prod. @horoshavibes

this isn't really fun anymore
i've exhausted my ideas now i lay on the floor
given every piece of myself to this earth
try and see the shadows i can't discern
keep the fan on
it drowns out the silence inside my room
it drowns out the violence and all of the bad news
that i can't deal with

these faces blend into something i can't recognize
mirrors deceive me with tricks and lies
i can't tell the difference between wrong and right
there is a shadow for every light

i hate the lasers that shine through my blinds
disturbing every moment of peace in my mind
until the sun disappears for the night
reminders that everything fades over time
keep the door closed
emotions seep out from the cracks and the windows
where they'll die out
never to be seen by a single soul

these faces blend into something i can't recognize
mirrors deceive me with tricks and lies
i can't tell the difference between wrong and right
there is a shadow for every light

keep the fan on, it drowns everything out

Prod. @x1fern

Count the times that i would tell you to hold onto
every star i pulled out from the sky
burn my hands to see your eyes
and i would walk on shards of glass to hold you close
keep you here when you feel all alone
know that i will be your home

roses start to bloom on your cheeks when we speak
every kiss like velvet on your skin
heal the scars that plague your wrist
and i would tear my flesh until theres nothing left
you and i form stardust out of comets
butterflies live in my stomach

<3 <3 <3

Butterflies

prod. @nomaimusic

Got some things I really need to air out
I'm not talking 'bout my car but topics that I care about
You should go ahead and grab some tissues
Wipe your tears as I unfold I'll tell you how I miss you
Everything is moving at the speed of sound
But I'm moving faster I don't think that I could slow it down
Tunnel vision what I love I see the light
Underneath the night sky keeping me from suicide

Never hit me up when it's sundown
Walking all alone around downtown
Symbiotic ties with the pacific
When I die throw my ashes in the ocean

Pacing back and forth on the carpet
Try and justify my worth with music that is garbage
I've been working on my health but
Weights that I've been pushing aren't as heavy as a lost love
Wear a ring of Ouroboros
Serving as a relic that this life is so ephemeral
Gorillas on my shirt feeling so proud
Camouflage all over me I'll fade into the background

Never hit me up when it's sundown
Walking all alone around downtown
Symbiotic ties with the pacific
When I die throw my ashes in the ocean

but then it devoured all

meannoharm

prod. @prodneverforever

what did i do wrong this time
could you tell me please
before i lose my mind
toss and turning in my bed
welcome back the tears
here we meet again
how do i get what they have
heart eyes when you text
is that too much to ask
so aware that i'm a burden
i'm sorry i'm a mess
overthinking has me hurting

you don't have to say a thing 
cause i know what you're thinking
leave you be to live in peace 
i know that i'm annoying
love you so much 
even when you're growing a cold shoulder
living in the moments 
that we shared when you were over
just be honest 
do you want this anymore or not
i won't be mad i'll just be sad 
that you may have forgot
everything i told you 
i still mean with all my heart
save the purple rose i gave you 
when i fall apart

welcome back

Prod. @1ohmygon

Where are all my vices
I've been clawing at the drywall
Listen to the sirens
Let me stay to watch the sky fall
Safe inside this chrysalis
Shielding all my innocence

As I'm sealed by neon lights the colors start to blend
Wrap myself in blankets forget who I am
Running through the forest in the dead of winter
Sifting through the voices hear the trees they whisper

Chrysalis

prod. @nevrfall

why do i even bother
kill me with your gray eyes
leaving me paralyzed
you probably care for someone better
i've been overthinking
crying while i'm writing

foolish of me getting all my hopes up
always first to talk when i should really keep my mouth shut
i know i've been such a burden
you meant so much more to me than any other person

conjure the delusion
every time i see your name 
i skip a beat because it's all in disillusion
tell me what i am now
just a boy to keep you company 
when you're cooped up in your house

ghost me
save me from the trouble
keep me from the struggle
i'm loathing
you're so irreplaceable
i'm easy to replace though
hold onto
everything that you said
echoes on in my head
invest in you
always tend to do this
end up being useless

foolish of me getting all my hopes up
always first to talk when i should really keep my mouth shut
i know i've been such a burden
you meant so much more to me than any other person
issues with attachment
pull me in with every single fraction of a second
could you set me down gently
lay us all out on the table i appreciate the honesty

maybe the lead would taste better than this

Cover of Myfriendjane by Nevershoutnever

Prod. me

myfriendjane (nevershoutnever cover)

