Jay_The_Philosopher

Ready To Leave

Ready To Leave (prod. iSmael jam)

Been a hot minute, but I’m tryna start back posting monthly again. Yet another beautiful track produced by Lim0.

Clock in (prod. lim0)

A sequel of sorts to Insomniac. I’m thinking I’ll treat the Insomniac songs (I plan to make more) as diary entries directed towards not only mine, but the global state of mental health.

Insomniac II (prod. ghowste)

Double deuce
Momma speak on times when I would bubble juice
Affectionate title J Dub
Capital W
Or sometimes JJ
I feel like that means double you
I might past that to my son, since children double you

Double do, that’s what life smells like at the moment 
But I’ll own it
Find a way to make it through, cause I owe it
To my younger siblings, trying to give em things that they need
So when they speak on those that held em back, they’ll never say me

I’m not like all of these cappers
Fake wanna be trappers
Rappers wanna be hard
But never seem to make a new chapter

Have to shuffle through cards 
Wallet starved of the green like its fasting
Have to let it be seen once you come up on it, you flashing

Say you drowning in cream, yo I think you fell for the dream
Cause the way you spending it makes me think that money ain’t clean
12 flock to the scene, got you in that red white and blue
Now the neighborhood news reporting, you aint make 22

This just in, young men have been murdered
Family press charge like they were J Herbert
Bigotry turned their sons to imagery
Face card on boulevard 
No time for sympathy

Double Deuce (Oddwin Rap Contest 2023)

A song I wrote from the perspective of the inner voice talking as my anxiety flares up. I know a lot of you guys go through a similar situation. 

Verse1: 

Eyes heavy, burkin bags up under them
Work for bag, I’m wondering
Is this work the stress that I’m bundling

Come again?
I do not be slumbering
Brain is jumping, bumping and
Spinning, humming
Loud like dryer tumbling

Mask on tighter than doctor doom
My true self yelling like “Gimme room”
Not the physical, but mental the mask consumes
Until I’m cool the way you want me to
like eating hot food, I’m so uncomfortable 

Chasing checks is cool until you break your neck
Both the literal, and when something new piques interest
When you lay down you enter rest
When I lay down my mind searching like the internet
Brain buzz like flies when they enter net

I want to give my fam the best
But this pain that’s in my chest
Constantly reminds me that at any time, my name is next
I’m way too damn young to be carrying all this stress
All these people rely on me like a package from UPS

I don’t have the heart to say it
But you know just what I mean
Sometimes I wish that I could just leave and never be seen

Existential crisis and a god complex
Introverted narcissist 
Self esteem is low, plus minimal self respect

Chorus:

(Its all in your head
You’re better than you think)

If that’s the case then why am I still standing at this sink?

(Its all in your head)

Everybody tells me that
I wish someone would listen to without talking back

Verse 2:

I know its unrealistic
I’m somewhat pessimistic
Afraid of being judged, but you’ll just say that I’m egocentric

Critical hippos
I know you feel the same way
That’s why your hurling insults at me from across the way

The whole world is sick and the whole world’s the culprit
Hurt people hurting more people, no way to solve it

Outro:

Therapists need therapists
Doctors need Doctors
Teachers teach teachers
Leaders lead leaders

The never ending cycle that we learned in science class
Broken by the people throwing stones at the glass

I. All In Your Head (prod.ghowste)

Verse 1: 

How much it cost for a double tap (a double tap)
I’ll watch a nigga get lost for a double tap (double tap, double tap)
I’ll watch somebody get robbed for a double tap
Watch somebody get mobbed for a double tap
Recognize pain and I’ll dance to the hottest new song, all for a double tap (double tap)

I’m liking that chain (double tap)
Ooh she can sang (double tap)
Think imma post a new pic, to show em my pain(double tap)
Not in the photo, but in the caption
Show a lil skin to push Interaction
Louis Vuitton for the satisfaction 
Not about me I just wanna be liked, wanting platonic attraction

Your digging the concept of me being rich
That’s why you follow me, scratching that itch
That’s why you posted you “bout that action”
That double tap coming like chain reaction
Women and weed, cars and fashion

Verse 2:

(Hate is a strong word)
Hate on you cause you don’t like my new clothes
Hating together and call it “the code”
Hate on my enemies, hate on my bros
(But hate is a strong word)
Strong words used by a strong man
High off the power called Instagram 
I can call you a bitch and then hide my hand
It’s not hate, it’s just jealousy on demand

