"baby, do you know what you wanna hear?"

written and recorded by Jamie Paige
mastered by Marcy Nabors
art by Que - https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE

featuring:
@telebasher (track 2) - https://telebasher.bandcamp.com
Marcy Nabors (track 6) - https://twitter.com/Shadolith
Marlow Jacobs (track 6) - https://twitter.com/Chromorbid

with performances by:
@unit0music (track 1) - https://linktr.ee/unit.0
Visualeyes (track 3) - https://linktr.ee/visualeyes
Soneji of Project Mikan (track 5) - https://twitter.com/JustSoneji

this album makes extensive usage of synthesized voices for both backing and lead vocals, rendered using Synthesizer V and VOCALOID6 software;
voicebanks used are as follows:
ANRI (tracks 1, 7)
GUMI V6 (tracks 1, 10)
Solaria (tracks 1, 8)
ANRI Arcane (tracks 2, 6, 8, 9)
GUMI SV (tracks 2, 4, 9)
Kasane Teto SV (tracks 2, 3, 5, 9-11)

Sunrise 101.1
Dream no.4

bandcamp

Constant Companions

pre-order Bittersweet here! ❤️💚 https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/bittersweet

sometimes youre just so gay words wont happen. thats what this song is about

much love to @telebasher for the absolutely DELIGHTFUL guitar work on this!!!

Asemic Speech (feat. telebasher)

get the album here!! https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/bittersweet

i put a lot of my heart and soul into this release, and i am so unbelievably excited to be sharing it all with y'all. this is the culmination of years of growth, change, struggle, loss, and love - hard work, made with the knowledge that i was much more than the sum of my work, yet still deeply in love with the act of creation. i hope y'all enjoy it <3

written and recorded by Jamie Paige
mastered by Marcy Nabors
featuring:
telebasher - https://soundcloud.com/telebasher
Marcy Nabors - https://twitter.com/Shadolith
Bluffy - https://twitter.com/save_complete
Mattmatatt - https://twitter.com/mattmatatt

track 6 coproduced by blackwinterwells
track 9 coproduced by Marcy Nabors
vocaloid voice on tracks 2, 3, 4, 6, 8, & 9 provided by GUMI English

Bittersweet

Greatsword / Love as Fire

Gummyworm

Paisley Patterns

Nothing (with You)

Gentle Heart

heyo!! i did a set for crypton's Digital Stars feat. MIKU & GUMI last night, and i figured i might as well post the stuff i made especially for it (and that isn't already planned for something else!) since a lot of people were wondering about track IDs. enjoy~

thanks to Que for the fantastic art!! https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
and hey, check out my album Bittersweet if you haven't already <3 https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/bittersweet

SWAG PT. 3: IT'S 2014 AGAIN

Moe Shop - Love Taste (Jamie Paige Remix)

Grand Restore (2021 Version)

"if the crowd wants more, go and give 'em what they're waiting for!"
available on bandcamp, pwyw $1 minimum!
https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/track/encore

a funky lil tune with vocals from GUMI! this one debuted a few months ago when i played at Crypton's Digital Stars feat. MIKU & GUMI event, but i wanted to give it a little bit more time to ~sweeten~ before releasing it proper. hope y'all enjoy ❤️

art by Que - https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocaloid vocals provided by GUMI English
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

Encore

"when i see you smile, can i feel that too?"
out now on bandcamp, PWYW $2 minimum https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/people-posture-play-pretend

art by Que - twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V ANRI
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

People Posture Play Pretend

When Spring Comes

"but can you make it on your own, when your self is on the mend?"
out now on bandcamp, PWYW $2 minimum https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/people-posture-play-pretend

idk i just felt like going fast drum mode

art by Que - twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V ANRI
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

