dude what the fuck your so fucking good at this what the hell

What kind of trip is this mayne, this is crazy dreamy

in my top 50 favourite songs oat for me genuinely

celebrate life

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2022 @ModernArt

de4th\__* Spirit

2020, separated by a border
w/ my beloved riza

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>1000 [miles]

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JUMP IN JUST ONCE ARE YOU SCARED? @jedwill1999

STREAM:
https://mdrn.art/once

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ONCE (feat. Jedwill)

aephyn:
https://soundcloud.com/heyaephyn
https://open.spotify.com/artist/6wBZgfO8VgAQoLgaVs347e
https://twitter.com/heyaephyn

disphing:
https://soundcloud.com/disphing
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1N1AFyIEAhTIpyY2Qb8l9J
https://twitter.com/disphing
https://instagram.com/dsphng

SILKENWOOD:
Soundcloud: @wearesilkenwood
Twitter: twitter.com/WEARESILKENWOOD
Instagram: www.instagram.com/wearesilkenwood
Web: www.silkenwood.us

Lyrics:

I’ve gotten used to it
I don’t need anything in return
Never stopped to ask “what’s in it for me?”

Although they needed it
Am I losing value in the process?
I guess the question is if they needed me

I want to block out what I’ve been telling myself
But it’s a cop-out if I don’t do anything for me
‘Cause right now, I’m only shifting the focus
To someone other than me

But it’s a lie to say that I won’t regret it
I gave up time that could have been better spent
On holding my end, or dialling it back
Because I can’t help but feel like I can’t help myself at all


Why do you want to be the hero?
You keep acting like you’ll be better off
It’s not like everybody needs you
So stop pretending you’re above yourself

Why do you want to be the hero?
You keep thinking they don’t know who you are
But it’s not like everybody needs you
Avoiding it can only go so far


I never wanted to make amends
Because I never had thought that I could be your friend
I promised that I wouldn’t hurt myself again
But you know that I’m the one to play pretend
The one to bend the logic

But please tell me you saw it
If it was right in front of you, I’d hope you’d have the moment
The part where I’m the savior
The part where I can’t control behaviors
I know I can’t control behaviors

I want to block out what I’ve been telling myself
But it’s a shock how I’ll never do anything for me
‘Cause right now, I’ve been moulding myself
Into someone who I’ll never be

But if I run time back I’ll see a part of the past
Where I had something to last me every step of the way
Something to fix the cracks I’ve grown from everyone else
That show me I’m only valued if I have something new to say


Why do you want to be the hero?
You keep thinking they don’t know who you are
But it’s not like everybody needs you
Avoiding it can only go so far

aephyn & disphing - savior

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

Blue Marigold

always wanted to make a 4/4 version of this track...3 years later, i finally did. back to the genre that got me into music production. hope you enjoy :)

Nostalgia II

youre not quite used to this yet?

a little remix i did of 'stuck!' by the amazing https://soundcloud.com/mynameisvalentine , https://soundcloud.com/bringyourknapsack and https://soundcloud.com/underscores 

i do not take credit for the vocal work:)

i still refuse to make my tracks loud :coolsunglassesemojiyea:

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jaron

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