this is therapy. for real thank you IX fall$! music is keeping me alive at this point. 

PROD: https://soundcloud.com/coilwound

Lyrics:
I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired when I try to scream
Suffocating in the pillow
I’m tired, I’m tired when I try to scream
Suffocating in the pillow

Been to hell and back
I saw the light and dark
(I saw the light and dark)
Seen too many people
In the sky like stars
(the sky like stars)
Got that contradiction
When addicted to my heart
(got my heart beat bumping all the time)
Watch the spark go out
I think I’ve said enough
(I've no more to say)

But, tryna reach out
Turned my life upside down
Constant rejection
Reflects in my frown
I, try to defend those who
Weak not myself
Just, suffer in silence
Don’t speak with my mouth

I’m so tired making space
I’m so tired of my health
I’m so tired waking up and knowing someone needs my help
I’m so tired of pretending everything is alright
(I’m so tired, I’m so tired, I’m so)

I’M SO TIRED WHEN I BREATHE
I’M SO TIRED DAY AND NIGHT
I’M SO TIRED TAKING MEDS SO I CAN LIVE A NORMAL LIFE
I’M SO TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT
(TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT)

I’M SO TIRED WRITING LYRICS
ON THE WALLS WITH MY BLOOD
I’M SO TIRED OF EXPLAINING CUZ I’M NEVER UNDERSTOOD
I’M SO TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT
(TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT)

Gotta keep my head up above the water
(I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired when I try to scream)
Gotta keep my head up above the water
(I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired)

I’m tired of your ventilation
(Suffocating in the pillow)
Ventilation
(Suffocating in the pillow)
Ventilation
Deprivation
Obligation to die (so tired)

I’M SO TIRED WHEN I BREATHE
I’M SO TIRED DAY AND NIGHT
I’M SO TIRED TAKING MEDS SO I CAN LIVE A NORMAL LIFE
I’M SO TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT
(TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT)

I’M SO TIRED WRITING LYRICS
ON THE WALLS WITH MY BLOOD
I’M SO TIRED OF EXPLAINING CUZ I’M NEVER UNDERSTOOD
I’M SO TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT
(TIRED OF PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT)

local therapist

local therapist [prod. coilwound]

FOR GOD [PROD. ERROR SVI]

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/pxlse

Lyrics:

Can't see that place,
Cover your taste,
I been a waste,
Stuck with your ways 4x 

Can't see that place,
Cover your taste,
Poppin' prescriptions, with nothing to chase,
I been a waste,
Things I can't change,
Things I can't face,
Things I can't change,
Mix the products till I cave,

I been hiding for days,
I been a waste,
I been ok,
Don't even bother to wait,
I been waste


I've had enough of myself,
You ain't wanna hide on my shelves,
Bundle up, hide in my cell,
Bitch I can't tell what I felt

I ain't ask no one for help 3x 

Come find the fuck out,
You ain't know what you been speakin' bout

This how it gone be now 2x

you don't listen to me anyway (Prod. by PULSE)

FEAT. https://soundcloud.com/bruhmanegod & https://soundcloud.com/saturnalt
TWITTER - twitter.com/jamesgorczyca
MERCH - https://teespring.com/stores/jamesgorczyca

USUALLY IM MORE ON TOP OF THESE THINGS
I DONT EVEN MEAN TO MAKE ANY ENEMIES
JUST TRYNA MAKE THIS SHIT WORK BY ANY MEANS
BY ANY MEANS
I DONT HAVE NO OPINIONS, WHAT YOU MEAN?
DONT ASK ME BOUT THE MATTERS, PLEASE OH PLEASE
ITS TOO PAINFUL FOR ME
ITS TOO PAINFUL FOR ME
CONSTANTLY STUCK WITH THIS TUNNEL-VISION
I CANT SEEM TO FIND A WAY TO SHOW MY EMOTIONS
WHEN IT REALLY MATTERS
I FEEL SO FUCKED AND SCATTERED
I NEED TO PASS OUT
NEEDA STOP MY THINKING
IM FINNA CRASH NOW
THIS FLIGHT IS SINKING
NO I CANT CARE ABOUT   
THESE OTHER THINGS
IM SO SORRY IM THIS WAY
JUST KNOW THAT IM TRYING
WHY DONT WE TALK ANYMORE
CAUSE WE CANT FIND THE RIGHT WORDS
YOU KNOW HOW IT IS (YOU KNOW HOW IT GOES)
YOU KNOW HOW IT IS (YOU KNOW HOW IT GOES)

(BMG)
i got way too many thoughts
throw em up at once
no one give a fuck
every night a rut
whenever i am not
within your fucking arms
take it away, take it away
i’ll learn to ignore it one day, ignore it one day
i’m done givin a fuck, givin you help
all you do is pity yourself, pity yourself
i’m so tired of it, tired of it
i’m so tired of stayin, tired of waking up
tired of staying up, tired of waking up
i’m so tired of making enemies
i’m so tired of not going to sleep

(SATURN)
moving life it's fucking cyclical
visions in these tunnels why my fov on critical
maybe its the sight that makes me feel like im going in circles
i been workin so fuckin hard but never feelin like workin
i been pushin and pullin all my walls like they made of rubber
but this shit snaps back every time im makin numbers
i dont wanna back track, thought of leaving makes me shudder
wish i wasn't a bullhead and i wasn't so stubborn
im reading scriptures from the walls when they come out
midnight when i cant help but think loud
reads like poetry that i can't hope to figure out
is there a meaning to this effort i've been pissin out?
if i just end up in the same position what is the point
i cant make two words connect without sounding disjointed
as im considering my window i loosen up all my joint
wish i could run into the night give a fuck bout some disappointment
what's a message, i need a sign
someone tell me what to do with my life
someone take away my anger and my spite
i cant afford to sleep the same way every night
im sick of pushing cos nothing around me moves
ive had enough of these walls and my room
every little noise makes me fucking angry
ima burn all my belongings and then jump right off the roof

