Jan 17 (Excuses)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

written by Lxst Boy & Giovanni
produced by Boyfifty & Ayleen Valentine 
mixed and mastered by Giovanni
out on all platforms

thanks for all the support on the old version 💙
shoutout Matthias, love u bro

-lyrics-
(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
I'm sorry that I let you down
it's probably cause I sleep too much
and every time that you're around
there's always something wrong

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
late nights and talks with my conscience
lately i been feeling nauseous
I write songs so call me off topic
lowkey wanna tell them to stop it
I'll just get walked on
I'm feeling that way like non-stop
I'm sorry I'm an outcast wait no I'm not
but I let you down whenever I talk
I'm feeling like a 9tails knockoff
I came from the sewers then the time stopped
im running around in circles in my thoughts
the clock winding down, hear the tick tock
when I'm locked in my room
I'm feeling the tension
record at my desk
these lyrics unscripted
writing these songs
that you'll never listen
cause you never cared
I'm a solo mission woah
uh I wanna talk
without feeling guilty
I need a shower
you making me filthy
blood stains the wall
you know that you killed me
its cold in my room
and at night it gets chilly
I wanna talk
but every time I do my heartstrings in a knot
in getting tired of writing these songs
and day by day 
you wouldn't tell me what's wrong
yeah

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
 
(Verse 2: Giovanni)
where am i goin, what do i got 
i feel so lonely, everyone stop
want you to hold me, damn i forgot 
what it was like, i feel distraught 
i let you down and watched you depart
now everything’s loud and i’m caught in the dark
like i’m in the dirt, buried with the worms 
and that is the funniest fuckin part
cause what did we say together
all of those times, that you let me down
tell the words that we sang together
everything’s fine, we’ll be alright 
we’ll fuckin stand in the rain together 
i don’t mean to cry, but why did you lie
remind me again why stayed together 

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)

S T R E A M

Let You Down w/ Giovanni & Ayleen Valentine (boyfifty)

Produced by: Gio
Engineered by: Gio
Written and performed by: Gio

Lyrics:

(Chorus)

Breath, slow down
It’s only one road you can go down
Only one path you can take now 
Like breathe, oh wow
Finally see the light, watch it go down
Friday night dancin in the sun now 

(Verse 1)

I feel stuck in my awareness, I’m not tryna sound arrogant 
It’s just that I feel like there’s so much goin’ on 
around me 
They expect me to be hard as iron, and that’s word to robert downey 
Watchin’ it slowly surround me, everything is cloudy

I look deep into the mirror
And I see me frowning 
I wish everything was clearer
So the rain won’t fuckin drown me
Started pickin up the slack 
For all the people that’s around me 
Started pickin up the pieces
So they’re not upset like I be

And maybe that’s the real issue
Need to do it for myself and not because I fuckin’ miss you 
If I get back in that story I’m gon’ need a fuckin tissue
Hopefully you understand why I no longer fuckin need you

Sorry everybody for my language 
Lately I’ve been so upset that i start causin hella damage
I’m not violent, just depressed and it’s a never-ending cycle
I just hope that I can be at peace when my eyes close 

(Chorus)

Breath, slow down
It’s only one road you can go down
Only one path you can take now 
Like breathe, oh wow
Finally see the light, watch it go down
Friday night dancin in the sun now 

(Verse 2)

See nowadays I don’t even worry ‘bout what
could’ve been
It’s taken me so long to finally figure out where I fit  in
They wanna smoke up and get high and wanna be a kid
I can’t even blame ‘em cause nobody listens 

No one hears me, hears you
Here is me, what am I supposed to do 
I don’t get no fuckin sleep
What the fuck I’m goin through 
Tell me, I need answers please
what the fuck I’m goin through 
Tell me, tell me, honestly 

“Just, tell me what’s wrong
I wish that you would talk to me”
I said you better go home
I know you’d rather try to help because that’s better for your conscience
Bur if I’m being honest
I’d rather you feel guilty
Than talk about what I’m lost in
Than talk about my nonsense
I just need to process
the concept I’ve forgotten

Lately I’ve been locked in
Or maybe just a bad friend
Depends on where you’re watchin
Maybe I should stop and -

(Chorus)

Breath, slow down
It’s only one road you can go down
Only one path you can take now 
Like breathe, (woo), oh wow
Finally see the light, watch it go down
Friday night dancin in the sun now

When do we settle?

on Spotify!

Breathe, slow down

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

not official, just a remix, i really loved this song that rxse made and 
i really wanted to make som to it

official song https://soundcloud.com/feelingmysorrow/two-way-street

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Sorrow - two way street (prod. underwood)

NVR/MND x Thomas Reid x Nü - Something's Not Right

find a new hue (prod. jxsie beats)

@akumuh - can you leave me alone?! (prod. sundwn & jang0)

written and performed by: @futoh and @lxstboymusic
mix and mastered by: @futoh and @lxstboymusic
produced by: lean teen
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first single of my collab album with my good friend Lxst Boy, hope yall enjoy<3
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lyrics soon.....

NVR/MND x Thomas Reid x Nü - Something's Not Right

NVR/MND

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