Sorc'd Set (10/9/21)

feat. @cut_deep
mixing: joshiguess-mixed by akiradoves + extra from me
cutdeep-mixed by himself +extra from me
mastering by me + soundcloud
beat by @fkwt27

Gave me a heart attack 
Won't message me back
And why you always slacking? 
And act like nothing happened, 
You broke me so bad 
Why you acting sad?
I'm the one to relapse
While you just relax, yeah


Every day been going on inside my brain
I don't know why these thoughts have never came before
Is it just because i'm bored
Every day's felt like a chore 
Hate when they come to me for help but I ask I'm ignored
I've been spending days I feel passed out on the floor
Cuz when you're in the bed alone can't help what was before
My life has been a movie and I'm just talking its lore
Try to forget those memories wash em out in the shore

gave me a heart attack, won't message me back, and why you always slacking, and act like nothing happened, 
you broke me so bad, why you  acting sad, i'm the one to relapse, while you just relax,

Okay, I don't care 
About my fucking relapse, I'm aware
Every day is torture, I'm so scared
You've been in my head and it's not fair
And I don't want to let this go
I don't even want to go home
I don't even want to go home
I don't even want to go home

relapse w/ cutdeep (fkwt)

prod. @windyboi
featuring @toxin_brewer
mixing/mastering
@joshiguess -by myself
@toxin_brewer -by himself
lyrics below
they be saying next up, she be acting extra,
if we keep this at our force won't ever be against us,
hiding in the spectrum, you won't ever be a victim,
 unless you coming up to me and  hit hard with reflection,

and i've been gone, for a while, 
we can't bond, with this pile,
of pillows, collapsing, all over, our bodies,
 and
we'll talk with walkie talkies, 
and i've just wanted to feel you around but it's too distant,
wont you be my mistress, i wish i had these kisses on this bed,
 in my head it circulates these thoughts of you,
and i can't feel the way i wanted me next to you

every time i'm next to you i just wanna die, baby hurt my feelings, girl i really hate the way you make me feel, everything you said i know you never meant it, everything you meant i know you never said it, looking at my face, i was ??? looking at the screenshots of your messages

walkie talkies w/ toxin brewer (windyboi)

song inspired by 100 gecs lmfao
and i've been trying to find new ways, i've been trying to find a new place,
and i've been wanting to make my own name, in this place that i will escape

so i'll run away from my problems, and think nothing at all, i dont care what
you do you will not make me fall, 


i've been feeling so wrong but, that's okay we will turn things just right,
can you all leave me alone and i don't wanna fight off, these lame foes, when
all they do is insult, while i promote

New Place! (Roko Tensei)

(prod. bipolar beats)
mix by: me
master by: me
vocals by: me
cover art by: https://www.instagram.com/drawllapse/
and how the fuck do people liking me feel painful (painful)
not really their fault i'm mentally unstable (i'm unstable!)
i swear to god my life's been told just like a fable (like a fable!)
they shut me off like people shutting off their cable (shut it off!)
i try to pleasure everyone when i'm unable (i'm unable!)
i gotta put my life together like a staple (gotta staple!)
but they just think i'm good all they give is appraisal (give appraisal!)
deep inside i often have thoughts of betrayal (yes i do!)

all these emails tryna sign me to a label (they just want you!)
but if i really do i really won't feel faithful (yeah i won't)
i just wanna work and always do my own thing (my own thing)
but how do i when i can't even think straight (not thinking clearly)
about what i want in this life (very dearly)
they take advantage whenever u wanna feel nice (and they fear me)
and to these people i could never pass their turnpike (wheeling)
unless i already wanna go and see the light (feelings)
why these people always wanna take advantage (of my own stuff)
i guess they dont know the affect of damage
@user-324021497

Music Vid

don't hit me up: it's painful

feat https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves

Looking at the sunset
Are you feeling upset?
I hope you won't forget
Hope you won't ignore this
Hanging on the door hinge
Hoping you will let me in
I need all your oxygen
I can't breathe without it
Do you really like me?
I know you wouldn't doubt it
Am I your guy? I might be
Let's prove it with an outing
Will you ever find me?
I'm in the water drowning
Of tears from the past tense
Hoping I won't go again

My eyes feel like blurry lens
Should I just put down my pen
Looking at the message that you sent
Wonder if I should've went, feelings that I should've kept
Cuz I can't make decisions I always make predictions
I do it thru a diction, is this just addiction?
I am on a mission hoping that one day you'll come back and listen
Your eyes will always shine and glisten
Always in my dreams, they're most innocent but evil
Craziest I've ever seen, that you'd think I'm off a bean
I wish you know what you mean you mean everything to me

Looking at the sunset
Are you feeling upset?
I hope you won't forget
Hope you won't ignore this
Hanging on the door hinge
Hoping you will let me in
I need all your oxygen
I can't breathe without it
Do you really like me?
I know you wouldn't doubt it
Am I your guy? I might be
Let's prove it with an outing
Will you ever find me?
I'm in the water drowning
Of tears from the past tense
Hoping I won't go again