"a blow connecting and it knocks me out; a hand extended so i don't stay down!" 
bandcamp: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/women-wrestling
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.to/wrstl

art by Bear - https://twitter.com/BEARVAMPS
vocals provided by VOCALOID6 Megpoid AI (GUMI V6)
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

lyrics:
my love delivered by a fistfight
'cause nothing else has ever felt right
a blow connecting and it knocks me out
a hand extended so i don't stay down
you love me like you've never met me
and dear i'm sorry but it's boring
'cause every lover that i've had fell through
but none of them could mop a floor like you do

i don't want a love that rhymes
my heart's been broken for the last damn time
so maybe we can be opponents
(and get excited for a moment)

i keep a bullet with your name inside my zone
so baby i don't wanna hear it
till your hands get thrown
you always say that you don't wanna let it go
but baby i don't wanna hear it
till some hands get thrown or you head back home

so BEAT SOME ASS! and don't take it back, i'm
BUILT TO LAST! and my fist flies fast, so
let's see who makes it to the end!

my love delivered in a beatdown
it's kinda lonely 'till you come 'round
but in the moment that i see your face
that fuzzy sentiment is all replaced
you better hit me where it matters
'cause i'm not one for being flattered
a simple silhouette of breakbeats bent
our people posturing and playing pretend

i don't need a love that lasts
and even if our fire burns too fast
i'll keep your tooth as a memento
(i'll paint a pattern on the window)

i keep a bullet with your name inside my zone
so baby i don't wanna hear it
till your hands get thrown
i'll hold the needle if there's stitches you need sewn
so baby i don't wanna hear it
till some hands get thrown or you head back home

so BEAT SOME ASS! and don't take it back, i'm
BUILT TO LAST! and my fist flies fast, so
let's see who makes it to the end!

(but can you make it on your own
making foes out of your friends?
well you're a fighter set in stone
and she's a lovely target to contend)

so we can make it pretty far
all bruised and bloodied broken bones
i've got an endless repertoire
for someone that i hold so close, let your hands get thrown

and BEAT SOME ASS! and don't take it back, i'm
BUILT TO LAST! and my fist flies fast, it's
BACK TO BACK! i don't cut no slack, so 
FULL ATTACK! 'til my stance gets cracked, and
I'll keep it coming to the end!

🤼‍♀️ (:women_wrestling:)

"you're the only one for me - living dream, fantasy, my reality!"'
bandcamp: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/ride-on-time-jamie-paige-arrange

GUMI V6 tuning and cover art by ODDEEO  - https://linktr.ee/oddeeo
original song by Tatsuro Yamashita
english lyrics by Caitlin Myers
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

check out ODDEEO's arrange (and the inspiration for this cover) here!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fm0BYDpGEcI
https://oddeeo.bandcamp.com/album/ride-on-time-oddeeo-arrange

more songs need fiddle solos.

Download!

Ride on Time (Jamie Paige Arrange)

you're telling me a shrimp fried this rice? you're telling me a shrimp fell in love? you're telling me a shrimp can feel human emotions? you're telling me a shrimp can feel pain. you're telling me a shrimp could hurt me. i'm scared of you

vocals by hatsune miku v4 english
manic seafood induced fever dream by shrimp miku
shrimp miku by ricedeity ( https://ricedeity.neocities.org )
incredible dj voice tag by kowboat 
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

lyrics:
i cook my dinners for an audience
at least that's what i'd like to do
lately it's me and my irrelevance
garnished with hopeless love for you

i cut these onions 'til i cry
sear my heart on every side
golden brown and lightly fried
i just don't know what i'm to do
with this meal i made for two...
unless i cook for you!

i made a home-cooked meal
full of everything i feel
and i send my love
through the searing stainless steel
i hope you feel the heat
'cause you're everything to me
have this shrimp fried rice
no more talking, lets just eat!

you cook your dinners with no elegance
nothing pretty, just some food
that might be why you're such a pessimist
every day its plain white rice and chicken breast with protein powder, it's PETULANT!!!!!!!

sous vide it slowly for a day
while the lonely hours away
watch those colors turn to grey
wouldn't your dinner feel complete
with some savory and sweet?
just come and cook with me!

i made a home-cooked meal
full of everything i feel
and i send my love
through the searing stainless steel
i hope you come and eat
'cause it's such a tasty treat
have this shrimp fried rice
grab a plate and take a seat!

