Lyrics: 
Oh me, i've been fallin real slow,
watch me as I do let go.
inside I'm feeling hollow,
hope everythings OK tomorrow,
It hunts me in the evening,
when it's dark outside it is creeping,
it's waiting in the darkness,
shivers down my spine as it watches 


It feels the same again,
even if I try, 
I just lost all my faith in them,
I'm waving them goodbye,
is everything done,
is everything said?
I wanna do so much,
before I end up dead
before I end up dead
I wanna feel ahead,
I really need the right mindset
even if this takes a lot of time, I wont resign,
on my way to make the stars align, I'll truely shine, yeah
this is for the old times you left behind ya,
think about them everytime they undermine ya
And even if I lose my way sometimes,
I never let it take what without a doubt is mine  
Now I rise slowly,
I just need much more time
why the hell do I feel so lonely?



Oh me, i've been fallin real slow,
watch me as I do let go.
inside I'm feeling hollow,
hope everythings OK tomorrow,
It hunts me in the evening,
when it's dark outside it is creeping,
it's waiting in the darkness,
shivers down my spine as it watches 



why you acting so heartless?
why you acting so heartless?
for you I press on regardless,
for you I press on regardless,
this time it really turns out alright,
it turns out alright, everything be alright
this time im sure it all gon fine,
it is my time, I gotta come through,
oh I'm so done with me
if you knew half the shit that it has done to me,
my heart broke in two,
but I get that how's supposed to be
I dont know any better,
if I ever get better 
I dont know



Oh me, i've been fallin real slow,
watch me as I do let go.
inside I'm feeling hollow,
hope everythings OK tomorrow,
It hunts me in the evening,
when it's dark outside it is creeping,
it's waiting in the darkness,
shivers down my spine as it watches

Hollow (prod. Young Taylor)

Lyrics:
Black light in my heart I choke,
feeling good 'bout me until I don't,
ignite the light, pavin' my road
my life is just a whole mess,
this time I'm feeling hopeless,
tell me why does noone notice?
I ain't done, damn I gotta focus,
In the end it doesn't matter where your heart is.



I keep it in me, it's my way to shine,
altough it hurts, I live another time,
ruthless it is when I decide 
I'm gon' use it clearing the mist to feel alive
it's a complement my black light
it's a complement my black light
it's a complement my black light
it's a complement my black light


this time I'm feeling okay,
this time I'm feeling so great,
so fucking tired of my own hate,
I really hope that this ain't the end,
why don't you come back to me?
I know that you never will,
tomorrows ecstasy
is what I know I would kill for
feeling so lonely,
I'm drowing in this sorrow,
in the end I swallowed my pride for you,


I keep it in me, it's my way to shine,
altough it hurts, I live another time,
ruthless it is when I decide 
I'm gon' use it clearing the mist to feel alive
it's a complement my black light
it's a complement my black light
it's a complement my black light, yeah
it's a complement my

Black Light (prod. ERLAX)

Started making music in march 2019. This is my first song

Who Am I? (prod. Mors X Ashes)

This Song participates in the Spinnup Rap-Challenge. If you wanna support me i would like you to listen to it on Spotify aswell! :) 

https://open.spotify.com/track/7tyJ662UDWAP3P5SjsQ3nQ?si=v6tu3aBaT1ecrMdqHRZ_1A

Lyrics:

Now I found myself damn wasted,
day by day I'll be sedated,
never thought I'll act like this
feels like i change a lot,
can't lie to myself, brains left to rot
fight with the hell, I need it to stop
hard to explain, all these thoughts just remain
now the days the same, I'm watching the clock,
it's sometimes hard to cope with, but I'll follow through
Im surely not alone, cuz I know they do,
I bet in the inside we're all the same,
tired of this game, coping with the pain,
tryin' to get a name infront of us,
so everyone is proud of us.

Now I take control, enough of the hate,
same path we go, we really need a change,
I will condone, I'll take it to the grave,
I say im ready to put this shit behind me,
we both had enough time to think about what might be,
instead of feeling low I try to take it lightly,
watching from a far, you're my poison ivy
yeah you're my poison ivy,
and i'm still grateful that I met,
a person that helped me through all my stress,
and even tho I never been the same again,
I'll do it all again,
I be waiting for the right time.