Prod. myss

hate to see u here in this place
run in circles all for my sake
don't be scared follow my blood trail
ignore the misery i'm still alive
I wish you never ended up here
disappear right through the exit sign
u plagued the garden
i used to rest in
bury your memories
inside this coffin

compare you now
to who i once knew
a hollow shell
of who i gave my all to
people like u
are the reason i always hide
slipped up and showed u my vulnerable side
dazed and confused
wondering where ur at
ur stepping all over my stained glass

exit sign

Prod. Neverforever

Hanging by threads unseen
Suspended in moments
I’m still while the world spins
Underwater I can’t hear a sound
Algae grows on my skin all around
Motionless my muscles atrophy
I’m so helpless screaming in your dreams
Sentiments I can’t describe remain unspoken
Every day is hell without serotonin 

Waiting for the banshee to steal me
Reach into my chest and pull my soul from my body
Balancing between this silver lining 
Destiny awaits for those who give up their memories  

Surrendering all of my conscious 
Become one with the cosmos
Find purpose in moon glow
Piercing clouds with ounces of my fiber
Cover earth with tears disguised as rain
Let me enter slumber I’m so tired
Cycle of this life made me insane

atrophy

prod. @hkfiftyone2

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous
I'm burning up but frozen on the surface
I hope this mask I'm wearing isn't see through
I'll be honest I'm a little scared to meet you
Stare into the void I'm so exhausted
Looking to some peace I might have lost it
You and I are strangers but the bubbles start to bounce back
Stomach tied in knots I hope you know that

So take this change
The club lights will dance as we dance
Hold you close
We'll fly through the city as ghosts

Let's try this one more time
Heart strings are all on the line
It's not life or death
It's just love again
Or another test

So take this change
The club lights will dance as we dance
Hold you close
We'll fly through the city as ghosts
What happens next
Between us could break or connect
I won't reach
Before all the angels will weep

don't let the nerves win!

Prod. Neverforever

the monsters aren't the ones who live in fantasies with razor sharp teeth
they're the people among us with siren eyes and nose rings
I hate the fact that i can't be upset
every memory with you i swear i wish i could forget
why'd you build me up to break me down again
first to ask me on a date, first to kiss, first to hold my hand
you left me with a knife inside my back
when all i did was give you fragments buried deep within my chest
i hope you're happy with my crimson on your palms
the saddest part is i would clean them just so we could talk
but you don't even care though
i hope you think of me when reminiscing by the sea
you don't even care though
i hope you think of us when you're conceptualizing trust
did you even care
threw it all away like i was nothing more than trash
would you even care
if you heard about the day when i surrender to the ash

did u ever care?

prod. galacticmew

Liquid sunsets pour over horizons
Sick and tired of reminiscing in the past tense
Always harping on the memories of us it kills me
Pin holes in the dark where the stars shine
Found hope when I thought that you were all mine
Now we regress back into the form of strangers

Threw my heart into the canyon
This wasn't how it was supposed to happen
Drove my love then you crashed it
Were you over us or was it out of habit
Casting spells now I'm blinded
So alluring with your earth toned iris
Only see you when I'm sleeping
Pick up where we left off then remember that I'm dreaming

You were the sun now you're my shadow
Haunting me wherever I go
You were the one who made me smile
But now it's been a while

Threw my heart into the canyon
This wasn't how it was supposed to happen
Drove my love then you crashed it
Were you over us or was it out of habit
Casting spells now I'm blinded
So alluring with your earth toned iris
Only see you when I'm sleeping
Pick up where we left off then remember that I'm dreaming


the form of strangers

one-sided

prod. blixbeatz

crossing every once in a blue moon
had turned into a few
glimpses of a new home
turns out it was false hope
you set the bridge ablaze
the smell of smoke still remains
none of this matters anyway
i suffered burns while you walked away
you left with no remorse
teach me to sever the ties you would later scorch

acrid fumes

prod. @pekarot_161

suddenly the light inside your eyes started to dim
terrified of knowing all too well what happens next

hear the buzzing of fluorescence
the thoughts avalanche and cover all the silence
the place where cuts and bruises are mended
let me use these final moments here with you as leverage
to sway away the reaper
begging and pleading to please let us keep them
but like a statue and stone face
carried those parts of me into a new fate

