I feel like I've heard this from somewhere, but can't remember where.

Stems are available @ https://evangeline.info

this song is about wanting normal things like normal people

Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
R. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan

https://evange-line.bandcamp.com/track/tailspin-ft-callum-sheehan-mt-saint-michael

[ SOC ]

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I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

Music Video: https://youtu.be/SZW7eoFDP6k

ITS TRUCK MONTH BABY !!!!

thanks to @jessephamel for the cover art and the MUSIC VIDEO!
thanks to @wishlane for backup vocals on the last chorus !
thanks to all of YOU for your love and support !

lyrics:
i'm scared to leave my room now
i'm scared to leave my house
my mom says it's unhealthy
that i never get out
i'm scared of the helicopters
scared of the cops
i'm scared of the chem-trails
keep my door locked

keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

i'm tired of baggy eyes
of being an adult
white guys on youtube always tell me it's my fault
i need to try to meditate
get off of these meds
if there's no [redacted] left
then fuck it it's the end



keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

PG-13

mar·ces·cent
(of leaves or fronds) withering but remaining attached to the stem

i saw another orange leaf
hanging from a tree
it will tell us of the winter
as falls beneath our feet
it's trying plant a seed
and dig itself underneath
it'll fade into the soil
to find a way to breathe

in through the air it flies
and with the wind it finds
a new call to life
a new fall to write

i watch shadows fade beneath
and clouds cover the beach
and maybe this is a sign
that i've been living too carefree
so i've waiting for that leaf
to paint a perfect scene
and soon ill come to find
that lie was just a dream

in through the air it flies
and with the wind it finds
a new call to life
a new fall to write

in through the air it flies
and with the wind it finds
a new call to life
a new fall to write

marcescent

I just wanna clear something up
I’m from a small town in a broken nation
I just wanna clear something up
You’re never gonna change if you don’t make some
You say you’re so afraid, and for what?
If only could make a couple bucks I’d be there
But I play it off
You’ll never see me in the room when I take off

I swear you couldn’t make it up
It’s a policy affair that no one cares about
And I swear I’m done and fed up
And no one’s ever gonna change if we don’t say sumn
Just stay off my back for one year I’m gone
Only worry if I’m wrong
You’re never gonna make it
Running round screaming in your songs
Could be wrong
By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up
I just wanna
Yeah
(Hi)
I just wanna clear something
I just wanna
(Fuck)


But you’d never know the half of what was there
If you never ask
And you’re goin through the motions as if you don’t care
We know that that’s a lie
Yea you know that that’s a lie
And I know you said it twice
Yea I know you said it twice
Well maybe I’m wrong but you said it enough
Holding the advantage in your clutch
I won’t even mention all your luck
You were only 20 holding down a family on your own
How you’ve grown

By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it 
running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up

I just wanna clear something up

amazing cover art by @musictravels (jacob travels)
thank you Jacob for all the encouragement, advice, and painting.

thank you Christian and Paddy for feedback.

sifting through the worst of it, I know it shouldn't hurt
sifting through the worst of the words

Quit it with the philosopher pose
Just start singing some words and record
It doesn't need to make sense right now
and you know it I'm not built like a poet, baby

United States of America Centric Chart-Topping Lyrical Miracle 2022
I look up to you, I know it's a sin but I feel like it's my only escape

hide the fact that I am writing something pretty bad but it's okay,
hiding terrible songs that you'll never hear
but you know it I'm not built like a poet baby

Can't I stop making it hard, there is nothing to write
I know all of the words and they're just trying to hide

Plan is to bring my folks over to the show, to show them that I could do it
And in good time oh how much I'd grow, I'll tell them that they knew it

I wish I could write like Phoebe, Matty, You, Justin, Tracy, and you

Can't I stop making it hard, there is nothing to write
I know all of the words and they're just trying to hide

Just stop making it hard, there is nothing to write
You know all of the words in your heart and your mind

Lyrics 2022

Kissing, the second single off of my debut album, Canary Lane. 

lyrics:

its eyes are made of stone
and its mouth of sweat and oil
its speaks of god and home
and my legs abandon me next
and it hates me, and they hate me
and it hates me, but it holds me
and i press it to my heart
and i hold it to my eye

i think i feel it kissing up my back

the walls and floor are screaming
and my mother's voice is far
the miasmatic chugging
of my hometown's hunger surrounds me
and it cuts me, and it fucks me
and i hate it, but it loves me

i think i feel it kissing up my neck

stream (rolling out)

kissing

the veldt

happy bday malea <3

lyrics:

in love with you
too much to reveal too soon
oh im such fool for you
my crush and you like me too

must act cool around you
how the fuck do i show you how
you make me feel, so good
hope you feel the same way too

hold my hand take me somewhere new
dont care where it is or what we do
let's go some place no one will find 
times up leave all of your things behind

last year i thought my life would end
life sucks sometimes but i like to pretend
im with you when i feel alone
im with you when i feel alone  yeah!

i'm with you when i feel alone x4 yeah!

hold my hand take me somewhere new
dont care where it is or what we do
let's go some place no one will find 
times up leave all of your things behind

last year i thought my life would end
life sucks sometimes but i like to pretend
im with you when i feel alone
im with you when i feel alone  yeah!

malea

BUY ON BANDCAMP

series of sound sketches from 11-29-22 to 12-19-22 (no particular order)

new videos out in 2023, hopefully. huge thanks for the support this year!

dream fractals

buy on bandcamp: https://otrapic.bandcamp.com/track/222-confide

stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7AkiwfHiSxAxU7AtAsloII?si=C2m3F-DpR7-8wOTUVFeFXA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A0taEiwYEg4gWjOcNNzj02L

listen on apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/222-confide/1665450831?i=1665450832

~~~

to confide in this feeling
her sapling: overgrown
to sing into the bleeding heavens

im waiting
or am i sinking?

got some mud in my blood, let it rot
got some crud in my brain, let it clot up
and will i miss this sound when it’s not around?
will i miss the sound?

222_confide

my song about not being there for you

--

It's hard to be in the middle
It cuts you up, it's so sharp
But love couldn't be as simple
As stumbling your way through the dark

If I could be as comforting would you start
Giving me a room to get in your heart?

I'm trying to hide these emotions
Heart race in the back of your car
And that time that we went to the ocean
I wish I had taken you more far

If I could be as comforting would you start
Giving me a room to get in your heart?

--

art generated using dall-e

borderline lovesick

https://linktr.ee/isopod_
descended and devolved into an aquatic crustacean

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