Like Clockwork
I wake up at 6am,
I go out and smoke a ben,
They can all hear the door
Don’t know what they’re listening for 
I know what they think of me
That I’ll never amount to be
Anything to write home about 
They’re all sick of my junkie pout 

Tick, tock, tick, demons are coming for me
I’m so thick and now they’re running from me, lit the wick, all my black candles burning, I am sick and I do it like clockwork

I wake up against the door
For substances I am a whore
They turned me into such a bore
Don’t know what I’m living for
I know what you think of me
That I am destined to be
Just another tramp on the street
You can piss on me as I sleep

Tick, tock, tick, the horses ran me over, 
I am sick of searching for four leaf clovers 
Hit the stick, Beachy Head, throw me over
I am thick so I do it like clockwork

I don’t think I’ll find love in this lifetime
I don’t need you impeding on my serenity
They know every-time I go out that I ain’t coming home til the birds are singing, ain’t coming home til my ears are ringing, ain’t coming home til my eyes are stinging, I’ll wake up tomorrow too pinging for singing 

Tick, tock, tick, demons are coming for me
I’m so thick and now they’re running from me, lit the wick, all my black candles burning, I am sick and I do it like clockwork

Like Clockwork

The OtherSide
Biding my time, I wanna leave you all behind, life didn’t turn out quite the way I wanted it! Sliding on like a python in the grass, something bad has happened but nobody cares to ask! So I’ll let it pass on...

I’ll wear a halo on my battered head, 
don’t know how you ended up in my bed,
Is this what I want or is this what they told me? Darkness I’ve seen always seems to enfold me (rave on, oh, oh, oh)

Now you have to go, I pray to god that in the end it isn’t painful and slow, wish I let you know and I wish that I was there but I was too fucked up to care! Life’s not fair! I hope you were aware of just how much I truly loved you! (That’s a lie)  

I’ll wear a halo on my battered head, 
don’t know how you ended up in my bed,
Is this what I want or is this what they told me? Darkness it seems always seems to enfold me (rave on, oh, oh, oh)

I’m waiting on a call, and it’s the call that will lead to my downfall, I don’t wanna believe it, that’s no way to leave it, I hate the thought of you lying there on the floor, I’ll miss your stories and your sense of humour and the way you always lit up the room! (Ahhh, oh)

I’m not ready to let you go! 
I’m not ready to let you go!
We’re not ready to let you go!
But it’s your time to go! 
You weren’t happy, I hope you’re happy on the other side! (On the other side)

You’ll wear a halo of gold on your head, 
I don’t know quite how you ended up dead, is this what I want or is this what they told me? Darkness it seems always seems to enfold me (rave on, oh, oh, oh)

The OtherSide

Initials N.D
I am like Rapunzel, I live in a tower at the thought of my mother I cower and moan
I live in a forest far from the madding crowd but it’s still too loud in here

I sit in my bathchair as you hang bone idol on the cross
let’s find a beautiful place to get lost
I am so bewildered by the lack of attention I’m getting from the press these days

I’m ready for my close up, (Mr. DeMille)
but first wait til I’ve thrown up! (One too many pills)

I just met a man and he’s tan and he’s tall as hell and he’s swell in bed but I’m sick in the head and it will take more than romance to calm me down, it would take more than rehab to get me off the brown

He pays me a visit and then he visits on to me a dose of his bullshit
How dare you caress me you should have just left me alone in my Hollywood hole

They call me a lowlife (lowlife!)
They don’t know I’m death’s wife, 
western life!

I just lost a man, he was tan and he was tall as hell and he did well in bed but he messed with my head and it would take more than Xanax to calm me down, it would take more than a can to get me off the ground, he’s coming around again…

How dare you caress me,
You’re just another one after my money
How dare you reject me,
You are the nucleus, you and the pills! Woo!

Oh baby, I’ve been dating drummers since before you were born!

I was insane before the fame and the fame only exacerbated it and I’ll be on my own, no one is there, I’m too old to be this drunk
It will take more than romance to get me out of here! It will take more than a man to kill this sacred deer!

