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@curtainss @taxpurposes

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

gimme a way out or give me a sign
every word you rehearsed
remembered all of the lines
bullshittin me ab love every night
and im better off without you in hind sight
i wasted so much time
playin all these games
puttin up a fight
hopes a dangerous thing
when its all u got
just leave me be

just leave me be
im better off without u
hangin out to dry
while someones in ur bedroom
covered in the sheets
that hid me just last week
funny how it works
youre so quick to forget me

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

i know how it goes
one day im ur everything
and the next im just some dead weight
we just started and u fold
ik ur still in love with ur ex and o’s
and i deserve so much more
so u can see urself out thru that door
then ill drink so much that ill hit the floor
and do it all again
dont know what for

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

Follow me <3

BREATHE (prod. curtains x taxpurposes)

lonely

prod. @jolst 

ohhhh.....

i said im sorry like a hundred times...
im just a fuck up and all i do is tell lies
(thats what she said)
everytime u see my face

i hope it fills you up with memories
that you cant erase
memories that you cant erase x3

u cant erase....

u cant erase them
the never go away until you face them...
they never go...

damn they never go away
fuck im so tired of dreaming of your face
and it gets worse like every fucking day
yeah these mental blocks up in my brain
yeah all these memories that i cant erase...

i hope it fills you up with memories
that you cant erase
memories that you cant erase x3

memories...
i been trying everyday but i cant erase you....

i said im sorry like a hundred times...
im just a fuck up and all i do is tell lies
(thats what she said)
everytime u see my fave

i hope it fills you up with memories
that you cant erase
memories that you cant erase x3

memories (u cant erase them)

Original song "waste my time" written and produced by Days to Waste

Lyrics:
I've been trying to picture
Your eyes on nights like these
Silhouettes and a flannel shirt
The one you gave to me

Got me at a stand by
Caught me at the right time
Tell me why they fly by
Minutes fly like seconds
Goodnight, now you're feeling lifelike
'I love you's' turn to goodbyes

(And why you always wanna waste my time
When I've been tryna live without you
Taking off, getting out of my mind
I never will, I never had to)

And why you always wanna waste my time
When I've been tryna live without you
Taking off, getting out of my mind
I never will, I never had to
Yeah, I've been running on and off
Serotonin running low

I been fallin asleep at the wheel most nights
Got me looking for somewhere to rest my eyes
And ive gone past my old house a thousand times
Tryna find somewhere else I could drive

Got a lacking of serotonin
Calling and calling your phone
Scatter the pieces up of my heart that you fucking broke
I wrote you another poem
Bout flowers and drinking alone
But now the ink from the pen is bleeding out into the paper

And why you always wanna waste my time
When I've been tryna live without you
Taking off, getting out of my mind
I never will, I never had to
Yeah, I've been running on and off
Serotonin running low

And why you always wanna waste my time
When I've been tryna live without you
Taking off, getting out of my mind
I never will, I never had to

waste my time

cover art: scottysplash

lyrics:

take me back to my initiation
I don't really wanna talk about it
I had never had enough patience
I don't really wanna wait awhile
though I feel better now
life stops when ur not around

devil inside my veins
maybe its in the strain yea
blowing on bloody Mary
waiting here for the bang
bones inside my mind
rob my vision make it change
lately I barely recognize her face
oh ill light the torch
but I won't lead the way
this is a journey you will have to be the one to face
still she look at me like its my fault
I think she's delusional

apple in my Ciroq
I am not who u thought
I am much worse than I should've been
pulling me by the hair
she is on top my back
I had never thought u would devolved that
I put my hand on the top my heart
baby wherever u are I ain't far
cookie and cheese and my hand getting sparked
roll up the window lets smoke in the car
tats on my chest and on both of my arms
this shit too deadly im blowing on sars
all of my fingers they covered in tar
res on the front of my shirt on the shark
I just hope u could see what I mean
3 gram blunt in the garage leave a smoke screen
I don't care cause im barely here I swear
kush in the air medicate my mind I swear

devil inside my veins
maybe its in the strain yea
blowing on bloody Mary
waiting here for the bang
bones inside my mind
rob my vision make it change
lately I barely recognize her face
oh ill light the torch
but I won't lead the way
this is a journey you will have to be the one to face
still she look at me like its my fault
I think she's delusional

