i like the change of pace with the vocals. genuinely such an experience

fursuiter: https://twitter.com/KunoAlpenstock
inspired by Alex G

give me ur magic my friend
tragic cost manifesting fallacies for you
is it true

pull me out the pocket at the back of your hand
put me in the front to see how ur world ends
free me from this form so we can stay friends

relax and ill hold you
the tax that youre sold to
is that what you want to be
sad and unspoken

why dont you give me up
impressions pressing me
to corrupt myself for you
and idk how i could be a cynic man
with lessons learnt from bitterness
i think id understand
i want you better than me 

bulletproof views
staying when ur guards up
pain ensues 
cus u think that ur times up

relax and ill hold u
the tax that ur sold to
is that what u want to
be sad and unspoken

a song about the things i wish i could have done

produced, mixed, mastered by phixel
verse by saoirse dream
backing vocals by jackalsclaw

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[NOTE: english translations will appear in brackets next to catalan lyrics. im still learning the language so im really really sorry for my bad pronunciation and grammar]

(phixel)
em fa mal  [it hurts]
tan malament  [so badly]
com puc escoltar  [how do i hear]
digue'm per què  [tell me why]

no et puc veure  [i cant see you]
a través de l'aire negre  [through this smog]
caurà neu ardent  [fiery snow will fall]
t'enterraré, a la cendra  [i will bury you, in ashes]

et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

(saoirse dream)
I still fall asleep in your clothes
Try to struggle out of your rope
Buy into release I’ve imagined
Cling tight to the arms of your ghost
I light matches that I can’t put out
So I burn down bushes outside of your house
And you just watch me
You laugh
Like “what the fuck is wrong with cat?”
You know that I can’t answer that

(phixel)
et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

a la cendra, a la cendra, a la cendra  [in ashes, in ashes, in ashes]

[jackalsclaw:]
(i went, i cast you in the fire, i watched you burn, i didnt cry)
(ill tell you everything alright, to get your memory out my mind)

notebook

ALL PLATFORMS!!!

notebook w/ saoirse dream

Written by Daniel Bernas, CMTEN, and flatroom !!

Blood sugar (feat. CMTEN)

just getting started

featuring:
@st1cksyea
@trndytrndy
@can-of-bliss

produced by:
@can-of-bliss

are you mad

hitch hike

stream

used this as set filler for far too long, decided to upload it

nightmare]}sequence 027 - 24b

||is this how it feels to take a life?||

~[track 3/10]

prod me
bg vox + additional prod @dramatrial
bg vox + additional writing @micahcallari

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
the mess you made around can’t be undone
that’s what you think!
could the problem be what you’ve become
that’s what you think!
nothing that you’ll say to me 
that will help me ease my mind 
so listen what i’m saying please
you can’t ignore the signs!

[prehook] ~ @jauntsen
cause you couldn't be
(it's alright, alright)
what I thought you seen
(it's alright, alright)
just a subtle taste
(it's alright, alright)
that’s soon to turn to waste

{{tts}}
is this how it feels to take a life?!

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
she’s not bleeding out!
I swear I need a little more time
(she needs a little more time)
I’m not one for myself
I never asked for help
I’ll play the cards i’m dealt.

[verse 2] ~ @jauntsen
the silence is overwhelming 
I cannot believe the words you are telling me
cause i dont know what to do in this situation

I saw myself in her eyes
the blood on her hands was mine
she stood in for my demise
Is this how it feels to take a life!

Bury her soul in my mind
I push her off to the side
And hide the stab to my pride
cause now I shed the tears she used to cry

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
cause you couldn't be
what you thought you seen
It will be her eyes next time you see me face to face
for now it’s just a taste
that’s soon to go to waste
remind me what could happen if I step out of my place

the blood’s dried on the floor
it's staining the decor
avert your eyes from me and I will not be that surprised
no matter what I try
my destiny’s to find
A brand new me to see a brand new outlook through my eyes

(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
she’s bleeding right out of her eyes
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
don’t think I’ll make it out alive

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
she’s not bleeding out!
(she needs some time to breathe x2)
she needs a little more time
I’m not one for myself
I never asked for help
I’ll play the cards i’m dealt.

spotify !

she's bleeding out!!

written and performed by @blissom and @chriad
guitar by @blissom and @d4niboi
drop drums and bass by @chriad
mixed by @blissom and @chriad
mastered by @ryptage
photography by aznlemon

go ahead
get comfortable
youre safe now
youre safe here
i promise
whatll it take
to get your mask off
to get you to show your face
i know you want to
and itll end the same
putrid and moldy
the decomposing meat
all you can smell for days
so take the makeup off
you cant fool me
i wanna see that pretty
rotting face of yours

(like it always does
ties torn apart
thrown into the mud
and it'll end the same)

can you stomach
a glance in the mirror
or have the bugs
made their way to your eyes
fade to black
no remorse
no regrets
no respect
is it done
is there more
left to do
left to end
left to kill

i fucking told you
i knew it would end like this
another page i shouldve left untouched
another reason to trust my gut
is nothing sacred
is nothing built to last
ive seen your faces
now i want nothing more than to leave them all in the past

what did you think youd get away with?
like did you really think that i wouldnt figure you out?
lay your cards down on the table
and try to act like i dont know that theres still some in your mouth
what did you think youd get away with?
you know its not easy to hide with the mess you leave
a reputation reduced to ashes
another cracked and broken memory

glass facade +chriad +daniboi

acapellas used:
cops and robbers
locals (girls like us)
johnny johnny johnny
shoot to kill, kill your darlings
old money bitch
uncanny long arms

bonus:
count of three (you can eat shit!)
girls & boys
old money bitch banjo
seventyseven dog years guitar

this will surely put an end to my abuse of underscores acapellas 3

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

11.6.23

The Great Divide

spent the summer of 2022 making this. wrote the original draft in 2021. not much compared to what i can do now, but i figured it was worth putting out since there's a bit of an emotional attachment for me. Represents a different era of my life

yes the export/sidechain is glitched because the file is corrupted and i could fix it by jumping through some technical hoops, but it's been like that for so long i kind of just consider it part of the song

hitch hike

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