Name: Blinded by Love by Javier Oseguera in Javier Oseguera ::: I Defined Myself
Duration: 4 min 28 s
Description: This track is me feeling like a fool when someone I loved, didn't really love me. I think there are some of us out there that give 100% and get zero in return... I realized it... and wrote a song about it. I hope you like my song. You are all awesome!!

This song says so much. You are truly loved now!

Javier Oseguera ::: I Defined Myself

No Way Back

MMMM,,

The Crescent Moon

Los Abuelos

They said “you’ll be fine, just wait and see,”

Verse 1
I’m surrounded, but I feel alone,
Happy voices, in a happy home.
They’re laughing, but I’m not really there,
My mind’s somewhere I can’t repair.

I’m here in the noise, but I don’t belong,
Holding my breath just to stay strong.
Every smile’s a mask I wear,
But no one really seems to care.

[Pre-Chorus]
I am dreaming, drifting slow,
Half awake, when I lose control.
Can’t tell what’s real or in my head,
Wanna scream all the things I never said.

[Chorus] 
Can’t escape the noise inside my head,
Screaming loud, but no one hears what’s said.
I’m reaching out, but I fade instead,
Lost between the living and the dead.

Every thought’s flying outside my brain,
Every echo calls my name again.
I’m breaking down, I can’t delay 
I’m drifting, drifting away.

[Verse 2 ]
It’s getting harder just to feel myself,
I’m slipping deeper, and I asked for help.
They said “you’ll be fine, just wait and see,”
But their words don’t reach the real me.

[Pre-Chorus]
I am dreaming, drifting slow,
Half awake, I lose control.
Can’t tell what’s real or in my head,
Wanna scream all the things I never said.

[Chorus]
Can’t escape the noise inside my head,
Screaming loud, but no one hears what’s said.
I’m reaching out, but I fade instead,
Lost between the living and the dead.

[Bridge] 

Bring it down 
Tear me open,
Let me breathe again! 

So many thoughts
they're lost in the void!
I’m falling faster 
Don’t let me decay, 
I’m drifting further,
Drifting away…

[Outro / Final Chorus]
Can’t escape the noise inside my head,
Every word’s a ghost that I’ve been fed.
I’m reaching out, but I fade instead,
Drifting away… drifting away.

JDAM - The Drifter

This was inspired by a friend who asked about a song for an ex he still loved. There was a story there and although I don't know the story - this song is how my brain fills in the blanks. Its sad but we all have been here... I hope you enjoy it.

Wasn't Love

This track was a remnant poem around the time I wrote the song The Bridge - I thought it was time to put it out and put that time away... but it makes a great song!

I'm Trapped

This track was for me. I had a lot of fun working on it, and I'm just a guy that likes to kiss!

Besame Mucho

This track started as an earworm that I couldn't shake - it was in my head until I got it out. I was in a lovy dovey mood - so... I wrote a song about it. I am a sappy guy, lol! I hope you like it!

Wrapped in Your Love

This track is about hoping the one you love comes back after you inevitably make stupid mistakes. My youth was riddled with a lot of these mistakes. This song is a testament to that. It also shows how much I loved to write stuff down - that really helped when it came to working through it...

I Was Wrong

I hold the door, I force the smile,
A gentleman for such a while.
But my patience is gone, away,
It's now my turn to make you pay!

No texture left, no colored paint,
Just hollow eyes, no self-restraint.
I see the greed, the pure despite.
They don't just hide it, they fucking bite. 
It isn’t flaw, it’s how they’re built:
They thrive on chaos, feed on guilt.

For forty years I watched this trash,
Spit on workers, count their cash.

Every stolen parking space,
Every arrogant, smirking face,
Every shoulder-check in the hall 
Another brick to build the wall.

Another pound of TNT 
Light the fuse and set me free!

I swallowed bile for all these years,
Drowned my honor in their smug-ass jeers!
AND I’M WAITING!

I am waiting for the spark to fly!
For some asshole just to cross the line!
But the fuse just sputters, damp and grey!
It never catches, anyway!
And the disappointment is a second blow,
I'm begging for the world to let me GO!
But the bomb just waits... and grows.

