This track is... the summary of exactly three meaningful aspects of my life thus far as a 26 year-old. Bad relationships, relationships that felt too good to be true, and living a life you didn't agree to live. It's my first "real" song and I know its not perfect but it means the world to me so I hope you enjoy listening and I thank you for giving it a chance!

LYRICS:
You were a pretty face
I was naive and couldn't see the fangs
Inside of your arms I felt a warm embrace
But that was embers were turnin' into flames
We fought like a wild fire that only grew

Now I can see through the lies and your pretty smiles
The true victim is my heart, cuz I really tried
You just took, never gave by leavin, I was saved
You live and ya learn, just hate you were the hard way

(I guess that's how it goes)
(no one really knows)

I couldn't believe I found a love like you, you lit up my world and color-shifted the hue
I moved all those miles to be where you are, when I called your name, your eyes filled with stars
But suddenly I felt like someone else,
I searched and I searched but there was no evidence

Now there's no parts of me left I can recognize
My honest reflection feels like I'm in disguise
What now, why then, still don't know what happened,
I'm wonderin' now if I'll ever be satisfied

(I guess that's how it goes)
(no one really knows)

Where did all the mystery go? Firefly dances no longer glow
Used to be late, warm summer nights, now its endless internal fights
How are you so cruel and still beautiful?
All your wonders are gone but still I'm here with you

Cold as ice and sharp as a razor blade
Whether I like it or not, you've got me here to stay
We break up, we make up, that's just how its always been
We've both got our roles to play until the very end

(I guess that's how it goes)
(no one really knows)

Where You Are

This song is about being broken up with and not understanding entirely why; betrayal.

LYRICS:
Echoes (about being broken up with and not understanding why and its not your fault but
yet you still have to cope or stay stuck over them)

(Verse 1)
Why do you turn away when ya see me?
Tell me, what did I do to deserve this feeling?
Been wondering what's goin on inside your head...
Still finding myself making room for you in my bed...

(Pre-Chorus)
Remember when everything was okay?
When your eyes met mine, I knew you felt the same... but those days are gone,

(Chorus)
You let me fall, you let me drown,
Your love was a tight rope and I looked down...
Now I feel frozen and lost in your echoes...
In your echoes...

(Verse 2)
I knew by the way our minds intertwined like they did
You were more real than the others I've connected with...
It's too hard to say where I think it all went wrong,
But you made it seem like you never cared all along...

(Pre-Chorus)
Do you ever find yourself thinking of me?
Well, you're a marathon in my head like you're on tv, You're my favorite show

(Chorus 2)
I felt alive standing next to you,
But your love was a time bomb I could not diffuse
Now I feel broken and lost in your echoes...
In your echoes...

(Bridge)
I know I'm enough I know I'm enough
But it wasn't enough to find your love... (x2)

Your Echoes

This song was a very difficult one to write and share. It's very personal and about my struggle with depression and self-worth. I had to rewrite this song many times over the span of a few months because I wanted to it to be satisfactory enough to encapsulate all I wanted it to and it finally reached that point.

LYRICS:

(Verse 1)
Tell me why tell me why it, brings me so much pain
Look in my eyes. Would you take it all away? 
I try to find the reasons why--I face them everyday.
Oh, tell me why, oh someone please just tell me...

(Pre-Chorus)
You're always shaking your head, and living in dread, most days don't feel like leavin' your bed,
You keep your curtains closed, feelin' disposed, but you're far more precious than gold or stone,
Look at me and you'll see you're valuable to me, so valuable to me...

(Chorus)
Tell me why days have to feel like battles, and years like wars. 
Why can't I feel a happiness deep down in my core?
Well, I'm wasting time wishing things were different like they were before.
But somewhere beyond this fight, hopefully, I'll find myself..

(Verse 2)
How am I going to survive, knowing this every day?
It feels like I am alone feeling this way.
If only you could see inside, see the sources of my pain,
You could tell me why, you could tell me why.

(Pre-Chorus)
You are so amazing, you're still standing when you could've given up and caved in.
You realize that all those things you've been through, 
have built you up, not torn you down or stained you.
Your scars are deep but they do not define you,
They're proof of all the values you align to
You're strong, you're tough, even when its rough and you should feel all the love you that deserve to..

