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I'm back on my eldest daughter bullshit
Drawn towards broken people like a magnet
Pull out my tool kit
Hammer you back into place
Proficient in tension headaches and white lies
Grind my teeth even at night
Draw lines in the sand
Just to watch them wash away

Want everyone to adore me even though
People's emotions are out of my control
Smothering fires
Letting flames claim my hands
I would do anything to be needed
Over and over again

I'm back on my routine loving bullshit
Pamper myself with meticulous habits
Cling to what I know like a golden safety net
(Ah)
Caffeine and praise like wind in my sails
Trying and failing to quit biting my nails
Keep moving to silence the voices in my head
(Mmm)

Want everyone to adore me even though
People's emotions are out of my control
Smothering fires
Letting flames claim my hands
I would do anything to be needed
Over and over again

Bring me your battled, your bruised, and scarred
Florence Nightingale to your broken hearts
Bring me your bleeding
I'll stitch it up with a bow
Tugging at the sword in the stone
The dormant hero in me is yet to be known
Dying to prove myself again but I don't know how
Wanna lay my weapons down
Lay my weapons down

Want everyone to adore me even though
People's emotions are out of my control
Smothering fires
Letting flames claim my hands
I would do anything to be needed
Over and over again

Eldest Daughter

Lyrics:
I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies
That do not pass the Bechdel test
And that makes me feel
Like I am a bad feminist
But I pirate them
So that makes it better, I guess

I’ve been trying to soul-search
And write more and destress
I’ve been clinging to hope
Like a guard rail, like a life vest
And I’ve been asking everyone,
“How long do you think the ache will last?”
They don’t know yet

Can something be prescribed to me?
I don’t like getting high but there’s
A game of operation in my skull
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

I’ve been losing my balance
My cellphone, and good sleep
I’ve been googling
“The best manifestation techniques”
And I’ve been taking quizzes
Based in pop psychology
And they’re always a letdown
But I’ve never been easy to please

I’m steeping in anxiety
I’m teetering on the tightrope
And I’m waiting for the moment when I’ll fall
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

But I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies

Bechdel Test

Written by Jenna Doe, Alexander Gallimore, Ruben Radlauer, and Hayden Ticehurst
Produced, engineered, and mixed by Ruben Radlauer and Hayden Ticehurst
Mastered by Dan Millice

I think you have a type and it’s not me
You’re really good at following your routine
2 sugars in your coffee every morning
2 girls I know which one you’re choosing

And she’s so sweet bubblegum cherry
And I’m salty might make your gums bleed
I can be your clay I can be your pottery                            
Put your hands on me, mold me how you want me to be

I would do anything if you want me to
Yeah, I’d shapeshift paint me red when I am blue
And I’m shameless cause I’d do anything you ask me to
Yeah, I’d shapeshift for you

I’m stuck in a maze I can’t get out
But for you I think I’d lose myself
I’d change my name if you said you didn’t like the sound
I take the blame the night I showed up at your house
Clean the stain from the blood left on the couch
Call me insane when you kiss me on the mouth

I would do anything if you want me to
Yeah, I’d shapeshift paint me red when I am blue
And I’m shameless cause I’d do anything you ask me to
Yeah, I’d shapeshift for you

Kill anyone if you asked me to
With their blood on my hands, something she would never do
Yeah, my love feels criminal but I’d serve the time for you
I’d do anything for you

So I cut off her smile
Yeah, I pulled out her teeth
If you liked it on her
Would you like it sewn on me
Close your eyes count to three, for a surprise please don’t peek
My new disguise so you like me
Please don’t mind, it’s a little bloody

I would do anything if you want me to
Yeah, I’d shapeshift to your type my gift to you
All these things in my head, got if you only knew
How I’d shapeshift for you

Shapeshift

Nothing

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