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I don’t wanna do this anymore 
leave me dead here on the floor 
I don’t wanna sleep in bed 
Since you left me all alone 
I feel your presence everywhere 
your voice is in the air 
I wish you didn’t think that I just never fucking cared 

I’m falling apart again 
I get no rest at night 
heart beating, I’m alive, I’m never getting high 
cause I’m broken from the feeling that you left inside 
my heart, cause It was hard for me to stop feeding you all those lies 

there’s no excuse for my shitty behavior 
maybe you just fuckin did yourself a favor 
I’m a fuck up and I don’t deserve you 
5 years of every memory I’ll never forget you 

I don’t blame you for leaving me alone 
Cause I know, you’re better off without me 

I’m going days without eating again 
I’m broke and I’m barely getting out of my bed 
I’m getting fucked up every chance that I get 
cause I never want to feel this feeling of regret pounding my chest 
In my head it’s always gonna be my fault 
I’m closed off and I bottle up everything I should talk about 
it’s so hard for me to say it out loud 
But I am not okay and I don’t see a way out

i don't wanna do this anymore... (prod. Afterlife x Pekarot)

Track 2 of "Rainy Summer"
prod. @splashgvng
ft @killingart
artwork @astrosux

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love is stupid (ft. Killing Art)

Released August 5th

Really proud of this one, I hope you enjoy!
Special thanks to Geist for the amazing verse!

Follow I'm Geist: https://soundcloud.com/imgeist
Produced by KyG Beats x DxnnyFxntom: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRYI4keSzjfqbH9du4HbtHA
Mixed/Mastered by TNVR: https://soundcloud.com/tnvr555
Cover Art by WhosMerci: https://soundcloud.com/whosmerci

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STREAM!: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yokaidreams/summer-feat-im-geist

Lyrics:
//Yokai Dreams\\
Short skirts sun burns
Think I mighta missed my turn
Call you but I guess you lost my number
Dry lips sun kissed
I hope that it stays like this
She fell in love with me last summer

I think I love you but I'm not sure
Your bad decisions give me concern
And I know I'm not a doctor
But nothing good can come from heart burn
Sun so bright hurt my eyes when I'm outside
She wear clothes so tight, must be suffocating slightly
I won't lie I think I'd rather stay inside
But the warmth in the air is just so god damn enticing

Short skirts sun burns
Think I mighta missed my turn
Call you but I guess you lost my number
Dry lips sun kissed
I hope that it stays like this
She fell in love with me last summer

//Geist\\
I saw you kissing on the front porch
And everybody wants an encore
And I sure miss when I was all yours
Now I’m reminiscing of last summer
Oh what a bummer 
I should have taken a chance when I could
Now I’m just a goner
Can’t hold on much longer 
Hoping that I won’t be misunderstood

The sun is blinding my eyes
And my life flys by
Another year and I don’t know who I am
Take me back to the simpler times
Like last summer when I should have made you mine

//Yokai Dreams\\
Short skirts sun burns
Think I mighta missed my turn
Call you but I guess you lost my number
Dry lips sun kissed
I hope that it stays like this
She fell in love with me last summer
Short skirts sun burns
Think I mighta missed my turn
Call you but I guess you lost my number
Dry lips sun kissed
I hope that it stays like this
She fell in love with me last summer

Summer w/ I'm Geist (Prod. KyG x DxnnyFxntom)

lyrics -

i know its been hard
but just hang in there
we're growing apart
and i dont know where
to go
ooh i hate to see you
down like this
but its gonna be okay

i could tell you what i need to
or just tell you what you wanna hear
take on anything that makes
your heart feel blue
i dont mind the pain

i could show you what love is
or just show you what you wanna see
take on anything that makes 
your heart feel blue
just to set you free

set you free w/ Sølace

Lyrics:
Never thought you would go away
Never thought you would call again
Never thought you would want me back
Never thought you would be like that 
Never thought you would go away
Never thought you would call again
Never thought you would want me back
Never thought you would be like that 

Never thought u could hurt me
Thought that you loved me
Guess you deceived me 
Guess you ain't sorry
Sight getting blurry
I should quit smoking
Stop killing myself with that shit
That should help me with coping
Hoping for a better future but 
I'm holding
More than I'm supposed to 
Is this world joking?
Watching me choking
in my own thoughts
You're the only one that is worth fighting for

