If I Die

If I Die (feat. Julia Alexa)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

KID E$S, POWFU - Troubles Of Today

didn't see this coming did u?
ep of these kinds of songs in the works <3
did this all in one take btw, kinda proud of that :)
hope you guys enjoy <3

1 2 1 2 (prod. justdan)

*music video*
https://youtu.be/ha3jlyoufbE

produced by @zainibeats & @beowulf 
mixed & mastered by @zainibeats

jomie & powfu - followed by a cloud (prod. zaini x beowulf)

QUESTIONS

not my song 
By - https://soundcloud.com/rxseboy

rxseboy - the day i died ft. Powfu

I Hate Myself With Everything I Am [prod. BadKid]

love is dying.

love is dying. (feat. Powfu)

some nights (feat. powfu, rxseboy, sarcastic sounds)

My New Mixtape “LOST IN LIFE: A Mental Health Tape” is out now on all platforms! I cannot even begin to express how thankful I am for everyone who has stuck with me over the past years...truly mean it when I say I wouldn’t be here without you guys. I wrote the majority of this project at one of the lowest points of my life while I was stuck in quarantine going through a lot. As hard as it was to put my emotions on paper, I knew that my tough times would be able to help some of you get through your own struggles.

Make sure to share the project with everyone you know! Every extra stream, play and view helps me reach new people who my music may be able to positively impact.

I Hate Myself With Everything I Am [prod. BadKid]

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