Now I found myself damn wasted,
day by day I'll be sedated,
never thought I'll act like this
feels like i change a lot,
can't lie to myself, brains left to rot
fight with the hell, I need it to stop
hard to explain, all these thoughts just remain
now the days the same, I'm watching the clock,
it's sometimes hard to cope with, but I'll follow through
Im surely not alone, cuz I know they do,
I bet in the inside we're all the same,
tired of this game, coping with the pain,
tryin' to get a name infront of us,
so everyone is proud of us.

It aint great but I say that it's getting better everyday,
I miss the only person I could really trust with
things that bothered me became things that bothered you,
you're the only person i know who really gave a fuck about me 
and i gave a fuck about you and i know we aint the same,
and it's only your right to be you,
I just wanted to be a part of this,
I put my heart in this,
time to get this off my chest now,
fuck with my consciousness
i love and hate to forget,
that we did once exist
this shit just makes me upset,
whatever let's just bury it forever,
taking it with me seems like a neverending endeavour.

Wasted (prod. beatbyneco)

R.I.P Juice WRLD
R.I.P XXXTentacion
R.I.P Lil Peep

Produced by Zachary Gayden

NOW ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/3R8dMb7J2L2rO66Zl2ZcNG?si=StqUf9qLSw2XOjJiR3dOPQ

Lyrics:
Lately things been crazy,
these legends livin' life but using daily,
everythings alright?
the outsides fading,
happy in the afterlife, these boys were set for life i swear,
so sad now we lost 3 legends in a row,
turn it back, we don't need a club of 'dead at 21',
let it be said, will we change now that the damages done?
life comes to end altough it really just begun.
I try my best to be the one that they've become,
legends go and I hope that thats the last kind of these songs,
tripple 9 or X's, tell me where the end is?
haven't we just had enough when peep died from the drugs?

everythings alright?
The outsides fading
happy in the afterlife, these boys were set for life i swear,
so sad!
tripple 9 or X's, tell me where the end is?
haven't we just had enough when peep died from the drugs?
why does it seem that we just lose a lot things that we love?
now they chillin all above, I swear we outta luck,
tell me why is it endin', let the world be tremblin',
man I miss you. and all the demon youth,
I swear that I will never forget you,
it pulls me back, but I know that we stay true,
it hurts so much cuz i was listening daily to you~ 

I listened to you daily (3x)

tripple 9 or X's, tell me where the end is?
Uh!
Lately things been crazy,
these legends livin' life but using daily,
everythings alright?
the outsides fading,
happy in the afterlife, these boys were set for life i swear,
so sad now we lost 3 legends in a row,
turn it back, we don't need a club of 'dead at 21',
let it be said, will we change now that the damages done?
life comes to end altough it really just begun.
I try my best to be the one that they've become,
legends go and I hope that thats the last kind of these songs,
tripple 9 or X's, tell me where the end is?
haven't we just had enough when peep died from the drugs?

21 (tribute to the legends)

My songs are now on Spotify aswell, heres the link:

https://open.spotify.com/artist/1ZrBMjHN1hJv21mQfyus42?si=vFSwifzsQb6slZQfdZlM-A

Lyrics:

Why you always be fucking with me, I thought you want me to die?
You lay your hands on me as the clouds fly by,
A bittersweet tuned melody,
Makes my heart feel lighter, man it feels so free
Deaths grip feels tighter with every beat,
As my favourites song blast on repeat,
Shit made me strong, yeah it made me see
This life really playing out perfect

Hits till I drop, yeah I'm finally worth it,
Something deep inside me makes me certain,
Too many years on my back with a heavinly burden
Things kept me from feeling alive
I gotta cut it out like a surgeon
A year ago I was different person
To save my soul I had to pry it open
With everything I got and everything in stock