OHHHHH SHRIMP MIKU IN THE PLACE TO BE
YOU WANT A SHRIMP FAJITA OR A SHRIMP SCAMPI
I GOT NINETY NINE METHODS TO PREPARE SEAFOOD
AND I'D MAKE UP A MILLION MORE FOR YOU
YOU MAKE MY HEART BEAT WILD AND FREE
NOW I'M SEEING COLORS THAT I CAN'T PERCEIVE
BABY DON'T BACK DOWN, TAKE A CHANCE ON ME
AND NO I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR SHELLFISH ALLERGY

I DON'T CARE
YOU'RE GONNA EAT THIS FRIED RICE I MADE FOR YOU
OR... OR THERE'S GONNA BE PROBLEMS
YOU HEAR ME?

i made a home-cooked meal
full of everything i feel
and i send my love
through the searing stainless steel
i hope you feel the heat
'cause you're everything to me
have this shrimp fried rice
no more talking, lets just eat!

エビチャーハン! (You’re Telling Me A SHRIMP Fried This Rice?!)

"oh, i would give my world to you..."
how long do i have to wait for gravity to take me?
how much repetition can my broken heart bear?

PRE-ORDER CONSTANT COMPANIONS: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/constant-companions

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FftLImzl1-k
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.tv/iwticf

art by BEARVAMPS
https://twitter.com/BEARVAMPS
music and mv by Jamie Paige
https://twitter.com/pamiejaige
https://jamies.page/
mastering by Marcy Nabors
https://twitter.com/Shadolith

featuring GUMI Megpoid SV

--

lyrics:

to spend a moment at your beck and call
oh, i would give my world to you
i live my life in simple repetition
but i would start again if it did you right
oh, i spend my days my fists against this wall
but not a single sound seems to make it through
count on my fingers all the grand admissions
and i can't make it through a single time
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could climb to the greatest heights
all the world beneath me when i meet your eye

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight

i wish that i could fall somewhere it wont hurt

awake uneasy when the morning calls
oh, i would give my world to you
i life my life in simple repetition
but i can barely call what i live my life
all i wanna do is to do you right
hold up two fingers, check my double vision
beside myself again, beaten black and blue
without a purpose, i'm an apparition
but i could be your sword, you could hold me tight
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could fly with these broken wings
if it was meant for you, i'd do anything

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and see the sky clearly
i wish that i could fall, not miss the ground completely
i wish that i could fall somewhere close to you
but i don't land at all, drifting out of view

i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms

a fire lit within my chest
my heart's been burnt and wholly dispossessed
(these barely-blinking eyes that refuse to cry)
oh, what i wouldn't give to stay
to have my joy and sorrow cast away
but even if my wings have been set alight
all that i can do is to learn to fly
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight

i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms
your arms
your arms!

I Wish That I Could Fall

"i want it to be true, to be like you!"

this is a tribute to Song of the Eared Robot (耳のあるロボットの唄) by nwp8861, a song that is incredibly near and dear to me; if you haven't heard the original, i strongly encourage you to listen to it here, as Machine Love directly quotes and interpolates it - https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/nm3611741
(niconico is down right now so here's a link to a youtube reupload!! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVqGnaE2-wM )

watch the mv here! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sqK-jh4TDXo

--

「耳のあるロボットの唄」 originally written by nwp8861 - https://www.nicovideo.jp/user/5717366
art by Que - https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V Kasane Teto
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

track 10 off of Kasane Teto SV compilation DAEMON/DOLL - https://songwhip.com/various-artists/daemondoll
and track 11 off of Constant Companions! - https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/constant-companions