LONG NIGHTS UP LATE AREN'T ALWAYS THE BEST (FT. BRUHMANEGOD & SATURN) [PROD. LC2K]

Ya everyone knows
That I'm on my own 
Everyone knows
That I'm on my own
Everyone knows
Everyone knows
I'm on my own
I'm on my own 

Months last,
Puttin it up, but she pardon my past,
Hide it out, 
I'ma dissolve, walk on my toes,
I'm gonna last,
Bringing this all down,
Fuckas been pull up and dash,
They pull up and dash,

Big spending didn't ask,
Quick solving with the cash, ay 
Where they going, where they at?
Have them hoes in they bag, ay
I'ma dead you with the past, ay
Bundle down, I burn it fast, ay
Burn it fast ay,

I ain't goin chase ya,
I'm gonna break out
Keepin her face up,
I ain't goin chase ya,
Giving my place out, ya,
Giving my place out,ya,

Ya I'm on my own 2x

Gotta lose my ways,
I ain't leaving my fate,
She goin live in my way,
Gotta lose my ways,
Caught up she might cave,

Don't touch that,
Lose myself, you better bust back,
You ain't sitting where the gas at,
Anybody could of guessed that,
Lose myself and get it right back,
Lose myself and get it right back,


Ya everyone knows
That I'm on my own 
Everyone knows
That I'm on my own
Everyone knows
Everyone knows
I'm on my own
I'm on my own

Video

knight

reupload of a deleted track by da god @biv !

biv - as if it even fucking mattered w/ KAMAARA

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lyrics:

part 1 - serenity

i know i cant be with you 
i feel the pain he puts you through
i am the light you'relooking for
 just take that step and walk right thru
i think about you everyday
i do my drugs to help the pain
my heart is suffering 
and i dont think that this is worth the wait 

every fuckin day
every fuckin night
i be thinkin bout you baby 
with our bodies pressin tight ×4


part 2 - funerals

every fuckin day
every fuckin night
i think about you baby don't forget that i'm alive ×2

seroquel lullabies, bitch i can't sleep tonight 
you've been on my mind
i hope i die & i hope you're fine
i can feel the pain inside 
contemplating suicide
yeah i cut my wrists
i love to bleed more than i love to cry
i hope he fucking dies
i might catch a homicide
it's him or me 
& if he is around just know i love to fight
i'm throwing hands tonight
that's my babygirl alright
and if he has a problem
 let this automatic change his mind

to the girl i'll never be with.. ft. SERENITY

THERES A THUNDERSTORM HIDING UNDER MY BED

YIKES FOREVER!

YIKES FOREVER! - FEAT. LOST ULTRA - PROD CvSSHERNCRIES

SPOTIFY LINK: https://open.spotify.com/album/3f9YmzytBVOfrbXX8KLH2j?si=DZK4ZY07RRO1wQQgezJlXA

FRAGMENTS (break me)

out on spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/18lHA4qU33ftRm5lMFNXhB?si=iYWYMqbZTwuvJbZBci-qZw

prod: @voidexx

Lyrics:
all the awful things that you said to me like im never gonna be shit
but you love my attention 
and you'll love it more when im rich
you dont even know blowin up my phone
you dont even know blowin up my phone

yeah i did 200 in the whip 
link up with the gang 
man this shits too loud
yeah she love when its just me and her 
cus she love this shit 
yeah she love this sound

nothing been the same since you left like that
why you gotta fuck with my head like that?

Left Like That

[Prod.ELE]
Mix & Master [ELE]
ig: bit.ly/38cKuIa
yt: bit.ly/2T9RKAr

Biv:
https://soundcloud.com/biv/tracks
https://open.spotify.com/artist/3dszargYpFZjGo6vpjHNQS
https://www.instagram.com/biv.david/

Artwork: www.instagram.com/bezdna.ar/
-----------------

[ELE]
im alone with my head 
feeling nothing feeling dead
i remeber what you said
everything makes me upset
i need to rest everyday 
i give my god damn best
im stressed im stressed 
im stressed im stressed 

i need to rest
everything is so messed
live life fast
that shit feel like a test
im not really impressed
shotgun bullets trough your chest
fick den rest
everyone knows what i mean
i start that shit with fourteen
its fucking routine
and now im eighteen
things i saw cant get unseen
things i saw cant get unseen

now im here
dont know what to do 
still cant handle things i been trough
see no way out there no doubt
get me out get me out
promethazin for the full 
body knockout 
im drying out 

drying out 
drying out 
drying out
drying out

[Biv]
You ain't see me at my worst,
How they talkin first?
Till I'm pressing up the dirt,
I don't curve the hurt,
If she's worse than she's worth,
More than I deserve,
Less and less in my words,
We don't stress on the worst,
Less and less in my words,
We don't stress on the worst,

Shawty got me in the worst way,
I don't feel pain on my worst days,
Is it ok?
I'ma ask nice, baby let me see the whole thing,
Is it ok?

I've been feelin better,
But still hate it how,
All I'm asking for is,
Weightless chains I'm bound,
I've been feelin better,
But still hate it how,
All I'm asking for is,
Weightless chains I'm bound,

Stream on Spotify!

Drying Out (ft.Biv)

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