lyrics:

pretty boy, the heart of downtown,
walked all over my deepest schemes.
your mouth, drives me east by south,
I'd recognize it even in a dream...

and now this city is stained by you,
can't shake the feeling you're in all I do.
and now every minute is frozen like a statue,
I get the feeling life's not life without you.

like a wave, it took more than it gave,
still I smiled complacently.
should've tried to change my own mind,
still fall for you eventually.

and now this city is stained by you,
can't shake the feeling you're everywhere I look.
and now every minute goes by with a touch of blue,
I get the feeling life's not life without you.

and I know they're lying when the say
we only dream in shades of grey
cause I saw your eyes even clearer
than the back of my hand.
I wish it wouldn't have to be this way.

and now this city is stained by you,
do you still remember me the same way I do?
and now every minute is frozen like a statue,
I get the feeling life's not life without you.

and I know they're lying when the say
we only dream in shades of grey
cause I saw your eyes even clearer
than the back of my hand.
I wish it wouldn't have to be this way.
and I know they're lying when the say
we only dream in shades of grey
cause I saw your eyes even clearer
than the back of my hand...

I'd recognize it even in a dream.

in a dream

growing pains never really do go away.

lyrics:

I couldn't find you on the television,
the incandescent glow turned this room bright.
people love it when you're a comet,
they won't dig you as much in the light.

try to be exactly what they wanted,
arrangement of bones that can only walk
cause if you run you're dangerous
but not as much as when you wanna talk.

and if I'm dead, why does it matter to you?
I just wanted the feeling of feeling through.

dragged my knees through the dirty road,
all you taught me was just a lie.
you say it's my victory lap, but I'm alone
did all that matters just passed me by?

so if I'm dead, why does it matter to you?
I get this feeling, but I feel I'm not getting you.

(spoken)
Ok so, tell it to me like I'm a kindergarten child?
no, no, no, please, draw me a picture, show me how to start.
and the names will be absurd like a low budget show
but we can laugh it off, yes... we'll pretend that it works.

I couldn't find me in the mirror,
the plot twist turned the room dark.
oh so pretty! I'm an asteroid,
but they won't dig me when I hit the lights.


#5 comet

did I give up on you out of fear of missing out?

lyrics:

I know you like to choose the 
warning signs you wanna see,
but this one ain't something you'd like
to refuse to believe.
Cause paradise has always been closed to
people like me,
and angels like you can only try
in your dreams.

So let me put up this wall right now,
cause I could hold you but I don't know how.

Castles crumble on my face,
and I can only run away.
It's not that I wouldn't love you right,
it's more like fear of missing out.
There is always other place,
so let me save you from myself.
It's not that I wouldn't love you right,
gotta go cause I fear of missing out

of places and people and chances
reserved by destiny.
So I'd rather excuse myself than owe you
an awful apology.
So please be mad, cut ties, don't let me
go back to your company.
Don't wanna justify my cowardice
with astrology.

So let me put up this wall right now,
cause I could love you but I don't know how.

Castles crumble on my face,
and I can only run away.
It's not that I wouldn't love you right,
it's more like fear of missing out.
There is always other place,
so let me save you from myself.
It's not that I wouldn't love you right,
gotta go cause I fear of missing out

Of places and people and chances...

And it will come back to me every night
before I fall asleep. It's alright,
but it's not enough to be a valid reason
to bring you here... with me.

Castles crumble on my face,
and I can only run away.
It's not that I wouldn't love you right,
it's more like fear of missing out.
There is always other place,
so let me save you from myself.
It's not that I wouldn't love you right,
gotta go cause I fear of missing out

Of places and people and chances...

FOMO (fear of missing out)

the thing is I said it out loud.

Lyrics:

I never saw you coming 
and I don't wanna ruin your life.
It's a secret hoping 
I won't get fooled by your eyes
when they look right into mine.

You got that perfect puzzle,
I'm a piece out of time
but stronger than a muscle
with the will of a fire.
I'm the worst of all your crimes.

Can you hear it? I laugh like a kid,
forget my words and regret what I did.
It sounds like a song, but it's a spell.
Can you feel it? My throat is dry.
I swallow the tension and spit out lies.
A wedding gown and break up bells...
and break up bells.

I bet she's lovely,
yours body and mind.
A fucked up in recovery,
slightly too kind.
Don't let me get further than that.

Now this is quicksand,
one move and I'll be down
with whatever you say.
You could take me out of town,
all it takes is one single sound.

Can you hear it? I laugh like a kid,
forget my words and regret what I did.
It sounds like a song, but it's a spell.
Can you feel it? My throat is dry.
I swallow the tension and spit out lies.
A wedding gown and break up bells...
and break up bells.

Stronger than a muscle, with the will of a fire.
Tougher than my bones, it's coming untied.
A twist in motion brought me back to life
and put you in pages I can't unwrite.

Can you hear it? it's a spell...
Can you feel it? the break up bells...


break up bells

I get the feeling you're (still) everywhere I look.

lyrics:

I wanna go back, have you kept the town clean?
Did you pick up the garbage that you made of me?
Cause I want it pretty when I arrive...

