4 of 10

cowritten by & featuring @t0rr
coproduced & mixed by @soupandreas
additional vocals & production by @daywaiter
mastered by Ryan Schwabe
art by atlas ezra

~~lyrics~~

(sd)
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this

when i speak with my voice
at a regular tone
yeah u like that don't u
started telling myself
that i sound like this
cause i love being lied to
it came pouring out of me
And i don't know how
i've been so good lately, honestly
been too busy portaling
and i wont stop now
getting so close lately
i'm scared of me

(torr)
what do u call that
what do u call that
letting you trade away your pulpit for a ballgag
im been living apathetic to the betterment
go ahead and burn a cigarette into my letterman
i could be passed out dead in the doldrums
letting my cup runneth over til its all gone
how long did u expect yourself to keep on rising now
what goes up must come down you know
thats not surprising now

(sd)
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this

(daywaiter)
never taking days off, yeah
end up with the shades on
now we never taking days off yea
(yea yea yea)
bouncing on the lip cause i was riding too slow
chomping at the bit its inevitable
(oooooo ooooo)
look what they gave us (if i took a little bit i’m rolling)
takin a day off (just another little hit i’m calling)
keeping the shades on (keep it coming till you hit that bottom)
kicking the chains off (just another little hit i’m wanting)
look how it paid off (if i took a little bit i’m rolling)
never a day off (just another little hit i’m calling)
keeping the shades on (have another and you’ll hit that bottom)
but we just can’t stop there

star★☆

wdyct w/ torr (soupandreas + sd)

4 of 13 (single 2 of 3)

art by me!

streaming: https://sparta.ffm.to/wl-10mm
lyrics: https://genius.com/Wishlane-ten-mile-meltdown-lyrics

ten mile meltdown

lumberyard

Stems are available @ https://evangeline.info

this song is about wanting normal things like normal people

Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
R. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan

https://evange-line.bandcamp.com/track/tailspin-ft-callum-sheehan-mt-saint-michael

[ SOC ]

--

I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

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instagram: www.instagram.com/itstooscar/
twitter: twitter.com/ToOscarMusic

stream

facelift, i know everyone in the room

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

____

made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

____

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https://www.instagram.com/clearlew_/
https://twitter.com/clearlew_?lang=en

____

Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

____

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

they love you, its all right

featuring:
@st1cksyea
@can-of-bliss
@saoirsedream

produced by:
@st1cksyea
@can-of-bliss
@atarax-music
@musicbyrift
@user-607541836

mystery song

thx mom and dad for helping with the cover art

Do you know how to be eighteen?
Do you know how to send your dream?
I'm talking schemes to the max, I'm talking all of your facts
I'm talking all of the time, I'm talking all of the time

We still got a summer to spend
Waste our fucking time, we're taking acid again
And everything I got it all belongs to my friends
Everything is love, but I can never commit

My old swiss army knife
Stem cells, nothing is direct
Everything is love, everything is love
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

It's bright white, a new kind of mindset
A little clinical, never cynical no
Remember getting your brand new phone?
Remember doing that on your own?

Like being in charge, and fucking it up
What was good became a mess and you thought giving up was
Inevitable, but suddenly...
You feel a supercharge of life

My old swiss army knife
Stem cells, nothing is direct
Everything is love, everything is love
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

REM, get it all in
Alex found a rabbit now she's wondering if
This world's the place for her
You gotta stop smoking this shit...

Don't be frightened you are in a car
You've just woken up from sleep
I imagine you were in a dream
You are in a dream

My old swiss army knife
Stem cells, nothing is direct
Everything is love, everything is love
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

REM, at the party last week
You're going off of the grid
I'm just pressing repeat
Cause and effect, building my flying machine
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

welcome to the plant cell bath

another old song
started in september 2021, finished in october 2022
https://twitter.com/canofblissmusic

Inner dialogue
Down on me all the time, but I don't cry a lot
I get my best ideas when I'm gone
Then I try to remember what the fuck is going on
In my head
It takes me all damn night to wanna go to bed
I keep thinking of everything I could've said
Why did I have to come off like I never meant?

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
Nothing got completed
It's time to waste time now

I keep burning out
Not always fully there, I'm drifting in and out
Do people even get the things I talk about?
I don't think so
Maybe my vibe is too bizarre
It's too much effort breaking me out with a crowbar
Maybe the answers to my problems are on Co-Star
I tell myself that I'm not wanted where my friends are
I tell myself that I'm not wanted at all

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

It's not that I don't wanna talk about it
I don't know how to fucking use my mouth
Then I forget what I was talking about

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

defeated

all @dylazy except for some art help from @reksi420 :3

Can you just swim in water
If you can't swim I'll hold you
but if you don't go to the deep end
I'll never grow up

My madrigal
you're fucking tired of me again
My madrigal
I hope you want me by the end

Hearing 8 different opinions is confusing to me
and I'm supposed to pick up the guns and make them see what I want to
It's hard
and it's a journey that honestly feels like
its way too far from me

never go run it back
feel the ice on my back
cause i want u to be here
right in my arms
right in my arms
right in my

you say you want me that's a lie though
im always calling what a psycho
I wanna feel wanted
but ig im not ur favourite sidekick

Tell me when the time is
Clock goes tick tock
but not for my shit

You're never free
is it that I make to many jokes about the fact that I'm into pee..

(and im not feeling focused)
ADH generation obsessed with sex and accusations

My madrigal
you're fucking tried of me again
My madrigal
I hope you want me by the end

Madrigal

spotlight
coming in hot
a yellow flash is all it takes I see you when i meditate ’til you beeline
you always do
there’s no rational for you staying
so irrational for you to think I wouldn’t

go for all the second dates the morning after
I wonder what the fuq i said
to make you get up and leave

take my place
for now i need a minute

take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away

well I’m not gonna force it
telling horror stories
i couldn’t show you love in a purgatory now i see it
it’s all transitory
if its a yellow-white flash, it’s an allegory i wonder what it takes
i’ll settle for my fate
but i wouldn’t let you wait
you sighed from my mistakes


i wonder what i would be doing if it wasn’t for you
hiding from the truth is all i’ll ever do
ah fuq! i wish i said to you
‘no please don’t get up and leave’

take my place
for now i need a minute
take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away
yeah

and i stay lit
just a little bit
too long cause i wanna catch a glimpse of it you said you didn’t know me anymore no you said you didn’t know me
it’s my fault you let me go

facelift, i know everyone in the room

To Oscar

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