keep it pushing times will only get better from here

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drop prod @oaelis
special thanks to rob max bugs and heaven cord

sometimes I put acid in my eyes
cause I can’t bare to see who you chose to be with tonight
and most times i know its on me so I dont get the right to cry
but I can’t take accountability and that wont change tonight
u dont communicate where you come from
and i’m sorry for yelling I think that i’m on one 
theres a bunch of things that wont get fixed like last time
you need a friend and I need a home 
maybe theres ways to not feel so alone
i swear you dont care anymore but I do 
and id like to hide it


would you look at me when you lie to me
I feel like 4 the time being
u can take a break or switch sides with me
if its way too much then alright wit me
fuck another night then get rid of you
lets do things that we shouldnt do
rolled dollars and bold moves 
I can’t get over
you

u 
u 

recently I know I think too much
and i just stole ur car then fucked it up
i pick a fucking fight with everyone
i’m burning every bridge that I built up
and honestly its hard to give a fuck
I feel nothing and like everything at once
ima die so fuck my phone dont pick it up
I never wanna hear u out i’m done

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prod rab and scarlet 
everything else me

brainfreeze when you kiss me I feel everything but empty for once 
feel my bones crush when you hit me
key bumps fix me i’ll be good 

what will I take to feel ok tonight?
another day to not be dead inside
i’ll just scream at you to feel alright
at the expense of your brain

i never knew what I was looking for to tell the truth
i never knew if I was ever gon get over you
i’m falling in doing stupid shit that I shouldnt do
they talk behind my back I hope it’s all the truth

draft pick for 21, its up and done
grab all the cards and put em down, face em up
i planned to go out at 19 then I fell in love
I thought that you were just like me, I was fucking wrong

hide under my bed because the mentors in my room
I got my pills i got your hand i’m in the spot because i’m rude to everyone that comes my way I wished my problems, go away
I wish I never begged for you to stick around and stay

brainfreeze when you kiss me I feel everything but empty for once 
bones crush when you hit me key bumps fix me i’ll be good
what will it
take to feel ok tonight?
another day to not be dead inside
scream at you to feel alright at the expense of your brain


who are you looking for when you crane your head around?
boy of ur dreams has just walked out now will you say something or let yourself down?
so approachable when the dead around
so just you run or hide or hide your face cause theresno time its too late for both of us
OH HERE THEY COME GET TO HIDING HIDING
I know you wanna die but for our sake just stay alive a little longer

nineteenism

fuck december, shout out my friends
guitar by ttthou 

I fear that i’m not too good at music
and its frustrating because I have eyes on me at all times

I get a little power and I might abuse it
so I do better, at the bottom, you understand why I try?
I try too hard at everything put a camera on me
and 
watch me switch from the boy I was about 5s ago

I try too little at everything that matters
like when you put hot water on cold glass

wallflower clip

if you told me a couple things what would It be?
if I could read into your mind what would I see?
back to a time where we were doing shit that mattered 
right before I dropped the ball and then it shattered
 
and 

do you remember when you asked if I would drink?
at 5am picking your orders up from peets 
i dont think you owe like anything to me,
I just keep thinking bout shit I shouldnt think 

a big fan of your new friends and your blue hair
we didnt get a prom though call it loose ends 
like do I want a girlfriend or a bestfriend
like do I want a front seat when the world ends 

like do I want a small break or to give up
or do I wanna chest pass 
or to mean something to you
I never mean nothing to you

and would you try to stay up to see the moon fall?
i’m the biggest faker, take my mask off
I wrote a couple few songs, but they’re all wrong
I try to turn my shortcomes into someones

how I’m scared to live and both die?
I aint never brawled but i’ll go fight
something in the stars make me feel right

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fighters

prod rab


mainline
you called me at the same time i’m reaching for my phone
I wont pick up we’re on the same time
like like
no one knows but they all get it
its all said without a mention
somethings wrong here
you can feel it in my songs, hear

the things i think about I dont know where id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
the things i think about I dont know where id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you

she calls it off, shes like “ive had it, you’re a monster wreaking havoc, they were right. i’m not sure why I thought they lied..
like yeah we both fuck up but you got issues, I can’t be the one you misuse any longer
you can’t get any wronger”

and now you’re staring at your feet
because you gave it all you got
making lefts at every turn
doing shit you just should not
and every shot you get shot down
no emotion but a frown these days
you’re going down but hey

the things i think about I dunno whered id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
the things i think about I dunno whered id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you

doing just fine

prance around
until we get figured out
the buildings seem bigger now
and you still dont like home

start a new year with no friends
it took some getting used to
shoes a little big, and that’s fine.. 
I just hope they fit to me

snows a little warm this winter
you say you’re at the bottom ive been there
a couple times
watch your steps 
count your cries

because you sport a big gun
and a halo and a wishbone
you were just like me 
till ya fucked up and you lost it
like the cute girl in the plain white tee
do you think of her everynight?