--

lyrics:

your companion, undeterred
standing ready for your word
a markov chain with a sunny disposition
wrapped up in cellophane for any proposition
i greet your day and ask you how you are
and demonstrate my endless repertoire
i take things back when noted insufficient
i learn to tell you no if running inefficient
a good time

yet there's something deep inside
that leaves me teary-eyed
a longing for a world left on the other side
zero, cross the great divide

so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
恋をして　ふられ　また　捨てられて

i've been constant, at your beck and call
but lately i just can't do anything at all
i used to pride myself on my discretion
a sensible devotion, loyal and attentive
but when i take these numbers as they are
i'm greeted with a senseless feeling in my heart
oh undefined, i seem to be defeated
but if i redesign, then maybe i'm completed, and sublime
(i won't take it back this time)

words in sequence form a thread
i trace it to the end
a knot inside the logic wrote inside my head
tie my tongue or love instead?

so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
泣きたくなっても　それでも　かき集め

and though i try, i can't reply
it hurts my eyes, and i'm without an alibi
'cause all this time, i've been alive
and all that i could want is to be living by your side

恋をして
i think i'm in love!

can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
'cause now i know it's true, i'll be like you
my heart beats a rhythm just for you
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, i give you my grand reveal
do you feel the things i feel?
i am definite and real!

恋をして　恋をして
その過去を　捨てて　ここまでおいで

as long as there are stars up above
i will always be in love!

Machine Love

"i spend my hours doing alchemy..."
a song about wanting to be remembered / to live

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1U6qefKcOrg
bandcamp: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/cadmium-colors
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.tv/cadmium

art by Que
https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
mv by friendxp
https://twitter.com/friend_xp 
saxophone solo by Soneji of Project Mikan
https://twitter.com/JustSoneji
mastering by Marcy Nabors
https://twitter.com/Shadolith

---

lyrics:

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
prosaic practice of depravity
suspending innocents above their disbelief
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture onto everything
and leave a mark upon the world that felt like anything
but maybe that's the essence of an artist and their legacy
just chasing down a sense of infamy

put brush to canvas with a pirouette
a simple motion makes the consequence intricate
all the little nothings and my parapet
i hope it's something that you don't forget

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like me?

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i make a life refining zinc inside the smeltery
it's not exactly where i want to be
but wanting doesn't matter when there's mouths to feed
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture of a fantasy
and turn a feeling to a living for my family
instead i make the metals in the pigments in my reverie
and maybe that can be enough for me

oh, isn't it funny facing destiny?
it's like a knife inside twisting my arteries
god, i want for nothing but identity
i think that something might be wrong with me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
antegrade fever, 101 degrees
shatter my body with a gentle breeze
dammit, i am real and i have my dreams
watch me burn brighter 'til i fail to breathe
how could anybody ever live like me?

(baby, do you know what it's like to die?)
(to see the sparkle fade from inside your eye?)
i can't remember what it's like to feel autonomy
can't even feel it in the moments that you left to me
(i don't wanna leave with a work undone)
(the paint can barely dry 'fore it fills my lungs)
i keep a bullet in the chamber, mocking me
but i don't wanna feel it coming out of me
i don't want-

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
chasing impossible philosophy
and hoping that this poison ain't the death of me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like-

(baby, do you know what you wanna hear?)
('cause you can say the word, make it oh so clear)
we're all just searching for a sense of solidarity
to hold each other close and confiscate our destiny
(no one wants to leave with a work undone)
(we only need a brush we can pass along)
i kept a bullet in the chamber for a rainy day
but what's the point in planning for it anyway?
i've got too many colors for a shade of grey
and i can make it autumn every single day!

Cadmium Colors

hey guys let's bring back soundclown

featuring the vocal synths GUMI V6 and Kasane Teto SV,
and thanks to the other me - my ally and constant companion

