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lyrics:
im so stuck in this quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in

why am I like this
internal conflict
ion feel shit when I fight it
stuck in the mindset
im goin under, I split my world into sunder
fuck all these lames dont give a fuck what they say
strapped wit a heart and karambit
fuck everyone fuckin round wit my bros shit
why the fuck did u do that no I cant stand it
thought u were a friend
turns out u like fuckin over ur friends so I had so I had to unfriend, hope u understand
I do what I can nothin comes easy, but ill stop shit when u need me

breathe in, feel the weight in my chest
its the best
bleedin, all I need is some rest
some rest x2

im so stuck in the quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in x2

quicksand

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featuring my extremely talented friend @sleepywater 💙
prod. @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
[autumn]
you ok?..

so i tell myself
don't die on me
don't lie to me

i lie here, ask how i'm doing
words out my mouth 
is it trash that i'm spewing?
i deserve hell for every wrongdoing
you sewed up my heart
just after i skewed it

hate when anybody talk to me
there's not a lot to me
i'm just distraught and weak
there's so much to do in the day (day)
what do i have to do to make you stay (stay)

how does this world expect me to keep going
when all that i have are depleting emotions
and all that i am is pathetic and hopeless
and all that i ask, and all that i ask is to leave

i'm begging please
i'm falling down
whenever you leave
don't make a sound
don't even breathe
i finished counting all my steps
a cliff they lead

[sleepwater]
i'll be ready, drowning
heart beat too fast; anxiety
in my hollow frame
lost cause, puppet brain

spewing my heart 
over a fire; got dark
will you be my ember 
stuck in a cauldron
do you remember when i was holding
your achy arms i was all upon it
you got my clothes but 
you could of stopped it
sorry for the vacancy i wish i locked
it was a fucking job to you 
i wish i stopped it

[autumn]
lawless; aching doesn't stop
isn't this what i wanted from you
i'm so awful

[sleepwater]
don't make a sound, don't make a scene
filling my lungs with nicotine 
oh damn ur the one that i'll ever need
damn ur the one that just let me be

[autumn]
(let me be)
don't really know why you like me
are you just starving
for someone's pysche?
i can hear the hounds
yeah they're howling in the darkness
wonder what they found
either molly or a carcass

[sleepwater]
im prowling in the twilight
everything you say now its a delight
maybe ur an angel in disguise 
fucking up my psyche, cutting all my ties

[autumn]
i cannot talk for long
there's somewhere i gotta be
the green of the forest it calls
yeah i got a date with the-
i got a date with the trees

tell me who i am
and who i'm supposed to be
won't be here for long
bitemarks made with teeth
the frostwalker it crawls
arriving at your feet
let it rest beneath...

puppet brain w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

follow my girlfriend @novagarden

TRECH:
in my suicide note i wrote
that if any motherfuckers want smoke
id choke 
i stay fucked up
i’m so hung up
on the fact i ain’t shit
but a fuck up
all my friends have overdosed
even though i ain’t there yet, bitch i’m close
in the meantime
i’ll stay locked in my room 
away from sunshine

take cover in a substance
i hate the taste
down it like its nothin’
how many hits can i lick before i tap out?
how many
drinks can i sip before i black out?
imma test my limit for the last time
please stay with me on the hotline
i’ll call u back when i feel alright
but tomorrow never comes
a life is finite

NOVA:
i can’t stop takin’ hella pills
but im not addicted 
i just do it for the thrill
acid tabs sitting on my tongue
but don’t worry ‘bout a thing
i just do it for fun
glassed eyes in the mirror
lookin’ at myself
thinkin’ ‘bout why the fuck i do this to my health
paranoia got me grabbin’ shrooms off my shelf
try to stop me
i cant let you bitch
so go to hell

TRECH:
i feel nothin’
to feel somethin’
but im a fucking slave to the chemicals
ive been 
straight huffin’
i wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
take my mind away
my eyes fell down the drain
these tear drops act as rain
try to flush away rinse away my pain

shards of glass

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shards of glass (feat. nova garden)

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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

Well the world don't seem so small
When you're so far away from me
Tried to call you late last night 
But I hung up before the second ring 
Tried to follow my heart
But I would rather just fucking scream
Nothing makes no fucking sense
I need to wake up from this dream 

But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to live without you
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same 
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same
But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to fucking live without you 
Without you

the problem [bonus track] (p. shiki xo)

Home Away From Home w/ Screwyounick & American Dead Cross

looking for myself, in the pieces you left me

Getting off with your right hand
As for me, I'm fucking bitches on the nightstand
All my friends snort white sand
As for me, I'm going off on this mic stand
Got to pick your battles in this life. alright?
Either way we die
Wouldn't you rather live it right
Get high all time; cheat code? not quite
Hedonism fill your whole soul with spite

I can't even live these words
That I'm just now preaching
Habits kick them to the curb
But I'm always seeking
Lately life's been a blur
Bleached memories
Hide the ones that hurt
High under sheets
Heart So Cold  *Burr
Stone cold sober
Real life's so boring
Waking up in the morning
It's the same shit day after day
Used to think that church was stupid
Now I know why they pray
I was bout 12 years old when this life went grey
Now I put all of my vices and addictions on display
Only chasing what entices me
I ain't half the man I'd like to be

And I'm sure you can see it
One day depressed and the next I'm conceited
But I won't die defeated
I'll try my best until I am deleted

Getting off with your right hand
As for me, I'm fucking bitches on the nightstand
All my friends snort white sand
As for me, I'm going off on this mic stand
Got to pick your battles in this life. alright?
Either way we die
Wouldn't you rather live it right
Get high all time; cheat code? not quite
Hedonism fill your whole soul with spite

And we all bleed red
Had to get it through my head
There's a cause and effect
From the words that you said
When you lie there dead
What's your list of regrets
When you're filled with dread
Remember life is a gift
But your only human
There's no solution for that
Coping with my Neumann
And the sound of the hats
If you live in pure enjoyment
Something's bound to go bad
If you're tryna stay buoyant
It's a balancing act

Bleached Memories [1080 Pale]

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

// flowrs // 

it’s so degrading 
the way you say that
you know what you want,
and you don’t want to love me

you’re so persuading,
i fuckin hate it
when you say those things
that you know 
fucking cut me 

our love is fading
and you’re evading
all these cloudy thoughts 
cus you’re so fucking lucky

just fucking say it
can’t catch a wave
so i’ll just stay afloat
cus you’re swimming above me 

fuck you,
fuck him 
fuck everything,
every thought,
don’t wanna ever think you’re fine,
i know i’m not 
tell me does he 
love you
the same way that you
loved me
i hope you fucking die 
i swear to god
i’ll kill you with my own two hands
you went too far 

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day 

// skele // 

it’s so frustrating 
how you push me away 
then you’re pulling me back by the end of the day 
it’s so annoying 
how u say that u need me 
then act like u hate me 
i’m tired of waiting 

so why u got act all mad for 
tell me that ur needing more 
why u gotta slam the car door 
n now ur taking off my shirt on your floor 
but i’m here 
and you’re there 
and you tell me that it’ll be okay
i don’t care

// flowrs //

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day

looking for myself, in the pieces you left me

yung van

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