Now I'll be damned,
If I cant get ahold of this,
Of this

Now I'll be damned if I cant get ahold of this,
Everyday I'm spitting out these sick verses,
While you guys do nothing and feel so pissed,
Just consuming everyday do guys even know what a life goal is?
And even tho I know there are slim chances
Of me making it, but I'll take it,
Call it a passion, never be crashin again~

Why you always be fucking with me, I thought you want me to die?
You lay your hands on me as the clouds fly by,
A bittersweet tuned melody,
Makes my heart feel lighter, man it feels so free
Deaths grip feels tighter with every beat,
As my favourites song blast on repeat,
Shit made me strong, yeah it made me see
This life really playing out perfect

Perfect (prod. CapsCtrl x shrpnss)

This is my 1 year anniversary of my publishing my music.

Lyrics:

Fuck that, now my minds spins out of control
Sure I want you to be happy I don't wanna see it tho
You said it's for the better and in a way it really shows
You were my saviour but I gotta be my own hero
Fuck that, gotta go on with my everday life while I'm so sad
Oh yeah they all gon' love me when I'm dead
Found my outlet now I'm able to take some pressure off my chest

Stay, please stay, please stay away from me
I lost my way, god where is my mercy?
A broken spell puts back reality
A ghost, a shell, inside we're all empty
Fade away, full of smoke but I'm awake
In my head a full debate,
Was it all just my mistake?
Sure I know I fucked up a couple things
Sure I know it's time to turn these burdens into blessings
(Saviour, you were my, you were my, saviour)
Yeah I know it's time to turn these burdens into blessings
(Saviour, you were my, you were my, saviour)
Yeah these shadows keep staring

Fuck that, now my minds spins out of control
Sure I want you to be happy I don't wanna see it tho
You said it's for the better and in a way it really shows
You were my saviour but i gotta be my own hero
Fuck that, gotta go on with my everday life while im so sad
Oh yeah they all gon' love me when I'm dead
Found my outlet now I'm able to take some pressure off my chest

No I dont want to stand in between your goals
So we pick up the pieces, tryin to make a half a whole
Yeah restless and sleepless in grievous loneliness
Severed into small pieces
I just want you to stay away for me
Everytime you text,
This opressing feeling pushing out the air thats in my chest
And I know I gotta fix that, my neverending quest
I'm just happy now I can talk about the shit that I suppressed and
Even if they never let me get off
At least I can stand strong
Now at least thats how I feel, bruh
Finna able to catch up
Breaking up all my pattern
Loose or win - I do matter
Finna able to catch up
Break outta my pattern
Loose or win - I do matter
Finna able to catch up
Break outta my pattern
Loose or win - I do matter

Fuck that, now my minds spins out of control
Sure I want you to be happy I don't wanna see it tho
You said it's for the better and in a way it really shows
You were my saviour but I gotta be my own hero
Fuck that, gotta go on with my everday life while I'm so sad
Oh yeah they all gon' love me when I'm dead
Found my outlet now I'm able to take some pressure off my chest

Saviour (prod. Young Taylor)

Lyrics:

I wait for your call in the night while i lie
In bed awake every other time,
Why you keep on pushing me?
You're playing with my sanity
So they keep control about the things that I write,
I'm digging out my hate so I finna feel alive,
Oh god honestly,
It's my destiny

Oh damn me
Are you into me?
I'm loosing my precious life.
Stay with me,
I finna get some sleep
What a time to be alive

You wanna feel ok after all this?
On the edge of control
Lost my mind and some more,
You know I've been there before,
Sometimes life feels like one big chore
I just wanna feel alive,
I hate it when they switchin sides
Dont hit me up when I reached these heights,
Where were you when I broke inside?
You think I'll let this slide?
Don't play the same shit twice

I wait for your call in the night while i lie
In bed awake every other time,
Why you keep on pushing me?
You're playing with my sanity
So they keep control about the things that I write,
I'm digging out my hate so I finna feel alive,
Oh god honestly,
It's my destiny

You wanna feel ok after all of this?
of this?
Breakout without something that will hold me down,
Be proud creating sounds, not one second of a doubt
From lost ground and be frowned upon,
Cant imagine myself to be loosing now,
Just a different mindset and I'll prove it now
I just live my life  

