My first solo release is here, I hope you enjoy.

This song was inspired by those feelings we sometimes have. Those days where your phone feels like a kind of bogeyman. A monster perched on your nightstand rather than under your bed, or in your closet. When life becomes overwhelming, and all you want to do is curl up into a ball and shut the world out. 

This was me looking inwards, and examining how I've felt the last little while. Assessing my coping mechanism and their effectiveness, and not quite reaching any sort of final conclusion. But being that little bit closer to understanding myself and what makes me tick

Peace and love, Ish

Lyrics:
I-I’m in practice, my mic is my therapist
spill my tea out on my notebook and air it out
feeling blue as a pair of tits
An outcast like a heretic
All alone on this boat
No terra firma, nowhere to live
Bitch I’m sick of it
Gotta jot down all of my nightmares
Gotta jot down all of my fears
Gotta jot down all of my doubts and my plans to get outta here
‘Cause I gotta escape to find a place I belong
‘Cause I’ll lose it if I’m asked once more where I’m really from

Haven’t picked up my fucking phone today
Messages piling up, yeah I’ve been hiding but…
Haven’t the energy, attention, or the time of day
For any phoney fucks
Yeah I’ve been lonely but…

Wh-Who can you really count on, I don’t even trust myself
I’ve royally fucked up every chance and hand that I was dealt
Took a hit at 15, now I’m bust at 25
Must’ve run outta luck, might need alone to survive
Sit at home by myself, grab my pad and my pen
Draw and write through the night, ‘cause my thoughts are racing again
Tryna understand and make sense of what’s in my mind, what’s in my head, to no end

Haven’t picked up my fucking phone today
Messages piling up, yeah I’ve been hiding but…
Haven’t the energy, attention, or the time of day
For any phoney fucks
Yeah I’ve been lonely but…

I-I find it hard to put my all in this
And so I don’t (Don’t)
Don’t wanna choke (Ch-Ch-Choke)
Keep my guard up if I never swing I’ll never miss
One bad day is all that separates us from a slip up
Down the rabbit hole I tumbled
Day by day I tripped up
Struggling to get my footing
Don’t know where i should be looking
It’s too dark, I’ve got my ups and downs confused and mixed up
The way I’m stumbling, shit maybe someone laced my liquor 

 Haven’t picked up my fucking phone today
Messages piling up, yeah I’ve been hiding but…
Haven’t the energy, attention, or the time of day
For any phoney fucks
Yeah I’ve been lonely but…

Haven’t picked up my fucking phone today
Messages piling up, yeah I’ve been hiding but…
Haven’t the energy, attention, or the time of day
For any phoney fucks
Yeah I’ve been lonely but…

Credits:
Written & Produced by Ishmael Mnensa
Additional Vocals from Chikondi / www.instagram.com/chikondi_xo
Mixed & Mastered by Nicolaas Walle / www.nicolaaswalle.com
Artwork by Niall Murphy / www.instagram.com/nhoultheghoul

Ish Outta Water