Hoping I won't go to bed, hoping I will never rest
Hoping this will never end
Hoping for more, hoping more
Holding me more, hold me more
Don't stop, I promise i'll be there
You're gone, why'd you have to go away
It's almost like a tragic story
It's almost like that you don't know me

Looking at the sunset
Are you feeling upset?
I hope you won't forget
Hope you won't ignore this
Hanging on the door hinge
Hoping you will let me in
I need all your oxygen
I can't breathe without it
Do you really like me?
I know you wouldn't doubt it
Am I your guy? I might be
Let's prove it with an outing
Will you ever find me?
I'm in the water drowning
Of tears from the past tense
Hoping I won't go again

Visualizer

oxygen w/ akiradoves

prod https://soundcloud.com/wheelprod
og version: https://soundcloud.com/j0shiguess/attachment-issues

Do I want to stay, or should I go away
Should I leave the world or have this risk to take,
Will it turn out worse or will it be so great,
Still I gotta try to accept my fate 

Only had to try this 2 times like I'm nate, 
But there's days that I feel I can't escape,
Stuck with you forever but I can't complain,
This feeling you give me  driving me insane,


Loving it, McDonald's, High pitched voice like Carl, 
hate on me I snarl, sun comes out like Charles,
 ride or die for me,  rise and shine for me
 but she been wanting drugs so she might die on me,
(you know I really don't want that to happen please don't take that serious i swear to god)

 she told me she promised not to lie to me, 
how am I still going, I always agree
Will this help in life or will I not succeed,
I'm already failing, hope I get degree


I just feel attached, she snatched my heart from me, benefits or issues tell apart for me, how do I continue she so far from me, 
always rejecting others that live close to me,

Do I want to stay, or should I go away
Should I leave the world or have this risk to take,
Will it turn out worse or will it be so great,
Still I gotta try to accept my fate
to accept my fate to accept my fate to accept my fate
she my one and only,
promised this forever, but it's going slowly, 
I hate being so she the one for me,
I hate having issues but they strengthen me

attachment issues (wheel)

https://soundcloud.com/j0shiguess/convince-myself-nightcore-nxname
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Tryna convince myself I'm not worthless 
Tryna convince myself that I'm worth it
Tryna convince myself she's not perfect
But I know that times have worsened 

I've been going through these days haven't been working
Got all this fame I dont think that I earned it
What's the future for me it's a blur and
I can't see what occurs in the moment
I can't seem to find what's the purpose
X on the spot and I continue searching
Ex on my call and I see the tables turning
Ex on my cock in my dreams that are hurting

Tryna convince myself I'm not worthless 
Tryna convince myself that I'm worth it
Tryna convince myself she's not perfect
But I know that times have worsened 

Feel so tired waking up from these nightmares
Try to stand up strong, baby I'm on a high chair
Feel so high on the swings at the fair
But they didn't check my seatbelt so I could've fell there
Would've fell into a pit but is it what I wanted?
No I wanna stay alive but i keep on thinking twice
Multi-personalities probably not okay,
But I still try to call with my friends every day

convince myself. (nxname)

featuring https://soundcloud.com/emoflytrap
prod https://soundcloud.com/nejdos
mixed/mastered by me 
-----------------------
don't @ me,
you've been warned,
that you hurt me,
like piles of thorns, 
hit me hard, 
like you were thor,
 but you gave me, what i asked for,

waste of space, 
thats what i am, 
while you rise up,
 i sink in sand, 
when one picks up,
 one just ran,
 when i mess up,
 can't take my stance, 
hard to take,
 more romance, 
when i know,
all won't go as planned

 i dont wanna pay
 i just want the cake
 sorry that im late
 im just hella fake
 back it up in the club 
got my lights in the puff,
i know life sucks 
im just tryna get by, 
you hurt me, 
and the words gone away,
dont hurt me im just tryna stay away
you hurt me, 
and the words gone away,
dont hurt me im just tryna stay away

spotify

what i asked for w/ emoflytrap (nejdos)

Can you see? Can you breathe?
I know that I hurt your feelings
But I can't see you dealing with the pain

Will you achieve your success?
I swear you thought this a blessing
But I know that I just kept messing up

Laying down on a saturday night 
Waiting for your arrival
Will you ever see the light acting suicidal
Please don't go, I want you home
Even if im feeling lonely
There are memories that hold me
All together very dearly
I swear nobody should fear me
But she is real real real near me
And I left her all in tears she
Made a choice that disappeared the
Everything we ever had 
And I swear I left her sad
I know that she's introverted
And I feel that I have worsened it with trust

Why you leaving? You broke me down easily
I know I hurt your feelings
But you were so deceiving
If I could just lay with you one more time 
Then I can think of one more little line
And make you shine so bright just like the light 
You thought you were but I'll just prove you wrong
And if you thought that I cant prove you wrong
Then I would not have wrote this fucking song
I miss the way we used to be bae 
From the time we spent to staring
In each others eyes but you're leaving
Woah-oh

Follow Timxlxss

Saturday Nights w/ Timxlxss (P4RA)

