beautiful, this is so good oh my goodness

omg dude this is so good!!! I've been listening to it over and over again. I can relate to this and I love it so much

your hickeys last longer than your promises
you shut of your feelings like a fucking light switch
and everything you said to me, it was all bullshit 
it's kind of sad how easy this was for you
cuz here I am wearing our love like a tattoo
you said I was your everything, well that wasn't true 

chorus:
I feel like I'm drowning
and now I've got a pang in my chest 
my heart physically aches 
and now I'm feeling nauseous
I'm suffocating cuz my lungs are flooding with sadness
and in the mornings is when it hurts the most
cuz you and I can only exist in my dreams
I hate to wake up &  face reality
is that what heartbreak feels like?
is this what heartbreak feels like?
my heart is broken.
this is what heartbreak feels like.

I wish you would've never left that voicemail 
I've listened to it on repeat, makes me miss you like hell
"hey natalie I love you a lot"
bullshit 
looking through old pictures texts & videos
how was it so easy for you to let go?
you told me you loved me more than I could imagine
just two days ago 

[chorus]

and was I just being delusional,
to think that you cared about me at all?
silly me to think we had something special 

[chorus]

you once asked me for a song 
and I said, "well that'd be impossible,
cuz baby I can only write sad songs"

this is what heartbreak feels like

What Heartbreak Feels Like

i stood (silent) watching

Vocalization, Lyrics, Arrangement, and Production: Nik Bear Brown


i stood (silent) watching
as she walked past, her smile opening
a world, her eyes said everything
(and i said nothing)
God gave me eyes to see you (yes),
but not the courage to speak (why?)
you are the voice of all things
beautiful and distant
the voice of your eyes is louder than my heart,
and nobody, not even the rain, has such brown eyes
i left (without leaving), took a flight
but i am still there, somewhere
in between steps, in the space
between the sun and her shadow,
(between what i should have said)
her eyes (deeper than night) told a thousand things,
but i whispered none of mine
God gave me eyes to see you (yes),
but not the courage to speak (why?)
you are the voice of all things
beautiful and distant
the voice of your eyes is louder than my heart,
and nobody, not even the rain, has such a beautiful smile
God gave me eyes to see you (yes),
but not the courage to speak (why?)
you are the voice of all things
beautiful and distant
the voice of your eyes is louder than my heart,
and nobody, not even the rain, has such brown eyes
God gave me eyes to see you (yes),
but not the courage to speak (why?)
you are the voice of all things
beautiful and distant
the voice of your eyes is louder than my heart,
and nobody, not even the rain, has such a beautiful smile

I Stood (silent) Watching

after love
featuring & prod by goody grace
twitter:
@callemakrizma
@goody_grace

after love (ft. goody grace)

2:40 am

i forgot to silence my phone while doing my vocals and the end is purely a hilarious coincidence.  i wrote this last night.  hope u enjoy and thanks so much for listening. 

***DISCLAIMER this is an exoskeleton of the song.  it is terribly underproduced and while i cant explain how happy i am that this is being listened to (wow oh my god 7k listens??? they cant all be my mom, dad, sister, and best friend, can they?) i want to emphasize that if i release an album this song will hopefully sound a lot more full and exciting!!! thank you for listening to my music i love you 

small talk

[chorus]
your flaws aren't even flaws to me
and when you're feeling sad
know that you can always talk to me
she has a low cut shirt
that's a booby trap
she know i'm a dog
i call her a Scooby Snack
we smoked & then we made love
you could say I got the high score
You're so pretty looking at you makes my eyes sore

[verse 1]
No wonder i feel like a loser
i ain't been outside all day
i've been in front of the computer 
playing first person shooters
while she's working at hooters

and it feel like forever ago
I saw you glow
I gave you roses
I left them on your porch
it was partly cloudy on the night of July 4th
and you weren't home so I left you a note
I'm always sarcastic but this isn't a joke
I miss you, yeah, whatever
Go home, get high, forget her

Fuck bitches get cheddar right?
one hit single and you set for life
something just to get em hype
keep em payin attention
keep em fallin in love 
keep em falling in line
never falling behind
i'm never not on my grind

