Don't hide
Will you come back?
My heart is online

My Heart Is Online

London based singer-songwriter with a strong appreciation of jazz. UKSC 2017 Winner, BBC Introducing artist. SoundCloud feels like home where interacting with wonderful musicians has been so much fun. Hope you have as much fun listening.

Irina

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