blade in my shirt knife in my shirt
if we had beef id getchu first
look at my friend over there in the hood
he finna treat u like u was the worst
im double stuffing my papers with purp
look how it burn Amiri my jeans
Ferri my waist with the Ralph on my piece
I am a come up
im finally feeling myself and I flex how I want all despite how I was brought up
I duck and finesse and I bob and I weave till I get me some shit that I wanna
I am not much of a talker I blew up and got me some stalkers
I hear my phone going off but I rarely'll grab for that shit cause its not her

take me back to my initiation
I don't really wanna talk about it
I had never had enough patience
I don't really wanna wait awhile
though I feel better now
life stops when ur not around

devil inside my veins
maybe its in the strain yea
blowing on bloody Mary
waiting here for the bang
bones inside my mind
rob my vision make it change
lately I barely recognize her face
oh ill light the torch
but I won't lead the way
this is a journey you will have to be the one to face
still she look at me like its my fault
I think she's delusional

delusional (scottysplash)

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Demons [+ Jody]

[Prod. Wellfed] @lilduckk

Lyrics:
I need drugs to stimulate me
Vision blurry, dreams are hd
Mind is foggy, heart is racing
Feed upon me, like you crave me

Im a god cant simulate me
I feel something changing lately
All this pain, cant satiate me
Demon bitches, make me crazy


Dont lie, lil shawty
Dont cry, know you want me
Im braindead, like a zombie 
Lil vampire hoe, drain it from me


I got all these issues so i light up and i smoke a bowl
No one ever understand unless i put in a flow
I can see the future baby i just did a lot of blow
I dont think this works no more
I dont think we work no more


I lost love 
till i got numb
Till i felt dumb
Till i had no one

I grab my gun
Cant ever run
Cold and frozen
Cut me open

I need drugs to stimulate me
Vision blurry, dreams are hd
Mind is foggy, heart is racing
Feed upon me, like you crave me

Im a god cant simulate me
I feel something changing lately
All this pain, cant satiate me
Demon bitches, make me crazy


Dont lie, lil shawty
Dont cry, know you want me
Im braindead, like a zombie 
Lil vampire hoe, drain it from me



Everyday, everynight i
Fall asleep, burn my eyes
I
Cannot eat, i disguise
Yeah 
Sick of seeing walls so i light hoe


I cant hold these feelings deep inside no
Baby can you put the knife inside slow
Ill show you that i can never die no

Time froze time froze

Simulate Me [Prod. Wellfed]

i got u food (feat. Foreign Hype & Dozy) *prod. 2k6 x user67*

Produced by pinomin

ft. @ullbefine

Lyrics:

iluvtora:

[Intro]:
oh how i wish your hand would be like mine
reaching on to something that is really hard to find
as we walk and our love is so combined
all i really say to you is: "babe look at the sky!"

"iluvtora"

[Chorus]:
oh how i wish your hand would be like mine (like mine)
reaching on to something that is really hard to find (it's hard to find yuh)
as we walk and our love is so combined (so combined yuh)
all i really say to you is: "babe look at the sky!"
pretty white clouds from above 
letting sun shine from behind
i can see you tearing up
and the tears glow up your eyes (your eyes)
i get caught up in your lies (in your lies)
and getting fucking tired of the same fucking reply

[Bridge]:
yeah, the same reply
you say it all the time: "babe the sky is just the sky" but nah!
ay, how can you feel that way?
you have something else to say?

[Verse]:
my sky, gives me the reason to live and the reason to hide
it gets rid of the feelings, that i buried myself quite deep down inside
okay that's enough, cus i'll be fine; yeah, i'll be fine.

april: 

"april"

[Verse]:
omg, it's still the same
the tought of you lost in the rain
but now i know that i'm so far away from you
and all the times with you on my mind
it still hurts to know that i'm not letting go

iluvtora:

[Outro]:
oh how i wish your hand would be like mine (like mine)
reaching on to something that is really hard to find (it's hard to find yuh)
as we walk and our love is so combined (so combined yuh)
all i really say to you is: "babe look at the sky!"

how can you feel that way? (ft. april) (prod. pinomin)