I can hide it with compliments, underhand
Different places decisions have put us in
Feel like something is missing, so now I lurk
Then I realize what’s missing, I need your shirt
I need your life, need your energy
Learn to like what you like, peep your inner g
I can call you a bitch, take your inner peace
Now look at me

Hiding identity behind a screen
Learned to give love through material things
Repost for money, we chasing that paper
Down in the comments, we learning who’s faker

Choose who we follow and diss who we don’t
Challenge your manlihood
I heard your man was hood
Raising your hands, what’s good

II. Double Tap (prod. Stoic)

Verse: 

My phone don’t vibrate when you text no more
I don’t feel like dealing with the stress no more
Butterflies ain’t livin in my chest no more
I don’t feel like giving you a yes no more

You ask for help, you can’t help yourself no more?
Do something else, you don’t love yourself no more?
Do something else, you don’t watch your health no more?
I gave you help, you want something else? I’m gone

(So I’m a therapist?) we only talk when your down
We never hanging out, somehow you’re never around
I wanna raise you up, so why you dragging us down
Misery loves company, that’s why you always come to me

Telling me bout your problems, you drown em all in my energy
Telling that you’re into me, building your codependency 
Yea I know it’s the enemy, but I can’t fault the inner me
Always wanted someone to talk to bout what’s got into me

Thought we had something positive
Obvious that was not the the case
Consciousness all in disarray 
Audience has been entertained 

I’m just another soul on a roster
Wrapped around your finger like a fork do pasta

Chorus:

Tied down, I’m feeling tired now
I can’t even count how many times you’ve cried now
I’m a punching bag, whether I like it or not
But things can’t stay the same

I can’t help you no more, I gotta leave
All the help I’ve given you, has gone to the breeze
But I wanna see you happy, so I’ll try it again
Things can’t stay the same

III. Untitled (prod.ghowste)

Verse 1: 

Heard you got something to say
That’s cool, come say that shit to my face
Much like dogs separated by fence
Bet it’s gon all go away

Shit ain’t so serious, don’t need a weapon to hide behind
Cause nigga I’m airing mine
On some grown man shit
I think you don’t need to be hit

Chorus: x2
Man time, talk yo shit 
Best not cross that line tho
Man time, drop the stick
Best not not leave here cryin bro

Grown men, trippin off some simple shit
It gets thick
Grown men, acting like some school kids
Makes me sick

Verse 2:
Don’t wanna hear it from someone else, I want it straight from the source
What’s issue? You acting hard cause you thinking I dissed you?
I peeped the pistol, dismissed you
Attempts at talking just missed you
Look at your face, bet this pissed you
Off, put your hands up its time to brawl

Aw shit, now we smelling like arm pits
Arm pits, shit hit the fan now we swing our fists
Failing to hit like dad jokes
Making you mad like bad jokes
Fuck up your face like bad yolks
Egging you on, your man spoke

IV. Man Time (prod. ghowste)

Verse 1: 

There’s value in the silence
Lessons in the pain
Love in the loneliness
Warmth in the rain

I know it doesn’t feel good
The damage you’ve sustained
But have you ever grieved it?

Its ok for you to cry 
Don’t believe that lie
The hazing we experienced 
To make men of you and I

I know it doesn’t feel good
The damage you’ve sustained
But have you ever grieved it?

We’ve romanticized loss
Romanticized fear
Bottled insecurities 
At the cost of purity

High functioning addicts
Naked and afraid
Fucking to forget all the mistakes that we’ve made

More clouds in our room than the sky in our window
Moods change as winds blow
Pretty sure the winds know
The aroma of our sorrow
The scent of destress
Ain’t no need to be that stressed

I know that its hard to move on~ (everybody has their days)
Just know that you’re loved, just push on~ (Don’t wanna see your smile fade)

Chorus:
I wanna know what you’re going through, unlike the others
In the fetal position while your under the covers
Crying like you did when you first met your mother
Its gonna be ok

Yea this shit is real
I know how it feels
To shut yourself off from everything, skipping all your meals
Ghosting all your friends while your cry yourself to sleep
Any random day of the week

That’s depression for ya

Verse 2:

