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Released 29/02/2024
Mastered by Tim Turan @ Turan Audio

No Watershed

When I wrote “If I Was No More” I was in a really dark place, and it was a painful one to write. It’s not easy to talk about that headspace where everything got so heavy that part of me craved to no longer be there to bear it. It’s a scary thought, one that comes with a lot of guilt and shame. Out of all the songs on the album this one is the one that feels the hardest to share, even now, from the other side. But it’s also one of the best songs I have ever written and it’s an important one to share. With this one music does what it does best - express those things that words alone can’t carry.

If I Was No More

The Courtyard (Radio Edit)

Have you ever seen those chains hanging down at the harbour? Thick as fists, they are. Covered in lichen and slime, hanging so heavy, so immovable and dead, determinedly pulling downward despite the salty westward gales ripping by. This song was written on a day where I waded down at the harbour, aching with depression and grief. It’s inspired by the chains, because they remind me of what it is just to exist, when ‘exist’ is all you can do. And in the likeness I found in those chains, with links like fists, I found a moment of peace.
Sonically, this track is inspired by Ben Howards music in the album ‘I forget where we were’, based around an electric guitar riff with a solid delay. The lyrics are an absent minded conversation with late friends.

Links Like Fists

My continuing experiments with frequency shifted/ring modulated shakuhachi controlling my Buchla 200 Electronic Music Instrument. Video of similar experiments here: https://youtu.be/9MDbqCx72gk?si=lpfZvokXuTHAIsPp

The Courtyard (Radio Edit)

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