i know this is really really shit but its okie!! ill drop more soon, and itll actually be good next time so pls stay around :3

vocals and lyrics by itzivi
composed/produced by itzivi

It’s 1am and I can’t fall asleep
I’ve insomnia or shit yeah it’s that deep
On a plane with a fucking uncomfortable seat
My chest hurts every single time I breathe
The engines roar, yeah I can’t fall asleep
“We will experience some turbulence”, the pilot speaks
With every breath and every thought I feel more weak
It’s been hurting inside, for more than two weeks

I can’t shake it from my goddamn mind
All this hurt, that I’ve been keeping inside
Slowly feeling more sleep deprived
Even when I sleep, I still weep and cry.
I’m starting to lose sense of reality
Losing grip on what’s wrong or right with me
A fucked up ghost in the mirror is all I see
Holy shit, it’s fucking staring back at me
And I’m certain, at this point, it’s been more than three weeks
And I’m for real, this may be, the polar opposite of my peak
And I’m thinking, to myself, it’s been more than four weeks
Bitch, why the fuck, why can’t I go to sleep?

I can’t help but find it, pretty fucking funny
That I do this shit for fun, yeah I earn no money
Check my bank account- oh right there’s nothing
2 listens on the track, yeah ion doubt it
Fuck numbers, fuck shit, I just wanna fall asleep
Gender dysphoria, and hella hormones, not helping shit
Ion want them anyway, they make my anger heat
And if I’m non-binary why would I want that shit?
Yeah tho that’s not all the hurt inside
I’ve been feeling more sleep deprived
Look into the mirror and I see those eyes
Used to shine with hope but now I cry
If I believed in God, I would ask him why?
Why burden those around me with this bitch ass guy?
Ion even fuck with this loser ass leech, oh sighs
I already feel alone anyway, because I hate myself
A fucking slug like me, can become that stupid Christmas elf
Y’know, the one that gets love, but just sits on the wooden shelf
And doesn’t give shit back, yeah not to anybody else
I fucking look like him to, slouched over that random shelf
It’s so obvious I fucking only care about myself
I don’t wanna be like this, no more, my fuckass self

It’s 1am and I can’t fall asleep
I’ve insomnia or shit yeah it’s that deep
On a plane with a fucking uncomfortable seat
My chest hurts every single time I breathe
The engines roar, yeah I can’t fall asleep
“We will experience some turbulence”, the pilot speaks
With every breath and every thought I feel more weak
It’s been hurting inside, for more than five weeks

weeks

kaboom !!
they/them

im under the under underground :P

itzivi

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