Initials N.D

Bad Karma
Friend, you know the earth is slowly dying and nobody’s giving a fuck about it!
End, you know that I think that I’m dying, at my funeral they’ll be no one crying!
Send, send me an angel from above 
I wanna ride off on the wings of your love!
Bend, cos what’s the opposite of straight and I can’t draw a fucking line of best fit 

I don’t know the meaning of love, 
I’m so paranoid and sick all the time

Bad karma, gonna let you down!
Don’t sleep well when the devil’s in town!
Bad karma, now the earth’s ablaze!
I’ll pay the price til my dying day!
All the bad karma coming my way!

End and a mysterious feeling is coming over me, oh, what am I to do?
Rain is coming down now so heavily and I can see myself drowning in it 
Send, send me an angel or a lifeline or the number for an alcohol helpline!
Fend, you saw me rooting through a trash can I was looking for the meaning of life 

I don’t know the meaning of life, 
Is it god or is it the alcohol? 

Bad karma’s coming back around!
What goes up must come falling back down! Bad karma cos I misbehaved
I’ll pay the price til my dying day
All the bad karma coming my way! 

I feel stupid and contagious! When the lights go out, it’s dangerous! I’ve been drinking, so I’m acting out again, I need inpatient help

Bad karma cos I let you down!
I’m drinking cos the devil’s in town!
Don’t feel well and I’m going to pay
I’ll pay the price til my dying day!
I’ll pay the price til my dying day!
I’ll pay the price til my dying day!
All the bad karma coming my way!

Bad Karma

In the Dark 
Kneel before you fall, you won’t stand tall
May god bless you all before you fall
I can’t breathe at all, I need a doctor
I am going to crawl into the bathroom

And vomit, vomit, vomit, vomit! 

You will haunt me til my dying day
I am sure there’s a banshee on my back
I do all my dancing in the dark 
I do all my dancing in the dark (uh) 

It used to take away my pain, now it takes away my breath
Drowning endlessly in unchartered seas
I am trying to breathe but instead I wheeze 

I’m fucking up now all of the time

You will haunt me til my dying day
I am sure the devil’s on my back
I do all my prancing in the dark 
I do all my dancing in the dark (uh) 

Everybody’s trying to be someone else
Everyone is dying to be someone else
Except for me, I’m still at sea
Except for me, hung on a tree 

I wish your opinion didn’t mean that much but it does, it cuts deep and I bleed
I should have done my research properly before attending such an event. 

I gave into temptation too many times 
Now the officer says walk in a straight line
I said I can’t even walk straight officer 
Thought he’d take the bait but he’s across from her 

She’s his shadow mistress who haunts his dreams, there must be some demons, all the things he’s seen, I wonder if maybe he is just like me, I wonder if he does his dancing in the dark 
(this gun’s for hire, it fires at you) 

You will haunt me til my dying day
I am sure there is something in my back 
I do all my prancing in the dark 
I do all my dancing in the dark (uh-ha)

I wanna die but I just cry instead, I wanna hide so I just stay in bed
You’re crystallised, you can give me something, something that’s not cold and that doesn’t fold 

You will haunt me til my dying day
I am sure there’s a banshee on my back
I do all my dancing in the dark 
I do all my dancing in the dark

It is summer time in the big city all the girls are looking pretty, I wish I could be one of them, instead I am on my own

Ignore the crappy intro

In the Dark

25 (Years of Rage)
I distinctly remember in bleakest December, out of a job and I’m festering 
You burn me alive, won’t make me a bride

Is this what I get for making a mess? 

