Awaken

What really have you done for me lately?
 
Stacking your own problems on top of mine fine, I'll help.

Get you out of your own personal hell

While you stoke the flame of mine;

"Hey, how you been man?"

I'm just swell dude thanks for asking; better yet I'm divine

fuck this shit I'm out of here packing..

I'm tired and a single drop of genuine care from you is what you're lacking.

Maybe I'll move in with my dad live in his pad

Shit I mean he's been promising he's a changed man

Guess we'll see and follow through with this plan

Couple days in, just after settling in

hearing him up all hours of the night battling his demons

still following in the same cycle of sin.

Can't ever seem to find a good enough reason to 

change that he can stick with so he pulls the classic
 
"dad" I know and love him for at this point;

one hand out while the other plays the world's smallest violin

begging for some spare change..

"Son, I just need a couple thousand bucks I promise to

pay it back, swear that I'll rearraneg the way I'm living."

I love you, but you gotta figure it out on your own pops;

just go find another lonely, down, and out of luck woman to liquidate

funds from.

You're motivated in all the wrong ways dude,

you had the chance to innovate, I know you did

because I got your brain so even thougg i can relate,

I can't..

see you took your pain and continued to live in the past and live fast;

parying you'd die young so you wouldn't have to stare at and one day

face the mess you made.

Now, since your heart is still beating, there's more women to keep on
 
beating and your warped perception of reality is getting harder to relay

as your memory is fleeting; my hypothesis being that it must be
 
all of the crack and heroin you;ve been feeding into your lungs 

and through your veins.

Keep on doing things in vain looking at any and everyone else 

to aim the blame towards, I mean how the fuck else could

you look at yourself in the mirror every day right?

I once looked at you as a hero, and you know what?
Maybe you still are..

Is that bizarre? You showed me how to be a good father for

my own family, by not being there for yours.

You showed me how to be a good husband to my own wife

one day, by not being there for yours; I mean

you'd have rather been out fucking all kinds of whores 

than focus on your fair share of the chores.

Rotten to the core sometimes man, I swear.
 
You also showed me how to be a good person overall,
 
by giving me completely unscripted glimpses and

scenes of how to destroy anyone's sense of self worth.

In turn utilizing your black belt in masterful

manipulation to get any and everything you wanted

from anybody;

then hanging them out to dry feeling empty and haunted.

Hey, you know what?

Thanks pops; you've given all of the tools I need to 

succeed. Ammunition for this song, don't wanna go

into too much detail here that would be at least

a week long..

Now I'm gonna take this big shlong of mine that I

like to call self respect, make us of the 

remaining time here that I have on this planet, take

advantage of the premonitions I've been having and

plan it out. Come and watch me;

I'm the presentiment you could never see, the one you never saw coming.

"You're either the victim or the victor."

Awaken

Fruit Medley

WHAT

Just spittin some raps having a good time

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Forever

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Circle

Boss Battle

Abstract

Noc Noc (Instrumental)

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Influenced by a culmination of rap, soul, r&b, electronic, jpop, jazz, alternative, folk, and lofi. I make whatever bleeds out of me on a given day; hope you enjoy the trip

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