ya, im from Russia and i often thinking about suicide so that track perfectly describes what is happening inside me

been listening to this song for months now! still a banger ! 

I love the beat 💖 and the lyrics I want to cry of how relatable this is... 💖💖💖 also sorry I'm late 😔

I'm still listening to this and it's still the best <3

Sad Boi Vibes

simulation

Hyperpop Heartbreak (johnnyfriend)solo version

music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXLUsXWe-4A

high 
they been asking me 
they been asking me 
why 
they been asking they been askin 
desperado
gun on the mantle
yeah
stars out here look at these stars out here
she left 
every single time we crashed
we don't gotta make no
look at these stars out here

think i saw something up there
exhausted
exhausted

ufo's are real
and they are here
but we don't know who they are
or the intent 

fuck your gas money
fuck your brand new house
no space for horses there
what the fuck happened to you
i got my own baby
might move to nashville or something
what the fuck happened to you
where my bloodwork now
what my blood pressure at
drugs pass the time
conversations about her
why my lungs hurt
tore my vocal chords
for what for what for what

gas money

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gas money (p. michael harrison)

lyrics:

she thinking i’m dumb girl i promise i see thru the ruse
i been on the hunt run for cover i been in a mood
hotter than the sun stack a ton still ain’t shit to lose
don’t stop till it’s done spin the block like a centrifuge

boy i’m not the one i been running out of patience
if he think it’s fun we gon run him out his laces
beat it like a drum call me when her back need breaking
watch how i succumb find my body in the basement

hold me until u break me
when it’s all done im hoping u hate me
put me down please do it humanely
n when im gone i hope u shelter in safety

i’m going all in i think it’s time we raise the stakes
leave em in the dust if they can’t keep up with the pace
don’t turn ur back n act surprised when i don’t chase 
it’s probably best for both of us to u run away

all u do is ride dick i’m getting chafed 
sewage for a brain im- i’m such a waste
when the lights are off all that matters is her shape
been feeling unbalanced i’m beginning to decay

she tell me she think i’m the one i know there’s been a few
the time will come i just fill space like i’m an interlude
using me for treatment baby i’m not clinical
i can see the nucleus the mass is close to critical

boy i’m not the one i been running out of patience
if he think it’s fun we gon run him out his laces
beat it like a drum call me when her back need breaking
watch how i succumb find my body in the basement

hold me until u break me
when it’s all done im hoping u hate me
put me down please do it humanely
n when im gone i hope u shelter in safety

please be patient with me i’m used to being harmed
once the inners frozen there’s more pain in being  warmed
it’s hideous beneath this skin covered in ink and scars
split ceramic one more blow and imma fall apart

walking a thousand miles anything to see ur face
another body in the pile i just sealed my fate
stuck at the bottom for a while i think imma stay
i feel at home under the force of this crushing weight

critical mass // on the brink (scottysplash)

prod. @trechorboy

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Lyrics:
i can see through the trees
through the bending of space  
take this time to reflect on the weight of mistakes
i couldn’t be who want and I’m sorry for it
but the time has passed to forgive and forget

now I’m decomposing inside of this place
with a liver thats failing and moss on my face
tell me how do you feel bout being at my wake?
cause there ain’t no mortician thats fit for my case

A Mortician's Guide To Decomposition

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OVER - DRAKE (emo fruits cover) prod. irby

<3 
LYRICS:
love

i just wanna love on ya

i just wanna touch on ya 

i just wanna rock witcha

baby

baby all ya past men pussies

all of them boys ain't seriously lookin

i mean look at you

put it on me shorty let me see just what that body do

funny how the realest one could show you how it's supposed to look

and if your ex tries talkin shit i'm gettin him slapped

that's on my soul, no time for me to spend on a non man

id rather be, witcha spending time on an island

and money ain't no issue so you know we got flights mapped

you give me what i give a pillow girl that shit could make me nap

put me to sleep i mean

forgive the nerves cuz you look so amazing

hey girl when i see you it's like i go crazy

hey baby when im with you never want it to end

go to bed wake up and i'll see you again

all smiles good morning and breakfast in bed

and you understand when i tell you im depressed

life is so damn easy when i'm with you instead

i could run to you anytime, you too, say when

love

All of this love that pours out of my chest...  
Ends up spilled on the floor like all the rest.  
They step on it like it ain’t got no worth,  
And I’m left holding pieces, feeling cursed from birth.  
I gave them the sun while I burned in the rain,  
Built castles for people who left me in chains.  
Every smile I offered was stitched to my pain,  
Every hug I gave left a deeper stain.  
I tried to be light in a world that was cold,  
Held others together while I crumbled alone.  
Made homes out of hands that pushed me away,  
Screamed in the silence but no one would stay.  
I break myself trying to make things right,  
But the tighter I hold, the quicker they fight.  
All I ever wanted was to be enough,  
But my love just ain’t the kind they want.  
Now I stare at the mirror, can’t meet my eyes,  
Cause all I see is a trail of tries.  
I just want to exist without pain, without sorrow,  
Without dragging the weight of yesterday into tomorrow.  
Without being the afterthought, the second guess,  
Without pouring love and getting back less.  
I want to exist... without breaking to be seen,  
Without having to bleed just to prove I mean... anything.  
I’m tired of folding into smaller shapes,  
To fit inside someone else’s safe.  
I’m tired of chasing a light that fades,  
Of hoping for love that just betrays.  
They say I’m strong, but they don’t see the cost,  
Of smiling through everything that I’ve lost.  
I’m a storm bottled up in a fragile frame,  
Begging for peace while whispering shame.  
If love was a language, mine’s been unheard,  
If life is a song, I’ve forgotten the words.  
But still I write in invisible ink,  
Hoping one day, someone will think—  
That maybe this heart was worth the mess,  
That maybe there’s meaning in my loneliness.  
But until that day, I’ll keep giving what's left,  
All of this love that pours out of my chest...

Ghost Of Myself

I hope you all like this one! @tothegood is amazing! 
Mix and Mastered by Hkfiftyone <3
Photo by: @yunghonja

Lyrics-

I've been trapped inside this head of mine
I tell everyone that I'll be fine
honestly I'm bout to take the fall 
Therapy ain't even help at all

I've been trapped inside this place for a long time
I've been contemplating death for a long time
I just don't know where to turn, where to turn now
I guess I've run out of turns, time to fall down
I'm insecure and I'm jealous of my own friends
Looking forward to the day where this all ends
I'm moving to a new town Wednesday
But no matter where I go I'll never escape

I've been trapped inside this head of mine
I tell everyone that I'll be fine
honestly I'm bout to take the fall 
Therapy ain't even help at all

I've been trapped inside these lies of mine
I tell everyone that I'll be fine
Honestly I'm bout to take the fall
I don't even wanna live at all

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The Fall (Prod. tothegood)

Thank you all so much for supporting me! i couldn't be more thankful and happy with everything i have been given! I want to thank David Kiernan for the artwork and @leansipper !! Shout out to @cozyboycries for mixing song #7!! Love you all so much <3
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Everyone who is on the EP----
@1800entity
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@leansipper
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The Fall (Prod. tothegood)

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