(Chorus)
Tell me why days have to feel like battles, and years like wars. 
Why can't I feel a happiness deep down in my core?
Well, I'm wasting time wishing things were different like they were before.
But somewhere beyond this fight, hopefully, I'll find myself..

(Synth Solo/Outro)

A song about a conversation with your current, self-destructing self and your innocent inner child that you were before life happened.
LYRICS:

Inner Child: You're behind, go wash your face
You better figure out your place
Look at you now, a damn disgrace
Fallin' short look at your mistakes

Current Self: But oh, at one time, I was the innocent one
Inner Child: Mhmm, taint me once again and beat your dead horse

Current Self: I was laid hopin' to die
And you were there behind my eyes
Inner Child: I know that I can't run away
Cause if I go, there'll be hell to pay

Current Self: But oh, at one time, I was the innocent one
Inner Child: Mhmm, taint me once again and beat your dead horse

Unison: And whenever I think of it all, that's when we begin seeing eye to eye
Cause, we never asked for this or anything at all
I'm never gonna let you go, let me make it all up to you
Make a pact with me and promise me you'll see it through

If you look inside, are you surprised?
Just broken homes and growing fires
When left alone, they tower higher
Don't get to close, it'll follow behind ya

Oh, tell me one more time, how I'm supposed to be
When I look into your eyes, I want to set you free

Unison: And whenever I think of it all, that's when we begin seeing eye to eye
Cause, we never asked for this or anything at all
I'm never gonna let you go, let me make it all up to you
Make a pact with me and promise me you'll see it through

Unison: And whenever I think of it all, that's when we begin seeing eye to eye
Cause, we never asked for this or anything at all
I'm never gonna let you go, let me make it all up to you
Make a pact with me and promise me you'll see it through

The Innocent One

LYRICS:

 Verse 1:
I'm on my way, wherever you are tonight,
I won't get it wrong this time,
You better hang on tight

I was wrong when I let you go,
Now I gotta let you know,
I've got you in my sights

This can't be the end of forever with you and me,
So easily, surrendering all that we could ever be

Pre-Chorus:
Tonight we'll be watching the planes from the atmosphere so baby just stay right here won't let this love disappear

Chorus:
Take this ride, and we can run away, to outter space and not even leave a trace
With this one life, I don't want it to go to waste so can you just call off the chase so I won't spend the rest of my days chasin planes

Verse 2:
I can't let go of what I can't control I'll
Do whatever to stay together just lie with me
And you'll begin to believe and see

You and me girl we're unlike no other
We're extraordinary not just temporary come fly with me
And we'll escape the earth's gravity

Pre-Chorus:
Tonight we'll be watching the planes from the atmosphere so baby just stay right here won't let this love disappear

Chorus:
Take this ride, and we can run away, to outter space and not even leave a trace
With this one life, I don't want it to go to waste so can you just call off the chase so I won't spend the rest of my days chasin planes

Bridge:
I'll always remember the sound of your name and the shape of your face and your lovers' embrace. It's like being in outer space

And on bright sunny days as the rays hits your face oh, I fall in love with your laugh and your heart and holy grace and I'll do whatever it takes

When we're broken in pain and its dark and its late and our lives seem to be changin' lanes, won't you please just stay and not let this love go to waste?

Chasing Planes

LYRICS:

(Verse 1)
I wanted to stay, I wanted to stay for a while,
But even I know nothing good would've came if I did... 
Now it's time to move on, I've endured enough pain to fake a smile...
But I'm done with all that, show me the sun shining through the clouds...

(Verse 2)
I don't wanna feel pain, I just wanna feel safe in my mind,
I don't know where to run things are chasin' me deep into the night...
You offered me space but outside of your grace I realized,
Oh I'll be okay if I walk my own way for a while...