I miss you waiting for you but you're one with the clouds
see you soon we'll be reunited when i'm in the ground

hear the buzzing of fluorescence
the thoughts avalanche and cover all the silence
the place where cuts and bruises are mended
let me use these final moments here with you as leverage
to sway away the reaper
begging and pleading to please let us keep them
but like a statue and stone face
carried those parts of me into a new fate

leverage

prod. @sh4dowfigure

God ur so basic
Follow a trend like a moth to a flame 
Don’t get it twisted
These aren’t forces they’re triple white bapestas
My shoulder is colder
I could care less got arcteryx on my chest
Spit out the fire
Todoroki with the platinum on my head
 you’re broken and Shallow
Ur identity lies with the people you copy 
I live in the shadows
Stay undercover like jun takahashi 


Cut off all the snakes 
My choice of weapon was a keyblade
I don’t need the eye of agamotto 
I’m no dr strange 
Altering reality 
In favor of the underdog
Did this on my own without the help 
Of green  or alcohol
Crystals dancing bb Simon 
All up on my waist
Eating ramen in shibuya 
U got nothing on ur plate
Found the combination had to lock in 
Snapped on this like thanos
Now the gang and I are draped in bathing apes 
U wish u had those

Prod. @scarletrot1

Hate how you wasted my time
But now you’re wasting your whole life
Chase your tail and wonder why your heart became so pale 
Are you capable of loving
Is that tangible or something
Say thay you’re infallible yet here you are so miserable

Well I am too
You see in red I see blue
But the difference from me and you is that 
I Stop to smell the flowers 
While you feed off of your power 
One will bring you close to heaven
One will drag you into hell
One will bring serenity
While one will make you have yourself 

Well I do too
You see in red I see blue
But the difference from me and you is that 
Hate how you wasted my time
But now you’re wasting your whole life
Chase your tail and wonder why your heart became so pale

chase your tail

Prod. @scarletrot1

Do you think you can handle the truth
I tell the stars and the moon all about you
Savor every single moment
Had a heart full of love and you stole it
Now my anxiety is through the roof
These words serve as some kind of proof
That I really miss you
Hombre hair and velvet skin
Your soft voice and black nail polish

Sorry if I’m too much
Sorry if you go numb
Should I be surprised
I know you’re busy with your life
Don’t want to overstep
Skip a beat with every breathe
See the fire in your eyes
Keep me warm until I die
But I’ll stay grounded
Get my head out of the clouds and
Face the fact that we’re just friends
Patiently await the end

I’ll be honest
I’m not in it for the lust I promise
I simply wanted
To see where you and I would end up
I just wanted 
Someone who would open up
But that’s okay
You could leave or you could stay
I’m hoping for the best
The worst is always what I expect 
Maybe one day
I could pull the curtain back
And show how much you mean to me
But for now Ill keep on bleeding

stay grounded

prod. @kingtheta

Who would have thought
I’d introduce myself to you back then
Little did I know your hugs would pull me in
8 months pass from July without a single sign
Now you swim in circles all around my mind

Every night we spend under the stars
It makes me wonder if you care for what we are
Can you tell I’m falling for you quickly
Be my parachute I’m reaching terminal velocity

Tell me are you scared 
It’s daunting wearing your heart on your sleeve 
People love to pull on every string
But dear I promise if you let me I am here to stay
Let me know if I took all of this the wrong way 

Every night we spend under the stars
It makes me wonder if you care for what we are
Can you tell I’m falling for you quickly
Be my parachute I’m reaching terminal velocity

terminal velocity

prod. @dercept

I think I’m getting nauseous 
Don’t know if this is a trap 
Or some kind of blessing in disguise
Told myself to tread with caution 
You’re so beautiful but all I know is that I’m terrified 
Will you love me back 
Or will you rip my heart out of my chest
Will we make it past
The feelings we pretend that we don’t have 

Is it worth it
To see if we could try and lift the curse 
Finding purpose
When every other chance has left us broken and hurt

