I had this riff in my head which in full disclosure was the intro to Enter Sandman except I played it in reverse. As I was thinking of what lyrics would fit, I was walking on 42nd St a bit too close to the street and lost in my own head. I cab that was pulling over to drop off a fare blared its horn at me. I came back to earth and thought, whew, I better be careful, I can get taken out at any moment. Not like I'm one of the chosen one. So I thought the character would be this person who thought he was chosen and that divine intervention would always be there for him. He ends up getting hit by a car and while till in the air, he questioned God and asked why he had abandoned him. On the way down to the ground, God's answer was, "I didn'y, you abandonded yourself. I'm there for you only if you're there for yourself." He survived the crash and came out with a renewed outlook on life via this revelation. Originally the title was kind a jokey temporary title until I thought about the definition. While we characterize it as an animal dead on the road. I characterized it as the delicacy of life and how fast we can die out of what could be viewed as a random event towards a finite ending.

Something Cynical

Roadkill

Unfortunately, this song was written about my abusive father. I was watching the movie Halloween and rembered a dusty dirty room and it propelled me back into a tough memory. There's still pin but this song actually helped/helps me to manage it

Recall

I was on Church St in lower Manhattan during 9/11. I was on an uptown bus when my mom called me and informed me of a plane hitting the WTC. Knowing I was in the area I popped my head around and saw nothing. In my mind it was some small craft. It wasn't until the bus made a sudden stop thinking it had received a flat. We all had to get off and felt this wierd heat and dust and looked up to see this black cloud. My mind connected it to my moms call but wasn't sure what had happend. It was the second plane hitting I realized later as I sprint towards my apartment. As I got far enough and looked back, I saw the huge plume. In my apartment TV on, reaity hit home. I wont get into more detail of what happened from that day over the next two weeks simply because I dont want to remember it now. In any event Phoenix rose from the ashes in this song and that Phoenix, was an American Eagle

Phoenix

I good friend of mine came to me needing an ear and whatever advice I could muster as he was afraid his wife was falling out of love with him and he didn't know what to do. I asked if he had a frank conversation with her. He said, he doesn't know the words to use to have that conversation. I thought about myself and thought, yeah, that's tough. I can see getting bogged down by your own preconceptions, experiences etc. I said, just speak and the words will come if love is behind them.

No Words

This song was actually written by my very good friend and fellow rocknaut Carlos Cabrales.

Fear Me

Also written by the illustrious Carlos Cabrales

Ignorance

I saw a calendar with this powerful image of a red rose in full bloom just at the early stages of deterioration. It hit me that that flower had to live its entire life in a desert. I though how sad but how brave of this being to have survived and bloom.

Jayrock

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