Lyrics:
im getting really nervous, why i keep on searching, its not really hurting,
 cannot be outside when, we're stuck between these doors and they 
decide to come
close in, only us together we're the lock above the floor and,
and i swear that, maybe its best i stay away, stay in this enclosed space,
with only you beside me, but shes staying here behind me, right behind 
that door, she'll walk inside my mind, still thinking all the time, 
why can't i just forget, what we were ever meant, cannot go outside
i cannot treat you right, at least i got another, why you're still
bothered yuh

lost the key to the lock i had, for this door between us because,
i never wanna look back at the memories of who i was, because
i never wanna look at the energy, of our toxic love, 
and i read the book, end of fantasy, we're done


it's hard to figure out, do i wanna break this door open,
now, i wanna go outside, but what will be the price,
will she steal me will she heist, will i just stay
with my wife damn

You Don't Love Me Like You Used To

you don't love me like you used to (matthew may)

[beat by @whatafuckingbitch]
[mixed by myself, recorded in my bedroom]
[all platforms https://songwhip.com/joshiguess/what-you-want]
do i really feel alive sometimes,
the past lingers, downing down your try,
your friends arent friends in their disguise
attempts to leave you in the lies,
its not that hard to say goodbye,
since its happened all the time,
wish i never seen em eye to eye
but i guess its just part of my life,

what you want from me pay the price, or else i will decline, i don't wanna say goodbye so just go roll the dice

one day, i'm feeling empty,
the pressure, is getting heavy,
not really that ready,
i'm sweet, but sour candy,
and i swear that all the issues, have gone  inside those tissues, of the tears that just have fallen from your eyes,
and i know i, have also cried as much as you once were before, maybe more, whats in store what  a bore i just don't wanna be ignored,

and i got so lucky now u feel so empty i wonder why x2

and i swear that your eyes are blind,
and u cannot remember even with remind,
of a simple thing i said even if u tried,
you'd pass it over and just think you're right,

What You Want

live performance <3

What You Want (Foreign Hype)

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

i've been going through a lot of nonsense
its gotten to where i feel very cautious
what'd they do with my brain yeah they washed it,
too much numbers in my head apartment complex,
and i'm just blasting off just like a rocket,
i feel like i'm playing tag just cuz i'm just not it,
and i'm washing all these thoughts just like a faucet,
so i'm the one that made em wet, just think about it,
yuh

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

hugging my pillow (sleepydex)

slid in dms, i let you in, i became your medicine, i'm always the cure,
i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more i always felt a different thing,
spending time with you, i just take this time to sing, to express my feeling past and present, i worry about the future too much,
but honestly it's looking good now, couldn't feel a thing, anything but you really got me in a mood now,

gotta get through this won't complain, i'm glad about what we have today, we got a reward at stake, and we always got the goals to chase,
you know what we got to get through, in this life there is a maze, of these choices we give or take, and impress it to our amaze,

i am nervous, to serve this purpose, but it's just the way life goes now,
do i deserve this, of course it's urgent, now you know you'll never feel alone now,
i just got to take past actions with a grain of salt, 
cuz even when things were my fault, i put those things to a halt now,

and i just got to improve every day that i can, i need to prove, that i'm a man, that really cares so deeply, for his beings in his presence,
and i can be your medic, even when its hectic, i promise i won't let it,

ohhh-- ohhh--- ohhh--- ohh---

live perfomance <3

medic (kudyo)

beat by @prodby_amity 
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeb0oy4qVFel4VUnBz8dSLQ
mixed/mastered by joshiguess 
lyrics below

Come on, may I make an offer?
Dont worry doesn't cost a dollar
This chapter that I am the author
And one day I won't have to call her
She'll be right here next to me
That will be the next step to me
And you it's true, I don't count on losing you
Cuz I know you'll always stay inside my heart, yeah

I want to just keep you mine
Let's stare and let's watch the sky
There's a million reasons why
Rest my head right on your thigh
Come on you can be my mai
Baby you just look so fine
This love I just won't resign
No matter what i'll always try

Let's teach each other lessons
And continue through this adolescence
I want this to continue for eternity
And continue from what's currently, yeah

Come on, may I make an offer?
Dont worry doesn't cost a dollar
This chapter that I am the author
And one day I won't have to call her
She'll be right here next to me
That will be the next step to me
And you it's true, I don't count on losing you
Cuz I know you'll always stay inside my heart, yeah

all platforms

Subtitulado

mai (kuroha)

i watch the sunrise, out in the sunlight, this doesn't feel right, watching it all fall away,

and im shining, a diamond, tears upon your eyelids, ima dry em off, while we stare in silence, you like this, well i like this,
can't believe we gotta wait until the time ticks back to the past and back to the future, what is the path that i will not be a loser to them,
ahem, may i speak up please, i can only do so in song, so will i ever get along, with the people that i know



im really nervous, what is this purpose, in my own living, its got me tripping, 


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oh shoot a genre switch, let me not just trust a bitch who manipulates, her state to be something i can't situate, hate me hate me, then why you wanna 
date me, so suddenly once im already with the, person of my life, who will become my wife, its been really nice, but sometimes i gotta try to stay away 
from people that i need to, but i dont want to

Sorc'd Set (10/9/21)

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