Lyrics:

I don't know what to sing 
I don't know what to do
I want to go somewhere new

Take me to the fields
Where little girls play
All day
Away from their fathers
Who touch them in their sleep

Take me somewhere new
Somewhere I can be better
Better

Take me to the fields
Where little girls play
All day
Away from their fathers
Who touch them in their beds
Who'll haunt them in their heads
For years to come

Take me somewhere new
Take me somewhere I can be better
Better

Maybe then
I won't feel so haunted
Maybe then I could finally play

In the fields
With the little girls
Away from our fathers
Who touched us in our beds

Who still haunt our heads


The Fields (demo)

Lyrics: 

Papercuts, calluses, and blisters cover my feet and hands
I bury them in the sand
With the salt of the sea
And the tears I try so hard to push down
I'll see you around
Kissing your boyfriend, a car full of happy sounds
I'm happy, I'm happy, I swear I'm happy, I'm

Telling myself it'll be alright 
Telling myself I'll find her in good time
But even if I do
I'll still envy you
Cause I trip on a crooked path, while you get to walk in straight lines

And it's just not fair
You have no fear in your love
No shame in lust or even holding hands
Why can't I love a man?
It would be so much easier
This whole thing is bringing me down
And I'm drowning in happy sounds

Telling myself it'll be alright 
Telling myself I'll find her in good time
But even if I do
I'll still envy you
Cause I trip on a crooked path, while you get to walk in straight lines

Straight Lines (voice memo)

Lyrics:

I was waiting around
Waiting for you to make up your mind

I was waiting around
Waiting downtown
Do you want love?

Well I don't know
Where I'll go but,
All these words
I pick and choose
To get through to you

Do you want love?
Are you an angel sent from heaven above?
Or are you like me?
You don't really believe in that stuff

Believe me I wish the magic was real
All these lies I tell myself
In order to get by

You can't know
Really what it's like

Who I am
And who I lie about are one in the same
Do I treat it like a game?
You tell me

bugs in my room
come around soon and I'll be waiting

bugs in my room (demo)

Lyrics:

Take me where the lilacs bloom
Hold me close and end it soon
Darling, will you wait for me?
Darling, will you wait for me?

Plunge the knife into my heart
Cause there's no way we can restart
Darling, you won't wait for me
And darling, I won't wait for you

Lay me down on the soil, the earth
I'll bleed for the lilacs, the violets, the roses
But I won't bleed for you
I won't bleed for you

Care for the Garden (voice memo)

Lyrics:

I fear I've lost my love for notes
Honeysuckle coats my throat
Bugs on the shower walls
Time crawling through the halls

I wanna be the center of your dreams
Replace your mind with my very being
And say you can't, say you can't live
Without me

Center(voice memo)

Lyrics:

Made in an empty womb
Tell mama I'll be better soon
Even if it's a lie
Let her believe it's true

Made in a broken house
Told to be as quiet as a mouse
As cold hands
Hold down my body

Made in the hopes of bringing peace
Made to be the opposite of destruction
Yet here I stand
Sledgehammer in hand
Breaking and hurting hearts
All around me

Sweet mental illness
Drown me in your everlasting numbness
So I can forget all the ways I failed
To fulfill the reasons why I was
Made (x4)

In the end
All I am is made
And the reasons why
I simply threw all away

Made (demo)

Lyrics:
Find me a woman made of stone
Carve me out of these overgrown bones
Darling touch me like you mean it
and hold me like I'll break if you don't
I'll break if you don't

Standing in a parking lot
3am lights on and off
How do you find the time of day?
to make me feel this kind of way?
I'm obsessed
with getting undressed
for women I barely know

I was always told to seek men made of gold
but not a single one could ever know my soul
The way that eyes of a similar kind
bleed into mine
Murky mixing of waters new
I will only seek after you

By standing in a parking lot
at 3am lights on and off
How do you find the time of day?
to make me feel this kind of way?
I'm obsessed
with getting undressed
for women I barely know
'cause I'm convinced
that collectively they do know my soul

'cause they taste like it, I've tasted it
Pomegranate flesh stuck between teeth
and liquid red lust drowning my mouth

and it feels so good to eat so well
it feels so good to eat so well (x3)
but this bread is growing stale
it's just too much, with mold and all
And pomegranate rots
after sitting in heat

Carpet M (voice memo)

Lyrics: 

I've had a bad sweet tooth all my life 
Take my coffee black, but still with 3 spoonfuls of sugar
I love desserts, I love chocolate cake, and all baked goods
And I love bread in general
But comfort carbs can't fill this void in my heart
No matter how much I eat, and wish it to be true

Life isn't very sweet
And I don't want it to be

I always thought I'd turn out to be, a hopeless romantic
But I prefer to be alone, most of the time
And sure it would be nice to learn what love is

But I don't want fancy dates, or cute pet names, I don't want roses, or chocolate boxes
I don't want to be yours, and I don't want you to be mine
I would rather sit around, hold your hand, talk about life

And I don't want tons of gifts, or expensive trips, I just wanna get to know someone for real

I've always had a bad sweet tooth
But dating, and romance, taste too sweet
Even for me

Sweet Tooth (demo)

she/her, lesbian diaries up in here
writing songs about trauma and feelings and stuff :))
a place for just my demos/drafts tbh

Isabella Pozo