You're a keyboard
without the space bar
You're a bartender
I fucking hate bars
But i drink on occasion
Usually blazing
typically cool but pretty impatient
my soul is ancient but my body is fresh
I got a lot of love to give & some hope to express
and when I'm dying I will give you my best
you can have my bones and blood it ain't nothing but flesh

You're physically rich
But your soul is starving  
would have got to heaven 
but you couldn't find parking
spiritually drained
and mentally exhausted
You didn't even give your love away
you lost it

You got in my head like DMT
I saw myself inside of you
what did you see inside of me?
 
i saw the future
moving furniture in
us laughing
having drinks with out friends
God forgiving me for all of my sins
& you loosening up because you seem really tense

if a good guy can have a bad past
and a skinny girl can have a fat ass
then a white kid can rap
and a black kid can play chess
they mad that I'm skinny
I'm just mad that I don't weigh less

If you inside my head
then why my heart heavy?
huh? tell me why my heart heavy?

I am a nomad but you already know that
once you get me started im impossible to hold back

I am a nomad, you already know that
Once you get me started I'm impossible to hold back

[chorus]

[verse 2]
Stop rewind never let this happen
you don't even care you were just really good at actin
i am so sick of losing myself inside of distractions
i need something that will last
not just another piece of ass
I mean I'm young but I'm not dumb
I don't want you for your body
I want you for your love

i'm going in
like I don't care if you reject me
it's 99 percent a no
but that's still a one percent you let me in
on all your secrets
in that calloused heart where you keep them
I've thought of you for weeks
and now we're  finally face to face
so, how are ya?  great
I really do care 
I just don't know how to show it
i've been fucked up for so long
that it's just hard to stay focused
you can see my movements
 only God will know my motives
that's why i blow this
i try an be a light that others notice
i try to be happy
 when inside i'm hopeless
everytime you smile
it becomes the Summer solstice 
warmer than your sunkissed soul is
and with the way that you were dancin 
I would think that  you were Polish
with the way that I am flowin 
you would think that I had stole it
but I didn't,
the beer is cold and the bowls lit
i put my life on it, I put my soul in it

[outro]

if i put on my best will you show me your worst?
i got so much love inside me that sometimes it start to hurt
why is everything a blessing and a curse at the same time?
who she loves and who she hate is the same guy 

[chorus]



No Take Backs

I got in a fistfight last night, 
and I, I'm not even sure why.
I guess I’m still mad and a little insecure, 
ever since you left me I’ve been a little more, 
a little more stupid, a little more sad, 
making dumb choices, cause you were all I had. 
And now I just, wanna go back.
. . . . . .
I slept on the roof last night, 
And I, am not really sure why.
I just like to look up at the stars, 
wondering how far away, you are.
I guess I’m still in love, with the thought of you,
not really sure, what I should do.
. . . . . .
I bought a one-way ticket last night. 
two in the morning, I boarded my flight.
I thought by now, I’d be over you, 
but no matter what I do, it is no use. 
I still dream about you at night, 
I wish I didn’t,
trust me, I’ve tried.
. . . . . .
Now I’m in some girl’s Subaru, 
How I got here, I don’t have a clue.
She’s nice, but she's not you.
She's cool, but she’s not who, 
I need so bad. I need you so bad. 
. . . . . .
I think it’s time I stop running, 
Time I start something, 
Time I get away from my mistakes,
Time I stop making excuses for the way,
the way I’ve been I’ve been acting, 
it’s like a kid, 
and no one should own me, the way you did.
I guess I was the fool, 
for believing in you.
. . . . . .
But, lets be done with that, 
pretty sure no one’s listening this deep in the track,
cause it’s starting to stop, stop making sense,
and I’m done with these fakes and their pens.
. . . . . .
Darling, I said you were beautiful but that’s not true, 
theres something so ugly, that’s inside of you,
the things you did, the things you said,
there’s something that's wrong, inside your head.
. . . . . .
What makes you treat someone like that?
Why is it so easy to sweep me under the mat?
Moving on to the next one, oh are you hun?
I guess that’s how you get your fun.
. . . . . .

I'm not a poet, so thanks.
-Jake

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Produced by @lilbando

Infinite. March 23rd. ∞

"Two Shots" (Acoustic)
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