hits me hard as my boyfriend left me today and it doesn't seem to be getting easier. this song is really helping.

first time listening to this and lememe tell yoh this shit goes fucking hard word for word

I just want to know....do you still think of me....

I miss waking up to texts....I hate calling you my ex.....

I miss ya too just here trying get sum mula

playing this makes me remember about my teenage years. im glad i heard it and always find a way back to listen, thank you for your music van

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

Emo bullshit


idc if you don't like this song I made this one for myself

Lyrics:

Today I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

Is this a dream? Got my hand on the handle 
Perks in my bloodstream I just took a handful
Don't remember how I got here
It doesn't matter how I got here
All I can see is the gun on the table 
Fall on my face call your phone while I'm able
Don't remember how I got here
Doesn't matter how I got here
Flashbacks to days that I thought were repressed
I fucked up again yeah it's what I do best
Just trying to fill up this hole in my chest but she don't understand what I mean by depressed and
I'd tell you I hated you if it were true
I'd tell you i loved you if you loved me too but
I'm on the edge now I know it's too late
I already know I was just a mistake

I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

I don't know who to put this in words, the way this burns
Silver lining is that I'm blessed with a curse
With this anger that I know I deserve, or am I swerving on the people that I love cause I'm 17 and already missed my turn?
And I didn't learn a thing from this
Except what it's like to be buzzing with a trigger finger dying to scratch an itch
And I feel like such a bitch, now my girl is pissed because I'm back on the pharms
Singing love from her lips, and writing hate on her arms
So I say fuck it I'm done, And I try to get away
But I don't get very far, And there's nowhere to stay
Now I'm writing these bars, Cause I've got so much to say
So my worlds will live on, Even When I fade away

 I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
It's all in my head, I think I'm better off dead
So can you please tell me why?

Oct. 17th 2014

@lilkuudere

lyrics:
i hear my phone ringing 
but i know i shouldn't answer it
this negative energy's
so fucking cancerous
i swear i need to cut you off
before you grow on me
and i loose everything to you
up in the bed sheets

don't you worry
i'll be fine
tryna get you off my mind
atleast i hope so over time
you never know tho
with all these photos
in my camera roll
every time i look at them
i'm sucked into a black hole
you cut me deep 
and watched me bleed out 
morbidly
now i have no choice 
but to adjust my life accordingly
hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me

go ahead and hate me for wanting to die
i just want to be alone tonight
curl up in my bed and cry
let out all the things i hide

go ahead and hate me for wanting to die
i just want to be alone tonight
curl up in my bed and cry
let out all the things i hide

don't you worry
i'll be fine
tryna get you off my mind
atleast i hope so over time
you never know tho
with all these photos
in my camera roll
every time i look at them
i'm sucked into a black hole
you cut me deep 
and watched me bleed out 
morbidly
now i have no choice 
but to adjust my life accordingly
hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me


(hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me) X3

don't worry, i'll be fine (prod. lil kuudere)

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and I'm living out a bag tryna make a bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love

[VERSE / WeepingWolf]
Call it Tough Love 
Call it Tough Love
She asked for the white
like girl take a bump
Fucked off the drugs
yeah I'm fucked off the drugs
Worst day of my life but
I don't give a fuck ah yeah

[BRIDGE]
Todays the worst day but it will be alright (x4)

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and I'm living out a bag tryna make a bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill

[VERSE / Anton Golden @antongxldn]
All these dark thoughts tryna mess with me
So I put them on a beat with a melody
Recently I've been looking for the remedy
Cooking up every day found the recipe

Eventually you'll leave but the drugs won't
Baby I'ma get high till my lungs blow
I've been looking at the sky now I'm so close
Tryna find my way call me Nemo... Nemo

Bitch I've been smoking
my heart is broken
Shes off that coke and
numbing emotions

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it dont go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah im a curse
and i need you now but im too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and im living out a bag tryna make bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill

Druggie Romance Ft. Anton Golden (Prod By. CRCL)

Lie Again Ft. Yesterday & Moonlet (prod. Yung Flex) out on spotify

produced by loopy

can we start over? [prod. loopy]

@mewsyc
@producedbyaidan
@guccihighwaters

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

whats inside my cup
blindsides my brain
so i hide my face
in an act of shame
and hope to dissapear
in a perminant way
u watch me fade to black
u'd love to watch my pain

and u know
who to call
ill b there
after all
and i know
when i fall
u wont care
afterall,

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

yeah, im just a waste
i dont got that much to offer
im selfish and conceeded 
but always put my all
into everyone and everything
then watch it as it falls
let it crumble to my feet
just like everything ive ever loved

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

im ur puppet and u play me like a game
text from my ex, yeah she never felt the same
use me on a rainy day
abuse me til i cant even think
that picuture that we took
i always kept it safe
id put it in my pocket just so i could see ur face
when i was out of town
u always kept me with u
never told u bout all the times when i would miss u

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

Follow me <3

boy toy (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. mewsyc & aidan]

the first single off my EP

@ihateshinigami

the void (ft. shinigami)

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO
---------------------------------

www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJpmpm9I-Zc

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domynoofficial

lyrics
————————
i just wanna feel good
i just wanna get better
i know said i’d quit
but that was last september
if i keep this up
ill be dead by december

i can’t even live w/o that rush
yea i can’t even live w/o that cup
with u im dead
without u im empty
i took too much
but i swear its not enough 

yea i want u so bad
oh u make me so mad
i should leave u the past 
but i know that i cant
i been starin at the mirror
i don’t really like what i see
see my vision getting clearer
now i gotta make it burry

how u sayin
let it go?
when u all know
i just wanna coast
fall back
right in to the door
always do the most
needa smoke
roll me up some dope
then i swear ill go
u wont see me
ever again
i hope u know

dead by december 
will u remember me?

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

yung van

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