don't know where we'd be without yung van <3

please never stop..... only thing getting me through this.. why is it so hard to lose the perosn you felt you were ment to spend the rest of your life with

Consistency is useless if its a bad habit

1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

Lyrics:
sometimes i really wonder if im only gettin dollars cause i fucked up
never kept a job they told me kid you better buck up
no one ever like you if you sad and you be stuck up
thinking on my past and all the things that really fucked up

my mental i be on a roll im smokin menthol
mix it with the ganja now its foggy in the temple
thought that i saw god but only really saw a rental
everybody sellin it its only fundamental

washin my hands, cause ion really wanna get sick
steppin outside, and then we'll prolly all just get hit
that was all for nothing, you get hit with the stick, your brain gon be split, aint no one remember what you spit

and i could go all day
sippin whiskey out the bottle just to be okay
i destroy my fuckin guts and put it on display
you hear what i say, yall just cant confront the thoughts i wanna convey

bitch, i get some money piling checks
you could check my bank account and see these numbers all the rest, is just pretending they got gucci and some prada just to flex, but ion even play that shit i keep it humble im a mess

you could hand me the glock, i point it straight up at my brain
everybody lookin at me like they think i went insane, so i wont pull the trigger even at the end of the day
im going insane, im drowning in pain, i wanna be named

as the big bad wolf, you could catch me alone
im in a big bad mood, while i sit on my throne
a messy ass room, you know how we do, im makin it through, im paying everything that gotta be due

im, sippin some whiskey while im writing writing these words
i know they coming out too real and you just think im absurd
for all the thoughts inside my brain, its getting worse like every day
no im just kidding im just playing i know ill be okay

how the fuck i get here?
was supposed to be a big year, now im sittin in my room i got a grave to dig here
know its been a while since i really only been here
grinding every day just to really only get here

yo, like where the fuck did my life go
i wake up every day like where the fuck did the time go
could really give a fuck its all about the survival
im writing all this down like issa verse in the bible

i get stuck, inside this part of my mind
that says im really not okay but i just wanna be fine, but fuck it we just keep on ballin gettin money in time
cause maybe if i just ignore it then ill really be fine

they say, hk cant spit
what you call this boy, got me chompin at the bit
got respect for all the OGs and the new skool kids
we could really take it over now watch this bitch

heard me spit now you coppin my flow
gettin lit while im pullin the dough
dont wanna talk so just leave me alone, im blowin smoke on my own all my OGs know

and i believe that we could get it, everything we ever wanted everything you ever listed, all the money and the fame, and the bright and sunny days, all the dreams we always had before the happy went away, im

never stoppin you could try me bitch,
every day im holding on, call that shit true grit,
i never even really thought of all the times i slipped, im over it, im taking real control of it

people pay to hear me talk,
listen to me while they walk, gettin money in stocks, workin to the same old song, flippin burgers or they thuggin while they run from the cops

or they be raising their kids, with all my music in the back
i know that shit be really hard when you been staying off the crack
but you been stayin on the track, so why you even lookin back
i know you got this, yeah you got this, its a war but you attack

we all just got one quest, gettin money when we aint at our best, gettin paid fuck the rest,
doing what we do upon nobody request, i know that ima make it so i say it with my chest

i got more bars than a penitentiary
more than just a check is what it really meant to me
staying on my path cause i said fuck the enemy
speakin with my flow cause i know it was meant to be

76 Bars

Fukkit - Up Late

SAITAMA

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you
ill make it better for you
ill find a way to change hue
i feel like alien
and i just want to relate
got me going

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

if we're talking about time i wanna cut it down
if its gonna make the wait longer then fuck it all
you're in my mind right now
and i just wanna get to you so i can shut the fuck up
got me going
dont fall down
SINGING EVERYTHING FROM MY HEAD!
its generic
but im simple
when you speak to me you make my legs tremble
i see ghosts in my room
i see ghosts in my room

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone
im so fucking sick of waiting for my life
im accepting the fact nothing happens over night

GHOSTS (Scottysplash)

artwork by Arnaud (@buvard_ )

CASPR X LEDERRICK (NYC 2022)

mixed and mastered by me

Caspr ~ Chemicals prod Lederrick

Consistency (Prod. Jaguarclaw)

2MillionBlunts

Vogues

cuts deep

lyrics:

we sang this song in the shower too many months back
a memory and an hour ill never get back
pour me up in this cup cause thats a quick hack
for erasing these flashes my brain will still track

told you if it didnt work, youd be all my songs
told you im obsessed you didnt see it you were dead wrong
now im in this room just sipping steady so im headstrong
its my medication and its cheap id rather be gone

