late night smoking playing this. thank you for the vibes 🖤

My Last Album 

Thank you to all of the special individuals who were featured on it 

Goodbye

Death’s Doorstep (feat. YCK & Phantom Roses)

IG: https://www.instagram.com/shade666apollo/

Prod. @therealthundaa
Mixed & Mastered by @max000_000
Cover Art by https://www.instagram.com/danzaro.jpg/

Lyrics:
Losin' myself, like where the fuck am I goin'
Lookin' in the mirror, I ain't even sure if I know him
I ain't even sure if I

Escape the maze, then I'm caged
It's back to the same old shit again
One moment, I'm on top of the world
The darkness hits, then I feel like I can never be rid of it
Sometimes the beat feel like my only friend
So when my progress meets a dead end
I tend to descend
Into a dark, unforgivin', and most shadowy bend
So that smile you're seein' is probably pretend
The life of a starved artist
Who depends on his pen to defend himself from the darkness that lies within
And fend off the ghosts that often postpone my hope
I'm broken, tryna pick up the pieces, like where the fuck they go
Slowly overtaken by my woes
Flirtin' with death but when I flow, I feel the need to take it slow

Ironic 'cause that's when I start to give a fuck and get my ducks in a row again
See, every now and then, I transcend the abyss
Learn to live in bliss but then that class is dismissed
Pursuin' happiness then it's
Back to the end of the waitin' list
I'm hatin' this life
The brightest days keep feelin' like night
Pullin' myself closer to the Reaper's scythe
But when I grip the mic, that sliver of light proceeds to shine
So when I feel like nothin's left, I look to the pen to make it right
Look that Grim motherfucker in the eye
Tell him take a hike, it ain't my time
I'm clearly conflicted and it's evident in these lines
That maybe I'm relyin' too much on these rhymes
But shit, this is more than just a pastime
This that shit that gimme purpose
Without it, time is just sand in a glass that pass by
But with this music, my demons could never ever ever ever ever ever ever outlast I

I'm lost in my thoughts
I'm too often feelin' fraught
Tryna think happy thoughts
Just reminds me what I'm not
I feel like John Constantine
All these demons I have fought
I'm pursuin' happiness, they actin' like it's somethin' that is bought
But it's not, they say it depends on where you shop
That cannot be the case
It is not that fuckin' simple for the pain to be erased
I miss the good ol' days
Sometimes I wish I could retrace my steps
Back to my youth but I can't
So I'mma try my best to progress everyday
Fuck bein' depressed, I'mma lay
These thoughts up on a page
Stage an attack on this darkness and watch it fade away
I found my way up out the cage

Before I Became the Reaper, I Was Tempted by Death

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Before I Became the Reaper, I Was Tempted by Death (Prod. thundaa)

Lyric Video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xa6dOsvkgY&list=LL&index=1

Instagram
@ColeMxne

Ghost Boy (Prod. DumbChlld)

ON ALL PLATFORMS 
LYRICS- 
I don't like this, I don't like this no no no 
Fucked up in my head no I don't think that imma make it
fetty hit my line oh boy I think i need to take it 
faded I aint coming back my memory erase it 
this time I'll be gone for good there's no need to be patient
I know, I know that I could've looked the other way 
but where's the fun in giving up if there ain't ever hell to pay
I know, I know what my family is gonna say 
you had so much potential for a drug you threw it all away
I think I know right from wrong (right from wrong)
voices in my head won't stop
please don't cry it won't be long (please don't cry)
fuck with me and sing along
 imma cut ties to the ones I leave Imma do my thing I might go
please don't leave me hanging baby I ain't nothin like you
I can't take this anymore your blade is cutting right through
one day I'll sit back and say there ain't no way that I'll go on x2

do my thing I might go please don't leave me hanging baby I aint nothin like you I ain't nothin like you x2