we can all tell when you lie 
stay truthful

she kinda had her whole life
in her left hand
not her right though.. that’s for ecstcies
she liked hotel rooms and looking at the moon
she liked little things
she loved anything with you……
now what will you do?

and now she’s off and meets a nice girl
with the whole word
laid out at her finger tips 
and you both just split from your old guy
whos an asshole and he drinks that shit away
but its ok, you never needed her no way

prancer (heavn)

alex g treehouse instrumental
song is original though

hey pretty boy 
I wrote a song for you
no pressure 
just had to get these words out 
cause i rock with you more than ever
and i’m a full time stepper so wish me luck please
just wish me luck

tell me when to walk
ring me when you call
standing really tall on a short stack of envelopes

hey its not your fault
gave this shit your all
fell into the mud and stood up with a new brown nose

hey pretty girl
I saved a spot for you
no pressure
I just hope you feel better
eyeing me when I look away
I love the tears stricken on your face 
you’re beautiful to me

feel better soon okay?

mix & coverart coprod @bugs

jot down my thoughts on train rides 
this feels right
i flip my insides outside
now im just fine
babe I forgot the door code 
can you come down
i think i’ll take the high road 
if not now

I got
7 years 
7 fears 
7 heavens
rolled dice
seven levens
yeah 
still servin crack over counters
like “yea its still 30 for a downer”
poisoning the hood I came from 
and everybody mad but I came up
pushing to keep on my lights 

you dont know me you dont know me 
not my woadie
you aint never had to shoot
hurt someone cause different views
then go to church praying on a pew
and dont say that you’re my brodie
cause when I die you will not slide
my life right now feels like a lie
back then was gangsters paradise


and i know this’ll all catch up to me i’m not scared
iron on my hip when you’re not there
racing to the bottom of a bottle 
sleeping in the bedroom with a model
i dont even love her but she swallows 
behind these bars i’m spending my whole life
now I can’t make my lefts right

joyride joyride joyrides

bino w/bugs

unimportance burdens me 
I can’t shake it
can’t move around it
can’t bury it 
I can’t break it
I get scared then you say 
“imagine me naked”
I feel like a smile only lasts for a day
I feel like
everyone talks about me not to me
I feel like 
i’m the only actor in my movie 
I feel like your eyes say what I dont wanna hear but have to know

on stage tonight 
can you come to my show?
would you bet it all on me?
if I fail you go broke?
would you do my coke?
yes of course you would 
cause
why else would I be around I didnt carry goods?
im a solo
i’m a song 
my whole life 
is a no go 
you say jump 
how high 
youd think i’m a pogo
wave me in the sky like a bat or a logo
eyes closed dont cry 
I can’t love you yet 
I love you though

the worlds lowest paid actor

get hit, keep moving

guitar by ttthou
needed to get this the fuck off my chest

home is where the heart is 
until a lie is at the door
and fire eats the floor of a place 
where I slept at
the place where I wept at

iris colored coffee 
getting lunch at wendys 
someone I said brother to alot
damn we just sat around in lots and talked
used to fuck around in class till ya pops got called 
this was our scene so I shot for you
I rocked with you
and what were you supposed to do? 
I feel for you but I just can’t say I understand
though youve always really been the better man
and maybe your motives were above my view
my faith in two
my friends know I dont fuck with you
and fuck you too 
i’ll regret putting these words into the world I know
but i’m putting it words cause thats all I know

utilizing what I learned from you but i’m leaving
I got people that love me for me 
no decieving there 
asking me to put out a song everyweek
ive never felt so accepted in anything

this is all so new to me
and i’m thankful for it
traded our history for my future i’m deciding
that if you try to take it from me 
then you’re an enemy and
we’re fighting

get hit, keep moving

jd

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