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Peaks And Valleys

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Life Is Strange

Original by : FPMORISTUDIO/Francois Pierre Morin

Morning light

As i seek out old & new routes on my e-bike through the windmills of time the landscape always changing it brings on deep thoughts of reflection change & new high's 🤗 .Thanks for listening 😊🙏 artwork is a shot from along the Thames Estuary.Thurrock.

Pensive Pt 2

Gleeful Power

After Lunch

An electronic instrumental composed using the generic synthesisers and sequencers in Garage Band and Logic. No real instruments were used on this one.

© 2023 Dairv Dubbleyew

Chasing the Dream

Here an open collab with my dear Noxpox :
https://soundcloud.com/noxpox13

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Alabaster balloon
With this snake smile in the sky
Garnet growls
An ancient sunset session to the soul
Syntonic 
Certainly syntonic 
Like a Cromlech crusader 
The carbuncle on the tongue
Bunker at the heart
And cosmic claw

Moonstones - NoxPox & Wivresse

The 1st movement of the String Quartet No. 18 "No Silence" (2023-2024).

Pawel Strzelecki: 1. Prelude [String Quartet No. 18 "No Silence" (2024)].

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually, as part of 'Last Call')

Greetings my SC friends. It’s been a strange few months, and I am excited to be back. But I have a feeling it’s not going to look like it did… at least for the near future. I’m having a hard time organizing my thoughts lately. And while the musical energy is flowing better than ever, my ability to write satisfying liner notes is feeling a little clogged (this will be my 6th attempt at this write-up). 

As much as I regret it, the write-ups may need to stay on hold for a while longer. But first, I wanted to share what happened (in the form of a write-up. Lol). 

For starters, it’s important to mention I’ve been an alcoholic since I was 15 (a 40 year relationship). And although I genuinely loved what a nice beer buzz did for my noisy mind, I also knew what toxic alcoholism looked like (from many examples in my extended family). So I knew I had my work cut out for me, if I wanted to overcome my genetic dependancy. 

Granted, I also have a ‘responsibility’ vein that runs deep. I did my best to prioritize my family and responsibilities first (‘don’t drink til 5:00. Don’t drink if ya have to drive’ kinda stuff), and I considered myself a ‘functioning alcoholic’. Truthfully, I was never ashamed of my drinking. As a teenager, the ability to not give a shit that I found in a beer buzz honestly saved my life. And it allowed me to unplug from the noise for many decades after that.

But I wanted to do better than that, so I started making changes quite a while ago. Here’s a brief summary of how that unfolded:

1. Back in 2006 I concluded my negative headspace was the root of the problem (perspective is huge); so I altered my daily routines, knowing it would take years to undo the lifetime of programming that caused that thinking in the first place. I started consuming info that was positive and hopeful and loving (and avoided negative info like my life depended on it… which it did). And I did that intensively for the next 15 years.

2. But by January of 2023, I realized the beer buzz no longer quieted the noise and ugliness happening in the world (it all went too chaotic too fast). So if the crutch wasn't helpful, it needed to go. That’s when I tried Tai Chi (to give my mind something else to focus on). And it worked brilliantly.

3. Over the next 6 months, thanks to the calmer headspace created by Tai Chi, I cut my drinking tremendously (and for perspective, we’re talking 9-18 Natties daily… down to 3-6 Natties daily). The surprise outcome… the fog in my mind was clearing for the first time, and I was not prepared for sober adult Justin (man is my brain chattery when left to it’s own devices). So at the beginning of August 2023, I decided to take my Social Media break. That was more timely than I could have imagined, because…

4. On August 26th I was given the gift of Pancreatitis (the disease that lets you know ‘Wow, Dude. You drink way too much’). I went to the Emergency room with terrible intestinal pain, and I ended up in the hospital for 5 days. Long story short, I left the hospital sober, and have been that way ever since. And I’m genuinely happy about that… because thankfully, I did a great job preparing for that day.

So in a nutshell... I am back. But the writings may have to wait a while longer (at least until I figure out how my new clearer headspace works). Interestingly, I managed to produce almost an entire album of new music over my break, so I'll put those new songs up on SC over the coming weeks. 

And since I’m just a few songs short of completion, I’ll be releasing a very personal album (symbolizing my adventures with sobriety) very soon. It’s called ‘What Color Is Your Paradox?’, and I hope to have it on Bandcamp in February.

In the meantime, I’m happy to be back. And I look forward to seeing what all of you have been up to over the last few months. :)

 Big hugs from your blatantly open-book friend.
-Justin

Paradox?

Last Call

What if the stars
And cars
The oceans and hills
The moon
And houses
Were all just 
beautiful dust
What if all these things 
Had just
Grown too huge for us
Now impositions
Making all the rules
Where once it was said
By you 
By me 
By us
What if the stars and cars
The oceans and hills
The moon and houses
were all just 
Beautiful dust
I love to gaze up high
I love to drive real fast
I love to dive deep in 
And climb up hillsides
I need shelter from storms
And from the night
And i love to watch the moon
Mocking in her flights
What if all these things 
Were only beautiful dust.

Beautiful Dust

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