Produced by LeLxx

hang me from the ballad

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

https://youtu.be/vo6Ap47px6c?si=5HesHTI6h8_9mr1y
https://soundcloud.com/coolboifreshh

lyrics
_

They ain’t really fucking with me
Naw, they fuck with who fucking with me
Rats chase drip for a drop, I’m pissing
Boy, life no game issa pot to piss in

Fix your brain
Before find my vision
Man, live no shame
Just evolve ya system

Hate and pain issa crash collision
Boy swerve real quick, let the love make decisions

Love is overrated
I think that it’s fucking dumb and complicated
In the end just leaves me numb and intoxicated
Ion wanna deal with the arguing
Done so done with this
Feels like there's nobody to talk to

Every time they talking
Got an urge to fucking bust teeth
Fake it till you make dumbest shit I ever heard b
Never have to watch a word if you speaking what you preach
Fake it till you make it? Get that pussy shit away from me

Let the love run
Let the heart thump
Free your brain

Watchu you want son
Watchu ain’t done
Make a claim

Take a fucking look inside embrace the thought that feeding flame
Let the love and passion be your guide thru all the troubled days

If tryna feel sum
Be a real one

And if you tryna feel dumb
Live a lie numb

Tap into yourself and learn to appreciate the crumbs, fly
Tap into the life you got and live it how you want, die

They ain’t really fucking with me

Naw, they fuck with who fucking with me
Rats chase drip for a drop, I’m pissing
Boy, life no game issa pot to piss in

Fix your brain
Before find my vision
Man, live no shame
Just evolve ya system

Hate and pain issa crash collision
Boy swerve real quick, let the love make decisions
Yuh

Jiraiya

MUSIC VIDEO

Jiraiya w/ Coolboi (greyskies) [Music Video ↓]

Lyrics:

On to the next rodeo
I done been down this road before
I’m lost within my ways
It’s all just been the same

I’m holding on (Holding on)
I’m holding on (Holding on)
I’m holding on (Holding on)
I’m holding on (Holding on, holding on)

Yeah, uh

Fuck it, i’ma keep it moving, two step groove, what it do bitch?
I’m so smooth, and I ain’t ever fucking lacking
I stay packing a couple hundred stacks

And I’m

Rolling with a bad bitch too
And I hustle everyday done been the fastest, true
I been living like I’m limitless
And when the moment over maybe we could reminisce
About the past times

For now we can get it and go
I’m really fucking with your vibes and everything more
And i’ma, i’ma ride through the highs and lows
I got to take my time, i’ma ride alone

And I don’t really wait no wait no more
Cause when I pack these bags i’ma hit the road
Cause I’ma rider, money stacking higher
Bitch I’m on a roll, currency multiplier

Ballin’, everything gold
And I been getting money low
And I know that you roaming
Searching for a purpose, you walk on this earth and you hurting

No nobody’s perfect, no matter what’s on the surface
And Girl you been worth it
And the earth stay turning, time go by, the sky been burning

But I’m on to the next rodeo
I done been through highs and lows
But I’m better than I been before
I been thinking of ways I been getting dough

Now my heart won’t break so I walk alone
And trust me I’m holding on
I’m holding on
Holding on

On to the next rodeo
I done been down this road before
I’m lost within my ways
It’s all just been the same

I’m holding on (Holding on)
I’m holding on (Holding on)
I’m holding on (Holding on)
I’m holding on (Holding on, holding on)

holding on [prod. noria]

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

jealousy got me messed up
fade out with a cloak made of pain
brittle bones start to snap I watch you come back 
the mental illness covers my eyes black

empathy isn't needed
this world that I create is my own little hell
watch your family just concede when they ask you to leave
yeah the cracks in my skin start to fray

it's like my bodies stuck in static, all my emotions going manic 
as the floor just starts to crumble and im falling, falling down
I harbor guilt from the resentment, maybe love was never mentioned
mind is filled with ignorance as the devil starts to consume

aspirations with the drugs take some more it's not enough
id rather feel something empty than deal with all the pain
a cloud it forms around my head depression says he's now my friend
im always empty all alone, I guess ill face this on my own

it’s what I see in my dreams, is this real watcha mean
contradicting on every word that I try to say
I try to be only me, it's all the hate yeah it seethes
there’s complications yeah every time that I try to stay

im on my knees now crawling pushing down, try to leave
this hallucination is clouding up your mental state
feel the flame at my feet watch the sky swallow me
their’s hesitation on all the words that I try to say


