was about 19 when i found this song, been an anthem even at 24. still dunno what im searching for

Literally ripped off a toe song how doesn't anyone know that

i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed 
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess 
i'm sorry that i missed your call 
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show

music video

i'm sorry, i'm trying.

twenty something

produced by oilcolor
lyrics by @nothingnowheremusic & @ivy-official-mist

n,n:
tell me all all your thoughts
when you can’t say em out loud  
said she wanna skip town 
take a train going southbound   
i know i’m not the guy 
that you need in your life now
skinny motherfucker
know i stay in the background 

are you thinking of me?
well i’ve been thinking of you
you know i love running my mouth  
with out thinking it through 
haven’t cared in a minute and see 
i’m scared to admit it but its true
the only thing i loved was always you  

imma pack my shit 
imma end this quick  
cause life aint shit 
man, lifes a bitch 
i said i’ve been doing well
nah, i’ve been sick 
fucked up in the brain mane
it’s a damn shame


Mr. Mist:
say no lies please let me rest
rest your head up against my chest
hear the beat as it's slowing down
remember me till I hit the ground
Blossomed truths were ripped apart
left my lungs ready to depart
of my hard heart meets me in the frame 
with my last breath to call your name

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https://soundcloud.com/ivy-official-mist

MORE MUSIC

weight of the wind part 2 w/ nothing, nowhere & IVY

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https://soundcloud.com/anobodyreally

stillsearching (prod. by ʎpoqou)

nothings gunna change [prod color hue]

lyrics:

[foreign forest]
ill take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
im gonna find those letters i wrote to myself
and if you grow older
know that im your past 
don't bother looking over
and if you feel hurt i dont blame you
looking through the photos wishing that you were the same you

you'll get through it now
we'll get through it now
hard to hear you when the musics loud

ill take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
im gonna find those letters i wrote to myself
and if you grow older
know that im your past 
don't bother looking over
and if you feel hurt i dont blame you
looking through the photos wishing that you were the same you
you'll get through it now

[smrtdeath]
looking through the photos wishing that i was the same me
baby i know you thought you could change me
but maybe it was plain to see
we weren't made to be
you and me
so ima take the high road
cause thats the only way i'll be able to carry on
ima find those pieces of my broken heart and
take them home

and ima ride home tell your mama that im sorry for everything
x2

and ima take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
ima find those letters i wrote to myself
and when you get older 
i hope you think of me as the devil on your shoulder

time'll heal the wound but thats a lot of pain to wait through

Listen on Spotify

letters 2 myself ft. smrtdeath (prod. rogergoon)

tothegood - "out of mind"
released on 27.05.2017
@lilxlotus @youngburial
free download: bit.ly/2qt1NyR
bandcamp: bit.ly/2qZktJW
spoti.fi/2Bpo07A
apple.co/2Ab3U3e

lyrics:

LIL LOTUS 

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

I dont want you to see this
Maybe i miss you too much
I scream in my sleep
Do you hear me 
Or am i not screaming enough
Id give anything just to hear your heart beat and bring you back to life  
You have a grandson
He look just like you
I tell him all the time

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

fats'e

I know your just testing me 
I miss the way you would sit right next to me
And make up stories 
To pass the time 

I guess this is how it's supposed to be
Blood shot eyes keep me company
I want out
Of my head sometimes. 

This is how it's supposed to be.

out of mind

spotify

in silence (feat. LIL LOTUS & fats'e)

its been a while so i'd thought id share this. new project soon. hopefully some videos 

produced by reaper - https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper
picture - https://soundcloud.com/nova1599

Lyrics:
Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling
We're sad but balling

These days i wake with an attitude
She's like why you mad at me?
Baby I'm not mad at you
I just hate the world and all the things that I've had to do
Bad decisions with some bad intentions 
Oh baby I'm bad for you
But you're good for me
Fuck it we'll call that chemistry
You want us to grow old together like an oak tree
But baby I'm growing tired and I'm only twenty three 

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

I'm living in the now why the fuck you stalling?
Been making money ever since star shopping
I got smile but inside I'm sobbing
You can hate on me but the money keeps coming

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

vices got me falling (prod. reaper)

