I tried to be forgiving of a world that shuts me out
Tells me that I am nothing greater than a look that I dish out
That a number can tell me how my life is working out
I cannot be known from the outside
I cannot be known if I don't play my cards right

I got hurt by the people who claimed to love me best
And I tried to get some love back by giving back the rest
Now I'm nothing but a body that houses all my pain
I cannot be alone on the outside
I cannot be alone when everybody else is lonely, too

Outside

I'm 23 with my eyes all sunken in
I had a bit of my own medicine
Sometimes life tastes pretty bad, don't you think?
But I keep drinkin'- drinkin' till I'm weak

I've been preparing for a real world to find out it don't exist
And I'm living to die trying- trying to figure out the rest

I fell in love, blinded with surprise
And it took me months to clear my eyes
Sometimes young lust looks good, don't you think?
It looks even better after another drink

We danced in the kitchen until our socks wore through
I loved you with a love that eventually ran out, and so did you

I've hurt a lot of people- I've been wounded all the same
Taken so many shots to the heart and we still haven't learned a single thing

jennajackley