Music I find that I think is good vV

(prod kurtains)
i've been acting crazy sometimes i wish that u were dead
no i shouldn't have said that i should've kept it     in my head
 why did i let her go? i should've kept her in my bed
now she wont even call and that shit makes me so upset
i woke up in the morning i came to get all of my stuff
and i left after midnight im always staying after dark 
yea this feels kinda overplayed i might need another spark
its like nothing ever fuckin changed, we're back at the start

i really hope we got the same goal
bc we're stuck under the same home
and if u rlly wanna leave, go
just know we're stuck under the same oath

 i've been actin crazy yea everything i see is red
yea that shits got me so tired no i cant take another step
im fuckin losing it, i don't think you understand 
but this the life and im choosing it, i don't really give a damn

oath (kurtains)

glock wit my gang w/ Raining

Credits:||
@hereisalden

Data Log:||
>i dont think that ill ever even find my way
>step 200 paces

pain +aldn

NOTHINGTOLOSE

produced by me w/ additional melodies from @1spoof
mixed & mastered by me

released under Loveshock @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
all i wished for is all gone
lines of sight, they’ve been redrawn
wires in my body firing out without u here…
my insecurities
they’re taking shape in me
i know that i can’t do it
but i don’t know

how much can i take
before i finally break
is there still will in me
that i don’t know

existent
inside me
my nerves feel so numb to me
and i can’t accept it
when my heart’s locked up all the way
sickening to see that my body is falling apart
but maybe you’ll just save me again

i keep expecting you 
to be my savior
but it was never true
i feel so fucking used
the truth’s that i’m no good
dependent all on you
to keep me living on
and make it to the other side 
it feels so empty without you
to numb it all
and take away
what i have left
so i can separate myself from everyone
i wish i didn’t need u
to keep me alive
all the vomit and the anguish 
isn’t it all so pitiful?
painted words with all your poison
it’s just so fucking pitiful

Lines of Death

my savior

stream

my savior (Prod. AViT & Spoof)

lyrics:
ashes to ashes, gold to dust
everything you do makes a fool of us
and i've been working on myself so we can get back up
and my ego way too big, think I got midas touch

i been pushing all my friends away, know that shit ain't cool
white claws crawling in my system, it's not me making the rules
and imma be in new york missing mama, tryna finish school
i dont want you thinking im okay when im losing my cool

catherine and heathcliff, they stay tatted on my ribs
cause my heart's so full of loving, but my mouth just loves to fib
and my trauma gon' repeat itself and pass on to my kids
baby, do you wanna put up with my shit and be the fix? x2

wrist been looking like picasso played all on it
she don't want me for my conscious, she just want me for my content
and my ex girl tells her family im popping
i don't like to think about it, i was probably the problem

catherine and heathcliff, they stay tatted on my ribs
cause my heart's so full of loving, but my mouth just loves to fib
and my trauma gon' repeat itself and pass on to my kids
baby, do you wanna put up with my shit and be the fix? x2

heathcliff (hallow + ria + joeboi)

januarytwentyninth, twentytwentytwo.
produced by anvii.

ur so stupid
u fell in love with someone
that u didnt even fuckin know
whats the use then?
u could talk to me for hours
and i wouldnt hear a word

id rather walk down this road
that ive found while drunk and high
thinking bout her
i dont give a fuck about him
i could kill him if i really wanted to
but id rather not

abstain

lyrics:

all eyes on me 
i can't take the
pressure of being seen
but how on earth
am i supposed to
live my dream
hiding in the shadows 
of my fears

lately don't feel like myself
i can't feel like before
secrets and whispers
the first thing i hear
through the door
i hate burning bridges
i can't take this shit anymore
bury my bones in a bottle
im sick to the core

all eyes on me 
i can't take the
pressure of being seen
but how on earth
am i supposed to
live my dream
hiding in the shadows 
of my fears

i can't let go
of the feelings of
hopelessness
filling the void
with distractions
im so close to
giving it up 
i can't give a fuck
about what people
think about me
cause im trying my hardest
im trying my best
to please certain people
can't forget about the rest
so ill scream from my lungs
and ill say it with my chest
i dont need the validation
but it wouldn't hurt coming from you

lately don't feel like myself
i can't feel like before
secrets and whispers
the first thing i hear
through the door
i hate burning bridges
i can't take this shit anymore
bury my bones in a bottle
im sick to the core

all eyes on me 
i can't take the
pressure of being seen
but how on earth
am i supposed to
live my dream
hiding in the shadows 
of my fears

STEMS

all eyes on me

Over

Sunset Visionary, Vol. 2

Homie

Destroyed

FWM2

Closer

i see right thru ur disguise
@prodbyjoshwa 

mixed by tsuyunoshi + joshwa
mastered by tsuyunoshi
engineered by tsuyunoshi + joshwa
produced by joshwa

may 15 - https://ffm.to/showandtell

shoutouts to @starfallxo big ups twin

lyrics:
and my mama said stay true to urself
leave the fake ones in the dust, all by theirselves 
got like all my friends, u dont need anyone else
baby u dont need to go thru hell

think about it for a minute again
gotta feel those words that’s been stuck in ur head
and i leave unread when i see ur texts
i got better things to do than that

u just want attention for urself
and ur playing all ur games like its show and tell
lying to me like bitch, think i couldnt tell?
back n forth that we been thru hell, aint been doin well, so im feelin like

fuck that, i don’t like u like that
tired of getting sidetracked, like u? i denied that 
baby i said

tryna get myself out this place
cuz im steady thinkin feelin im out of place
and im puzzled in the head stuck in a maze
and i need to get my bread, i dont wanna stay here

on god babe i know whats up
and i know it sucks
feeling like ur always stuck

baby i dont wanna hear ur friends tryna chatter about me
i dont rly care if ur mad at me