@guccihighwaters
@killedmyself

lyrics:
check the clock, 2 am and i cant sleep
scrollin down our photo album just to see our last week
ghosts up in my bed like you were laying in them last week
counting faces in my head like what you said is on repeat
i hope you feel the same in the morning

she said its over like it couldnt be
who knew itd end so cowardly
cant look me in the eyes
guess my stare is so damn heavenly
her kisses on my neck used to show my love so publicly
i miss her on my chest
like my heart, thats where it used to be
ive sown it on my vest
crawls away just like a centipede
i always tried my best
even that just wasnt good enough
she came through to confess
locked her up and threw away the key
depression will infest
hang me up just like a center piece
eroding at my brain
like she try and put the blame on me
but i never claimed to be
the one you wanted me to be
going through the motions
but i feel fucking emotionless
a minute to get mad, then ill get back to destruction
my head is blowing up just like a volcanic erruption
im always fucking up like an nes corruption
blowing down the ounces like i blow away my brain
i get out to escape from whats causing all this pain
friends and substance i abuse
in hopes to keep me all together
cuz without them i would fucking die
nobody lasts forever

i hope you feel the same in the morning
cus i don’t feel the same way any more bitch
im a ghost watch the rain while its pouring
2am i need u but you’re snoring
i need rest prefer a death bed
i need a hollow tip to penetrate my chest
i need to leave maybe then you’d be impressed
too far gone imma sleep on the grass
i stay lone and i hate it
i hate it
but your lips 
still taste still taste them
like come back ill buy u a gucci bag
u can play ur games if u let me hold your hand
please dont 
(please dont break my heart) 
ohh please dont
well is this not enough of destruction 
my body is sick of convulsing

Follow me <3

i hope you feel the same in the morning (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. killedmyself]

ft: @barrenwaste
prod: @anobodyreally x @cpt_sad

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat

getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont care im just anxious
we got some plans to be famous
i dont know if i can take this
money good, but the paper faceless
im so useless, didnt choose this
feeling clueless, send me cute pics
like you used to
got a new life
that im getting used to
drunk in my room
like im Free Throw
in the back row
with my hopes up
and my head down low
man im stressed out
getting aquainted with all of my thoughts
hoping ill turn out to be who im not
grabbing a knife just to cut out the coms
my heart in the fridge where i ice out my head
my brain is a mess, id be better off dead
cant fight up the courge to end my own life
but find out the futures got reasons to live
i cannot go, but i wanna bail
burried in woes, to sorrow i hail
i drink from the veil just to swallow my tongue
maybe ill join up the 27 club

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat
getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont know if i can take this
all my life ive been faceless

yeah i did some things
i don’t want to say
same as for you
so it goes both ways
don’t need this high horse 
you rode on in
its been too fucking long
since you sang the same old song
to try to get my sing along
but don’t you ever try again
im sick of all this patience
that I’ve been always fading
and try to get back
but its never helping that
i can’t understand the relations
between you and i
theres nothing left
but there always something else
that I’m wondering 
why do you always come back
to try to get me in
inside my own head
to try to trick myself
to think i love you again
it always works somehow
until i realize 
its nothing that i want now
its nothing that i need
but you always try to 
convince me

faceless (ft. barren) [prod. ʎpoqou x yesterday]

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

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lyrics:

I feel like I've got a gun to my head 
there ain't no blanks, a blank stare instead

couldn't care for myself have you been there 
doing harm to my health ima leave here
what I'd do for a day with my head clear
ima sin but bby know I'm sincere

ion sell so don't hit my cell no more 
blackout nights ima hit that floor
sip no sprite I like morphine more 
might take me away but I'm still yours 

it takes me away 
away from a place
been stuck on my head 
I can't look at her face.. 

fall asleep while she plays her piano
disappear still here like a shadow
sometimes I could drown in the shallows
she a bae she a marilyn monroe

all the same ima go where the wind blows
norflex & cigarettes got a sore throat
had to put it to the test now you know
no reply to the text on sleep mode

fall asleep while she plays her piano
disappear still here like a shadow
sometimes I could drown in the shallows
she a bae she a marilyn monroe

couldn't care for myself have you been there 
doing harm to my health ima leave here
what I'd do for a day with my head clear
ima sin but bby know I'm sincere

ion sell so don't hit my cell no more 
blackout nights ima hit that floor
sip no sprite I like morphine more 
might take me away but I'm still yours

stillsearching (prod. by ʎpoqou)

JAE'ZALA

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man i cant be fucked by shit anymore

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