prod by marlon & jacob vallen

its hard to feel proud
wonder when i fell behind
i cant find a reason now
between the lines

need something i can lean on
just something for myself
people change, it seems im the only one that cant move on at all

sleep away my days, its got me feeling useless
theres alot to say, when i dont i feel like a nuisance 

sleep away i lay awake
don't follow me, my dream is fake
my blood still flows it circulates
clown on stage 

not everything revolves around you, its a hard truth to tell, all this circus has to end
i've been barely proud of myself, this is where i dwell, no more masks we used to lend
from now on it's only no repent, i just do my thing, then i got no one to blame
but in the end i did resent, think i didn't think, enough to see flames

proud w/ marlon

purple bruises

prod wraithontheporch
ty to @wraithwilldie for hopping on <3 love u dude

lyrics

(chbv)
these nights get a little lonely, thats alright
cuz lifes hard, stare at the stars, that serves u right
little light on the juice, it'll keep me tight
studying my research doesnt work, so i
what's it like to live rent free in my head?
muscles tearing slowly, do u want me dead?
we used to love offroading, we did it every day
and now its hard living without u in my way

(wraith)
Just another apology
I’m trying my best
To keep the blood in these arteries
Withholding the mess
Girl just say what you want from me
Lower artillery, there’s nothing that’s left
And if I’m wasting my breath it’s
Only meant to be penance
Nearly calling it quits
Just let me die every sentence
A head full of tension
Heart full of damage
Counting the seconds
Patching wounds with the bandage
Holding your hands its
Almost too much to manage
Am I mental and manic?
Guess I’m finally crashing

incision w/ wraith

produced by hvci
mixed and mastered by hvci

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lyrics -
words get caught
in my teeth 
heart too loud
when i speak
hands still shake
when i’m calm
call it peace
but it’s gone  

gone
gone
gone 
gone

don’t ask, i’m fine
most days, i lie
it’s quiet inside
too quiet sometimes

breathe

just
breathe
just
nah
just

breathe

gone

you ft Wraith

lyrics ⬇️

im not one to stop and look both ways
no chance ill be out there when the road way
blocked
stop and stare until urhead shakes 
wont wake up unless i turn all the lights off
what a way to live my life i wanna stand tall
i need the rays from the sunshine but the rain falls
i cant explain the way i change when both my fists are folded
all the anger up in me starts to hone in

know this every time you spot me ill be hoping
closest memories you hold to me are broken 
potent every single line and every notion

wake me up when its over
ill be there when ur sober
only
i dont like it when you slur your words
cheap liquor only makes it worse

i know you know it that i dont like these emotions much
when you throw it ima hold it til you make me budge
yea thats all that i know
everything goes wrong 
but anything that works

i knew it what was up before its over
i shoulda spoke up but i was scared id be a loner
i think its a bright idea if i dont poke the ogre 

something in my noggin said that it’d hurt like an ulcer
so i didnt choose it by myself
it was all up in my brain got no feeling that you felt
u been ignoring all my phone calls made my own lil personal hell

and you a poser you aint worried bout my health
youd rather watch me in my cell
i hate the steel bars that you put across my face but say oh well

not a thing id rather see more but i wish that you could tell
how i mean to sound i dont wanna scream i swear i hate to yell
but you give me no choice you folded over the second you felt ur frail

disassociating ever time im worried ima fall
its been tauntng me when someome walk by with a simialr smell
i think it’s obvious im worried til im sick and ima spill

you been rockin out at parties without me im feelin ill
if you saw me id say sorry seconds later i would dip
i been so sloppy i wish that you understood and it made sense
it been awful since you lead me on and made me feel like this
 like its coffee you were hot u til ur cold before I flinched 

i been lonely but in your eyes you think I deserve it
not a trophy but at one point you made me feel amazing
whh dint u show me what you really meam liek really say it
ill be here until it’s right and u aint rlly playin

senseless (under the maple tree)

all platforms 12/13
prod. guttertrvsh x sorrow bringer
album art by avxid <3

lyrics:

dobry:
throw me to the wolves and watch as i die
where's my comfort?
there's no comfort in this
(you fucked me up)
i can't breathe
shoot me up with enough drugs to help me be
i love it when you fuck with my mental
til you fuck with my mental
show me up