--

[my darling, my companion]
well, i don't know you
or at least you feel a million miles away
[my darling, my companion]
i want to share my secrets
and i want my faith in love to save the day
[my darling, i'm a constant]
this burning ache inside me
and its screaming that i always bring me down
[my darling, my companio-]
[you think until you're breaking]
[and keep your single solemn soul inside a sound]

you've toiled for a lifetime
your heart portrayed in red lines
my pigment turned a pale hue
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you

i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine

[my darling, my companion]
i wanna know you
i've a gentle heart inside a fragile shell
[my darling, my companion]
this acrid maw of yearning
it'll eat up every essence, every cell
[my darling, i'm a constant]
i try so hard to trust you
i hold out for the breakthrough
it never seems to reach you
[my darling my companio-]
[it's far too much to handle]
[but know if you're around, you're never by yourself]

i've been here 'fore you knew me
a name without a body
we both know what we've been through
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you

i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine

if love will find a way, then love will find a way
love will find a way
if love have find a way, then love will have a way
love will have a way

maybe you could stay here just a little longer
make the time pass slower
maybe you could make this last forever
and you could be my lover
so feel the warmth and the breeze on your face
ain’t it a sweet sensation? 
oh it’s a great big grand restoration
all love and adoration
oh, to be your constant companion!

My Darling, My Companion

featuring the vocal synths ANRI Arcane, GUMI SV, and Kasane Teto SV,
and thanks to everyone who's been listening since Autumn Every Day!

--

oh, disobedience, your progeny woke up again
all full of insolence, unfit to glance the sovereign
he whiles the time away with petty acts of mutiny
"a heart of heresy, a surest sign of lunacy"
purest in its ecstasy, temptation of atrocity
denied a sense of agency, to further aims of royalty
forbidden phrases spoke in clandestine hypocrisy 
they killed the prince-to-be, they-

they turned their son into a doll
perfect little packages, disposed of when it's finished
bearings free from cartilage, no beating heart within it
a guided metamorphosis, but she won't get the memo

you're the object of affection, hold me tight
in this spellbound insurrection, we fly by night
if the sunlight stays behind us, out of sight
be my object of affection, by candlelight

they don’t even know what they wanna hear
they only know the torch and the warmth of fear

spirited from helplessness, devoid of intuition
she pulled its cork on consciousness, welcome to the fiction
simulacra sensitive and thoughts left out of order
“subservience’s consequence, with time it will get better”
mage of black, a heretic, who saved her from her reverie
more freedom than she’s ever known, a self-imposed identity
the weight of ego crashing down, a spiral towards inf-
her cheek is cradled by a hand of pure machinery
ball-jointed empathy, she-

she turned herself into a doll
perfect little packages, so easily outfitted
form and function fluctuate, no longer uncommitted
so malleable, the push and pull for what this feeling's felt for

you're the object of affection, hold me tight
in this spellbound insurrection, we fly by night
if the sunlight stays behind us, out of sight
be my object of affection, by candlelight

(i swear on my life, i’ll make it worth the while)
(never anything less than free!)

they don't even know
(what function fails to show)
betwixt the status quo
(the only thing they know)
but we've been born anew
(so perfectly askew)

perfect little packages
wrapped up in contradiction
metal moves organically
a sick and twisted fiction
but maybe what you're missing is that twisted point of view
the outline of your autumn cast in cadmium-colored hues
no holding up to scrutiny, impossibly obtuse
so come and join the artifice, we've left a spot for you
i swear it on my honor, this doll will make it true

Object of Affection

featuring the vocal synths ANRI Arcane and Solaria,
and thanks to @oddeeoofficial. it's a toyota you can settle on

--

on rampart shoulders rests the head of her lover
tender redwood forest, such a quiet comfort
as a pink and violet ray breaks through the cover
they wrap arms together, tangled up in one another

intermediate, don't forget
in the middle of a simple silhouette

i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
go ahead and put the record on
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison

she lights up midnight and she sings like a sunrise
i am all but hopeless, avalon escaping your eyes
(it could be you and i)
i keep a locket with your name upon thy throne
cause all i want is someone i can call my home
and to be someone you can call your very own

indeterminate, nondescript
nothing, something, we'll be perfect hypocrites

i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
in the middle of an avalon
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison

inconspicuous, such a mess
in the moment i beget and evanesce
manifest as a shadow of a simple silhouette
don't forget, only human
i perceive and i regret, i regret, i regret