(Chorus)
Oh, I don't know what to say, where to go, what to do, all I know is that right now, I want all of you tonight, tonight 
And baby when I look at you I'm torn right in two cuz I know that we're through and I don't know what to do


(Verse 3)
Say what you feel and feel what you say oh you and I know its been a long time comin'
Say what you feel and feel what you say oh you and I know its been a long time comin'
(I hate when your name pops up on my phone and floods me with your memory)
Say what you feel and feel what you say oh you and I know its been a long time comin'
Say what you feel and feel what you say oh you and I know its been a long time comin'
(I remember when we both shared that dream, it felt like perfect symmetry)
Say what you feel and feel what you say oh you and I know its been a long time comin'


(Chorus 2)
Oh, I don't know what to say, where to go, what to do, all I know is that right now, I want all of you tonight, tonight
(Say what you feel and feel what you say oh you and I know its been a long time comin')
And baby when I look at you I'm torn right in two cuz I know that we're through and I don't know what to do
(I hate when your name pops up on my phone)
It's all I can do to rebuke the parts of me reaching out towards you its all so cruel, 
(I remember when we both shared that dream, it felt like perfect symmetry)
so cruel
And maybe in another lifetime, everything fell in line in our favor, you and I wouldnt have to choose or lose

Tell Me I'm Wrong

An incredible collaboration of a couple of very special individuals that created an extraordinary night for all involved. Please enjoy Hearth, a song about uncertainty, humanity, and learning to become yourself. Look out for the KIND Audio drama on Spotify coming soon! 
KIND project page: https://open.spotify.com/show/3LCDFg6qQpPlGnW87Adyw1?si=2174c1b1dc724790

LYRICS:

When they tell me what home is
I burn it to the ground
And they tell me ‘stop moving’
I’m formless like a sound

On the road to nowhere
On the road to somewhere
On the road to nowhere
On the road to somewhere

My father is a bad god
My mother is the earth
I don’t look like anyone
I don’t know my own worth

On the road to nowhere
On the road to somewhere
On the road to nowhere
On the road to somewhere

I’ve run out of luck
I’ve lost my shoes
The bridge has collapsed
I’m battered and bruised
But I’m alive. I will thrive.
I call me the Carpenter
Whittle me down to me
My very own genesis
A little taste of free

On the road to nowhere
On the road to somewhere
On the road to nowhere
On the road to somewhere

Hearth

An original song that I made for a passion project I'm collaborating on called "Cauterized" Link to project page: https://open.spotify.com/show/0oEWyc7Wzr3sXe0i4VUdOp?si=b494e3a6a3704a57

LYRICS:

(VERSE 1)
I'm ready to, I'm ready to fly away
I'm tired of all the skies of gray
And its time for me to fly
I know you care, and I don't wanna let you down
I've been keeping myself safe and sound
But my soul craves to feel alive

(PRE-CHORUS)
I don't belong, this should feel like home, and yet something's wrong and
Its hard to let go of what I've been feelin for all this time

(CHORUS)
And I can't be sure that this is the right choice,
Does that make me wrong, or that my thoughts are just noises
Keeping me down here, beneath the depths?

(VERSE 2)
I'm done fighting this endless feeling
Cuz deep inside it, my heart is beating
And I won't ignore it anymore

I'm done pretending. This is who I am,
When I'm done drowning and on dry land,
I'll embrace the surface like a long lost friend

(PRE-CHORUS)
I see myself out there under the night lights
Smiling with the breeze and the with trees and I know it'll all feel right
I'm on my way there I'll be at home there

(CHORUS)
And I can't be sure that this is the right choice,
Does that make me wrong, or that my thoughts are just noises
Keeping me down here, beneath the depths?

Beneath The Depths - Kadin's Song

This is an original theme for the KIND project that I am collaborating on that ended up not being used.

KIND Project page: https://open.spotify.com/show/3LCDFg6qQpPlGnW87Adyw1?si=8c5323c75f224e25

Tether

An original jingle I made for the KIND project. Link to project page: https://open.spotify.com/show/3LCDFg6qQpPlGnW87Adyw1?si=64ff33b44eb24afb

Herman Motels Jingle

An original theme song I wrote for the Cauterized project. Link to the project page: https://open.spotify.com/show/0oEWyc7Wzr3sXe0i4VUdOp?si=7ae87c4e15d14c2e

Cauterized Theme

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