I wait for your call in the night while i lie
In bed awake every other time,
Why you keep on pushing me?
You're playing with my sanity
So they keep control about the things that I write,
I'm digging out my hate so I finna feel alive,
Oh god honestly,
It's my destiny

Sanity (prod. Young Taylor)

Lyrics:

Hate to say it but I think I've fallen in love
This strange feeling that you get as you cant get enough
And this girl helps me life, helps me sobering up
But she aint mine, leaves a hole in my gut now

Make it rain
It's my only secret
That I can't explain
Broken into pieces
Hidin' all my pain
Just so you don't worry
No I can't just stay
Leaving in a hurry  

Please know I need some time for myself
You think I do hate you now? 
I know that we're both confused somehow about this
I'm actually glad that this all has started
You showed me there are girls who really care and which are honest
I wasn't afraid to show these demons on my closet,
Most people are fake or maybe it's me with all my problems
I try to get my distance but damn it is the hardest
Now I get that, you just wanna follow through with your principles
No, I get it, yeah its cool, even if it means I lose
Damn you really need to choose
Damn I really wish I could choose for you

Make it rain
It's my only secret
That I can't explain
Broken into pieces
Hidin' all my pain
Just so you don't worry
No I can't just stay
Leaving in a hurry 
  
Let go, let go
No I can't get relief somehow
This shadows creeping, hidden in the background
And yeah I'm letting myself down again
Damn you making me laugh with your cheeky comments
And I know you ain't flawless, but tell me who is flawless?
Love's a strange game, so you gotta be cautious
Living with this pain, it's from the damage that it causes
Least thing that I get is that I write a perfect chorus

Make It Rain (prod. IOF)

Lyrics:

fresh blood on my old jeans,
"they just wanna have fun, no they aint mean"
fuck off bitch did you see me laughing?
"they all wanna have some of what they lacking"
kids are just a bunch of savages,
and some cut their wrist and some cut some kids,
they all think its fun but they all forget,
that I wont forget, no I wont forget,
and I prayed to the lord who is dead,
for everyones against me, they all be in my path,
and even if they like me now, they wont evade my wrath
Success' the best revenge, so that's where im heading next
and I prayed to the lord who is dead,
for everyones against me, they all be in my path,
and even if they like me now, they wont evade my wrath
Success' the best revenge, so that's where im heading next
fuck y'all, be gone, 
i'm loosing my time again,
writing this hateful song,
just to get my revenge,
you guys know you did wrong,
i dont need to call some names,
full of rage like im king kong
am i still the same? 
full of heat, spitting verses,
fuck it, am i on flames?
lil weak had to hear and duck it,
as it comes in waves,
now I got this bullshit habit,
that I just can't explain,
teasin me and my hearts the target,
driving me insane, so i'll say:
fresh blood on my old jeans,
"they just wanna have fun, no they aint mean"
fuck off bitch did you see me laughing?
"they all wanna have some of what they lacking"
dumb kids they go to school,
just to break some rules,
while they break some kids,
with the same old shit,
cuz they aint a fit at home
and they wonder why those kids loose control
back when I was a kid
I had to deal with this shit
lying in my bed I
prayed to the lord who is dead,
for everyones against me, they all be in my path,
and even if they like me now, they wont evade my wrath
Success' the best revenge, so thats where im heading next
and I prayed to the lord who is dead,
for everyones against me, they all be in my path,
and even if they like me now, they wont evade my wrath
Success' the best revenge, so thats where im heading next

Kids (prod. IOF)

Lyrics: 

yeah I'm feeling so great,
believe me cuz I say so,
the whole world now is all mine,
no need for me to stay low,
truth be told, youre so fine,
my angel with a halo
everything is alright,
believe cuz I say so,

stop teasin me, girl you playin' like a nintendo,
it kept hurtin me cuz I clinged on you like velcro
anyway I wont forget that you're my sweet memento
the worst and best of me, my hurtful melody
stop teasin me, girl you playin like a nintendo,
it kept hurtin me cuz I clinged on you like velcro
anyway I wont forget that you're my sweet memento
the worst and best of me, my hurtful melody

yeah you heard it right,
I think all the time,
about the things that make me feel alive,
in times where I cant stand myself, 
i always wish i was somebody else
and I followed you cuz you felt so different,
livin' up to you created our distance
should I let go?
damn I'm fallin slow

now im tryin to make a name for myself,
so i never wish i was somebody else.