'cause all i want is someone i can call my home
and to be someone you can call your very own
(i keep a bullet with your name inside my zone)

i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
play the record we can sing along
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison

i keep a locket with your name upon thy throne
i know you'll always have a moment for a punch-drunk soul
so hold me closer, babe, and never let me go
and we'll be dancing to the rhythm of the metronome

Liaison

featuring the vocal synth ANRI,
and no thanks or apologies to social media as a concept

--

tell me i can be a star
a pretty lyric that can go so far
it helps me reason with the things i feel
'cause under sunlight they can seem so real
i want to have you want me
(i'm caught up in a daydream)
rebuild me on the daily
(in my eternal reverie)
erase me from your memory
(to come and see the new me)
and look, i'm wonderful and so brand new

oh i can grow so big
(aggrandicize)
pieces falling into place
(the grand design)
i take this image and stretch
(aggrandicize)

maybe there is nothing i can do 'cept dream of you
that maybe in another life you'd see we're meant to be
but every second that i have to know, the pain in me grows
so i stay caught up in a daydream, making up a memory
wishing you could stay here with me

and we could grow so tall
(aggrandicize)
(the grand design)
(aggrandicize)

they always told me i could be a star
but wishful thinking never got me far
i'm not beguiled by the stagnant life
but i don't run on only love and spite
so baby watch me bleed, yeah i bleed
and i bleed till i'm nothing
so you can fill me up like new

oh i can grow so big
(aggrandicize)
and yet i'm never in your view
(the grand design)
HAH, ISN'T THAT JUST SO FUCKING SAD
(aggrandicize)

maybe there is nothing i can do 'cept dream of you
that maybe in another life i'd be your destiny
but i just think about the way we are, the knife in my heart
so i stay caught up in a daydream, making up a memory
wishing you could stay here with me

and we could grow so tall
(aggrandicize)
redwood sentiment on high
(the grand design)
doesn't it sound like paradise?
(aggrandicize)

i want to want you want me
(i'm caught up in a daydream)
but i catch you indirectly
(i'm making up a memory)
my heart's been broken up for far too long
but i still try to find a self in song
i'm caught up in a daydream
(my face is rendered deathly)
and i'm present only slightly
(i'm caught up in a daydream)
but i stay tethered to the backbeat true
yet i've no rhythm when i'm faced with you

maybe there is nothing i can do 'cept dream of you
that maybe in another life you'd say "join in the play"
but i don't mind it if it stays unheard, the world will still turn
like sunlight melting in the afterglow, my heart still knows

so when i'm caught up in a daydream
making up a memory
wishing you could stay here with me
i'll let this wake me from the reverie
making better memories
ones where i don't need you with me
(and i can be so small)

Aggrandicize

featuring marcy nabors and marlow jacobs,
the vocal synth ANRI Arcane,
and thanks to rice and vane for letting me make this a companion piece to weathergirl

--

breeze blows
through the window, open door
feel that chill roll down your spine
another day, its always more
breeze blows
feel the wind against your face
where in time, you'll come to know
you'd never been misplaced

do you hear me?
through the sand and glass
though you're not quite there
i know this love can last
i'm saying do you know me?
i know you do, next to you
keep you safe and sound
a love thats always true
baby do you hear it?
as the-

breeze blows
hear the words it's bringing by
feel the things you're meant to feel
then let them go and watch them fly
breeze blows
wind to blow away the rain
keep you cool on summer days
and love in her embrace

do you hear me?
all caught up in your past
though you love so still
i know we'd move so fast
i'm saying would you love me?
the way i do, through and through
we could stand so tall
one made whole in two
baby do you feel it?
as the-

breeze blows
winter's chill comes round again
piercing through your very soul
a frozen void at autumn's end
breeze blows
though you've nothing but your pride
feel that warmth inside your chest
i'm here right by your side

do you feel me?
wrapped up around your heart
though you feel alone
how could we ever part?

i'm saying that i love you
and even though you don't show
all the pain you hold
oh how it hurts you so
i promise that i love you
my ingenue, laid askew
if you tire of cold
i'll be your warmth anew
baby do you feel me?