So now I’m searching, I'm looking for the trigger.
Provoking the complacent, the belligerent figure. 

"What did you say?" 

I ask, with honey in my voice. 
"Please, complete your awful choice." 

I want the confrontation, I need the release! 
I’m praying for the end of this fucking peace! 
I step into their path, I stare them in the eye!

GIVE ME A REASON TO LET THIS DIE!

…they say sorry, then walk on by.
…they apologize, then pass me by.
And just like that my rage subsides...


I am waiting for the spark to fly!
For some asshole just to cross the line!
But the fuse just sputters, damp and grey!
It never catches, anyway!
And the disappointment is a second blow,
I'm begging for the world to let me GO!
But the bomb just waits... and grows.



Pressure builds ,  the casing strains,
Poison pulses through my veins.
I’m carrying a kiloton of rage,
Not a bomb, but a cracking cage.
A living, breathing, private hell,
Forty years and I’ve held it well.
No turning back, no more excuse!

LIGHT THE FUSE!

And…nothing. Air so still. The weight settles.
It's building up, and that's so rough, but
This bomb will never go off.

JDAM - Light the Fuse

This track is me feeling like a fool when someone I loved, didn't really love me. I think there are some of us out there that give 100% and get zero in return... I realized it... and wrote a song about it. I hope you like my song. You are all awesome!!

Blinded by Love

esta versión de 'Missing Inside Me' te llevará a un estado de éxtasis musical. Es una reinvención audaz que rinde homenaje al original mientras lo catapulta al futuro del sonido tech house. Perfecta para noches de club, sesiones de DJ o simplemente para perderte en la música. ¡No te la pierdas!"
¡Espero que te sean útiles! ¡Mucha suerte con tu single!

Missing Inside Me

Missing Inside Me(Feat. Mira Crash) - Moreno Deejay

From the album "Phoenix Rising"
Released: 7. December 2025
Label: Phoenix Records
DistroKid UPC: 199947748677

Listen to the full album: soundcloud.com/anke-kaiser-359193477/sets/rising-phoenix?si=3eb963db1a0d49b4814534328339cdce&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
Tracklist:
1. Rebirth in the Heart of Flames (The Source of Revelation)
2. Phoenix Rising from the Blaze
3. Between Love and Loss
4. The Shape of You
5. Doubts (You Were My Anchor)
6. My Hidden Self (The final Part about me)
7. I See You (Through The Static)
8. They Say I Should Control It All
9. Empty Words
10. Your Game, My Scars
11. My Game, My Rules
🔥 Rising from the ashes 🔥
Available on all streaming platforms from December 7th, 2025.

I see you - Through the Static

Summernight Dream

Para esta versión, he explorado ritmos contundentes y líneas de bajo pulsantes, características del tech house, combinándolos con elementos atmosféricos que rinden homenaje al original. El desafío fue encontrar el equilibrio perfecto entre la potencia de la pista de baile y la delicadeza vocal, y creo que el resultado es una reinterpretación que te hará mover los pies mientras disfrutas de la familiaridad de la melodía. Ha sido un viaje increíble trabajar en esto, desde la conceptualización hasta la mezcla final. Espero que lo disfruten tanto como yo disfruté creándolo. ¡No olviden darle like, compartir y dejar sus comentarios!
¡Escucha ahora mi cover de 'Diamonds' de Hard Rain en versión tech house y déjate llevar por el ritmo!"


hard rain diamonds

hard rain - diamonds - moreno deejay remix

I'm a songwriter lyricist and a singer. I'm sure you can tell I'm also a gay man. I write my music from my perspective - but I'm not a parody, my sounds aren't vulgar even if they walk the line of being provocative. I sing on a few of these tracks, naturally :-) but now I'm able to create the songs as I hear them in my head. My music tastes are eclectic. I truly love all music. My process is melodies to lyrics to songs ... then on paper (old school, lol!), all my songs are a part of who I am. With a lifelong love of the audio-visual world, I'm now stepping into the spotlight to share my songs, each a story pulled from my life. I invite you to listen, feel, and connect through my music. Thank you for being a part of my next chapter.

Blinded by Love

Javier Oseguera

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