STREAM

show and tell (joshwa)

prod utaqqa
lyrics:

nothing ever seems to change
is it me or is it you ? (ohhh)
maybe im the one to blame
whys it hard to say ur name
i like you better when it rains
lets drown our egos in the lake

hands shaking 
cant let go
kill my ego
arms might leak tho
keep ur cool
they might ask questions
watch ur back
might end up missing
x2

maybe im the villian after all
ill stay quiet ill stay hidden ill stay still in ur walls
yea im crying in a bathroom stall
dont act like you care now
i know that you never did
wait
hold up
i think that im
never enough
runnin out of luck 
need a re up

hey ! wait up, i think i still need ur touch

ego (utaqqa)

acapellas used:
loansharks
everybody's dead
girls and boys
bozo bozo bozo
del mar county fair

this will surely put an end to my abuse of underscores acapellas

lyrics
--------
i've been on my toes
cause you never know
where your time will go
if you'll ever fold
cause the cards inside your hand
disconnected from your soul
i've been moving slow
hoping that the rain still contributes to my growth
i can feel the glow
sitting in my chest like a bomb about to blow
lightwork
i ain't pay the bill in weeks
i've been writing down these verses on my sheets
getting cozy on this god damn beat
cause i know you mother fuckers gonna sleep
not the way you prolly think  
off a sedative setting in while you blink
and the words that you've been saying i'm spitting out in the sink
tryna down it with some water now everything lookin pink
like a vessel in your eye i'm poppin off inside the ink

lack of zinc got you mother fuckers confused
cloudy vision consumed
mix it with the henny that's a dumb move
come thru we can talk about it sometime
working on this album till the sunrise
i've been on my shit
checklist when it come time
on another project checkin outta my mind
i don't need to think cause i only do it sometimes
time will tell my story if i ever get these lines right
write until my wrist hurts
damn this screen is so bright
fill another script full of words not the drug type
john carpenter how my flicks flamin my pipe
imma set the scene really quick
lemme paint it out how i like
i fight through a constant battle with depression
self mutilation, aggression, the wreckage of my compression
the pressure been comin' in this music is my obsession
i'll do this shit everyday until i reach my ascension
for real

used to mop the floor now i'm flooring through the hills
it's a crazy fucking world when you live through what you feel
i won't ever take a break cause the music's how i heal
i ain't ever had my doubts that's how you know that it's real
that's how you know that it's real
that's some lightwork
stocked up like a night clerk
one day people gonna know my name through these cyphers
i could be the king it depends on who dies first

lightwork (prod. chxse bank)

lyrics
--------
make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might disappear by the morning
soaring higher than i was while recording
i'm warning you to stay away cause i'm boring
fuck i'm a mess face down in the flooring
worth another shot taking shots till i'm snoring
in my dreams i've been wide awake just exploring
a distant memory of better days i'm ignoring
if i keep fucking up then imma lead you all to mourning

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might fuck around with these toxins
i'm locked in a box with these puppets that i'm not with
obnoxious how they've been tryna limit all my options
hit em with the blade then i warp like i'm noctis
stop this all this fucking gossip got me nauseous
fuck the repetition i've been whippin new concoctions
and just because i'm reinventing they gon say i'm pompous
wait until the album drop cause that shit is colossus
lost his touch cause everything he made was flawless
creatively he's broke again like gromit to your wallace 
it's hard to stay awake & just create in midst of all this  
regardless i still hope you like the shit i drop in august

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

mistakes (prod. peril x mekai b)

lyrics
--------
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

trapped in between these halls
asbestos inside the walls
it's getting harder to breathe
and lately i'm in the dark
unaware of where to start
i'm falling hard with the breeze
so tell me the truth are we both really losing our minds
in this state of delusion it's easy to lose track of time
and the hands on this clock haven't spun even close to align
-ing but
they'll come around (x4)

'til then i'm
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

am i really here?
am i not?
is there anywhere that i ought to be
i ain't tryna stay here with these oddities
and honestly it's getting kinda hard to breathe
and hard to speak when barred with teeth
my tongue sittin in my mouth but it's hard to speak
i fall asleep with every fragment haunting me
my dreams turn to nightmares where they're calling me
like hey hi hello it's me how you doing
i'm a ghost to this place amidst of these ruins 
trippin' over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is fucking haunted

trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

haunted (prod. young taylor)

i miss my grandma

when u said
that i'd see
you again
didn't think
that it'd be
this long
but i hope
you look down
on me
with a smile
you can see
just how much
ive grown

but i hope
that you're proud
of me
and you smile
once you've seen
just how much
i've grown

Music I find that I think is good vV

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