I want bright skies, long walks on the beach.
I want the taste of your lips dragged out in bleach.
Cause I wanna be happy tonight.

you see, I gave you the key and I shouldn't have.
and now I have to bury this feeling alive.

I wanna go back, so tell me how you've been.
If I see you, can we just pretend acquaintances.
Cause my skin remembers all too well.

you see, I gave you the key and I shouldn't have
cause now I have to bury this feeling alive.

I'll take it back, one day at a time.
I'll take it back, I'll make you fade.
January 7th, a forbidden heaven
and the unholy price I paid.
Wrapped up in your legs, I could only beg
this is where we had to stay.
But you took it back, now I'll take the town back
for myself.

you see, I gave you the key and I shouldn't have
cause now I have to bury this feeling alive.

the town

lyrics:

now that time has rearranged
all the parts of me that changed
you could say that I'd know better
but I'm not that well trained.

cause the things I can't explain
come back as whispers on the train,
and better late than never
remind me of my name.

cause if you get blinded by the shimmer
you'll never see the rust.
and if you get carried away
you'll be the one to bite the dust.
but even if I am late,
I can still be the first.
we could be something else
or we could be the worst.

now that my heart's completely broke
by the mirrors and the smoke,
could you tell me I am safe
even if it's a joke?

cause if you get blinded by the shimmer
you'll never see the rust.
and if you get carried away
you'll be the one to bite the dust.
but even if I am late,
I can still be the first.
we could be something else
or we could be the worst.

there is something in my veins
telling me it's true.
you can have the best deal
and you still can lose.
cause if you get blinded by the shimmer
you'll never see the rust.
we could be something else
or we could be the worst.

but even if I am late,
I can still be the first.
we could be something else
or we could be the worst.


we could be the worst

you know, I was scared too.

lyrics:

I was starting to believe in you.
I was starting to think it was true...
I fell in love with you.
I was starting to build up my trust
but it took one blow to turn it to dust,
now it hurts like a bruise.

And what a dangerous man you are,
taking my worst fears and turn em into your work of art... cause I fell in love with you.

Dreams of snakebites and fallen teeth,
you became the root of my insecurities...
oh what have you done to me?
I was scared in my blood and bones,
still you had the nerve to leave me alone
cause I fell in love with you.

And what a dangerous man you are,
taking my worst fears and turn em into your work of art... cause I fell in love with you.


(dreams of) fallen teeth

lyrics:

you'll get a tattoo right where I bit your skin.
they'll talk about us like the original sin.
cut to the core, unable to fit within.
there's a knife on my back from when you tried to be my friend.

you know, I had the same bruises, like you.
you didn't have to pull over to prove.

and now that the drinks have worn off
and there's melted ice on the floor
and the night is all your own
and there's nothing left to do.
and my venom tastes good,
baby, like it should
it kinda makes you wonder
if it's the same for me too.
(no, no)

I'll get a slow burn right where you kissed my face.
record your intentions and replay them everyday.
I'll celebrate my small victories if I can
just to crack the code and keep my slates clean in the end.

and now that the drinks have worn off
and there's melted ice on the floor
and the night is all your own
and there's nothing left to do.
and my venom tastes good,
baby, like it should
it kinda makes you wonder
if it's the same for me too.
(no, no)

so tell me what does it feel like
you almost had the real thing?
I fight the itch on my skin that tries to let you win.
and if she touches your lips like
I used to do in your sleep? 
I fight the itch on my skin, guilty of letting you in.
... if she touches your lips, is it better than I did?
no.

and now that the drinks have worn off
and there's melted ice on the floor
and the night is all your own
and there's nothing left to do.
and my venom tastes good,
baby, like it should
it kinda makes you wonder
if it's the same for me too.
(no, no)


the drinks

merry crisis!

lyrics:

I paint my nails red and green,
I play a song by avril lavigne
and tell myself I'll do better.
I pin my hopes to my newest dream,
mother said that karma's a queen,
and I play the part of go-getter.

break down, crashing waves
I hit the peak fueled by a crave.
let down, once again
the waves are quiet in my own grave.

But it's a fake calm, I play pretend.
life is easy till you think about the end.
When all your foes are silent friends,
life is easy till you realize you're in it.
Fake calm, fake calm...

I cut my hair, heart on my sleeve
everyday I slow dance with my grief,
it's been like that since last December.
I pin my face value to your kiss
until I'm a phone call you dismiss,
I'll act like I don't remember.

break down, crashing waves
I hit the peak fueled by a crave.
let down, once again...

But it's a fake calm, I play pretend.
life is easy till you think about the end.
When all your foes are silent friends,
life is easy till you realize you're in it.
Fake calm, fake calm...

Merry crisis, life won't wait
for you to tie your shoes and go out and play.
Crowd's out there, chanting your name,
you better step out and show them what you're made of
before they get bored of ya...

cause it's a fake calm, they play pretend.
life is easy till they think about the end.
When all their foes are silent friends,
life is easy till they realize they're in it.
Fake calm, fake calm...


fake calm

kind of a singer but definitely a songwriter.
currently trying to write one song every week at Song A Week 2024.

Paula Varela

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