Never thought you would go away
Never thought you would call again
Never thought you would want me back
Never thought you would be like that 
Never thought you would go away
Never thought you would call again
Never thought you would want me back
Never thought you would be like that

STREAM

Never Thought [prod. Jody]

lyrics:

I could care less
about what you tell you friends
I could write this song like its just a trend
maybe this time i might let it end
i might let it end

Baby i might let you win
i cant pretend shit again
telling lies to all your friends
i see what you say to him
tell him what i did tonight
i dont wanna pretend that im right
i feel like you tell another lie to him
wear another crown on his head tonight
hold him tight
tell him that hell be just fine
i just wanna know if you lied

feelnum
i know that this is the end and
that you wanna be friends
but i just wish that the outcome
could be different
and all the shit that you talk
with all of your friends
i know you told me to be strong 
but i cant

i lie, you lie baby girl whats new?
you act like i cant be someone you
but im not over you
i know its overdue
but im not over you 
and everything that weve been through

icldcareless +feelnum (jolst)

1st @noxious-nights | 2nd @strivemusicau | 3rd @northshoremusic | 4th @emptychest | 5th @soulfadexo |

(noxiousnights)
You don't wanna feel the way that i do 
Can see right through
Why you callin'?

You don't wanna feel the way that i do 
I can feel you're faking it I can see right through
So
Why you callin'?
Yeah, baby girl why you callin' l?

You could never move the way that I move
You cut right through my heart there's no excuse
So
Why you callin'?
Baby girl tell me why you callin' l?

(strivesad.)
I’m in a vicious cycle
And I don’t give a damn
I’m here without a plan
Making music for my fans
they be talking about me
I’m changing up my melody
how you deal without me
How you deal without me
Baby I’m
Always on the verge of
Ending my life
I’m about to cry
cause you cannot leave my mind
I’m sorry if I lie when I tell you that I’m fine
I’m sorry if I lied cause I drink away my life

(nevrwrld)
I’ve got the sounds of a broken heart 
3 more shots then I’m going dark 

6 feet deep behind your yard 
and put me where I belong

Hold your fire 
Revoke your answers 
I’m not ready to go 

(emptychest)
is it a vital path to go down
i cant even speak now
i cant even see 
and my lifes getting kinda bleak now
getting kinda bleak now
fucked up in the sheets now
every single night that i been grinding, i been weak now
but ion get sleep no
126 like combo
smoking on that rainbow
weeping like the willow
packing heavy pinto
bitch u js a no show
think im boutta plateu
living slow mo

(Soulfade)
You still make me feel empty
I don’t know what to expect
It’s getting way too colder
From every touch you make
I cannot try and try again
It’s making me feel broken
The matter breaks in cycles
Don’t try and fucking save me

where i belong w/ emptychest, strivesad, noxiousnights, The North Shore & soulfade

lyrics
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so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

run from the sun til it come up
love in the heat of the summer
hear what ur sayin but plz shut up 
i cant be bothered to give a fuck
smoke like i dont care about my lungs
maybe we’re dumb and just way too young
put out the blunt on the tip of my tongue
put a hole in my head with the tip of my gun

baby u were the one i would run to
my life has no meaning without u
i should move on but im scared to let u go

what if you realize you miss me
and i found someone else that could kiss me
so ill be alone til you care enough to come back home
 
smoke like i dont care about my lungs
maybe we’re dumb and just way too young
put out the blunt on the tip of my tongue
put a hole in my head with the tip of my gun
run from the sun til it come up
love in the heat of the summer
hear what ur sayin but plz shut up 
baby i cant be bothered to give a fuck

i cant be bothered to give a fuck

i can't be bothered (saint mike)

produced by heylog
guitar by ashen

lyrics:
my minds
dizzy and my head is way too light 
middle of nowhere just i
now i wish u could be here
the plan is to go disappear

no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
cause i'm too used to people leaving
why is it never good timing
and i'm sick apologizing 
when ur the one who should b sorry
i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our dna
too soon for home yea i'll be there late
still see grey

i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our eye's
what is it like sharing lives?
tonight i plan to make u mine
hearts so lost, thinking u could change that
i been through a lot and i lost a couple friend's 
but if i'm being honest i could care less
i don't wanna go through hell again
i need nothing, from u or anyone
i see something in her, i felt like i have won
(won)
translate my words into love
a better me, better evolve
no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
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made this with strep throat yuh

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evolve

Hilary Duff w/ Spooky Raevn (okayjml)

cover art: @scottysplash

lyrics:

Don’t cry
Were fine
Alls not lost
We hurt
Sometimes
But still we cling on
Its life
Its torture
To hold on so long
With broke bones
And wet eyes
Were told to stay strong Some how

Close friends tend to fall in love
But the times not right
And my heart too soft
I been here all night
In this beer all night
If I can feel myself
Then ill feel alright
Could u Bring me back to life
Im right here in tact but I feel ive died
She a shark to my beating heart
What she take me for
 Im not anyone
Im just like everyone 
 Long as I will breath I will stay true
I feel blessed to have u here u like an angel baby
Even when im torn and im acting crazy
She come back around and she slide in to save me

Don’t cry
Were fine
Alls not lost
We hurt
Sometimes
But still we cling on
Its life
Its torture
To hold on so long
With broke bones
And wet eyes
Were told to stay strong Some how

I feel this pressure in my veins
I cant hear u im away
I was told to go insane
So I been throwing up my pain
I was standing in the rain
And I took the long way
I fought too hard to lose this fight
I couldn’t let u in my way
In my skin
Its too tight
Lately I swear im not myself im held hostage
Lately I swear I took my soul out and recharged it
I pray I still remain myself from when I started
 When time ticks on
U can help urself while im starving
Its just every day heart ache
Inacted in the worst way

Don’t cry
Were fine
Alls not lost
We hurt
Sometimes
But still we cling on
Its life
Its torture
To hold on so long
With broke bones
And wet eyes
Were told to stay strong Some how

dont cry (scottysplash)

faceless [prod.ninewaters]

[+] fuck los angeles
* produced by @thersx *

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TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu
LYRICS:
Before you let me go
I gotta call you out
For all the shit you did
When I just held you down
Look who fallin now
Look who callin now
Like how I’m supposed save you
If i cant save you
I wanna play you, like you played me
I rock a halo, but im no angel
I just copped a coupe im in these streets 
I gotta lay low
Tell me what you want from me
You say love me then you cut me to the artery
I fall asleep just wondering why you be harming me
Can hardly breathe, cause every time I think of you it’s like a part of me, a part of me.. fuck..
Yeah I’m too much, and I’m never enough
Yeah I give up, it’s too much, yeah I want love
Is it really that hard just to want me around
Do you think of me now?
Baby i been in doubt but i want you now
Yeah i want you now
Same shit dif day i could hardly face-
All these thoughts up in my brain, i could feel the hate
They just wanna see me fall and they can barely wait, im barely phased
You wanna love me? Yeah thats great
I could lay you down and eat you right off my damn plate
Bitch i heard what you could say
And now ill never feel okay
She dont wanna die alone
Well im in pain
Ima slave to this shit
Im ashamed of shit
Im just layin in this bitch
Just the blade in her wrist
Now she bleedin out
I look around i dont see no one else

city of angels

city of angels (prod. thersx)

call me cobain im insane fuck the world im livin like nirvana

SCORN

eleven months and its all bad news

shoutout @fantasycamp for the incredible song
& @hellahaunted for one of my favorite beats ever

much love to whoever listens <3

eleven months (cover) [caves]

i fell in love and fell apart again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/afterlife66

(after everything, the last thing i thought i'd hear was i love you
but, i guess it never mattered to you like it did to me,
i'm sorry)

i'm the worst 
and god i know that
cause by now i realize
the reason it all ends bad
cause i keep breaking 
and you couldn't take it 
so i just lay down in my bed
and dream we made it

and there's so much more that i had planned
and now i sit alone with shakey hands
disregard all the blood i bled,
i wish that you were here instead
i thought that you'd be here to hold me
i remember all the words you told me 
you'd never leave like this 
i couldn't prepare for all the things i'd miss

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

medicine, my lungs turned black
i know you're not too sad
left a knife in my back 
i ruined everything we had 

i'd run away before you don't want to
if i get close i know that i'll hurt you 
run away before you don't want to 
if i get close i know that i'll
hurt you 

okay, alright 
i like when i feel numb,
i don't know what to feel like
okay, alright 
i'll fool myself into every pretty lie

i don't wanna fall in love and fall apart again
i don't know if i'm okay enough 
so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect
(what did i expect)

and someday soon
your eyes will light up the whole damn room 
when you mention someone else
like they did,
when i was your everything 

i fell in love and fell apart again 
i can't keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect

medicine, pt. 2 (prod. afterlife)

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