I felt this man i lost my brother and this shit hots to deep. 

I lisen to this cuz of the shit im doing cuz ive been in and out of the hospital cuz of the fact that i wanna off myself im sorry but this the shit rn

this hits hard because I have been in and out of treatment since I was 11 to now 18 and I'm still trying to off myself I am homeless and could really just die but I don't I'm still surviving but also great song

it's been 12 years since I lost my sister, it definitely does not get better

I have told my family and thay don't care so  I want to do the same

Lyrics:

I wanna kill what this place is, I'm feeling complacent
Walking with strangers that have familiar faces
Wasted ten years on a rock that's so vacant
Placed in a box, I'm feeling lost and I'm breaking
I want to pray down on my knees, 
But it's hard to listen when you hear the sound of disease
demons following me, bottling anger inside
Breaking in pride, I realized that faith is a lie
Wasting my time, picking up the pieces of glass
To put the picture back together til I bleed from my hands
Deep in a land, of horror, and tortorous lies and slander
With morbid thoughts, torching my brain as you die with laugher
I want to scream, but what's the point if no one hears me?
I've walked through the valley of death until I'm weary
But I can't die, and I've tried with a razor blade
Vertically down my wrist, I really want to fade away
But you make me stay, just to run away in the darkness
You brought my heart back, now you're trying to make me heartless
This once pure body of love turned to a carcass
Your pictures on my walls, I want to burn my apartment
I lost everything, numb as a void
You swallowed all my suffering and stomached my joy
Helen of troy, beautiful but destined to die
Your wrapped my body in my mind and you left me inside
Slice and the scars sting
and it's funny you were the puppeteer to my very brittle heart strings
I want to cry, but I'm scared of the acid
I took all your letters and I tared them to fragments
Embarrassed I had this, love that didn't matter
I walked in the line of your hate, my legs shattered
I honestly think I'll never see my next chapter
When you hear this, you're listening to a dead rapper
I put my life on the paper's line
but I think it's time that I fade away and let my fate resign
There's nothing real when it's all fake
There's never happiness, when you're as sad as this and you have lost weight
From not eating 'cause paranoia effects you
And even if you wanted to eat, it wouldn't let you
They say to write it out, they say the therapy helps you
They say it's a choice, they say it but they've never gone through
the peril and stress, anger that tares through my chest
all the gashes on my wrist just to bury the stress
All the wasted years, all the dead dreams and memories
How following you, I'm gonna make a better me?
Please, don't cry when I'm gone
'Cause it's something that all of you have wanted all along
It's a suicide note, and I'm tired of living, bye
Tired of giving my entirety to a lie
Why am I gonna die when I'm trying to stay alive?
'Cause the life that was so designed for my living just wasn't mine
Tired of throwing darts, tired of rolling dice
Tired of fucking living on top of a globe of ice
Tired of broken lives, tired of frozen tears
Tired of swollen fears, voices in open ears
Tired of no one here to hold me when I'm so scared
from the demons that fucking haunt me and get inside my nightmares
I want to cry and it's not fair
That I Scream on this mic 'cause your face isn't right there
Nothing matters anymore, and I when the song's done
you can guess the outcome.

Suicide Letter

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Lost Memories (Feat. Young Z)

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Lyrics:

Livin on the edge, dunno where to go
Surrounded by a crowd but I'm all alone
Veering off the path, on a different road
Is this where I belong, I will never know

I'm doing this for me because it's all I need
This moment that I live is all I'm guarunteed
I may never wake up when I go to sleep
So I'm living in the moment and I live for me

Drivin in the night, the therapy of the mind
Listening to music thinkin how to live a life
Where you were never living like you felt you were alive
So you going through the motions saying everything is fine

But deep within your heart you feel like something isn't right
And all that you are feeling isn't showing when you write
So now you feel like all you ever do is dissapear
Feel so fuckin numb you couldn't try to shed a tear

But, You feel your running in a circle
Everyday's an obstacle that you have got to hurdle
Pushin through the pain but the weight is growing heavy
Wake up in the morning never wanting to get ready

But the more you hide away the more you losing any purpose
Wonder if existence in this world is even worth it
Everyday is gray, Feel like you can't pray
Cuz you're scared that even God isn't hearing what you say
--
Times are getting tough and I slip into depression
A knife into the heart but I will never show expression
And now within my mind there is a permanent impression
That the only way to love is take your feelings and suppress em

So I been building walls so I can never love again
And now all that I think of is the music and a pen
This room that I have built is really all I know of home
And I wonder to myself why I'm feeling so alone

--There really isn't any question
All it really takes is just the truth and a confession
I'm scared of getting hurt so I would rather be alone
So when people are around I'm always hidden in my phone

Still I really wonder why I feel so fuckin broken
I don't why I hurt, but I know I'm sick of hopin
That I can make it better and that I can make it right
Been moving for a year but now I'm losing all my fight

Seems like anymore that all my words are losing weight
What's the point of speaking if you don't know what to say
What's the point of livin if you can't accept your fate
And all they ever say is that it's better if you wait

--Been waiting for a while now
Been faking my expression but only holds my smile down
Running from the pain hopin that it would be mild now
But it's all up in my head, now you're telling me to smile now

huh, now my mind is going weak
Another fucking burden and I'm falling to my feet
The pain that i been feeling isn't really new to me
But now everything I feel is out for everyone to see

And everything I know has started falling into pieces
Look into my soul, wonder where my inner peace is
But everything inside going cold and as it freezes
My mind is shutting down as a result of these diseases

Maybe I am weak, maybe all I am is dirt
And karma came around so all I ever feel is hurt
Addictions that I fight while I am weaker than you know
No matter what I say it feels I never seem to grow

I started making music as a way to vent the pain
Writing what I felt because I knew I'd never say
When I look in a mirror all I see is not enough
Never hated who I am but still I hate who I've become

Fuck, I guess I better face it
I wanna do what's right got me up at night n pacin
All I wanna see is just the glimmer of the light
It's not within myself but I can see it in your eyes

If I can make it better for a single fuckin person
Tell me what you're feeling now I swear you're not a burden
I know i'm broken down but I only wanna help
I  tear myself apart, conversations with myself

Conversations With Myself(Prod. Young Taylor)

Where Do I Belong

Song 'When My Love Stops' by Karacter the rapper
Album 1 a.m.

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When My Love Stops

KARACTER - When My Love Stops

Song 'All For Nothing' by Karacter the rapper
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All For Nothing

KARACTER - All For Nothing

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Get Help (988) (NF Remix)

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