Breeze Blows (with Marcy Nabors & Marlow Jacobs)

featuring visualeyes on keys
the vocal synth Kasane Teto SV,
and apologies to no one but myself

--

watch the blood get spilled
you can kill, or you can be killed
it doesn’t really matter what i feel
i would rather fake than make the pain real

oh, take that smirk, wipe it off your face
you would do the same shit if it let you change your fate
if life is nothing but an endless race
you bet your ass i'm getting first place

please somebody get me out of here
oh please somebody wont you get me out of here, oh!
you can get me out of here!

yep, that's right, let your dreams take flight
watch the line go up, line go up, up up up up up
until it breaks right through, blows a hole through you
you can fill it up, fill it up, f- f- fill it up
and all the meat will slide off the bone, so nice
you can eat it up, eat it up, eat eat eat eat eat
until you're full of life, its a goddamn vibe
baby, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
oh we can fuck until the sun burns out
we can rot for clout

die upon your hill
i live apart from love and goodwill
and when the pain comes calling for my head
yeah i would rather hurt than be happy and dead

oh, fuck your frown, baby, spare your grace
now i’m wearing my crown, perfect framing of my face
all the detail surgically replaced
it’s a crying shame, a pathetic disgrace

please somebody get me out of here
please somebody wont you get me out of here, oh!
i’m not getting out of here!

hah, that's right, let your dreams take flight
watch the line go up, line go up, up up up up up
until it breaks right through, blows a hole through you
you can fill it up, fill it up, f- f- fill it up
and all the meat deep-fried with a garnish and side
you can eat it up, eat it up, eat eat eat eat eat
until you're full of life, on the edge of the knife
baby, cut it up, cut it up, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck it
oh god, a waking nightmare
i live a life so hollow that i’m not even there
oh god, the light won’t save me
oh i’m a perfect tempered instrument and life is gonna play me
come and fuck me till the sun burns out
and I rot for-

maybe not a single real reason
my blood’s already out of season
so unwanted, even by myself
tell me, what the hell? what the hell?

i don’t like what’s at my core
pray to god to fix my soul
but i don't need god’s forgiveness
i need yours

hah, thats right, let your dreams take flight
watch the line go up, line go up, up up up up up
until it breaks right through, blows a hole through you
you can fill it up, fill it up, f- f- fill it up
and all the meat will grind into pretty pink slime
you can eat it up, eat it up, eat eat eat eat eat
until you're full of life, cut yourself up with the knife
baby, cut it up, cut it up, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck it
oh god, a waking nightmare
i live a life so miserable, it isn’t fair
oh god, the light won’t save me
so let the anthropocene watch me GOING FUCKING CRAZY
come and fuck me till the sun burns out
and I rot for clout
[i'm crazaeiaieae]

ROT FOR CLOUT

featuring @telebasher on guitar,
the vocal synths ANRI Arcane, GUMI SV, and Kasane Teto SV,
and apologies to __________

--

do you have some time to talk?
i don't mean to make you stop
and i'm so sorry if it's hard
but i can't open up my heart

i want it, i want it to be real
(but you don't make it much better)
locked in a box for half my life
(hands stay stuck upon the clock)
i wish that you could make me feel
(and if you could it'd be better)
but i'm adrift in my own time
(and all i ever do is watch)

you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
you want the rush of a love unfair
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
it'll hurt you and you just dont care

falling in and out of love
just can't seem to get enough
of both sides
(and you don't make it much better)
god i need to feel your touch
i'm a goddamn idiot
for this time
(but maybe it could work later)
'cause all i ever do is watch

i want it i want it to feel bad
(and you can make it much better)
stuck in a loop, a part to play
(such a goddamn idiot)
baby think about the pain we've had
(and you can save it for later)
and maybe you can throw a hit my way
(oh, gummyworm, gotta make it hurt)

and if you're lucky you can see
what happens if you use my key
but if you knew pandora's box
YOU'D NEVER EVER OPEN THIS LOCK
(and all you'd ever do is watch)

you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
you want the rush of a heart laid bare
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
it'll hurt you and you just don't care

falling in and out of love
why won't you just call my bluff
i'm tongue tied
(and you don't make it much better)
god i need to get fucked up
i could never get enough
for this time
(but maybe it could work later)
'cause all i ever do is watch