Therapy is healthy for you, therapy ain’t wrong
Its not good for you to hold that shit in for so long
Initiate the conversation if no one asks a question
They can tell that something’s wrong by your facial expression

Your real friends anyway
Those the ones that stay
Ready and on call if you have a bad day
Take some time away but don’t go and isolate
Let em know your feelings so they can reciprocate

That’s love

Sex ain’t all it is to it
You can say you love the ones that help you get through it
Nah that shit ain’t gay, that love there is pure
Appreciate the ones that make you feel secure

Its ok for you to cry 
Don’t believe that lie
The hazing we experienced 
To make men of you and I

I know it doesn’t feel good
The damage you’ve sustained
But have you ever grieved it?

V. Intervention (prod.lowtyde)

Verse 1:

You’re getting distant 
(Say whatchu wanna say)
Excuse my persistence 
(Say whatchu wanna say)
the vibe’s inconsistent 
(So whatchu tryna do~ about it?)

If I stay, am I the one you’ll come home to?
If I say I love you, do you love me too?
If I stick around, would your mood improve?
If I stay, would you run away?

Chorus: 

I’m such a people pleaser
I’m a fiend for dopamine
Tell me that you want me (yeah~)
Tell me that you need me (mmm~)

I’m such a people pleaser
Your smile means the world to me
Am I too much? (Hope it’s not too bad)
Is it not enough? (Hope it’s not too bad)

Verse 2:

Exhausted, I can’t stop until I fix this
(You don’t look so well) Top of my wishlist
(Never have time for myself) I’m an idealist
(I wanna see everyone well) to be real its

Its hard to watch you and everybody else
I show my love by neglecting my own health
Always sharing and overcaring
I don’t mean to seem overbearing

VI. People Pleaser

Verse 1: 

I heard the plug hit had another lick
Set the drug on yet another kid who’s envious of Benjamin
The life he chase like that of cinnamon 
Smells good from afar but leaves a bitter taste, stinging and lingering

He, sees what he wants on a screen
By any means he vows to obtain every thing
And abstain from living 
Not a singular fuck is given, nose down to the pavement 
Because he’s living by the words in his daily rotation 
They sayin’

Chorus:
You’re all alone
Darkness, darkness
You’re all alone
Out here on your own

You’re all alone
Darkness, Darkness
You’re all alone
Til you get your own


Verse 2:

Fueled by delusion and existential confusion 
Due to consuming the foolishness 
This societal illusion of using and or abusing each other
Until we’re through with each other 
The plug had told me “nah that ain’t true little brother”

“I promise you that I’ll do whatever you want
Tell me your secrets, I’ll be your new confidant
This what your auntie wants
I give you so much money, your problems stop
Go ‘head and cop that new car, sure everything is fine
Just sign on the dotted line
And til the end of your time
You’ll always be in your prime
As long as you breathe, you’ll rhyme

As long as you breathe you mine


(Personality switch)

Tippy top, I’m the tippy top
Power to my name, I’m in tip top
Drowning in the fame (Feel like big ‘Pac) x2

Got it out the mud, no one gave it to me
Smokin’ hella bud, ride the wave wit me
Gone outside my mind, gone outside my head
Trippin’ slippin’ hopin’ I don’t end up dead x2

Yea It’s been a minute since I came home
Made it out the trenches while you stayed home
Had to make these moves, got up out the bed
Duckin’ all my opps, had to duck the feds

“Narrated”

When they make it out, watch the story change
Never bringing up when they were short change
Mishandled by the industry, they got short-changed
Now homies are the enemy, yea they sure changed

VII. Plug (Dream Dealer)

"Vivienne" is a French name that means "life". This song is basically about a man's relationship with life.

Jai, R U Ready???

Vivienne

Vivienne (Prod. Young Swisher Beats)

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Sharkboy and Lava Girl

Sharkboy and Lava Girl (Prod. by Young Swisher Beats)

I'm a just guy tryna change the world through music. I make instrumentals and rap, so you'll find a bit of both here. My rap style is heavily influenced by J.Cole, Kendrick Lamar, and A Tribe Called Quest. I record all my rap songs in my house but with this whole Covid-19 situation, its slowed down my output tremendously. If you like what you hear, please share this music with everyone you help dear. It's always good to hear a black man trying to build up his community every now and then✊🏾 

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