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just lay here and smoke

i just lay here and smoke
i just lay here and smoke

bacardi on the floor always spill some
soak it with my skin just to feel sumn
my night aint even started its a killer one
im faded out my mind and im not even done

i wanted to end it, i wanted to go back
i wanted to do it all over the way that it was when i knew that
nothing was changing, we all stay the same please
dont forget me forget it its okay im drunk on the daily

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just throw up the most

ive ever seen
now im seeing green
now its turning to black
ill just lay on my back

Obsessed

obsessed

WHAT U GON' DO

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My Eyes

@qawikamri
@eidolon-seeker

LYRICS:-
QAWI KAMRI
baby you don't have to be alone
we'll fight the pain and bring you home
so
take my hand
feel my soul
i keep you close
i love you so

EIDOLON SEEKER
Please just try to stay alive, yeah
Shawty tell me everything’s alright, woah
I know it’s harder when there’s something on your mind, yeah
But don’t be scared to tell me how you feel inside though

We’re deep inside this mess
I’m getting outta bed
Can’t sit around all day
And leave you here instead

So please just hold right on
I’ll be there before dawn
Just tell me what you need
I swear I’ll get it gone, yeah

QAWI KAMRI
Tell me when it gets too hard
ill be right by your side
nothing can pull us apart
dance to the beat of your heart

its okay that your heart belongs to someone else
i still mean it when i say that
you're worth it, you're perfect
you're everything i want
you're everything i need
hope you'll see what i see
hope in time you'll be with me

EIDOLON SEEKER

You always knew
Nothing ever would change
Got a hole in my soul
And I’m stuck in my ways

You’ve been losing your grip
Everytime that you stayed
How much more can I give
Cause I know you can’t wait

And there’s this sickness that I feel, It’s in my heart, it’s in my head
Sleeping poorly with this pain, I’m wishing dearly that it left
And all those times when you were threw
I really wish that I was dead
Cause I don’t know what I would do
If we could never meet again, right now

QAWI KAMRI & EIDOLON SEEKER
take my hand
feel my soul
i keep you close
i love you so

Bring You Home (w Eidolon Seeker)

crashmycar (prod. caspr)
Instrumentals produced by caspr
Vocals written by Days To Waste

Lyrics:
Tear out my heart, go and rip me apart, cuz I'm over it, I'm over it and, it's hard to believe, but I'm not what you need, just get over it, get over it
Like the gossip, talk shit, tell another secret, lie and say that I was never needed
Crash my car, you're laughing while I'm bleedin, leaving scars but I don't feel a thing and
I would never, tell you these things, and I'm starting to think, that it's not up to me, we're forever, trapped in a dream, where you're all that I see, now I don't wanna stay here

No, I don't wanna stay here

Lay in the dark, on the hood of my car, I'm not over it, not over it, cuz I'm seeing your eyes in the light of the stars, just a sober kid, with a toxic heart

Stay here all night, wait until the sunrise, lie and say I promise that I'll be fine, fuck the game, I'm waiting on the sidelines, hide the pain, Still hurting ,but I'm alright
I would never, tell you these things, and I'm starting to think, that it's not up to me, we're forever, trapped in a dream, where you're all that I see, now I don't wanna stay here

No, I don't wanna stay here

crashmycar

crashmycar (prod. caspr)

a guest at my own funeral (prod. caspr)

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

// flowrs // 

it’s so degrading 
the way you say that
you know what you want,
and you don’t want to love me

you’re so persuading,
i fuckin hate it
when you say those things
that you know 
fucking cut me 

our love is fading
and you’re evading
all these cloudy thoughts 
cus you’re so fucking lucky

just fucking say it
can’t catch a wave
so i’ll just stay afloat
cus you’re swimming above me 

fuck you,
fuck him 
fuck everything,
every thought,
don’t wanna ever think you’re fine,
i know i’m not 
tell me does he 
love you
the same way that you
loved me
i hope you fucking die 
i swear to god
i’ll kill you with my own two hands
you went too far 

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day 

// skele // 

it’s so frustrating 
how you push me away 
then you’re pulling me back by the end of the day 
it’s so annoying 
how u say that u need me 
then act like u hate me 
i’m tired of waiting 

so why u got act all mad for 
tell me that ur needing more 
why u gotta slam the car door 
n now ur taking off my shirt on your floor 
but i’m here 
and you’re there 
and you tell me that it’ll be okay
i don’t care

// flowrs //

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day

tumour w/ skele

Pocho ass Chicano de Michoacán, bleed that dirty bean blood. 3rd gen degenerate vagabond.  Most beloved welfare kween, I am them. Just tryna get up and get it shakin'.

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