Getting weaker with each passing winter

Bring me the sun

Fairly sick but at least I’m sober 
Roll, roll, roll, roll that, roll over

Cos no one’s burned me alive (yet)

It’s like one night in fucking Vegas
Strep on the strip - I’m 25

Brain freeze, nose bleed
25 years of rage
Brain freeze, nose bleed
25 years of rage

When will it be over, I don’t know but I hope not sober, tomorrow or today or next week, maybe so cos I’ve ran out of cash
Friends disintegrate in circles of hash 

The poor man never makes a splash,
The poor man’s always on the lash
The poor man’s waiting in the wings
With a shit voice, he can not sing 

He’s always smoking hash
and he’s always got a rash 
(Oh yeah)

Brain freeze, nose bleed
25 years of rage
Brain freeze, nose bleed
25 years of rage

25 (Years of Rage)

I decided to open my new album with an excerpt from a hymn and some terribly out of tune violin playing 🙌

Lamb of God

Redemption via Love
There were times I thought god was on my side
There were times I thought life was just a ride in an amusement park somewhere slowly rotting in the rain 

Then reality opened it’s door to me and no longer was I blinded, I could see that redemption via love was but a futile scheme

Free of time and free of mind
I will leave it all behind
I’ll try to search for someone with whom I can share my life with

But it seems to me that all these little things 
will accompany the heartache and the strings that sound in my mind when you walk out the door on me again

I have searched so far but I have never found, now I’m just another sad and lonely clown and redemption via love won’t find it’s way to me 

Free of time and free of mind
I will leave you all behind
I’ll try to search for someone with whom I can share my life with
Share my life with
Share my life with
Share my life with
Share my life with

Redemption via Love

Sadie (Wild Weekend) 
Can’t sleep, you’re on my mind
Pretty baby, it’s all of the time
I’m climbing mountains for her
I would swim an ocean for her

Sadie, let’s go uptown

Can’t speak, you’re on the line
You can call me like all of the time
I’d climb a mountain for her
I could swim an ocean for her

Sadie, let’s go uptown

Cut it up (for Mrs Lennon)

Can’t sleep, you’re on my mind
Pretty baby, it’s all of the time
I’m climbing mountains for her
I would crawl on the ocean floor

Sadie, let’s go uptown

Sadie

I Can’t Get Out of My Own Way
Life is about aesthetics
Mine can seem quite pathetic
And songs can be prothetic
Not mine cos I’m a waster

Spend half my life pacing
The other half racing the devil, I revel in misery
The devil, a level I can not see

I’ve made myself a known misguided freak to fall by the wayside
It’s sure to be a slog of a life, withering away in my strife
I let everyone down, everyone down, everyone down again
Run me out of town

I just can’t get out of my own fucking way 

Life is about retiring
and then you’re mean and dying 
We made the earth a wasteland
of expanding waistbands

Spend half my life wasted
The other half chasing desire, I fire off at the mouth, I disgusted you so much you’re heading back down south 

I’ve made myself a known misguided freak to fall by the wayside, it’s sure to be a slog of a life, withering away in my strife
I let everyone down, everyone down again
Run me out of town

You broke my fucking heart
You had the nerve to say you’re foudroyant
Were you just playing games? (I think so)
Still, why can’t we go down to Lovers Lane 

It was the first good thing that ever happened to me
and now I’m blurry eyed, he’s all that I can see, I got so fucked up drunk and he abandoned me, right now it’s taking more from me than I can grieve and I just can’t get out of my own fucking way 
I just can’t get out of my own fucking way 
I just can’t get out of my own fucking way

I Can’t Get Out of My Own Way

Please use headphones and loud. 
My music. Music, lyrics, production, editing, mixing and mastering (regrettably) by me.

Musical influences:
-The Velvet Underground
-The Fall
-Television Personalities
-Television
-John Lennon
-Leonard Cohen
-Phil Spector
-Bob Dylan
-David Bowie
-Captain Beefheart
-Throbbing Gristle
-T. Rex
-Patti Smith
-Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
-Sonic Youth
-John Lee Hooker
-Serge Gainsbourg 
-Pixies
-Sly Stone
-George Harrison 
-The Shangri-Las
-The Smiths
-Animal Collective
-The Strokes
-Daniel Johnston 
-The Jam
-Ramones
-Yoko Ono 👑
-Smokey Robinson
-The Temptations
-XTC
-Joy Division
-Deerhunter
-Richard Hell
-Laura Nyro

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