"can't let you see i'm suffering.." 🔥💕

I could care less on how I dress on the weekend
Maybe I'm depressed under stress off the deep end
Everyone around me seems so basic
I hate that term but that's what they named it

Internet won't connect all these ties that I let
Get frayed give way and finally break
Sorry didn't respond my mistake
Hardly anywhere but my head these days
Give a fuck cuz I know my friends are offline
Outa luck won't forgive me from the sidelines
Highlights all over their front page
I guess I don't care if I'm included really no way

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

No other way to say it
but friends feel overrated
I guess it's what you make it
Then again in the end I hate to face it
No offense I don't care how you choose to take it
I'll admit past six you can find me pacing
I wanna be alone and I don't know why
Maybe hit me up but I'll say not this time
And that's why I question myself so much
Why do I miss it when I wanna lose touch

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

Spotify

sorry i didn't reply (prod. IOF)

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

spotify

trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

stay away please

Well the world don't seem so small
When you're so far away from me
Tried to call you late last night 
But I hung up before the second ring 
Tried to follow my heart
But I would rather just fucking scream
Nothing makes no fucking sense
I need to wake up from this dream 

But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to live without you
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same 
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same
But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to fucking live without you 
Without you

the problem [bonus track] (p. shiki xo)

suffering

staring at the ceiling where did things go wrong
searching for a reason jokes on you they're gone

formication don't feel right
that shit keeps me up at night
maybe im just losing my mind
or maybe i just need some rest
a quiet place, a different bed
and fuck it if i leave i won't come back

so go watch me burn let me bleed till im dead and gone
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and my graves been dug
i'll still wait for you counting days moving one by one
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and 'goodbye, so long'

im so sick of isolation im so sick of being sick
down myself another bottle grab the bong and fucken rip
you ain't ever had the feeling like your bones are caving in
the voices contradict my doings guess my times just running thin

so go watch me burn let me bleed till im dead and gone
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and my graves been dug
i'll still wait for you counting days moving one by one
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and 'goodbye, so long'

here lies

cut myself with thorns, for you to throw away the roses

prod. @stillvanishing
ft. @lilxtraatl

s/o @prodbybrody
& @the-gnarly-neighbors

[STREAMING]

hurt (ft. lil xtra) [p. eadith]

Lyrics:

Bridge

I've been goin hard on these tracks
Can you see me now?
Blow smoke in my face 
Cuz I never really liked this town
I aint never been the type
That will stop
You can't hold me down
New friends New life
But it never really changed my frown.

Verse

Ya
I never said that it was easy
Ignore the fights always glued to the tv
Only outlet I had was a fantasy
Splitting up it's the weight of the world on me.
Memories I always hate to see
Old friends old faces got me shivering
No more that's the old me
Ya, no way you'll ignore me now

Chorus

No way they'll ignore me no
(No way they'll ignore me no)
There's no way you can hold me down
(There's no way you can hold me down)

Verse 2

I was just a kid
Didn't even know the roof was caving in
Breaking up all the fights it aint easy
Kinda thought i was always the reason
Wait...
I've been going through the ruts everyday
It's a pain
It's always the same it's the way we were raised
Put my thoughts on a page
With the hopes that I'll get there someday.

Memories.

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lyrics:

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone 

My one true friend used to be myself 
But now I can’t even stand to fuckin look at myself 
Take a bite of nostalgia put it back on the shelf 
Cheap vodka and weed those teenage smells 
But now a days nothin really helps 
I just wanna go back to when I loved myself 
Life is fuckin me but I don’t kiss and tell 
But the smile on my face say it’s good and well 

I think I wanna kill myself 
Wait, Is that okay to say out loud?  
I would scream and cry for help 
But my life is just a dream where my screams got no sound 

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone 

The silence is so deafening 
Self violence will be my reckoning 

Am i lost or am I gone ?
I’m just another sad song 
The moon awakes at my dawn 
The way I live feels wrong 

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone

suffering

yung van

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