stop teasin me, girl you playin like a nintendo,
it kept hurtin' me cuz I clinged on you like velcro
anyway I wont forget that you're my sweet memento
the worst and best of me, my hurtful melody
stop teasin me, girl you playin like a nintendo,
it kept hurtin me cuz I clinged on you like velcro
anyway I wont forget that you're my sweet memento
the worst and best of me, my hurtful melody

so I never wish I was somebody else
now I'm tryin' to make a name for myself
so I never wish I was somebody else
now I'm tryin to make a name for myself

Somebody else (prod. Young Taylor)

Please dont just fade away,
it's my little world, it's my getaway
from all of this,
tell me whats the point to all of this
I will not stay the same,
if I wont change im becoming insane,
all this helped me survive all the stress and pain

I offer tainted love,
this love shits kinda rough,
they all just piss me off and
lately I've been feeling hopeless,
guess I gotta focus,
rap game's still in an atrocious state,
I hope I'll make a change, 
I hope you can relate,
they all just want the fame and,
doing nothing, purely nothing,
flex on insta to feel something,
talking drugs and talking money,
way to go you fucking dummy.

Please dont just fade away,
it's my little world, it's my getaway
from all of this,
tell me whats the point to all of this
I will not stay the same,
if I wont change im becoming insane,
all this helped me survive all the stress and pain

Now I'm trying to get along with this,
yeah I'm really trying my best
to stand out among the rest and
even if I never make it, 
never gon' be famous,
never know if i dont chase it, yeah
way to go, way to go,
never gon' sell my soul - it's too stressful
and I know, yeah I know
it aint all just fable

golden life, self proclaimed,
golden life, self proclaimed,
tell me whats the point of this life
you know legends never die,

Please dont just fade away,
it's my little world, it's my getaway
from all of this,
tell me whats the point to all of this
I will not stay the same,
if I wont change im becoming insane,
all this helped me survive all the stress and pain

Fade Away (prod. Young Taylor)

Lyrics:
Dont tell me who to be,
ima figure this out, the way i like me to be,
go 'round, tell em all that the old patrick is dead,
yeah i might just try to be me instead,
live life so perfectly,
i go figure this out, the weight's so big on me
need to make it stop, feel the urgency,
ima be on top, I set these ghosts free.

livin off the trail is kinda lonely,
I'm getting off in time, I'm hoping lowkey,
this gon be my time, again they ghost me,
how the hell this keeps on happening to me?
please tell me you understand what you're doing to me?
yeah you breaking up my heart, fuck you did'nt see that?
damn you tearing up my soul, dont give a fuck bout that?
I was building up these walls, you tell me that you get it,
no you're not honest, you're just acting,
fuck your stupid problems that youre havin',
it goes on and on and its just facts
that im just sick of this, i wanna end it yeeeah~

Dont tell me who to be,
ima figure this out, the way I like me to be,
go 'round, tell em all that the old patrick is dead,
yeah I might just try to be me instead,
live life so perfectly,
i gotta figure this out, the weight's so big on me
need to make it stop, feel the urgency,
ima be on top, I set these ghosts free.

Slowly, patiently i bring myself to see
that every moving piece has it's place to be
oh fuck why does mine just keep on moving?
damn I can't go on, man i might just loose it
yeah it's true im glad about these past improvements
but it so damn hard push myself to do this
I push myself to do is
express myself with music yeah
im so done with losin you

Dont tell me who to be,
ima figure this out, the way i like me to be,
go 'round, tell em all that the old patrick is dead,
yeah i might just try to be me instead,
live life so perfectly,
i go figure this out, the weight's so big on me
need to make it stop, feel the urgency,
ima be on top, I set these ghosts free.

I set these ghosts free (2x)

Yung Beethoven

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