PARADOXX:

On all the words i try to say 
But i can't get them out of me

It's a double edged sword 
every time i speak i get blood on my palms 

I try to stay calm and collected but everything's breaking down on me 
I'm selective of the words that i speak but it's counquering me 
I get trapped in my mind all the time 

I feel my body rotting away from inside out 
But i can't be bothered to scream , I'm too weak to make a sound

And all this angst , all this doubt is eating me up alive
But i let it happen so who can i blame , I'll seek myself out

Hard Ft. Paradoxx

Before the
smoke clears and clarity flood my mind
I'm pulled in
The waves to high for me
I'm sold fibs
And fantasy's
For the last time
This is the last time
I promise if this was never meant to be
I'm locked in forever live in memory
Perpostrusious I waited so long the last time
This is the last time
Baby can you breathe
Breathe
Breathe just hold me in
Don't let me leave
Baby can you sleep
Please dream of only this
I know the end is closing in

I'm waiting for the day I see the stars aligned
Pick me up from the pavement and let me see
The gray lifts from my face as I come alive
Fill my lungs watch me take from the breath you breathe
Her face shifts when the wings rip from out my spine
Lick the blood just to taste every memory
Don't try
I'm taking the world as mine
When I'm done watch me pray that you set me free

Before I
Provoke them for ever taking back what's mine
They won't give
And take my time from me
Emotions would fade away for the last time
This is the last time
So I bend twist and rip the limbs of those who try
To put me down in the ground they spotted
Exemption from better things for the last time
This is the last time

I'm waiting for the day I see the stars aligned
Pick me up from the pavement and let me see
The gray lifts from my face as I come alive
Fill my lungs watch me take from the breath you breathe
Her face shifts when the wings rip from out my spine
Lick the blood just to taste every memory
Don't try
I'm taking the world as mine
When I'm done watch me pray that you set me free

It Wasn't Like Me

ON ALL PLATFORMS 
(prod. dercept and malloy)

Lyrics:

Take a look inside we are not the same
If I hold my tongue I'll go insane
Man I pray to God that I find my way,
Find my way yeah I'll find my
Look into the past it's been killing me
All the time but I cannot forget
Your face that night before you left
Me broken... I'm broken

Never thought that I would make it this far
All my bones got crushed from the weight of the scars
I kept my promise but you had to move on 
Good God, good God what have I become
Cause it's killing me in silence
I could bounce back, tell my past to keep quiet
Why is everybody staring at me?
I just want to go home baby leave me be
Yeah it's killing me in silence
I could speak up but I'd rather stay quiet
Why is, everything a problem with me?
I just want to go home baby leave me be
Cause its killing me in silence
Yeah it's killing me in silence
Yeah you're killing me in silence
Said you're killing me in silence
Never thought that I would make it this far
All my bones got crushed from the weight of the scars
I kept my promise but you had to move on 
Good God, good God what have I become
Cause it's killing me in silence
I could bounce back, tell my past to keep quiet
Why is everybody staring at me?
I just want to go home baby leave me be

killing me in silence

killing me in silence (prod. dercept x malloy)

Nervous by Dole (feat. Cinoevil) [prod. Khezie Beats]

KIDR is a Seattle based rapper, producer, and singer. Born In Dallas, Texas, KIDR had developed a love for Hip-Hop & Rap early in life. KIDR eventually started rapping and creating music at a young age. Some of KIDR’s most notable songs include “Money Talk” and “I Don’t Know”. KIDR delivers a polarizing and unique sound, with an extensive catalog consisting of hard hitting aggressive rap bangers and deep melodic chill songs.

@itskidr 
itskidr.com

holding on [prod. noria]

KIDR

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