trying to make music making fun and careless once again...
practicing whole-half improv skills also

galang

ffm.to/heaven-camera
ivyhollivana.bandcamp.com/album/heaven-camera

Older and older I grow
Scared more and more of my brain
In the computer
Older and older I grow
Simply scared of the same things 
As a child
Older and older I grow
Scared more and more of my brain
In the computer
Closer and closer I grow to you

And I’m not making it up oh no 
And I’m not making it up oh no 
Just can’t be sent back to that place
With no heart or face to fall back into

Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?
Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?
Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?
Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?

Older and older I grow
Scared more and more of my brain
In the computer
Closer and closer I grow to you

Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?
Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?

What do I do with all this pain?
They seem so similar to you
I feel like I am hurting everything
Especially inside me
I can’t continue seeing through it every day 
I have some things to say 

Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?
Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?
Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?
Will I ever be so brave to 
Tell you what you left behind?

Bravery In The Computer

produced with Lapsung and Hudson Lee
1st single off Heaven Camera, my new album .𖥔 ݁ ˖
ffm.to/heaven-camera
ivyhollivana.bandcamp.com/album/heaven-camera
thank you all for being here with me

Lyrics:

Oh the river what did you expect?
All the lovers came intact
Oh the river what did you expect?

Bodies call out
Feelings fall out
Feeding and broken
Wastewater doll, mermaid herald
Worth more than a moment

He was the lightening feeling fighting
Feeling fine

Wrap your head around time
Wrap your head around time

Oh the river what did you expect?
All the lovers came intact
Oh the river what did you expect?
Oh the river what did you expect?
All the lovers came intact
Oh the river what did you expect?

What did you expect?

Bodies call out
Feelings fall out
Feeding and broken
Wastewater doll, mermaid herald
Worth more than a moment

Oh the river what did you expect?

Oh the river what did you expect?
All the lovers came intact
Oh the river what did you expect?

Wastewater Doll

I made this for a class about multi-channel spatial audio. But alas, there is nothing spatial to be had here

mono theme song_20250909

Birdvillage

paassetpitcihce

that one something

snohfort

Free Download

Skyline

silly little edit .....
https://soundcloud.com/awe/3-awe-trendy
https://hypeddit.com/lnjazs

RAVE TOOL 1000000

a collection of curious experiments and nuanced emotions from the last few years

watch the full audio-visual mix on YouTube: https://youtu.be/k1jsk_8yn9Q
visuals provided by Noah Green: https://temberl.in
aired live October 25th, 2025 via https://boneyard.camp

00:00 - Alexander Panos - sun monolith
02:22 - Alexander Panos - selling rings 
02:38 - Alexander Panos - pictorial
04:31 - Alexander Panos - s[h]continued standing
04:47 - Alexander Panos - mel
05:02 - Alexander Panos - anti\limerick
05:17 - Alexander Panos - room mic destiny
05:31 - Alexander Panos - ID
07:49 - Alexander Panos - ganz astonish
08:04 - Alexander Panos - pink in june
08:22 - Alexander Panos - you are held in a kiln
09:52 - Alexander Panos - wind wool
10:06 - Alexander Panos - porrima  +  György Kurtág - Scenes from a Novel (Mov. 1)
11:31 - Alexander Panos & voljum - Preliminaries 
11:47 - Alexander Panos - inextricable
14:00 - Alexander Panos - a warm day, a misfortune
14:14 - Alexander Panos - wallwater promises

➤ https://alexanderpanos.com
➤ https://linktr.ee/alexanderpanos


I've been finding myself overcome by fragmented memories: the pang of the seasons turning, dreams that linger for days, events and relationships whose mythologies bear no resemblance to the real thing. I think this music reflects that, in a blurry sort of way. Qualities that once anchored my music have become desaturated. Everything’s more subtle, like a furrowed brow and a grin meeting for a fleeting moment on the same face.

This is music I’m still quite shy about. It took a long time to allow myself to start taking these feelings and ideas seriously, but they are a part of me, and always have been. It’s with great hesitancy that I share any of it, especially as my usual mode of operation is sequestering my work away indefinitely. I’ve recently entered a new chapter, unsure of how it will unfold, but trying to learn as always. I’ve stood here before under different circumstances, and I’m sure I’ll be back again.

All music is currently unreleased and is subject to change. Please respect this music in its unfinished state.

Bravery In The Computer

Ivy Hollivana