kotaray:
all my demons they cut me down
you can forget it, i'll never settle down
all my veins keeps on hurting as im falling south
desperation as my head keeps on fading out

where did i go?
ive seen my life spill out on the floor
dead in my home, hell i see nothing in my door
hello desperation are you hearing me out?
im talking to myself all my demons on their way down
im trapped out of my mind
let me tell you all the lies
that get me high

avxid:
i could throw up
im no one
its blown up
in my face
i erase 
what you say
from my brain
itll be safe

baby could you look me in the eyes
i aint gonna sleep tonight
i got shard of glass just digging in my eyes
oh ive grown but still i cry

whyd you burn it down i swear theres nothin left
i got metal sticking to my chest
i can feel it when i take a breath
its a bad time inside my head

i can see the torch lights
i can watch it catch fire
it was fun, i wont be here for long
it was fun, but i wont be here for long

ryn:
been so long i know i might break
feel my blood rushing thru my veins
so many things i didnt say
its been years it still brings me pain
tear stains on my shirt i know i cant help it
im crying on my own maybe im just selfish
i wish i showed you how i really felt
but these scars made it so i couldn't get help

kairu:
i tried to help you, i couldnt reach you
i put us through hell, i didnt mean to
and i hate myself, for what ive been through
but im with you now, so can we make it out?

2 drinks in me, but i feel fine
i start to weave through dotted lines
i feel it taking hold of me
i fear im running out of help
i need you, it hurts, to bleed through
the bandages we made, over time and time again

4 drinks in me, you're on my mind
it's hard to sleep alone at night
i fear my heart is growing weak
it longs for you and nothing else
compares to, the pain, we've been through
but still i hope you know, that ill always want you close 


syon:
to me youre colder then dark 
my demons know who you are 
god damn i know from hell then 
they need help from the start 
and god knows that im not going to make it 
so why have me spend it all down here 
i am alone and i dont feel like breaking out
you hit my phone and im letting it ring out 
like you didnt care about me then, so why the fuck do you care now?

gutter:
i dug in deep, but i found nothing new inside my soul
you cast me off then i found myself just rotting inside this hole
i fucked up but you left wounds that wont recover on their own
now i cant fall asleep without your face as my eyelids start to fall
i pushed myself deep underground
you could find me there and rip me out
but you dont care enough to save me too
i guess i played myself, i guess my part's the fool

so ill just dive in deep into this ashen lake
this fire consumes all my love and all of your hate
she'll proclaim me a witch, they'll burn me at the stake
once im but a husk im sure then she'll feel safe
i hope it hurts it too much
i hope that im ashamed
i know that i deserve
all of this torturous pain
i hope i learn it well
when i go down in flames
if i cant fix this mess
then hell was all in vain

hell was better than this (with Dobry!, KOTARAY, AVXiD, ryn., kairu & syon)

lyrics

only thing i wanna buy is time
when i blow up, selling tickets for free like shots at the line
you dont wanna play those games no more and thats fine
baby imma be alright
its like you know im waiting for the end when you drive straight to my house and you lift me up
wonder how i made it to my house when im this fucked up
none of this shit was ever in the playbook but i cant take the bus
half the shit i do, the moms on facebook like "control your son"
but this is all of my doing
havent been inside of my head as of late but now im tryna move in
tryna move on if you standing in front of me get out my way
i got them waiting on the next track, dont know what imma say yet
been going to sleep so high i cant tell if im even awake yet
should be a picture perfect life, somebody smeared up the painting

jai's lyrics soon...

chrysalis w/ love jai (p. under the maple tree)

2 fried can't sleep
this ho dumb asf 
thinking that she means a thing to me 
I'm tryn carve thru
that niggas flesh and make that n* bleed
ik you want me
 I want you too but baby don't forget us

came in trim like overly
niggas dickride,
could see the bruises all over ya knees
did I tell you? I love the way you scream
drowsy, off too many pills I might be tweakin

tryna kick back, sit back and roll my weed
no I can't rest, till all my brothers free
said you drillin shit but wont hop out on feet
2 fried can't sleep
drowsy, off too many pills I might be tweakin

Produced by me

gone

itshvci

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