Lyrics

I can't stop feeling numb
Why though? I can't spot
Bitch I'm not, not enough
My soul gonna rot
Before all of this is over
I'ma be on top
If love had a server
You could say I'm logging off

Fell in love, I got fucked, I can't fall again
Who this is? This ain't Ken, bitch it's me, I'm pain
Panic attacks back, dressed in that all black
You were broken when we met, bitch I didn't cause that

Keep on fucking sayin' that I did, I can show you something
I gave a fuck about that bitch, not another one
You want a sorry? Hop in line hoe
You gone wait for that until you fucking die though

I can't let you in my head
I got words better left unsaid
Hit me where it hurt but I'm still not dead
Bitch you far from the first, what you think that I'ma miss? (not shit)

Nauseous, I'm sick of all of it
I'm pissed, I get so lost in this
I miss, I miss not missing shit
I quit, ain't got time for no bitch

All they wanna do is fucking lead me on
If they don't they got nothing going on
I don't another thing to care about right now
I'm too busy, bitch I'm tryna make it out right now

And that's so hard when you get around
Like I need a crowbar just to get you out
I don't mean no harm, I'm just letting out
Everything I didn't for minute coming out

I can't stop feeling numb
Why though? I can't spot
Bitch I'm not, not enough
My soul gonna rot
Before all of this is over
I'ma be on top
If love had a server
You could say I'm logging off

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killswitch! | Produced by kubsy

produced by https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

lyrics:

lost inside a picture frame 
I can't go back so I  
stare and stare my days away 
glossy eyes and a sad little heart 
I hate that we're so far apart 
so far apart 

close my eyes get lost in time 
reminisce when you were by my side
the ocean waves they roar so loud 
and the grey storm cloud it makes me frown 
I still hear your laugh echoing in my mind 
It’s fading away but I wish it would stay 
I wish you had stayed 

lost inside a picture frame 
slide my finger across the cracked glass 
just to feel a little something from my past 
how did everyone disappear so fast 
I know nothing seems to last
but I didn't think it would end like that

lost inside a picture frame (prod. IOF)

This beat will be available to purchase on my traktrain page soon.

Thank you for all.

Bad Fantasy

liftoff

feel like i'm next  *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

@plslovejai
@ericdoa

stream at spotify:
open.spotify.com/track/1SFkllaN0gp3BfDMprX6wG

lyrics:
i got voices telling me to wakeup
walk in wit ya hands up
thinking i gotta pay sum
pop up thinking that im lacking you aint want nun
sipping on this drink this shit got me feeling awesome
stuck man i dont really think that im gon need you
you think that im anxious im not worried bout what he do
looking thru the glass dont think i could see you
treat me like im glass baby tell me that im see thru

love jai verse:
tell me that im see thru
i tell you i don't need you
the voices in my head left me for dead
don't know what else to do
like wait hey hold up
i just needa roll up
pullup on lil mama and she crying on my shoulder
she want prada on her kicks yea
come get my dick licked
then its on her wish list
and then ya get this
and i don't got no patience
so i don't really wait for shit
tell me why you hating
until i really make it big
and im sick of people faking
i cannot get away from it
and im sorry for how it went down
i had to change locations
she want me for life
because i'm up and now she stuck
cant give you anymore fucks
i ran all out along with trust
okay yeah wassup
i cant feel my face im off the beep
got me moving slug
tell me what it is or what it aint
dont want here what it was
they thought i was playing you mistaken
demons gimme hugs
we got two hoes waiting and we pulled up ina wtf

i got voices telling me to wakeup
walk in wit ya hands up
thinking i gotta pay sum
pop up thinking that im lacking you aint want nun
sipping on this drink this shit got me feeling awesome
stuck man i dont really think that im gon need you
you think that im anxious im not worried bout what he do
looking thru the glass dont think i could see you
treat me like im glass baby tell me that im see thru

Treat Me Like Glass

Love Jai - Treat Me Like Glass (ft. Ericdoa)

ease&ecstasy (prod micco)

!!
lyrics: https://genius.com/Chris-rain-cold-in-the-sun-lyrics
AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZwf63IvcF8
cover art by: @Hugo.psd

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COLD IN THE SUN (Prod. Pacific)

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