Do you shine like a night light 
When we talk or when we touch 
Is this another case of overthinking
If it is then let me be alone I’m sinking 

I think I’m getting nauseous 
Don’t know if this is a trap 
Or some kind of blessing in disguise
Told myself to tread with caution 
You’re so beautiful but all I know is that I’m terrified 
Will you love me back 
Or will you rip my heart out of my chest
Will we make it past
The feelings we pretend that we don’t have

Tread With Caution

Prod. @QawiKamri

What happened to all those days where I would be so happy
It crept in just like a ghost hovering right behind me
Through my head
Through my body
It changed me
It blinds me from the light
Now i can't see

Living with this sadness, i just want to end it
Everybody hates me, nobody would miss me

It Changed Me (Prod. Qawi Kamri)

Prod. by @4evrgone

Hello girl i know that we've never met before
But you're beautiful and I am just a lonely boy that's awkward
I'm nothing more than just a smudge on your glasses
But I can see just fine with you and I together in my vision

I know that i'm just a mess
Broken heart and broken past
Baby give me just one chance
And I can promise you we'll make this last
You're so caught up with your life
I am never on your mind
Tell me this is not the end
Because I think we could be more than friends

I would leave and make the drive
To be with you for just one night
Lay with me under the stars
And tell you everything will be alright
Walk under the city lights
We both know it feels just right
Remember when we're far apart
We always have the sky to be our guide <3

U + I = Something (Prod. 4evr)

Prod. @killedmyself

I'm sorry
I can't keep on living much longer
my demons are becoming stronger
they're eating away my desire
Falling
faster than I could imagine
my mind is a cage that I'm trapped in
none of this was meant to happen
Lover
it always ends up with rejection
repeat like a record that's broken
the love that I have feels foreign
Promise
the reason I'm not in the dirt
my body belongs in the earth
a place where I cannot be hurt

The ground beneath you will act as my shelter
The box I rest in will feel so much better

Cleanse all my burdens my tears and emotion
the countdown began when I fell into darkness
leave all my hope in a body that's aching
leave all my love in a heart that is breaking

Telling myself that I'm not scared of dying
tell all my friends that I'm so sick of trying
telling my family that I'm just fine
Tell her we'll meet once again in the afterlife

Not Scared Of Dying (Prod. Killedmyself)

Feat. @peridotx
Prod. @jayhmez

Rinnegone:
Planets align when you fell into my line of sight
the chance of a lifetime
My confidence escaped me whenever you would pass me by
a kid that is too shy
I had to make a move because I  knew my time was running out soon
and you had no clue
Falling in love with a girl I thought I'd never get to talk to
what do I do

Peridot X:
The stars they aligned when we met yeah it just felt right
For me you were designed
I was too shy to say it but I've wanted you to be mine
while our hands intertwined
And i have to tell you because I know my feelings for you are true
do you feel the same too
My angel sent from above, the only one I'll ever love yeah that's you
Please love me too

Shy ft. Peridot X (Prod. Jayhmez)

Prod. @killedmyself

You're wanting nothing but the best for me
I'm wanting nothing more to do with you
Please understand that I have hopes and dreams
You fail to realize that I'm not you

Breathing down my neck i'm suffocating
Tell me more about how much I'm changing
You can't feel the weight that's on my shoulders
You can't see I'm close to six feet under

You're wanting nothing but the best for me
I'm wanting nothing more to do with you
Please understand that I am not alright
I wish that you could see inside my mind

You're breathing, I'm Suffocating (Prod. Killedmyself)

Prod. @killedmyself

Sick of being disappointed
I'm a disappointment
Isn't that ironic
I'll come back home broken hearted
Finding love beyond the wreckage
Is all I've ever wanted
Trip me up and fall from the curve
Shove my face in the dirt
I'll be honest it hurts
Too tired to stand back up
Something that I've come to learn
Is wishing on a star will never work

I don't think I have one more chance within me
Putting my heart on the line that I'm casting
I think I'm in love with the worst of timing
Or maybe there's just something wrong with me

Sit alone inside of my car
Try and drive somewhere far
To escape all these thoughts
Ending up back at the start
Is this what they call fun
Stop the game I am done
Heal myself from chemical imbalance
From heartbreak to manic
Relieve all their damage
Getting my hopes up so high
Watch them crash to the earth
Up in smoke as it burns