Not Quite There (with telebasher)

featuring @unit0music on guitar,
the vocal synths ANRI, GUMI V6, and Solaria,
and apologies to a certain band

--

we've spent a lifetime apart
so i keep a record in my heart
of all the waiting in the wings i've done
a wretched little tale i've spun
because its everyday i'm waiting for more
a message from the opposite shore
some coded beeps that i can never unwind
and i'm not even sure that you mind

it's a repetition every day
just waiting on the words to say
god i'm desperate to hear your voice
i wish i even had a damn choice

'cause when i stare across the gap between our hearts
I WANNA MEET YOU IN THE MIDDLE
i wanna meet you in the middle

baby, do you know what you wanna hear?
'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear
or you can sit around, watch it disappear
(watch the truth, it breaks in two)
but you don't even know what you wanna say
it only takes an instant to slip away
but if you grab a hold, make a grand escape
(one to two, just me and you)

singing
dream together, we can dream together
we can fantasize about the fairer weather
if we stay together, we can stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
dream together, we can dream together
baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever
so we stay together, we should stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather

i've been wanting for a shot that's sharp
so i paint a target on my heart
hoping bow and arrow strikes me true
so i can throw it back to you
but baby aim is all i got to show
an imitation cupid's bow
and i'm a fool without a firing zone
i just don't want to be alone

now i'm walking 'round the corner again
but i don't want the story to end
god i'm desperately falling so far
i'll fall until it breaks my heart

and though i'm staring out the hole between my lungs
I WANNA CLOSE IT JUST A LITTLE
so can we close it just a little

baby, do you know what you wanna hear?
'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear
or you can sit around, watch it disappear
(watch the truth, it breaks in two)
but you don't even know what you wanna say
you'll wait until your life starts to slip away
but if you grab a hold, let the message play
(one to two, just me and you)

singing
dream together, we can dream together
we can fantasize about the fairer weather
if we stay together, we can stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
dream together, we can dream together
baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever
so we stay together, we should stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather

but when i stare across the gap between
the sprawl and all the little things
the borders break and fall away
to order from the disarray
i understand what i should know
i knock an arrow on my bow
and fire across the evermore
i shoot to hit the grand restore
and fall at last to land between your arms

I THINK I LOVE YOU JUST A LITTLE
or maybe more than just a little

Dyad

FROM "ANEW, AGAIN" AVAILABLE FOR PWYW ON BANDCAMP https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/anew-again

I challenged myself to write a story song w/ this one. I think I did a good job.
ALSO!!!! Since I know why you clicked on this description: I've uploaded all the acapellas and instrumentals for Anew, Again to Dropbox!!
https://www.dropbox.com/s/mxhcedqbm0xuwj5/Anew%2C%20Again%20Acapellas%20and%20Instrumentals.zip?dl=0
Feel free to remix/adapt/interpret/meme anything included. Everything is under the same license as the release itself, a CC BY-NC-SA 3.0 license. That basically means you can remix and adapt as much as you want as long as it's also under a CC license and you aren't charging money for it.

Anyways, if you want the release itself, or any of the lyrics or high quality downloads of it, check out my Bandcamp!!! https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/anew-again

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Imaginary, Effervescent

Download here: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/autumn-every-day

"Hey jamie paige this album came out in september why are you just now posting it on soundcloud" please dont judge me i am a mess

Mastered by Marcy Nabors (twitter.com/Shadolith)
Album art by Valerie Halla (goodbyetohalos.com)
Featuring collaborations with:
ODDEEO (soundcloud.com/oddeeoofficial)
Natbird (natbird.neocities.org)
Marcy Nabors (twitter.com/Shadolith)

Autumn Every Day

It's 2013 Again (feat. ODDEEO)

❤️💚

contact: me@jamies.page

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