Created in 2021. Rave driven, I was really into i_o at the time.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

social delirium

Created in 2022. Just trying to play around with the program.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

cyber ascend

Created in 2022. I was intrigued by the arpeggiator and wanted to see what I could piece together by layering.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

inter analytic sequence

Created in 2023. I really wanted to create something dark techno. That is really what genre I aim for.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

get low dead

Created in 2021. I believe this was the second track I had made. Very simple, just trying to get a feel for the program. I did play the piano so that helped me a bit.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

burn slow die fast

Created in 2022. I was going for a beat that you one freestyle over. The sound sort of mirrored my depression at the time, as well.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

i look up walkthrus bc i get stuck sometimes

This was created right after a huge argument in 2022. The highs are supposed to be me, and the lows are supposed to be the person I was arguing with. A sort of... conversation, if you will.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

don't yell at me please

This was the first song I created in 2021.

From 2021-2023, I was battling the most traumatic depression of my life. During this time, I purchased an Akai Mini Play which allowed me something to focus on. I had saved these mixes and final tracks on my old laptop which was unfortunately stolen out of my car sometime last year. I have decided to upload a few as I continue to create more. I am doing much better now. I would love feedback and appreciate all who listen. Thanks!

broke as a joke (the first song i made)

where did my time go
i was super lost and never found

why didn’t i listen
i never wanted to
be around


father said kindness was my weakness
and that it will kill me

well guess what
guess where i am it appears
im almost dead
im sinking
slowly


sometimes we have to face our monsters
or is it me
and that im
the problem
thank you to all the people who never left me


im fucked up
im tired
my body is sinking into itself
i only wanted to be happy
and free

self medicate

self medicate

i’m pushed and shoved
im showing weakness to the shit
that shouldn’t bother me

and ive always been one to not care
and to think that im not lonely



i have this pact with life called
unconditional fuckage
and it means that
i have no control

im here dancing with the devil
within my hands is a soul



my head is imploding
and no one even sees it
im self-destructive, can’t you tell

it’s hard to think that shit will be easier
floating straight down the styx to hell

jarelle