Curve (Prod. Killedmyself)

prod. @kuroimetsuyu
cover art: abrea

hit me like a face plant
blood all on the pavement
hate the smell of crimson
but i guess its time to face facts
my bad
im so sad
moving with emotions was an accident
see it in your iris
you dont even like this
wonder why we didnt kiss
and now im feeling stupid
thats okay
im to blame
honestly i knew youd never feel the same

leave me here without a candle
stumble through to fight the shadow
shine a light into the window
truth is what will be revealed
show the way you think about me
nothing more than nice and friendly
turn my heart to origami
crumpling instead of folding

origami (prod. kuroime)

prod. @wrainwrain

imprint me to my bed
i sleep so much the spiders in my head are making cobwebs
fixated on the past
throwing my belongings from my mind into the trash
going to the ocean
the only time i ever leave my room is when im coping
starting up a fire
shackles weigh my conscious down from things it will conspire
pyroglyph
decipher my past in the shape of the embers
aqua shift
determine my future through waves in the water

catch me lingering
such a waste of time and space
breathe the air that whispers hate
conversations with the walls
i dont even think i really know myself at all
zero gravity
floating with the stars in silence
ive kinda grown to like it
my thoughts pull me back eventually
faltering the beauty of the cosmos its a tragedy
astro myth
fabricate life in the light of the galaxy
suspended
stopping the ghost that will enter my dreams

i can't keep thinking like this
negative energy
pessimist death of me
really need a paradigm flip
some positivity
to keep me going

zero gravity (prod. wrain)

prod. candle lights

i hate to say this
ur losing a battle that no ones wins
ur my best friend
this isn't goodbye i will see u again
in my dreams
in my memories

i tried my hardest
to help nurse your wounds 
back to stable health
i'm so sorry
the reaper took hold of you
i couldn't help
please don't take her
the only one saving me from myself
all i have left
is a box with some memories on the shelf

best friend (prod. candle lights)

prod. @splashgvng

take back everything that they had stolen
shoes off your feet shirt off your back fuck them
strip you of the happiness you held
now you carry all their burdens that you're blaming on yourself
don't lose hope when you end up at a crossroad
i will help warm your body when you get cold
i will save pieces of your heart that he'd throw
for you just to see the way your story unfolds

don't blame yourself on your misfortune
everything seems broken in the eyes of the hopeless
they cut you down because they're selfish
cry when it hurts when you can't help it

take back everything that they had stolen
shoes off your feet shirt off your back fuck them
strip you of the happiness you held
now you carry all their burdens that you're blaming on yourself
don't lose hope when you end up at a crossroad
i will help warm your body when you get cold
i will save pieces of your heart that he'd throw
for you just to see the way your story unfolds

wait
i know that you're bored
with the cycle that you're living 
when there's so much more in store than
working every night and sleeping all the days away
weekends are the only time you get to run away
south
to a boy who does the most
waiting for your glow up cause he feels it in his bones
lately it's been hard you want to say that you are done
remember why you're here and don't forget how far you've come

take back everything that they had stolen
shoes off your feet shirt off your back fuck them
strip you of the happiness you held
now you carry all their burdens that you're blaming on yourself
don't lose hope when you end up at a crossroad
i will help warm your body when you get cold
i will save pieces of your heart that he'd throw
for you just to see the way your story unfolds

everything will be okay <3 (prod. splashgvng)

prod. @jufie

fly away
to the top of every mountain
where you get to meet the sun and moon
toss away
everything you held so dearly
like the heart that kept you whole and true
pass out on the ride to every moment
that mends your soul
koi begin to spin in circles
learn about the young and old

swim in the depths of the vapor
don't ask me i'll explain later
no one around so it's calm
enter the portal to home

i got horns but i'm glad you have a halo
you have wings i have a tail like an arrow
floating up to the clouds you're an angel
falling down to the core i'm a devil
listen to the sun and moon when they speak
everything will live and die in a blink
of an eye
we will die
fast asleep with blankets 
wrapped around your bed
figure out the balance 
of what's good and bad
inside your head
the light will bend
sleep until the stars align then wake again

swim in the depths of the vapor
don't ask me i'll explain later
no one around so it's calm
enter the portal to home

rinnegone

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